10:03 PM Friday, February 29, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Pheww... Ive just finish watching the whole episode of My Girl. (;
The ending turns out pretty good. Hehehe.

`No one likes a sad ending. ((:
-dont you? i dont like it either.

Life these days have been pretty quite stressful.
Haizzz.. Its okiee though.
Get it over and done with.

Im gonna go library tomorrow. To study. I hope so *cross finger* Hehs.
Hmm.. Maybe i'll be going to Marine Parade or National library.
-not sure which one. :/

Ive left with Core Geog and E.Math common test.
So yea.. Study.

Honestly, ive been hearing someone's nagging most of the time.
And i dont like it. Adding to that, this person is sort of moralising me/irritating me with the person's word.

I dont like it when people FORCE me to do something which i dont want to do or am not ready to do it.
Dont you force me.

I mean, HELLOOO! I know what im doing.
You may remind me. But dont force me to stop what im doing.
Cause you see, i have my own conscience. I did told myself once ive finished doing these thing, i will do that thing.
But still you kept on forcing and pushing me stop what i am doing now. As a result, i have already and did stop it.
But dont you see? The way that youre forcing me to stop what im doing is making me all the more not want to do that thing?
Therefore, its useless. If you didnt force me, there's a very much chance that i will do that thing.
See the scenario?
- you may not understand what im saying. Its okiee though. Im purposefully making it abstract.

Hmmm... Honestly, i dont really know what to blog more on.
Its just that life isnt much interesting now a days.
And somehow, even if it is... At first i would want to blog about it. But once i come infront of the computer, i would rethink if i should/wanna blog about it or not.
As probably i would think the story isnt worth blogging. Yep.

I Miss You, Dear.
Im thinking of you right now.
Im waiting for you to be online right now. But i cant wait too long. Cause I need to go.
Hmm.. Im missing you.

&
I Love You.
-just to let you know that. (;

~`Sarang Hae Yo. Bhassya. -Nice words by the way. (:

I gotta stop doubting. And start believing. Hmm...

By the way...
Today,while going home from school.
I was walking. And i was thinking of happy happy thoughts.
Then suddenly there was someone who said to me something about "Senyum-senyum kenapa ni?"
Then i was like scrutinising my eyes at the person. Like being, Huh? I tengah senyum? -.^
Haha. Lols. I guess its true.
While i was thinking about happy thoughts, without knowing it a smile spread across my face-i guees. (;
Ohh before the person, there was this one Damaian who too smiled at me. -.-??

Good nite, Dear love.

8:21 PM Tuesday, February 19, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I think i knoww the reason why...
im being down these days...

Answer : Im being EMO! :D
Hehehe.

Okiee, cut the crap asyura!~

Someone told me, "asyura last time used to be always cheerful".
Hmmm, i shall pull myself up. I'll be high again. ((:
LAUGHT OUT LOUD.

Air pun ada pasang surutnya : Keadaan hidup seseorang tidak tetap, ada kalanya senang ada kalanya susah.
Hehe.
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Ohhh, anyway...
Do you realised that in my blog, there's always some malay words like soo... membuat kan orang CHEYY CHEYY.? haha. -i dont know how to describe it

Guess what!
I probably got it from my Dad in this malay words thing. Haha.
What i heard from my dad is, when in his younger days, he used to write many puisi/sajak.
His work, he would send 2 to 3 karya to Berita Harian. And it was published inside Berita Harian.
Furthemore, there were times whereby he won in many Malay competitions. *wow*-im impressed by this. :O

He told me that, in his work, dia mementingkan bahasanya.

Ohhh.. and also when he hendak memikat hati ibuku-kekasihnya, dia menuliskan puisi kepada kekasihnya yang tersayang itu. Chey cheyy! :DD

Honestly, im really impress with this. His artpiece. I wanna know and wanna read it!

BUT now, he doesnt do it anymore.
He doesnt write this kind of things anymore.

I asked why?
He replied that now, dia tak kisah tentang itu lagi. Sebab itu hanya sebuah khayalan semata. And let it be kisah dahulu.
For which he found someting more beautiful than puisi. Which is Al-Quran. -.-
Yeahh.. He said that.

I found it quite saddening.

Ohh, my fathers' side of family, my uncle, Cik Ishak is a Malay teacher.
My dad says, my uncle specialty is in Cerpen. And my dad specialty is in Puisi.
So there! See the family? :DD

Hoho.

10:14 PM Sunday, February 17, 2008 back to top?

• Dear diary,

Dont know why im feeling down and restless. And feeling as if theres a burden im holding on to. -.-
Maybe im thinking too much. Things which dont need to be thought of? -.^
-Ohh whatever.

Ahhhh...
Seriously i dont know why im feeling like this.

Hmmm... To describe it?
Its like perasaan ini didalam yang merasakan sesuatu, tetapi bila nak diluahkan dan ditafsirkan tiada kata-kata yang dapat diungkapkan itu.
-i dont know if you understand this. hehs.

Good nite.

8:24 PM Saturday, February 16, 2008 back to top?

• Dear diary,

Im craving for that Lg Viewty phone. Hoho.
TETAPI mungkin keinginanku itu tak akan tercapai. :/
fancy wish~ O.o

These past few days/weeks...
I realised some stuffs about me. Im kinda changing? Well sort of.

Anyway, here's the lowdown of the things.

im becoming sort of a bad student.-no im not rude. Just not doing my things well.

im usually or almost late for school. For which yesterday (friday) i have just served my detention for coming late to school twice.-Although i only serve detention for around 30 minutes instead of two hours, as i have A.Math extra lesson before. Though i had wish to serve my detention for 2 hours because in there somehow i can treat it as my study hour time. Hehs.

im starting to wake up later than usual for school. Instead of 6.30 i woke up, now around 6.40-6.45. And i usually get out of house around 7.06-7.10, now usually i get out of the house around 7.10.

i dont do my work. But in the end i did it in class in the eleventh hour before the subject lesson teacher came. And if theres some work i have to do at home, chores, i'd be lazy to do it. Wishing that someone would do it. But if there's no one who'd did, i would do it in the eleventh hour then.-So that means, dont say that i dont do my work. I did! Its just that, some other people did it before me. Hehhs.

Im always happy that subject teacher doesnt come to class. Sometimes i would wish that teacher wont come to school. Thereby taking advantage of the time for me to my own work. Lols.

im starting and liking the thought of spending my money on taxi fare to school. Usually i'll do this as a last resort. But now sometimes, i just dont have the bloody mood to take a bus.

im starting to splurge my money on food. These few days, i am always hungry. -I dont know why. Maybe because period coming or so. Or because, i have this kinda like habit or reaction.. Whereby when im stress i would eat a lot.

Im always tired and feel so burden sometimes. -And when i feel that, after i reached home, i would go to sleep. Sometimes i would wish to never wake up from sleep- i dont mean dying stupid! -.-

im starting to accidentally skip praying. -As in i would be terlewat waktu untuk sembahyang.

im starting to have this mentality of "Fcuk you, life!" or "Stupid life" or "Say WHATEVER to what shit i come across in life!"-Yea.. Somehow thats my motto.

i always wanted to go to library after school to study. But most of the time when that day and time comes, i decided not to. -Reason is because im too tired to go or do it whereby my eyes is too drowzy. Or/and another reason is because that means i'll be skipping my prayers. -Understand?

I know and realised that unless i dont change my way and my thoughts, one day i would go hanyut. Which i dont want that to happen.

I cant find myself to be sleeping comfortably.-Sometimes this body of mine doesnt let me go to sleep. And somtimes this mind of me either dreamt or makes up dreams which are bloody.. umm what should i say.. Stupid?

Im starting to think that im fading and drifting away from a certain bestfriend.-or which sometimes i find that i dont really care for her much. Awwww... No i dont want her to leave.

Whenever i reach home, there is always some things which either my parents usually my mum are not satisfied with me. And mostly or should i say these past few weeks/days i would be listening to her scoldings, mencela and kinda tad beating. -And i would find this as all the more bringing down my morale.

And sometimes, im starting to contradict God. Im sorry okiee. Cause sometimes, i would think of some stuffs. Im wondering so whats the purpose of me being in this world etc. Why is it like this?Anyway, IGNORE THIS. I dont want to menduakan Allah. I know that Allah is real and that Dialah yang create manusia. Its just that i dont get it.

These past few days/weeks been very busy. Homeworks are piling up. Theres some thoughts that are troubling my mind. Whereby, im feeling kinda shitty and restless about it. -But ohhh what the heck! I'll just have to endure it.

Hmmm...
Alright fine. I stop here!

Good byee.

12:16 AM Tuesday, February 12, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

*whisper*
HELLOO,
I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU!
-QUITE TERRIBLY.
T.T

Hehh. :DDD

Its been 43 days since i last saw you.
15 more days to 2 years!
-are you counting? I am. (;

With love,
Asyura.

11:55 PM Sunday, February 10, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Here' the pictures i took.
Pictures of you. Pictures of me. Hung upon the wall for the world to see. ((:

Raeesah, Asyura, Syahadah, Nurin!
aka Sayang ku-s. Hehehe :D


I shall write a testimonial for every one of them here :
PRESENTING.... *drum roll please -.-"*


Hellooo. This is Nurin. Hees. (:
Nurin here, she's veryy nice and sweet. She's a great company to be with.
Last year, mostly, i always depend on her for her choir file.
Since i didnt bring mine. Hehe. So she always share with me. Hehe :DD
And she's the one which i took pictures using her hp.
Ohh. And i camwhored myself using her hp. And i asked her to to
send me those pictures via email. Haha. Although the pictures which i took of myself is
a lot more than the pictures of us 4, she still susah payah upload and give me. Hehe.
This is what she says, "Asyura nyer gambar je more den 20 pikchas sey.. Belambak attachment larh seyy!! hehehh... Treasure our pikchas kae? penat taw attaching more den 50 files..s0 treasure it.
Keep in touch. Asyura...gonna miss u LOTZ wen ure stepping down. =["

Awww... I'll miss you too okiee?
Youre the bestest person ive ever met. And the nicest person too! ((:
Thanks.


Helloo. And this is Raeesah (:
I always begg her to buy for me sweets everytime choir ends.
And she did! See, she's very giving.. Hehe. She's so nice and tak lokek. Hehehe.
-My big spender.. Lol.

Its sooo fun to tease and irritate her. Haha. :D
Ohh.. she nickname me, "Ahh Syus".
Well.. It sounded more like "Ahh Shoes" -.-' Hees~
Awww... No more of asking her to buy me sweets summore.


Helloo. And yupp. This is Syahadah. (:
Honestly, she's 2 years younger than me. Hoho.
Still we got along well. Haha. She's very outspoken.
Sometimes, i would listen to her complaints and her
unsatisfactory about Choir and the people etc. -.-
And ohh, she was the person whom i talk with talk about
Iraq wars, Geoge Bush etc. HAHA. :D
-Very eye opening! Hehe.

Gahhh! I always call them Sayang! Either that Babeh! Lols. :DD
-Just to irritate and tease them. LAUGH OUT LOUD!
- - - - -

Boo hoooo! ;DD




See, belo punye muka. :D:D
Haha =.="

~`Reminiscence.
Good nite! :D

11:44 PM back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Once again there's choir. Was alright/fun.

Didnt go madrasah too.
Some asked me why i didnt come.
Awww... I feel so loved. Haha :DDD

Hmmm...
A funny conversation with those 3-nurin, raeesah and syahadah...
Me: Eh korang tau ape semalam aku ngn syahadah berbual, time aku ngn syahadah kat mcdonald semalam?
All eyes were on me. So i dropped the bomb!
Me: Heh heh. Kita dua cakap pasal george.w.bush, Iraq war, saddam hussein ngn itu osama bin laden pun ada! Hahaha.
Then we burst out laughing.
Cause you see... Its very funny and rare to know that we teenager age from 12 to 16 talk about these things. HAHA.
Then later we talk more about these. Laugh out loud.

Hmm... The performance what can i say? Alright lah.. :/
hehs.

Ohhh.. I took a lot of photos of me-*roll eyes*-using Nurin's phone.
Hahaha.
I shall post the pictures in the next post, hopefully. ((:

I always call Nurin, Raeesah and Syahadah with these name "Sayang" or "Babe" !!
Hehhs.
Just to irritate and tease them. Hehehe.

Once i step down from choir, well... I probably will miss them! T.T
Nurin: Awww... nanti Asyura step down.. Nanti.. rinduu.. Huhu.
Aww... I feel so loved! :DDD

They 3 make such a great friends! Heh.
And it feel like im that big sister to them. Haha :p

Thank you for being in my life. And making such beautiful memories. (:

10:23 PM Saturday, February 9, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary
Im not sure whether to own that VIEWTY phone by LG.
Haha. Its quite cool though.

The thing i like about the the phone is probably the function.But... I dislike the camera. Aww..

I mean...
I want a phone for which the phone have an infront and back camera. You understand ?
For me, my first priority for a phone is the camera function and probably the unlimited messages can be kept. Hehhs. :DD

But if i didnt own it, it'll be somewhat like a waste and i probably regret it-i guess? Haha.

Cause you see, i have a really high chance of geting it.
Why? Because my phone contract is about to end! HOHOHO.

Alright! Choose one!
Lg Viewty or Samsung g800 ???

Gahhh.
In term of design and features:
Viewty is/looks better than G800. Though both of them to me are alright.
In term of camera function:
G800 is highly better than Viewty. G800 have two way camera.
In term of message:
I dont know about both of them much. But i think Viewty have the upperhand on this. Hees~
In term of user friendly:
Im not sure about this. Though i think Viewty is more user friendly then the other -since ive tried playing arond with Viewty before. With G800 ive never tried it.

So? Hehh.
I dont know why. The answer is obviously infront of me. So clear also.
Looks like Viewty have all the more upperhand on this rather than G800.
Still... I dont know. Ive a feeling that i am not really satisfied with it. =.="

GRINS! (:
-its about time i get a new phone. Haha.

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Anyway, today.. There's choir performance at Esplanade.
Esplanade is bloody big. Ive realised that now. As in veryy big!
I know that its big before. But i didnt know that there was more to it then meets the eye -.-'. Lols.

I get to go inside the "for authorised personnel only" room. HOHO!
Why? Cause i am an invited artist. Hahahaha. :D
I swear inside that room, it looks like a hospital place!
Yea.. This Jun Hao aka Queen Elizabeth 2 go and joke around saying "Welcome to Esplanade Changi Hospital!" -.-"
Ada-ada saja budak tu.

The choir, somehow during the performance... Our voice kinda not loud.
Honestly, there's really a difference when we performed infront of real audience and also when we are practicing on our own-in our room-i mean.

I guess everyone kinda FREEZE up during the performance.
Stage Fright lah!

There'll be choir perforamance tomorrow again. So that means i wont be going to madrasah.
HEHE. :D

Gahhh.. Last week i didnt come and this week too i wont be coming for madrasah.
WAHHH! Im like.. Soo Rindu with my friends! Hees~

Buhbyee. (:

5:44 PM Thursday, February 7, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Out of the blue i found myself writing this piece yesterday before i go to sleep.
Hehhs. Entah kenapa tiba-tiba rasanya nak tulis sesuatu puisi. Haha.

Its not that good, okiee? So pardon me if its not good or readers couldnt understand. (;

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Mimpi Yang Sempurna

Ku dibuai dari tidurku,
Tiduran yang mebawakan ku jauh ke awan yang kesembilan.

Di saat ku memejamkan mata ini,
Semua kedengaran suara dan fikiranku serta-merta mati,
Seperti tiada yang membebani ku lagi.

Andainya indah jika apa yang dimimpikan menjadi sebuah kenyataan,
Tetapi tidak mengapa,
Kerana ku masih boleh bermimpikannya.

Dan ketika mimpi yang terindahku telah berakhir ceritanya,
Akan ku melayang pulang menuju dunia realiti ku ini.

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Ruang Rindu Ini

Kerinduan yang nian ini,
Membuatkan ku semakin hari semakin tidak menentu.

Entah kenapa dalam apa yang ku lakukan,
Nama dan wajahmu seringkali bermain di fikiranku ini.

Apakah kau rasa apa yang ku rasakan ini?
Hatiku berteka-teki.
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Thought of putting these pieces here. Heh heh. ;D
Up to you to think.

Buhbyee.

1:18 AM back to top?

• Dear Diary,

*Sigh*.
I guess i knew that it'll come to this once school starts. :/
Hmmm.

I dont know...
Maybe history is repeating itself again?
Or is it am i the one who is being impatient?
Hmmm...

Before school starts, it was all so sweet and wonderful. Being back to way it was. And i really love it.
But now its like nothing. Nothing's happening. The same like that days.

Awww....
Im gonna give this some time. (:
See whats gonna happen next. Yupp yupp.

~`Somehow i find myself not making a big effort on this. Is it true?

7:01 PM Saturday, February 2, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Hmmm... I got $5 just for being very initiative. Hoho.
I was in the kitchen cleaning. Then suddenly dad told me to come to him.
He then handed me a $5 note. Then he said "Tanya ayahanda asal asyura dapat duit".
So i repeat what he said. He replied, "Sebab asyura ada initiative". -__-
Haha.

Yayyy.. i am now not that broke. At least now my money total up is about $6. '_' haha.
My $50 nye saving.. Whoaa.. Pantas habis dipakai. Lols. Hehh. I must save duit again.

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Uhh.. Yesterday i studied Physic on the chapter about lens.
Gahhh.. So whats the answer for this question: Define focal length.. ?
-i still dont know.
This shows that my studying is not effective. Pfftt. >:/

Yesterday, Alger brought Sweet to class.
Then he gave me some sweet. Hoho. Baik hati dia.
You know why? Because eversince the last few weeks, sometimes, i brought sweets to school.
And then i gave some to Alger. HAHAHA. Thats because he asked and i was being veryyy kind. :DD

And yesterday, i went to study at National Library. With Nadiah.
Quite cool and big the place. Hehs. =.=
Nadiah had to go early as she have tuition. So i stayed there and continued doing my studies/work till about 8.50pm then went home.

On the way home towards MRT. I was kinda.. a bit Lost.
Yep. Thank goodness i have a photographic memory. :D
Hehhs.
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I really love Peterpan song.
This song called Menghapus Jejakmu. GAGAGA :DD
I like the song rhythm as well as the lyric. I find it very deep. Hees~.

How i wish they will come perfom in Singapore.
I'll surely watch them perform!! Weees. -thats is, IF i could.
Im head over heels in love with Peterpan. Haha.

BUT, uhh.. i dont exactly love the guys lah.
I just Love the band Peterpan.

But but, when i was young, when i first started liking Peterpan....
I totally had a MAJOR HUGEEEEE CRUSH on ARIEL! Hehe. (;
Shhh. Dont tell anyone. '.^
-later boyfriend marah. :D jkjk

I dont think he'll marah. I guess...
His face will look like this (-.-') <<-see? Hehe X).
Aww.. soo cute. *Grins*.

The video is also cute. HAHA. I shall post it here.
Here's the video. Enjoyyy watching. :DD

Peterpan - Menghapus Jejakmu



(*)Teruskan langkah melupakanmu
Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiran mu buat ku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hati ku terbelenggu
Ku coba untuk lanjutkan kan hidup

Engkau bukan lah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk menghentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
(*)
Engkau bukan lah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Lepaskan segala nya 2x….

Engkau bukan lah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu (2x)

Na na na na na…na na na na na…na na na na na…na na na na na…(2x)

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