6:14 PM Friday, August 31, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Ahah! Today my school celebrate teachers day. Lols.
Anyway, arrived to school then went to class.

In the class, some of my class mates was doing up the classroom with balloons, others were busy doing their english projects and others just playing around. Haha. (:

The class bought 2 cakes. Which one of us must pay $3 for the cake.
They actually said or planed to celebrate on Thursday, yesterday in the afternoon.
Since i would not be able to join them yesterday, so i didnt pay for the cake la.
Aku ketinggalan. Hmmph. They celebrate it today!
If i know they didnt change plan i would pay for the cake. Anyway i didnt eat the cake.
Blah.

It was cool when Ms Shawa came in. Haha.
Ermm.. in the class i kept playing on with that Green balloon. Haha. Nothing else to do. -_-
Jie Hao and Kiang Chee was trying to burst my balloon. And that green balloon was the last balloon that survived in the class. HAHAHA. ;D

About 30 minutes later, we all went to the parade square for aces day exercise.
My class wasnt into doing it. =.=
In the parade square, i feel like bursting the balloon uh. Lazy la to hold it. I kinda felt embarrassed holding and playing it. Stupid.
I asked Jie Hao if he want to burst the balloon.
Then he replied "Never mind lah. I dont want lah. You take lah." =.=" HAHAHA.
-sweet! (;

After the exercise, went to hall for the performance.
Hmm.. the performance was so-so. Blueks.
The band performance wasnt really great due to the sound system.
Dum di dum di dum.. time to go home.

While on the walkway walking out from school, i let the balloon fly somewhere. Hehh.

And off i went to Bedok Library.
I dont know whats up with me going to library. Its been 3 times in this week that i went to library. Haha.

Went to the Malay section corner. Lols.
Read comic book in Malay. I NEED laughter !! Hees. :D

Time pass by and i went home later on.
Hmmph.

Umm.. I didnt went back to Primary school. Hees.
For me, im like... Moving on and dont wanna look back upon the past.
The past, to me, was bitter.- though there is an its bitsy bit of sweetness?!
Maybe next year i'll come back. MAYBE.
-i dont care!

I wanna get out of school. Another one year and a few months to get out.
But! Before i do get out of this school.. I wanna ace my O level exams!
O level exams is the most important thing to me now. And its the only thing that is keeping me looking forward to the future.
Ohh and also being Seventeen and starting in a new school. ^^ hees.

Anyway, tomorrow Humanities trail.
Hehh. Looking forward! (;

10:42 PM Thursday, August 30, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Weee...
In the end.. All tests and exams are officially over-well, until next term (;
Haha.

Malay Prelim Paper 2, hmm.. Im not sure what to say. =.=
-ku terdiam terpaku sambil mencebikkan bibir.* =/

Haiz...
Moving on,

After exam.. Went TO Bedok Library.
Yup alone. Hees. Cool (:

Borrowed a book. Named "Citra Cinta"-Antasya. Haha.
Just wanting to read Malay books. Untuk memperluaskan isi perkataan Melayu? -.^
Hahaha.

dum di dum di dum...
I went home later on.

Hmm.. these past 4 days, ive been going home late. Lols.

Tomorrow celebrate Teacher's Day.
Im looking forward to see Bands performing. I hope the audio system is okiee.
Cause that time during Talent time concert, the audio system of the hall was -__-" till cant hear what the singers are singing and the bands are playing. Shits.

& Ohh.. We got back our E. Math test paper on Sine and Cosine rule.
Out of 49 the marks, ive got 41.5 over 49!. Woots.
Cool. That a 85% (i think) and an A1. ^^ hees.
-ermm.. I do notice that ive been writing mostly about my marks and test/exams. Haha.
Its been a long week. Hees.

~`Im missing him. Hu hu.

9:54 PM Wednesday, August 29, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Had Geography Common Test.
Was okiee. Hehh. I ALWAYS says the word "okiee" to describe a test/exam.
Then in the end.. my marks would be 52% to 68%. I guess thats how i defined it. Lols.

In the morning and in the class, i was chiong-ing studying my geog. HAHA.
And my group presented our Geography project presentation today.

These days, have been pretty rushing.
Like rushing to do projects and hw for the datelines to be handed in.
Studying upcoming test.
Worrying and thinking for whats to come. Etc.

Im glad Geography common test is over.
And now, left for me to concentrate on Malay Paper 2.

YEA.. yea.. i know i kept on stressing on and on about getting 'A's for my Malay.
Some may thinks that its no big deal.
But IT IS a BIG DEAL for ME.

Came home late today. As me and Nadiah were doing our English project Journal to be handed in Tomorrow.
Both of us were frustrated doing this Journal at first. Those two other group members are so lousy to be doing this project, our group members couldnt print the papers and a 'choy' to be walking around bedok reservoir searching for shops which print stuffs.
Pheww.. Now its done already. Woots.

Gotta start memorising my Peribahasa. =__=
Hees.

9:51 PM Tuesday, August 28, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Uhh..
I think the most funniest part in school was.. During English lesson.
For English lesson groups are supposed to present their English project.
Its about our beneficiary. Which my group have presented already.

So, the 4 girls (i wont mentioned their names here) presented.
HAHAHA. Their presentation very very funny.
Seriously.
Their beneficiary says all sort of things like..
She founded the Reader Digest. [Which Mrs Phee was like "Huhh? Old people also read 'Reader Digest' huh?]. She was a judge. [=.=" To be a judge would take a long time!] She have a company in New Zealand, Insurance [Umm.. if she have a company, she would be wealthy and wouldn't be staying in the old folks home. Might as well have a personal nurse] etc etc.
Thats what i could remember.

But really.. the beneficiary said lots of things to those 4 girls at which they just write down without thinking and the things the beneficiary says doesnt makes sense.
Mrs Phee says.. Those 4 girls got conned by an elderly woman. HAHA! There was lots of laughters in the class.
My partner critic them by saying they're bimbos even their fonts are colourful and that they just do things without thinking..
Hmm.. I wanna rebut what my partner says. I dont wanna say that their bimbos. For me i think, its their life.. About the colourful fonts because they just like colourful colours. So what!? Hehh. >.<

Okiee so, like about 12.30pm me and Nadiah went out of class to meet Masyita, Quraisyah and Imran.. HMT students! To go to Temasek Sec to take the prelim paper. Hees.
Went to general office and sign the permission to leave form. And off we went there. Yea.. We reach Temasek very early -.- haha.

Ermm.. the hall was cold. Nasib bawa jacket. Haha. Darn.. i dont really like my jacket its colour pink(with the colour of white too) and it just fits my body at which i wanna it to be big so that the jacket covers my hand too. Blahh.

Alright, so the exam started. Malay paper 1. Hmm.. i guess itwas quite okiee lah.
The karangan, typed, "Bapa kamu telah berhenti kerja 3 bulan yang lalu. Gambarkan peristiwa ini dan bagaimana kamu mengatasi masalah ini"-something like that. The 'Gambar' part, i was confuse.
Does it means that i should write down what happens or just think of the situation??

Anyway, I wrote a story about it. Im happy with my first part of my karangan but in the last part.. it is so -___-. Cause its not really organize and my handwriting was getting messier as time goes by and i was running out of time. Hees.
I hope i DID PRETTY well.. Ohh please please!

Part of me says, im ready while another part of me says im not. *sighs*
IF i were to get and 'A' for my Malay, it'll show that im ready for my O level. (:
-im keeping my hopes up. Okiee.

11:50 PM Monday, August 27, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I was super lazy to blog about last week event. Whatever, like it matter.
Though i did write a poem stuffs(kinda-short sentences)-cause i was angry/sad/dissapointed/mixed feelings. Maybe i'll post it some other time -.-

Anyway, school was per-normal.

In the evening like about 6pm, my family was supposed to go to masjid because when maghrib time adalah malam Nisfu Syaaban.
But then we dont want to go masjid, cause we lazy to go. Haha. Boleh negotiate pula! :P
Then in the end we baca kat rumah. Hehh..

Hmm..
Today night is the night of Nisfu Syaaban.

And today,
marks the day of One year And Six Months we've been together! Ho-ho =D
Weee..

& ohh, the previous post, about the things he said.. that he thinks he knew i was angry at him because no matter how much i msg or msn him he didnt replied back...
In fact, after much debating about my feelings,
I WASNT angry at him. Atcually i was more to Dissapointed than angry. Hees (;

Hence TOMORROW i'll be having my Prelim Malay paper 1. HEES.
Wish me luck! (;
Nites.

~`=)<3 :)

9:33 PM Monday, August 20, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Haha. Weee...
So now WE'RE okiee.! ((:
Great. Hees.

Cant help but to say, it was stupid and ridiculous of me to think of such things. Stupid! Baka*!
Should have known that it would not happen-at least not for now.
Should have trusted and be more positive-alright, i was in the 50-65% positive zone. Lols.
Cause this silence have happened before which is due to his busy schedule-its just that, this time its soo long and i cant help it but to wonder. Soriee soriee.

Anyway, there were some stuffs which we talk about.
He said that he is really really busy and couldnt talk much.
And that he said that he knew that im angry for what happened-not replying back etc.
About the messages i sent him, he knew but he just didnt want to reply.
He says that he wanna take time off thats why he didnt replied. But then it just gets worst because he still misses me. Awww... thats sweet! (:
Ohh, and i told him that I wanna be that person who will always be there for him, no matter what. Alhough i dont really know how to, like helping him, still i can be as a listening ear so as to comfort him and let out his feeling to as well as giving advice and encouragement to him. Hehes.
-something like that. (;

The previous post, about what Saiful talk about.
I guess what he said is true.
Like.. If a partner misses his other partner, the latter will also misses him back. And vice-versa.

I find it true.
As, when he didnt message me or talk to me for so long, i began to grew worried and find myself missing him. And the feeling is like, its killing me.
On the other hand,
He too misses me when he did not message me. "I thought of having a time off for myself, but as time went by, it began to worsen..."
Woww... hees. ^^

Im feeling happy and glad.
But, somehow there's a feeling-which i cant really describe it-inside of me, i felt.
And i dont know why. Or maybe its there but never spoken? -.^
*sigh*. I shall just ignore.

~`Everytime i see his name appearing or
things which is related to him,
my heart always did a flip flop.

11:16 PM Sunday, August 19, 2007 back to top?

• Saiful Ariffin have given me this comment..
What he says means a lot.

So i thought of wanting to share it here.
As well as for future references. haha

This is the First Comment :
Posted 17/08/2007 07:15

SOWIE I RPLY SO LATE!!
SOWIE BANGET!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh,sorry about you n adri..
ekh..don't worry kalau dia tk lyn u sangat..
confirm dlm hati dia,dia cintakn u nye..
dia just having a hard time balancing studies dgn relantionship wif u..
(tu sebab i tak pandai belajar sangat..hehe..)
just think positive mcm org tua kat tv slalu cakap..
u just support him in whatever his doing and one day dia realize yg dia perlukn u..
so whatever u do just think positive!!!!
anything or whatever just contact me k!!
chow!!!

This is the Second comment :
Posted 19/08/2007 08:09

question???
HAH!!!!!!
i REmember!!
Soalan nie the only thing i can say is that kalau a guy is feeling happy,his girl will also feel happy and if a guy rasa takde mood,confirm his girl pun tkde mood..basically what i trying to say is there is this kind of connection that every relantionship have to prove that he or she makes the right choice..macam ari tu girl i sakit tak datang sekolah be aleh2 badan i juga start rasa sakit be kena sent home..this is what i called true love,your special someone bonds with you,shared every moment with you..

so sekarang do u feel that bond..??
i will be waiting for your answer..

chow for now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

`End.

Heess... ((;

Love.. this what i feel about love;
Love is like a flower. It blooms when it receives sunlight, water and fertilizer.
But it withers if it doesn't receive these basic things. ((:


10:55 PM back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Didnt go to madrasah today. Wanted to go. But overslept. Haiyaa.. Aiseyy mann..
2 people asked me, Saiful Ariffin and Asyraf, "Kata nak gi. Lepas tu, dia sendiri tak pergi.." -.-" hahaha.. Soriee la..

Then till like 2.30pm i woke up. But it was tuition time and Mr Arul came alreay -.-".
Did A.Math about trigonometry and a lil bit of Physic about wave.

When going home time,
Mum asked Mr Arul, how was Asyura studies..

Mr Arul said that Asyura's works is improving. As in Asyura got 17/25 for her A.Math test.
And in the lesson, asyura is very hard working.
HEHE ^^.

Hmm.. i received an MSN message from Ili just now:
It goes..

`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
asyura..
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
hiee
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
i asked adri just now.
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
yeah..
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
zu told me whether adri silent break with u ke apa..
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
so i asked adri directly.
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
nn he just said no.
like zu said, at least tell you or sumtin..
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
haha..
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
then he said, maybe yes. he don't know.
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
like, telling you on a break up.. hais.
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
cos he said he's too busy.
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
huhh ?
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
wad you mean "then he said, maybe yes. he don't know." ..?
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
like, maybe he's gonna break up with you. he would tell you. if that happens. lah.
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
ouhh.. i see i see..
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
summore...
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
he said he's too busy.. nn that his schedule like siao.
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
hais..
`iLi . ..there's nothing i can do . says:
i'm sorry asyura.
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
ohh .. nvmm.. hees.
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
at least i know we're okiee.. ((:
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
wee..

`hehehe.. Alright, so i know whats going on.
And i know that we're still okiee. ~WEEE..
Thanks a lot Ili. ^^((:

Stupid fool lah me, thinking of the idea of 'it'.
STUPID! STUPID! STUPID! *Groans*

Then after a few minutes, ADRI message me in MSN.
It goes;

. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
hey
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
i have to talk to you soon
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
can message me at around 1 plus
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
hiee.
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
cant talk now parents are home
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
yeahh okiee.
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
talk to you soon
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
message your handphone ?
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
yeah
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
okiee..
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
talk to you soon. :)
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
gtg'
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
byee
~`*asyura. ;; tra.. la.. lala.. says:
haha..
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
im in my parents room
. adri . breakdown ˇ.[f|uⓞяξsçεИcз].[öAç].[αⒹя|].[sξå].ˇ ™ says:
later okay :)

`Hehh.. i have no idea.
I hope everything goes well later on.

Alright, so it was stupid of me to think of 'it'. Stupid thought!!
Arghh. I regret thinking of it.
Blahh..

~`I'll wait patiently for whats to come in the future.
Dear Love,
Im sorriee for thinking of such stupid thing.

11:58 PM Saturday, August 18, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Today was great! Haha. Wee...
There's two part in today. One is in the morning time. Another in the night time.
Wahahaha.

The first part; Happened in the morning.

Alright, so today went to bengkel zakat at Masjid Al-Ansar at Bedok.

Ustazah was the one who said that 4 of us in our class are to participate in it, 2 weeks ago i think.
Hehh hehh.
So at first, i dont want to go since i lazy. So i beri alasan saying that i tak boleh pergi lah.
Ustazah minta Aqilah to go. And ask some other poeple if they can go or not. Then Liyana kata dia boleh pergi. So left 2 more people to choose. Then i kata to ustazah "Annisaa.. Annisaa..". And i pujuk Annisaa to go for the bengkel. Anyway, if Annisaa pergi then i also pergi. Haha.
Since Annisaa agreed to go, then i volunteered myself to go to the bengkel too.
In the end, me, Annisaa, Liyana & Aqilah went for the Bengkel mewakili sebagai Masjid Kassim. Haha.

The bengkel starts at 9 atcually. Me and Annisaa was late. Liyana that time dah sampai dulu. Hehh. Annisaa said to me to wait for her outside the Masjid, since she scared to go inside alone. So i waited for her lah. In the end me, Annisaa and Liyana jumpa at staircase Masjid Ansar near the traffic light. Thought of waiting for Aqilah but then she betulnyer lambat so we masuk dalam the bilik dulu. Hehh. We took our attendance then go in. Then Aqilah datang..

The acara supposed to start at 9. But pukul 9 masih banyak orang belum lagi sampai. So tunggu tunggu tunggulah. Haha. Macam pukul 9.45 baru start. At there ada lain-lain kumpulan from other masjid. Hees.

There was Nabil, Nabihah's brother mewakili Masjid Ghufran. Dah lama tak jumpa dengan dengar berita dia. Lols. There were two guys from Damai-Aminuddin and Khairul. I dont know if those two notice me or not.
Ohh, there's this guy who looks a bit like chinese tapi melayu lah. He looks familiar, im not sure lah. I think he also from Damai. Anyway, i was sitting down and looking and staring at him intently. At that time he was walking towards this ustazah. He noticed that i was looking at him. As while he was walking towards her, his eyes was looking at me too. HAHAHA! ;D Blueks.

The bengkel ialah tentang kesedaran zakat dan tanggungjawab kita sebagai seorang Islam. Bagaimana hendak kira membayar untuk zakat etc.

So acara bermula. Ustaz ini cakap pasal Zakat. Lepas tu kul 11 we all go makan for break.
Lepas break ustaz itu beritahu macam mana hendak kira zakat.

Then after he finish there is a quiz. Quiz part one was like a test lah. Kasi paper tulis kalau jawapan a, b, c, and d. And written work lah. Kalau tak salah paper work kita, kita dapat 45 marks arh.. hehh.

Quiz part 2 was one of us in every groups to go infront to answer the 2 question ask. One question 5 marks. Kalau tulis tapi answer salah minus 5 marks. Kalau tak tulis tak minus marks.

First, Aqilah pergi. The first question she didnt put anything so tak minus mark. The second question she got 2.5 marks kalau tak salah lah.
Then Annisaa keluar ke depan. She got both answer correct. So ten marks for our team. Woohoo.
Then suppose the other two of us, me and liyana keluar. But the person said tak. Haha.
Now, quiz dalam group lah.

We answered the question together and all. Haha.
Dum di dum di dum..
Quiz ends.

And in the end, untuk kumpulan yang menang dalam quiz ni dapat hadiah lah.
Guess siapa juaranya ?? haha.
-MASJID KASSIM!!!
~wooots ^^.

Abeh when ambil hadiahnya part, satu orang dalam group kena keluar untul ambil.
So i keluar pergi ambil. I take the certificate for participation and the hadiah. And then take piture bersebelahan dengan tetamu dari Muis itu lah. haha. Then went back to sit. ~woots.
So cool. ^^. Im soo proud. :D

Acara nak dekat habis. Setiap kumpulan kena ambil gambar. After all finish then ambil gambar secara seluruh kumpulan dan peserta yang ada. Hehe.

Lepas tu, dah balik. Kita orang pergi bagi bagi hadiah yang kita dapat itu. The hadiah was okiee lah. But the most i liek was $5 voucher of popular. Weee..
Then go home.

Very cool lah! Masjid Kassim menang against all the other masjid. Yayyy.. ^^.

P.S; Today is DAD'S BIRTHDAY! (:

And in the night:

Parents, Hakim and me prayed Maghrib together. Then baca surah Yasin for Datuk yang telah meninggal.
Elder sister called, and want to belanja dad for makan.

So we all, parents, hakim and me went to Ronald's place at City Plaza. We ate at Ronald.
4-5 people(i mean us) at the whole spring chicken. Mum didnt eat much of the chicken. The most contributed people who ate the chicken was me, sister(Kakak Asiah), Hakim and Ayahanda(dad).

After finished, sister wanted to drink teh tarik. So headed to Ali Cafe. But then we changed our mind, we went to the shop opposite to Ali Cafe, near the Hotel 81.

After drinking.. We went home.
Said goodbye to sister and Azzahrah, niece.
Then I suruh Ayahanda untuk kita orang balik naik taxi. Haha. i malas want to naik bas and jalan kaki to rumah, thats why. I was the one who is standing, waiting and flagging for the taxi. While the rest was sitting at the bus stop waiting for the bus 21 to come.
HAH! After so long waited for the taxi then the taxi came.

Go home naik taxi. Yayy... ((:

Hmm..
P.SS: While on the way, walking to Ali Cafe, me and Sister got talk abit.

She asked me,
Sister: How are you and your friend going on ?
Me: huhh ?
Sister: You and your boyfriend lah.
Me: Hmm.. we're not talking.. haiz.. dont know why..
Sister: I find it ridiculous if youre in a relationship but not talking.
Me: Hmm.. Entahlah eh.. somehow i find it silent break. But i dont know. Maybe he's just too busy or something..
Sister: Or maybe he have another girlfriend already or dunnoe how to say it to you about breaking up.. I feel so sorry for you.
Me: Ahh.. nvm lah. Hehh.
Sister: You're strong Asyura.

HEHH.. =__="

I WILL BE STRONG. ((:

9:40 PM Friday, August 17, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I realized everytime i post, its really long. Hahaha. Blueks. :P
Bear with it.

Okiee, I'll write some interesting happen the past dew days and todays.

On Wednesday:
I had my Social Studies Common Test, after school. Ermm.. it was okiee lah. SBQ question was totally easy. SEQ, was so-so. Haha. Please let me score very well!. Lols.

After SS, went to HMT. Teacher gave us narrative essay for us to do.
When HMT finish, went to Bedok Library. Again. Wanted to search for my favourite authors but it wasnt there. So I decided to borrow malay books! Haha.
Borrowed two malay books. Then went home. (;

Ermm today/Friday:
I got back my Social Studies test paper. Got 10/13. MUAHAHA ;D
When i first got the paper, i kinda shriek!! haha. Was totally surprise. Lols. Cant stop smiling during S.S period. Haha.

Got back A. Math test paper too. Got 17/25. God damn it! Another half more marks can get A2. Blerghh.. Anyway, its an improvement. So well done. ^^

After A. Math extra lesson had Choir. Choir, people was very Sian. -__-. Went choir finished, i went back home.
To pray and change to meet Nadiah at Tampines Library.
Went to Tampines Library to do our English project.

Supposedly was to meet at 4.30pm. Then changed time at 5pm. But then both of us reach Tampines interchange around 5.30pm.

In library, found a seat.
Well.. the place is level 1, whereby people cant see us clearly. Away from people eyes.
Its where, i can consider it as my favourite spot to do things without the eyes of other people seeing me.
I dont know about Nadiah lah. She have once told me that she dont really like seating down on the floor as she cant concentrate well.

So about 7.45pm finished writing the English project, essay. Then went to toilet and head out to McDonald. Haha. I dont need to fork out any money as i provoke Nadiah to give me $1. HAHAHA. Tak baik Asyura :P . Soriee Nadiah. With $1 i bought apple pie.
After eating, we went our separate ways and headed home.

Hees.. thats all.

8:40 PM Monday, August 13, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Nothing much happened today. Hehh -__-
Umm.. A.Math test was canceled. Because Mr Poon didnt come today.
Woots -.-.

Ohh, today is the giving out of O level Mother Tongue marks.
Teacher said, pelajar memuaskan. Kerana ada kemajuan. Percentage of last year and this year increase la..

Move on..
After school, went to Higher Mother Tongue class.
Buat peribahasa. Hehh.

After HMT finish went to Bedok Library.
Because bus number 14 havent yet come so i took 229 goes to interchange.
So while reach interchange thought if going to Bedok Library la.

I was searching for English books of my favourite authors.
While finding, sekali terjumpa buka melayu.
Buku melayu itu berjudul "Cinta Gonie".

Hehe.

I need and i must read malay books. Untuk mempertingkatkan dan meluaskan bahasa Mekayu saya. Semoga saya dapat A1 atau A2 dalam bahasa Melayu kertas peperiksaan peringkat O.
Insyaallah. ((:

Till now im still debating what grades i probably will get for my Malay O level.
I MUST & NEED NEED an A !
Kalau kata nak A1, rasa-rasanya macam tidak boleh dicapai.
Kalau kata nak A2, rasa-rasa Mungkin boleh.
Haiyooo.. =__=

Okiee, the thing is, Asyura kena aim high high.
KENA DAPAT A1 lah!
Kalau tak dapat A1, nanti jatuh ke A2 pun bAgus. Alhamdullillah.
Tapi nanti kalau aim kepada A2, takut takut jatuh ke grade lain amacam ? -.^
haha.

So.. A1 ! A1 ! hehe. ^^
Pleasee.. Aku berdoa untuk dapat Distinction.

9:43 PM Sunday, August 12, 2007 back to top?

•


Herani says that she is silent break with her bf(which she said, she tak suka dia).


Reasons? I cant help gaga-ing and looking at the two cute kembar guys-Anthony & Alfa/Tiupan.
lols ;D But sometimes, some parts are boring -.-".

Nothing much happen later on.
Ohh, Zunairah got message me in the night.
She said next Sunday have Majlis makan malam, sort of like keramaian.
Im going if Zunairah and Herani going. lols. Ada members per.. (;

Hmm,
~Dear Love,
If its gonna end this way, i pleed you.
Please dont. It killing me inside. =/


5:54 PM Friday, August 10, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I didnt mention in my last post about me participating in National Day Parade.
It was 2 years ago when i was in sec 1, that was in 2004.
I was in cca, choir, so we get to join NDP. Well, NDP was held in Padang.

Ermm, i do make new friends there. But now we're not in contact anymore;
Maklum lah.. one night stand, katakan. Haha.
Somehow my life that time, as in my relationship with others, was a suck-hole. Yup.
The choir members doesnt like me. They treat me as if i wasnt there, treat me as if i was somekind of a freak/alien.-A feeling i felt from them. O.O*roll eyes*
-Im glad the seniors have already stand down and get out already. Bloody HAHA! -this just my view. Blueks.

Anyway, get to see upclose with Taufik Batisah and seeing beautiful fireworks. :D
Eventhough the journey was bitter-sweet, ive stil made it through. No regrets about participating in NDP. Why ? Because we got free stuffs. Furthermore, I got 20 HOURS CIP! ~WOOHOO.

Alright, so today.. I puasa again and nothing really great happen.
Didnt study or do things constructively. Haizz.. *sigh*. I know, i know.

Im still debating about whether i'll let people views my blog. Hehh.
Coz this is my diary, its meant to be a secret. This is where i wrote all the things which happens in my life, my opinions on things and letting out my feelings to. In this diary, i shall write in stuffs about me, secrets which i kept and write about whatever i want whether its bad or good stuffs.

Also, this diary, will help me in improving my composition in English and Malay, in terms of organizational and freestyle writing skills. Haha. Like killing two birds with one stone! ~woots.
Thus, if i were to let, somehow people know and read this blog, i must a lil bit extra careful not to hurt peoples feeling and letting people know the other side of me which i kept hidden.
But still, with people reading my blog, it makes me more motivated to write in this diary as well as there'll be comments and people understand/knows more about me.
Hmm.. maybe i'll give my blog Url, to those who i can trust more. Heh. :P
Im finding on how i can make this blog as private. Hehh. So that uninvited visitors wont read my blog. =.="

Roll over to today. So i was trying to sign up on being a member to get tagboard for my blog.
When signing up, i kinda not tell the truth about me. Like my email, url for my blog etc.
Haha. Because im scared that they'll pin point me(something like that)..
Though now im feeling guilty and regretted of doing it.
After signing up and log in to the web, i search for the delete account. But couldnt find the delete account button. Haiyoo..
Then with the help of my lil bro advise he say, dont need lah to delete account. Just use it lah! "Hakim pun dah pernah buat begitu.." Haik! Tak jujur. Hmmph.
Aiya.. main shoot ajer lah, asyura! (; lols.

I will put up a tagboard for my blog sooner or later on or a few days later, if i feel like it.
Though i dont think that, as if people will tag since now my blog, no ONE is reading it-except for me. -___- Unless it was me who go and write inside the tagboard using different names. Haha. Lame-o.

Ohh, stupid computer.. LAG LAG LAG!! Grr..
And the Internet Explorer XP .. CRAZY!
Nasib ada Mozilla Firefox to use. Haha. :DD

If only i have a laptop of my own. Hua hua hua.. ^^.
-wait long long ehh. Pfft.

Ohh, about the headphone i did post on my blog, i guess dont need to pay back for breaking bro/abang's headphone. Haha. And also dont need to tell him the truth too. Why? He bought a new headphone already. *roll eyes* & dalam hati berkata; Dia kaya, tak payah nak belikan untuk dia. Blueks ;P

Speaking of new things, sister got buy new handphone. Its a PDA by the way. Cool! Very, small, nice and sleek. I ask her how much she buy. She said that its secondhand as she bought it from her friend for $100. Woww! And she said, "Asyura, tak nak beli?". Then i said, mahalkan..
She replied no. She said at Sim Lim Square got sell for $200. Whoaa.. so cheap.
See first la, if i'll buy..

But right now, im contented with my PINK Motorola Handphone v3.
Which i bought it for.. $30, secondhand. HAHA.
From big brother. La.. la.. la.. ^^.
-its a long story. Actually he mintak $100/$150(i think $100). Then in the end he gave me back my money and keeping $30. ~Weeeee. Thank you for your generosity!

Umm.. I have to pay back about 16 hours of studying.
Since yesterday and today, i didnt study or do my homework. Wahh piang! -.-
-Insyaallah. Heh hehh hehhh.

Gonna and must and need to do hw and revise.
If not, parent will keep on yapping on me. Lols. :D

6:16 PM Thursday, August 9, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Its National Day today! ~wooots!
though somehow i dont care and not in the mood of National Day. Seriously.
Whatever. Blueks :P

Okiee.. So today, i bayar puasa, nothing much happen actually and i woke up very late. I woke up already around 10am then sleep again. Woke up around 12pm and then sleep again. And then woke around 2.30pm then... bath. Haha. After that, pray and watch tv. Errmm.. I watch Anugerah Planet Muzik at Saluran Suria and after the show finish, still i continued watching the next show.

Ermm today post is mostly about the movie! Haha..
Dont groan. ;D

Let me tell you about the next show.. Its a movie actually.
It is called 'Pesona Non Grata'. I dont know what it meant. But i know that it is in Thailand, if im not wrong.

The show, 'Pesona Non Grata'..
One word; Awww!!! -if thats a word -.-"
Yup yup. Very nice, sweet and touching the show. A good show!
Makes me cry watching the show. Aww... *sob sob & sniff sniff* ;P

The show starring Erra Fazira(as Hey & Syah) and Hans Isaac (as Ben).

WAIT! Whats that country place whereby peoples' house if wanna go there must take boat ? No, its not an English place. Its in Asia i mean. And people there when say thank you, they put their hand together.
Aiya... i think its Bangkok.. Right right? Move on..

Anyway, Syah was in Bangkok. She loses her memory there when a car knocked her down, but she wasnt injured, no blood. Then, inside the car was Ben and his friend Allan. They're the ones who accidentally knocked her down. They're not sure if Syah was dead as her face was lying down on the ground. So they decided to leave her there, alone. While walking, Syah started to turn around. And both guys noticed she's alive. Hence, Ben decided to 'scoop'/carry her to to Allan place until Syah gain conscious.
In Allan's house, Ben woke up Syah saying "Hey.. hey.. hey.. Miss.. hey.. hey..", Syah starting to regain conscious.

*p.s i'll skip some parts, those which is unimportant/boring*.

Anyway, the next day Ben and Syah went around some place to help Syah remember who she is. Syah found a shop which sells art stuffs like brush, colour paints and drawing pad etc. And Ben bought for her that. In Ben's home, Syah started to paint.. And her drawing was great, its as if she have a talent for it.

Dum di dum di dum.. Cinta antara mereka berdua mula berputik. ^^ ~wee witt.

Ben's background. ; Ben's work as an underground society(i think). He was originally from Malaysia but somehow he's in Bangkok. He wants to go back to Malaysia but he cant.. due to some society rule meaning if you crossed them, they'll kill you(something like that). He still believes in 'Keadilan' and the phrase 'Life will lead the way'.
With Syah coming into his life and falling for her, he felt an urged to break free and to start a new.

One day, a guy named Edward datang rumah Ben untuk melihat lukisan Syah. Dia kagum dengan lukisannya itu. Dia seorang art person who pergi merata dunia/tempat untuk mempromosi lukisan seni artis(young talent). Kalau lukisan Syah disukai banyak orang, Syah dapat duit dan boleh balik Malaysia. Syah memperkenalkan dirinya bahawa nama dia ialah "Hey". Apabila Edward keluar dari situ, Ben tanya Syah bagaimana dia dapat nama begitu.
Syah menjawab, "Daripada mulanya perkataan yang saya dengar".. "Hey.. hey.. hey.. Miss.. hey.. hey..".. haha. Mereka ketawa sambil tersenyum.
*skip*

Ben baru balik dari kerjanya dan basah kerana hujan. Syah sedang melukis.. dan apabila Ben masuk rumah, she turn behind. And says "Awak basah..", then she stood up open up his jacket.
Ben lalu memperkenalkan dirinya kepada Syah bahawa nama dia ialah Ben.
Syah tanya Ben kalau lukisannya cantik. Dan Syah jawab "Tak.." ...
"Kerana.. awak lebih cantik dari lukisan itu." Sweet! haha. Then Ben jalan keluar rumah dia-i forgot why, and Syah ikut dia. Mereka berdua berada di dalam hujan. Basah kuyup. Syah tanya Ben "Awak tak sejuk ke di bawah hujan ni?" Ben,"Tak. Saya dah biasa dari kecil lagi" Syah,"Ohh.. Saya sejuk sekarang.." sambil memberi Ben melihat bahawa tangannya menggeletar. Ben pula memegang tangan Syah supaya tidak kesejukan. Ben sebenarnya takut akan Syah meninggalkannya..{dot dot}.
Hari esoknya, Syah ada dapat 'cold' kerana hujan semalam. Then Ben lihat, lalu masakkanya makanan dan buatnya air teh panas. She ate and drink. Terharu Syah oleh apa yang Ben buat untuknya.
*skip*

Syah, Ben dan Allan sedang makan. Allan kata kepada Syah kalau Syah betul betul hendak balik. Tiada sesiapa dapat berubah fikiran Syah untuk balik Malaysia. Setelah makan, Syah dan Ben pun pulang rumah.
Syah menghulurkan tangannya kepada Ben untuk Ben memimpin/pegang. Ben pula memegang tangannya.
Dalam perjalanan dua orang perempuan jumpa Ben dan one of them pegang Bennya muka/pipi. -macam menggatal lah. Ben pula macam layankan mereka. Lalu Syah lepaskan tangan Ben lalu sepak muka Ben(tak kuat lah.. haha :D).
Syah action marah lalu ketawa dan buat apa perempuan tu buat macam pegang pipinya dan action ikut jalan perempuan itu. Both of them pun ketawa. And they chase after each other. While on a nearby road, both was opposite to each other and staring at each other.
Ben hug Syah kuat dan berkata "Aku bermimpi.." "Kalau ini mimpi apakah kesudahannya?". Syah menjawab "Awak akan datang selamatkan saya.." "Dari sakit kesejukan(cold)". Haha, both smiled.
Ben: "Awak tak takut ke kalau sakit nanti?"
Syah: "Awak akan jaga saya kan?.." sambil tersenyum. (:
Lalu Ben, 'scoop'/carry Syah pulang ke rumah.
*smile smile, cute lah ni!*

Edward ada mengundang Ben dan Syah ke Galeri pameran pada hari yang ditetapkan.
Malam pameran itu, Ben memberi duit kepada Syah untuk beli baju. Esok harinya, Ben kean pergi kerja lalu dia pun berkata kepada Syah, "Kadang kala ia sesuatu yang bagus untuk tidak dapat tahu tentang masa lalu kita". Syah, "Kalau saya tidak tahu bagaimana saya hendak mengharungi hidup saya"(something like that) Ben menjawab "Life will lead the way" lalu mengedar dari situ.

Syah kemudian pergi keluar untuk mencari baju untuk pameran.. tetapi akhrinya dia tidak membelinya. Kerana tentang jawapan Ben. Dan sebab itu, Syah tidak pergi ke pameran itu.
Ben kemudian malam itu dia tidak balik rumah kerana ada kerja. Kerjanya ialah (mungkin rompak kereta. Asyura tak tahu kerana dia dengan Allan sedang berdiri luar kedai kereta). Apabila masanya untuk mula membuat kerja mereka, Ben akhirnya back out dari situ. Dia hendak berhenti kerja ini. Allan mukanya tidak marah, dia bagaikan sudah expected. Ben tahu apa kejadiannya kalau dia menginkar/double cross then. ..
Ben pergi pulang ke rumah sambil membawa 2 makanan yang dibeli olehnya untuk dia dan Syah. Sewaktu perjalanan, datangnya gang.. Gang itu datang dengan tujuan untuk membunuh Ben.
Ben pula dibunuh oleh sebilah pisau. Apabila tiba paginya, Ben berada di luar rumahnya. Syah terkejut lalu membuatnya baik(pergi megilap lukanya etc). Lalu dengan cepatnya, dia keluar rumah untuk..(mungkin beli medicine). Apabila dia sedang berlari.. dia nyaris nyaris dilanggar oleh sebuah kereta. Apabila dia nyaris dilanggar kereta, Syah mula regain memorinya. Dia ingat siapa yang melanggarnya dan bagaimana dia dilanggar(She was running due to a taxi driver chasing her, out of nowhere she was knocked down by Ben and Allan. Allan was driving btw. Thats a surprise!) Ohh, then Syah pulang rumah, she sent Ben somewhere by taxi dan ikutnya ke luar.
Ben berkata kepada Syah dalam kesakitan "Hey.. Hey.. Mana dia orang berdua hendak mengambil saya?.. Hey.. Hey.. Hey.. Mana dia orang berdua hendak mengambil saya?".. Tetapi Syah tidak berkata apa apa. Dia masih shock dan sedang menangis.
Lalu Syah beredar dari situ dan pulang ke rumah.

*Dalam perjalanan, apabila berhenti lampu trafik, Ben escape dari taxi itu lalu pergi ke rumah Allan dalam kecederaannya itu. Di rumah Allan, Ben memanggil Allan.
Ben: "Allan.. Allan.. tolong.. tolong aku. Aku cedera. Allan, aku rasa Hey sudah ingat semula ingatannya. Tetapi aku tak tau kalau dia ingat semuanya atau tidak. Allan aku kena beritahunya. Allan.. Bawa aku jumpa Hey.. Allan".
Tetapi, Allan tidak menjawab. Allan sudah mati kerana telah mengambil banyak banyak pil untuk bunuh dirinya. Di atas katilnya terdapat taburan-taburan duit....

*Di rumah, terdapat dua orang sedang menunggunya. Satu dari antara mereka adalah Edward dan lagi satu ialah 'Ai'em'(i think so). Edward berkata bahawa Aiem ingin berjumpa dengan Syah.
"Syah, kenapa awak disini..?". Ai'em sebenarnya adalah kawan baik Syah. A'iem dapat tahu bahawa Syah hilang ingatan. Justeru, Ai'em membawanya balik ke Malaysia. Syah masih buntu dengan apa yang telah terjadi ke atasnya.

Tiba di Malaysia, rumah Syah besar dan berdepan dengan Petronas Tower/KLCC(that building! I forgot whats its name. The 2 towers link together). Note that, Syah is rich. By the way, Syah found out that she is already engaged to Sam(Shamsul).
*skip*

Suatu hari, apabila Syah sedang berada di swimming pool rumahnya, dia sedang duduk di kerusi dan sedang membacam majalah.. Syah turn on a page and in that page was a woman's photo and an article about that woman.

Syah started to regain her memories perfectly well. She now knew why she went to Thailand. She went to Thailand to escape on what she sees. Scenario; Syah went into Sam's house. And there was noises inside the toilet. Then Syah open up the door to the toilet.. And found out that, That woman(in the article) was bathing with Sam. Meaning Sam timer with Syah lah. She sure was shocked and thats why she went to Thailand(probably to calm her/out of the blue).
Then she regains back her memories, when she was knocked down the two guys thought of leaving her alone there and then one of the guy who is Ben turned around and brings her back home. And memories of Ben and Syah flooded her mind. Now she knew all.
She cries.
*sob sob*

Following on, Syah and Ai'em went to Thailand to find Ben. She search at Ben's house but the house was close and nobody was inside the house. She then went to Allan's house. At Allan's place, Allan wasnt there and there was an old women who told in Thailand with actions, an action of knife stabbing the person body. Syah knew, that Ben was dead already. She cries and cries.

One month pass. And its time for Syah to move on. So that day, Syah threw 2 boxes of tea towards the river/sea, which the tea reminds her of the first time Ben gave her tea. And that at first she doesnt like hot tea but with Ben now she likes it.(Alright, this memories of tea, is kinda lame but if you know the story then it wont).

Time passes by. But still Syah was still hoping that Ben isnt dead and that she wants to see Ben once again.
Ai'em and Syah was in a car. And then Ai'em accidentally knocked down a person,(he didnt bleed). Both went out of the car. Syah looked at the papers/painting flying on the ground. She picked it up and then went to look at the guy laying. At first the guy, he resembles Ben with his hair, but that wasnt the real Ben.
Came in, across the crowds of people looking at the guy laying.. was a guy looking and holding at a painting. Syah look across where she was from.
That guy! That guy looks really familiar. That guy resembles... Syah went towards the guy. She holds the painting on the one side and then both Syah and the guy looks up, staring at each other in the face.

It was.. Ben! He wasnt dead. Both stood up.
Syah: "Maafkan saya.."
Syah then hug Ben tightly. And Ben did the same thing.
Syah told Ben those three letter words to him.
"I love you."
Ben replied the same words to her..
Ben: Aku bermimpi?
Syah: Ya, mimpi ini ialah untuk selama-lamanya...

Syah found Ben at last. Ben who is her true love. The Ben who didnt leave her alone laying there on the ground, Ben who carries her home and Ben who she holds so much memories and is fond of.

Tada... End.

Hence a new chapter and a new beginning began to unfold....
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Haha. Long post lah this one. Lols. The movie was fun and really touching.
A must watch ! Gahh.. i love this kind of movie and ending!. Wahaha. :D

~`Kalau ini sebenarnya mimpi, Ku tidak mahu bangun darinya.
Ku mahu masih disini. Tidak mahu mimpi ini berakhir. (:

12:52 PM Wednesday, August 8, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

It seems that it did not rain today, i mean in the morning. Thus cross country was not canceled. Looks like i didnt make it to the top ten B division. Hah! Fat hope! Gahhh.. At first, I and Rebecca running together and that we want to get in the top ten. Then then, while running with her, at first i was doing okiee and was running constantly then bit by bit i started to slow down,down down down. Hmmph. I did run with my mp3. Haha!
Ohh while i was running, i saw Mr Cho running opposite infront of me. Meaning he's running clockwise direction while i was running anticlockwise direction. Anyway, we saw each other at which at that time i was running with my mp3, then its like we saw each other like alien. Usually/everytime there's this awkwardness going on between us. He's a great teacher, funny too and i respect him alot. He's a great mind! lols.

Okiee, so i've completed running around the Bedok Reservoir.
I walk, run, jog while admiring the beauty of nature as well as feeling & taking in the nice breeze. ^^. Nice.

After we all are dismiss, me and Nadiah went to Sheng Siong to buy things and then to Long John Silver to eat. In the bus 22, we talk talk lah. Found out things about her. Like her family, peoples thoughts/views of her being emo which she is not-its just that she looks like it, and the stuffs that she cries about.
Hmm.. kinda sad lah her story.
Reach Long John Silver looks like we reach Long John silver during breakfast period. So we got toilet to pass time for another 30 minutes to 11am. Then talk talk and walk walk around Century Square.
We told each other things which we cry about.
For her she said, she's not a person who cry cry. Its just that sometimes she have small problems then it adds up to a bigger bundle and then when she cant take it, she cries lah.
And i told her about me, reasons why i cry. I cry due to, unfairness, sad things her for an example; Like my lil brother that time he kacau my niece till she cry and then i gave him warning that if he dont stop it i'll slap his face. But then he didnt heeded my warning and i slap him lah. And he retort back beating me up. So i hit him back but still i couldnt hit him back since he had defended himself well. Hence what makes me angry was that he was fighting/beating me real damn hard while i didnt beat him damn hard for which im weak in the battle. So feeling mad, unfairness and self-pity about this matter, i started to cry la.. hmmph.
Alright so after going through century square toilet we walk around and went in Aries shop. Around 11am we went to Long John Silver back. Its crowded man and long queue! O.o But service was really good. ^^.

So we ordered our food, sat down and eat. And we talk summore.
Ohh in the conversation i ask her, "What do you think about me. Tell the truth"..
And she said that im okiee lah. And i ask her about me, my bad stuffs.
She replied that i kinda like.. not discipline-i guess its due to me always coming late when meeting at a certain time. She said "Sometimes in life, eventhough you want that thing, You've just couldnt get it..". For example, that time during recess time, Hannah brought pizza. And i want the pizza and ask her. Then i ask the people and they shove shove the answer to another people. Meaning, takkan people want to say No, right? Ohh and she said that, she dont like people to ask her buy things. Like when we're going out looking at things, sometime i tell her "Eh, you buy for me lah.. this one.." Blah! For which i replied to her that i wast only main-main about it. Since she always say/annoying says "Asyura, i buy for you this one okiee.." but then she didnt buy it.-I know that she's playing/joking around, same goes for me too, which i tell her that.

Anway, while she says the bad things bout me, it just make me more sad. Serious. I think my face was like distant, small eyes, lips tight and looks like crying the type.
I admit, i was really really hit by what she said.
In my mind, the things that i do... I doesnt mean to hurt people.
Sometimes no matter what i do eventhough directly or indirectly, i ended up hurting people.
*sigh* =/

And then she asked me what i think about her. And i told her what i think lah.

So after telling we kept quiet for awhile.
I told her, "Im glad we have this talk. Thanks for telling honestly (:".
She answered, "Yea.. Me too. For me i like straight-forward people. Its not good right, like i angry at you and you angry at me and we both dont know we angry of each other. heh." I agree.

Finish eating, we went to Tampines interchange to go home. For her, she didnt take the 67 bus but she took bus number 25(i think). I ask her why. She said that she wants to talk long long bus rides. I understand what she meant. I did that sometimes. Hehh.

Till now, im still hurt by what she said. Though im glad that she tells me honestly eventhough it hurts. This is what you call a good friend (;
And i thanks God for letting me have a friend like Nadiah.
*smiles* ((:


Ohh, i got send Saiful Ariffin a long msg to him today at friendster. Haha. Super long lah. About something something.. :D

Tommorrow is National Day.
And i'll to take this opportunity to wish Singapore a..
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" ^^. ~woots.

10:45 PM Tuesday, August 7, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Alright, so in school somewhere in coming to school and assembly time.. I tried being happy. As in i tried to smile and make a happy face. Ive realised that i look unapproachable, not radiant and looks like this: -___- ,if i do not smile. Haha. Yea.. i kinda looked stoink, if that is the correct word i think. Blahh.

Had Geography test today. A word about it is "whatever" -.-" . Pfft. I think i can pass. I wish and i hope so. Hmm... Oh and during Geography class we're suppose to go to comp lab. I was sitting near the window. And somewhere infront of me i can see the teacher's table. Then Miss Shawa was sitting at the teacher's table place and i saw her kinda looking/checking/marking papers. And then she was looking at me o.o. So in my mind, im not sure what she's thinking of. Either she was looking at me because of my Geography test mark which probably she have already mark mine, or since im sitting near the window she was looking outside the window seeing student walking, or she was just looking at my direction. Hmm.. If she was looking at me because of my mark, that means she's disappointed that i did not do well on her test or she was dissapointed that i said that i will buck up in my studies- at which im not really doing it just going through(kinda) my books or even both. Gahh..
Pleasee pleasee, i want and i need to pass my test!

Teachers are giving us lots of hw this week. Grrr... Reason? We have about 4 days of no school(including wednesday-half day, thursday-National Day and weekends). Feeling relief. (:

Tomorrow is eve of National Day-9 August. And all Damaians have cross-country race tomorrow. Ahh.. Sian! Part of me wish that tomorrow will rain so that cross-country is cancel. Another part of me says that if cross-country is cancel, there wont be 1 leap point given to us if we didnt participate. Ohh if tomorrow we're gonna run, then i shall bring along my mp3 to run with. HAHA! Isnt that cool? I wanna be the top ten girl to run the fastest in the B girls division, but im not sure if i can make it. Hmm.. Last year cross country was canceled due to raining. Lets see if tomorrow is gonna rain as well. HAHA! :P

National Day is approaching.
And it reminds me of the past, last year. Seeing Fireworks with that special someone:) and stupidity of not stopping at that particular bus stop in order to change bus to meet that special someone at Eunos MRT before going to Marina Bay.
Pfft, thinking about that stupidity makes me more EMBARASS to recall it.
Although the part of meeting that special someone was sweet, making my heart beat faster and an enjoyable night out ~WEEE.. ((;
Hehh hehh hehh.
Anyway, shall blog about this summore when that day comes. '_^ *winks*.

~`& we're still not talking. And i dont know why.
Eventhough ive msn and sms him, there's still no reply.
*sniff sniff & holding back sadness*. (:
-shall remain positive and strong! Yeahh..

11:24 AM Monday, August 6, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Alright, so today i had my History Common Test. Haizz.. Sian. O.O
I was hoping that i could not take history common test today-at which today after school i have higher mother tongue class, which i could make an excuse for not taking the test today-since im not really ready for it. But too bad, i cant, i still have to take the test. Hmmph.
The history test.. if i were to study for it really hard, it'll be easy. But, since i did not really study hard for it at which i tried my best to understand and study(kinda), i would say that the history test was a so-so. -.-" The SBQ, ive just write it out.. but for SEQ, teruklah! Gahhh..
I hope, i wish, i pray that im gonna pass my History Common Test. Please please.

Anyway, after history test, when to higher mother tongue. Its the first time i went without Nadiah.

Cikgu Sahriana gave out our peribahasa test to us back. Argghh.. my peribahasa test was a dissapointment. =/ Its not the mcq question. The question is like; give the meaning of the peribahasa and fill in the peribahasa with the given scenario.
So she said "Asyura, awak kena belajar untuk peribahasa awak tau.."
Ya, cikgu, saya tahu.. peribahasa saya weak sikit. Saya akan belajar, okiee cikgu (; lols.

Ohh, then she said to me "Awak sedih eh, Asyura..?" Probbably she saw me through my sad face, i guess. Hmm.. well i was sedih and dissapointed about my peribahasa marks, she's right! And ive got 8/40. Terukkan!?

So she said "Takper Asyura.. Prelim awak lagi 3 weeks. Awak pasti boleh! Saya akan ajar awak peribahasa.. Kasi awak ace peribahasa!" hehe ^^.
And she'll teach me and those weak ones including Nadiah, peribahasa next week on monday after class, 4.45pm.
Terima Kasih, Cikgu! (:

Oh, then in class.. Imran mengecewakan cikgu. Haha. Why? Because he said that he dont want cikgu Sahriana to teach him peribahasa since he have a malay tutor to teach him peribahasa dengan alasannya juga dia hendak balik awal. ASShole.
Imran ask me for the history common test clue during class at which i did not tell him that time. But then! After class at the bus stop he kept on asking and i got a bit irritated and i replied, about "war comunism". Then inside bus going home, i felt guilty, regret and wished that imran would forget what i said about it. Ohh please, please.. let imran forget what i said earlier on! Grr...

Shit. I have lots of hw to do and to be completed by tomorrow. Hmmph.

3 MORE WEEKS to MALAY PRELIM! & ive gotta buck up!
Yup yup.

-Asyura, kena dan mesti kuatkan semangat! ((:

4:49 PM Sunday, August 5, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Yayy.. New blogskin. Haha.
I would like to thank these people who have make this blogskin happen..
And they are ; ANNISAA, the designer itself and me(editting). haha ;P
Thank you, alot! especially Annisaa. Hehe. (:
Will edit this blog summore soon.

Hmm..
So today, went madrasah. Yeahh.
It was great & fun! As usual. Hehh hehh hehh.
-this is why i love going to madrasah ^^.

Too bad Zunairah didnt come today, missing her. Haha. Anyway, sat with Ili & Annisaa during madrasah. During recess time, me, Herani & Ili talked about relationship and stuffs. Haha. When going home, herani and me were supposed to take bus 25 with ustazah. So we wait for her at the bus stop but she was not there. So we wait and wait until bus 25 came. And when we both stood up, there she is! Haha. In the bus, ustazah said she was looking for both of us and thinking if we have already gone home. Herani then teased her saying "Rindu kita orang ke, ustazah.." HAHA! :D Then reaching our bus stop we board down the bus. Then reach home. Blahhh.

Darn, ive not done my hw and havent been studying. Yesterday tuition, tuition teacher told me to be independent in my studies, start studying my books now and read & understand the subjects first and then i ask him if i dont understand the topic. That this will be a great benefit if i want to pass my O level and in Jc. Hmmm.. I will. I will be independent. Its just that.. that lazy part of me or disturbances takes control of me whenever i wanna do things -.-. Haizz. Gahh, i need to be more discipline! O.O

Tomorrow History common test. And i havent studied yet. x| Wahh. Pfft. Ohh.. and A. Math hw still havent yet done. -.-".

Today in msn, i said Helloo to him. But... No reply. Hmm.. Entahlah kenapa eh. =/ Only time will tell, i suppose. And still ive sent him 2 sms today, sunday, in the morning like 1am. Yet, there's no reply -maybe his hp spoilt & if so, i still kept on sms-ing him. *sigh*.

9:46 PM Friday, August 3, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Woohooo! Weekdays/school days have ended.
Great haha. Looking forward to weekend. ((;
Though weekend i have lots of things to do like homeworks and stuffs. O.O. Hehh hehh hehh.

Hmm that reminds me,
i MUST & NEED to study !! -aiik.
; 1. Malay prelim coming ! 28 August, paper 1 & 30 August paper 2.
GAHH. I really must ace this exam, i dont wanna be a dissapointment. I shall look at the positive side of life. Hees. Insyaallah (:
; 2.History Common Test coming on next monday on 6 August.
GAHH. I really must ace this exam, i dont wanna be a dissapointment. I shall look at the positive side of life. Subject on SBQ-Japan and SEQ-Russia: Lenin & Stalin.
;3. Core Geography Test on 7 August about floods. Darn and i usually or almost fail my geog test this year. Gotta work hard. hehe ^^
;4. Chemistry test falls on 14 August. About acid, bases and salt. haha. I like/prefer this new chemistry teacher. wahaha. i find that he is a good teacher. Lols.
;5. Social Studies Common Test the day after Chemistry test 15 August. Subjects on Conflicts in Sri Lanka & Northern. hmm..
anyway, theres gonna be A.Math test. Pfftt. *sigh*. Oh well..

Alright, i shall blog about my day.
But not a detail account.

Well.. my day, it was okiee. Felt relieve today. Haha.
Ohh today, in class, the 'yakult' orange bottle i brought from home which i put inside my bag spilled inside my back. And now the books and papers inside my bag have kinda orange colour as well as some are torn. My A.Math book.. WHOAA! worst. Grrr..

A. Math extra lesson today was cancel.. Woots! Yayy.. can go home early at 12.30 instead of around 1.30.
Hehh hehh hehh.

While i was going home waiting for the bus at the bus stop, I saw a friend of mine, named Zul.
We jumpa tapi tak tegur. o.o Hoho.
Then when boarding down the bus, I saw Aliff. He was smiling at me ^^. At first when i saw him, i did not recognize him and then suddenly it hit me! Haha. And i smiled back at him. :))
Both guys are an ex-Damain and an ex-4T1 student. Gosshh, their very very nice and friendly people. ;D hehe.

So, on with the day. Arrive at home, use the computer and then sleep x)
Told myself, when reached home in the day i will do my homeworks and stuffs and would not sleep. But guess what! I sleep. Pfft.

Ohh and in the night.. Big bro came home.
He saw his headphone.. its not exactly spoilt but the ear side its crack. And he ask who the heck spoilt his headhone. And i deny it and then he ask lil bro and he say he dont know. And then bro slap me and lil bro's face, but not real hard.
Well.. i know who did it.Its me. Yup yup. The reason why i deny...? Hmm.. it was yesterday. The headphone was already/quite crack to a large extent. Lols. Then when i use/touch it, i cracked.. O.O haizz..
Alright, i know its wrong of me to lie and im sorriee about it. He said the headphone cost $70!
I was thinking, that i should tell him the truth now -FAT HOPE! Haha. Probably i'll tell him during his birthday on november, still a long time. Anyway, i buy him a card and wish him happy birthday and write him a confession about the headphone and gives him his present. Which is a headphone! Since i broke his. Or i'll give him $70 to pay for the headphone. Hmmph. >.<

Shall do my homework later on/after this. -HOPEFULLY! Haha ;)