11:59 PM Tuesday, April 27, 2010 back to top?

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Hey (:
We met again.
Im sorry for not realising your presence in the Circle Line train.

I only realised it when i turned my back behind and i saw you.
It was very nerve-wracking once again.
When i saw you, then i instinctively hide myself!
Yeaapp I was that scared and nervous.

Do you know..?

I get nervous, my heart skipped

& I'm caught in my breath whenever i see you~

That was how I felt when meeting you today.

Nervous + Happy = Meeting you.
Im glad and thankful for this chance. (:

Nadiah told me, “He kept looking at you from the corner of his eyes”.
Hahaha. Thanks.

Well, eventhough we met, we still never say hi.
But its alright. Maybe next time, if we ever meet again.

Today is Day 27. What a nice occurence.
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Thanks to Zuu encouragement I texted.
We exchanged a few msgs. And we said good nite.

Now i feel awkward.
Syura.. Jangan bersedih lagi ok?

12:36 AM back to top?

• Sometimes about Charli, i kept wondering about the future.
Like what if...?
Its europhic thinking bout it..
But sometimes after youre long up in the air, its time for you to get back to reality.
Get down to Earth, and think logically with your mind. Haha. Yeaa its true.

Mungkin part of me telah tawar hati.
So yeah hmm.

Sometimes when im at my lowest or when im thinking logically, this feeling of inferior and insecurity crept up entwining me.

This feeling of:

As if there will be someone who likes me. Im not good or even pretty enough to satisfy.
Its hard, but i wanna find someone who accepts me for who i really am.
The thing about me is that, once i opened-up to that certain person, then im sure that maybe i shall be able to go forward~ hahs

11:59 AM Sunday, April 25, 2010 back to top?

• When i was in the bus, going home, i msged Charli.

Asyura :
Hey man! :D so there's this old man sitting beside me who kinda looked like in his 50s.. The thing that makes me smile sheepishly was, when he took out a RED PSP and played the game bejeweled. Haha. Man! So in-trend \m/ :D

So Charli replied :
Hahahaha. Then if i take out my psp, wld u smile?

Hahaha, Gosh! That msg instantaneously made me smileee grinly* :D hahaha.



Lets fly back to reality ok?

10:15 PM Sunday, April 18, 2010 back to top?

• Alright.. So remember one of my wishes i made..
About celebrating birthday's at marina barrage with balloon. As well as the vastly green grass overlooking the sky?

Sureeee.. I was shocked to know what ANNISAA was planning! haha.

In madrasah She was being super secretive goshh! HAHA.
We were supposed to meet each other after madrasah(since she had to go off early), and guess what she msged me when we finished.
She sent me this 'Amazing Race message' about doing a certain activity and getting to a certain place. Sheeshh. -Anyway.. I layankan.. And I was glad to participate in it! haha.

Hence in the end.. I ended up in Marina Barrage.
While Annisaa looking down at me from above the sky top. Haha.
-She even took picture of me while walking.. tsk tsk. I want that picture.

The thing is.. She was veryy sweet uh! Its like.. Awww man.. THIS IS SOO COOOL!
Ive never had anyone done this for me.
Bringing along cake and brownie, along with the helium balloon as well as present brought especially for me. Awww... Surprisingly, there was a a kite!
So we played kite for awhile haha. But the kite sometime fly sometime cant fly. So yeaap -.-" HAHA. But im HAPPY! :D grins*
-ive always wanted to do this with my friends ((:

And yesss.. We had lotsa pictures taken.Wees~~
Thank you Annisaaa, i enjoyed my dayyy!

What else? Hmm me and my wanting to take pictures again and again.
Like asking Annisaa to pose and then asking her to capture a picture for me! haha.
Ouchh. Im sorryy that you had to tahan with my karenah :P -haha geeez -.-"zzz

I am a happyy person today.
I didnt expect that one of my wishes will come true. Haha! So i was surprise yet pleaseeed! :D
Thank you soo much for today. Thank you Thank you (:
Ohh my god, I love you lahh Annisaa! hehehehe.

I love the sky (:
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Remember my birthday out on 10 April? -Which i have not blog about it yet.
With friends in the evening and then with family in the night.

So that day, supposedly us 5 or 6- Me, Zunairah, Herani, Rahman, Faisal and maybe Syed was supposed to go out.
Then because Rahman in the end couldnt come then Faisal too follow suit. So oh wells!
I was kinda a lil bit disappointed, but yeahh at least they tried making an effort. So Its ok, we'll go out sometime (:

The plan at first was watching a movie and then to marina barrage, but then, we/I last minute change the plan.
Hence! We 3 girls went ICE SKATING! :D

We went to Kallang Leisure Park, where there was the ice skating rink.
Once reached there, there was kinda alot of people looking from the outside glass panel, making Herani and Zunairah unsure of entering into the place.
They were like nak taknak nak taknak. They also dont know how to skate. Especially Zu! For herani, she have some knowledge of skating though.

While they were deciding with their nak taknak nak taknak, me on the other hand, in my heart says, 'I still want to go. I reallyy want to go! Ive been meaning to go for how many months already! But... Im scared. I really scared that they dont wanna go in. Of course i know that the fees are expensive ($18.50) but i really hope they can go in.'
I mean.. What am i supposed to do, if both of them decided that they reallyyy dont want to go? Of course i dont want to brutally force them into going, but still i know for sure taht i'll be disappointed if we didnt play ice skating. Even if it is so, Im ok with just us out. So yeahhh.. Its alright.

Finallyy they decided to pay and enter the rink. So yesss im happyy! :D
We skate for 2 hours. Even though, to people outside, says that 2 hours is very short.. But to the people inside, once we go in, its like the time is soo long! hehe ;D

So therefore, Zunairah kinda learnt how to ice -skate. Herani played on her own in the center of the ice field, She's as if walking on ice! instead of skating- to a certain extent -.- haha.
I was happyyy skating :P

I saw two girls, who knew how to ice-skate.. You know... Those twirl and spin! Its sooo coool lah! :D hehe.
Then i saw a team of guys skating very fast following and old man-i think it's their coach or something- and just following and imitating what the old man does. Haha cool(:

If you are talking about me falling off the ice!
Well, YEAHHH.. MY BUTT WAS COOL! :D haha.
-so far i only fall 4 times!? I think. haha.

Thank you for that day girls, Zunairah & Herani.
I had fun.. and umm a straineous exercise! Since the next day my thigh and my arm were aching! hahaha. ;D

Then in the night, my parents, lil bro and niece-Azzahrah makan malam sama-sama.
On the way home.. There was this bracelet and a ring which cost $14 and $10 respectively.
Mum was hurrying me to go off and saying its not nice.
So instead of $24 I ask the person to give me $20, the person said ok!
Well actually, it was because i came to them a few hours before, telling her that my parents will be coming, and when we reached in the night the shop was closed.
I guess the woman took pity of me thats why the tawar! hahaha. So yeahh.. Aweesome! :P

Oh yeahh MY ABANG gives me $100 for my birthday. hahahha :D
3 years ago and so on it was $50. Then $100. Last year it was LENOVO LAPTOP!
Then this year was $100! haha. Macam bertambah pulak. hehe ;D

Alhamdulillah, syukur!
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My birthday was cool and nice.
Its better than previous years.

I got many Happy-birthday-to-me wishes. Im thankful.

Well.. You know.. Everytime when my birthday comes,
I began to wonder, who will greet/wish me. How many people?
Have i made an impression on them-no matter if it's small or big?
So yeah.. I was happyy to receive those overwhelming-in my opinion- wishes! (:

Thank you(:

1:40 AM Friday, April 16, 2010 back to top?

• Today, i met up with my NYP friends -Rahayu and Shafiqah. (:
We went back school to buy books.
We talked and listened. Exchanging conversation.

At the same time, after buying books, Ayu help me fill in my Sponsorship form!
Im soo thankful to have her! Reaallyy~~
SO FINALLY I SENT MY CGH DOCUMENTS, today, 15 April.

I really hope i can get sponsorship and work in CGH. :DD
Thank you, Dear God

Must thank Zunairah also! For helping me print my stuffs. Thank you!

After saying goodbye to Ayu and Fiqah-since they live in Tampines and are taking the bus-,
Co-incidentally, i met with Izzulwan, Iman and Fizzywandy. (:

TODAY, i just feel as if i had a LIFE!
I LAUGHED, Talked, listened and being EXCITED.
Feeling existed, for once!
Really.

Eventhough all of them are not from my class , but are my Lecture-mate and Attachment-colleague, I am very happy to see that we can click well! (:
-im veryy veryy happy & thankful

So when i met Izzulwan, Iman (She's a girl ok!) and Fizzy, WE out of the blue kinda decide to watch movie.
But in the end, we ended up eating Haagen Dazs Ice cream. Yeahhs. ^^

You understand... Imagine Me, hanging out with those 3-where Izzulwan is the only person i have talked much so far because of our ward attachment, whereas for Iman and Fizzy we're only hello bye acknowledgment friends!?. So, i think that it awesome.
I really hope that i wont seem as stuck-up or dislikes by them.
Because really.. I appreciate them-including Ayu and Fiqah! (;

To me my biggest weakness is my conversation with people.
Im not really well verse in the things which happens in people's life.
I'll be just listening to them and "ahh.. ohh, i see". Or using my knowledge on certain matters to talk about.
Hence, today, with the 5 friends i met, i tried talking and participating!

Yeaap. Thats why, i feel today is different than any other days...
Thank you dear lovely friends for making my day(:

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According to Izzulwan, he sent in his document to CGH, then a few days later they called him for interview. A few days later after the interview they called him.
TADAA~~ He just left with signing bond and guarantor. Nicee!~~ (:
Im happy for you man!

I hope i can make it! Interview and accepted. Hehe.

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Heys! I really will be registering my father and my name, we'll go take DRIVING CAR LESSONS!
Driving license baby! ~~ Wees hehe.
The thought of going there and passing.. Im EXCITED! Haha^^

Im kinda thinking that my wishes will soon be granted. -I hope so! (:

1:46 AM Sunday, April 11, 2010 back to top?

• Im a happy and a contented person! (:
I had a wonderful day today, Saturday, 10th April 2010.

Thank You verryyy much Dear Lovely people for all the wishes and thoughtful words given! (v) I really appreciate it.

Hmm.. The thing about birthday is that;
Every year, we look forward to that day we’re born. And then we’ll wonder if there is anyone who will wish you ‘Happy Birthday’. Then you wonder and reflect if you had leaved an impression on them-no matter if it’s big or small-, and Yes certainly you did left a footprint! For their wishes shows it all. Effort and sincerity. Don’t you think so?
Oh wells, it’s the thoughts that counts, they say. (;

Thank you very much, dear love ones.

Happy 18th Birthday, ASYURA :DD
I hope it'll be a better year, than the other previous years!
For Friendships, Relationship and Bonds to grow more stronger.
For Lucky and Wonderful things to happen more. Haha.

-I'll update more. Later ~
Off to sleeepp ^^V

4:15 AM Friday, April 9, 2010 back to top?

• Ive been sleeping really reallyy late these days. Staying up playing laptop and dont feel like sleeping or the cant sleep at all.
Hmm usually around 4-5pm i'll go to sleeep. Hahs. =.=

Ive been thinking alot lately. Lots of things in my mind-probably-thats the reason i couldnt sleep.
Im thinking of the future. What to do for it. What am i going to do tomorrow. I better wake up early and reach ontime for work the next day.-Thoughts-.

Ive been pretty busy with work these days. Hahs.
I really should message my Dear Friends about 10 April outing, this saturday. Maybe later i 'll msg them.

I hope theyre pretty ok with the outing plan and about us all having wonderful and enjoyable moments.
I mean.. Truthfully, sometime.. Im scared about us all living our own life differently, till we forgot and drifted too far apart from one another.
Hmm i just really hope that our friendship will still go strong as more years to come((:
-because they're the only (close) friends i have.

What else?
Ive decided to write down the sponsorship form thing-y. Hees(;
I realllyy hope that they accept me, for me to get and do well in the interview and yes.. $850 per months. *Loves*!
I just left with name of referral and a copy of my gpa document. Lastly, send in all my documents (:

Talking about gpa. Last Saturday, when i went to my Uncle's house.
Cik Esah kata.. Yang my result are no good, as in grades drop -Walaupun still 2.56.
Somehow.. yeahhh i realised it. I feel kinda bad and guilty on the inside yet i covered myself and comforted myself with at least 2.56 gpa is good enough-that kind of thinking
So yeahh.. Blergghh. :\ Nvm.

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SATURDAY, 10 APRIL IS COMING!:DD
I have lots of wishes for 2010.

1. Get accepted to CGH and sponsorship -for money to come every month and after graduated from school, job security .


2. New handphone- Nokia N97, Maybe, hopefully later Dad and me gonna go to Singtel Shop. I hope jadi pergi! Please please. Kalau tak jadi.. Entahlah takpe -.-


3. Driving lessons and to get a driving license within 6 months time. As well as eventually a car!^^b -for my accommodation. Haha.

• A watch that is water resistant and prettyyy~~ I got my eyes on this 'Citizenship' watch-i think thats the brand name. But its fine.. As long as its pretty and water resistant. -Since my watch always died on me, because everytime I wash trays/dishes I was still wearing my watch. -lazy uh.. nak bukak :P
• MORE money! Everyone do wants that too yeah! :DD
• Facial stuff. HEY.. I bought this ADONIS facial coupon for me and my mum. I hope both of us will find a time to go.. As well as my treat to her at Seoul Garden hehe (; -hey, its good to be pampered some time.
  

PS!
You know.. Ive always wanted to have a birthday celebration in a vastly green place overlooking the sky.
With birthday cakes and friends. Pictures happily smiling, enjoying every moment.
So thats why.. for the outing.. I choose marina barrage! :D
-but the cake?.. I dont know if that will even happen. Hehs. If that were to ever happen.. YESSS im prettttyyy happy haha.
But somehow as if they know what im wishing for, hehs -Its alright. I will be thankful for what i have and things that happen (:

• Lastly! To have wonderful friends. May our friendship goes on strong for many years to come :D
  

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One thing for sure...
Maybe i missing and longing for a Kareshi.


9:33 PM Friday, April 2, 2010 back to top?

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His name is TOP.
He's a singer in the Korean Band: Big Bang.

Truthfully, i dont know why his name is TOP. Haha.
-Since i dont know his history and profile much. Hehs. Pardon me.
Anyway, the reason why i like him is because of his voice and his face.
I mean.. Look at him!
He's good-looking, can say Bishi-Pretty boy, and he can look bad-ass too. Gagagaga :D

Anyway, yea.. Ive been imagining him in my dream. So yeaap. Nicee!~ ^^b
-hey man, ive just found out my love for him just today.. eventhough ive seen him before (in the past-MV of Haru haru).

Good looking. U'huh. Haha.

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Im interested in The BIG BANG. -not the band.
As in the langit~
I read up wikipedia about big bang.. and i find it quite confusing but its also interesting but very scientific which i dont understand some. Hehs.

I remembered my ustaz telling us about the sky having 7 layers-according to the Quran- and Allah have created them all in... (how many days? : 2 days).
-let me check for you.

Fushshilat ayat 12:
[41:12] Maka Dia menjadikannya tujuh langit dalam dua masa. Dia mewahyukan pada tiap-tiap langit urusannya. Dan Kami hiasi langit yang dekat dengan bintang-bintang yang cemerlang dan Kami memeliharanya dengan sebaik-baiknya. Demikianlah ketentuan Yang Maha Perkasa lagi Maha Mengetahui.

I think.. Its kinda cool.. The SKY / langit.
As in.. There's layers of the sky.. Then above it is another sky layer and so much more. hees.
Keep in mind..The different gases each atmosphere holds.

And i find out.. That people have been debating about the sky. Some say there are 4 layers of atmosphere or even 5. Whereas there are others rejecting the Quran's words.
Hmm.