11:05 PM Sunday, June 29, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I find myself losing a part of myself.
Its hard for me to move on.

Its like i said, some pieces are falling apart.
And somehow, i wanna move on, but something is pulling me back.
Those pieces which have fallen, it seems as if i couldnt pick up those pieces back again.

And then, sometimes i wonder...
Should i pick those pieces up again?
-cause i know that, if i wont pick those pieces us again, somehow..
It seems as if part of me is lost.

T.T huhu.

Gotta try to move on. But its hard.
Before i knew it, time have passed by.

There's this song which is nice. haha.
A japanese song actually. Got it from an anime im watching. Lols.

It is very touching.
A song which describes my feeling. (:

Anime: Nijuu-Mensou no Musume Opening Song

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11:59 PM Friday, June 20, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

It was great today!

You can say, its like an excursion for me.
Going to somewhere new and exploring. hehe.

Had fun with Annisaa.
She knew her history subject really well. haha.

Well... We went to Changi Airport today.
To study. haha.
Actually, it was for Annisaa to teach me history. hehe ;D
She's good ! hahaha.

Talk and laughs about stuffs.

She was the one who introduced me to Mc Donald McCafe. haha.
I bought Double chocolate chip frappe.
And she bought another one, which i couldnt remember whats its name. haha.

Umm...
When we went left the airport, we were in the train...
I found out ONE INTERESTING thing about her! Hahaha.

*drum roll* please.
ANNISAA WANNA BECOME A MALAY TEACHER!!!!
Gahhhhhh!~~~~~~~~

Omggg.. I was soo surprise when i heard that!
She's the first person whom i know who wanted to be a teacher. Not only a teacher but a MALAY teacher.
Woww. *gasp*

Anyway, i thinks its great lah she's going there.
Good for her. Being a teacher is pretty noble. hees~ (:
So she's going to apply for NIE after O Level, a straight course/path to being a malay teacher. Hehehe.
Cool.

I hope, wish, and pray for Annisaa's passion for teaching would forever last. (:
Insyaallah.

11:59 PM Monday, June 16, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I need to get myself up.
And i know that i didnt try hard enough.
*sigh*.

Today, 16 June
Met up with Zunairah and Herani. Went to study at MP library.
But when i came, a few minutes later Herani had to go.

Had a hell of a time doing A.Math.
Was feeling so frustrated that i spent how many god damn minutes (15-30min) just on one question or so -.-" Hehs.

Then in the night, i felt like going to ECP with Zunairah.
But firstly we went to Popular.
Then after that.. We, or actually Zu who decided not to go. Haiz...
So yea.. After we ate at McD we went home.

Honestly, i know that we've went out before.
And yea! Im glad that takda kekok antara satu sama lain. Weees~~ :D
Its a good sign *winks *
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Diary, you know something?

While i was going there and was about to board down the bus-that was when the door havent yet opened.
My eyes caught a certain figure.
"I think i saw him T.T", was what i thought.
Its sad. You know.
Its like, part of me wanted to be seen and part of me do not want to be seen. :/
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"Salah krg dua".
Syg kau? "Susah nak cakap"
Si lagi satu? "Setakat crush".
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When i went home-was taking bus 15- where my stop is.
I somehow... Find myself sitting down at the bus stop after boarding down the bus. Hahs.
Then take out MP3 and listen to the songs while sitting down for a few minutes. HAHA.
-kinda emo that time and kinda feeling lazy to walk. Lols. :P

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"Walking with a happy smile with a group of friends."

6:15 PM Thursday, June 12, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Slept at around 4 in the morning today. haha.
I was reading this Malay book which i borrowed from MP library yesterday. Hehs.

Hmm.. Mostly i read books which are love-stories novels. Hehs.
Its because, for me, i find it very interesting and its kinda like a fantasy.

And you know something about Malay books?
I find that most Malay books have the concept of fate/destiny and somewhat based on God.
Like, jodoh, perkahwinan and pasrah etc. Hehs.

Okiee. So anyway, after reading the book around 3.30 in the morning...
Somehow i have the urged to listen to my old old songs which i used to listen to.

When i say old old song, it is the song around 5-6 years ago. That means when i was in primary 5, 6 and (maybe some) probably sec 1.

Very nostalgic, when listening to the song. HAHA.
Cause its like finding a lost treasure and it brings back the memories that happened. Hehs :D *grins*

I shall wrote the songs which i listened here.
PS: Not in order.
Sheila On 7 - Dan, Seberapa Pantas, Sephia, Buat Aku Tersenyum
Flop Poppy- Mimpi sedih, Suziela, Cinta, Atas Nama Cinta
OAG - Akustatik
Siti Nurhaliza - Bukan Cinta Biasa
Exists - Julia, Jesnita, Seperti Dulu.

& by the way, i didnt wrote down Peterpan, because ive been listening to the songs everytime... So yea.. you know it. Not that much nostalgic. Hehs.
Also, did you realize, this songs are all Malay. Haha.
Well... When i was p5/p6.. You know lah me... Not exposed so much to the outside world. Haha. :D
And one of these songs, reminds me of a friend, Aisyah, who introduced me to that song. Haha.

Yea... Those were the days. (:

10:15 PM Tuesday, June 10, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Its raining now!!!!!
Wwweeeeeeeeeees~~~~~

Its raining heavily. Hujan ribut, someone says.
Ribut=Strong Winds.
Psst. Now i know what it means by hujan ribut. Hahaha.
Im soo slow lah. HAHA. ;D

So anyway, just now while i was closing the window...
My face was at the window frame.
And then a gush of wind blew over my face. And my hair was like flying due to the wind blowing me. Hehs.
Then while the wind was blowing my face i was like, "Wahhhh.. Sooo nicela the breeze! Shioook sey.. Pretty^^".
Yep yep. I was kinda feeling like this happy girl who skips instead of walking around.
Umm you know Red Riding Hood. Ever saw the show where when she goes to her grandmother house, she skips happily? haha. Yea..

Ohh anyway, i had a very knowledgeable conversation with a friend of mine in MSN. Haha.
Mostly, we talk about the weather now. Raining heavily. HAHA.

Umm.. and how lightning and thunder came about. HAHA.
There was the word, "Electron" involved too. haha ;DD
Cool.

The sky was purple before it rain. HAHA.

Ever wonder why i like/love rainy days?

Well firstly, to me, RAIN is a GIFT.
Cause rain give life to plants and animals as well as humans. Hehe.

Secondly...
Sometimes, when im feeling down, sad or in a state of emo or whatever...
I always love it when it rains. Its somesort like an accompany.
Cause somehow, the rain is a resemblance of what i feel inside. HEHS.
Ever heard of.. Tear drop, it falls down like rain? Yea.. Thats why(:

And ALSO!
The breeze's smell and the wind blowing is really nice and is very comforting. ;DD

~`when it rains. night sky. purple. breeze blowing. lovelove^^

7:22 PM Saturday, June 7, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I think this is pretty. Read it (; :

Dia termenung jauh memandang ke arah langit yang tidak berawan.
Bintang-bintang bertaburan di dada langit yang gelap,
bagaikan permata di hamparan baldu hitam.
Sungguh indah pemandangan ini.
Alangkah bagusnya jika aku dapat berkongsi keindahan ini bersama orang yang dicintai, dia berfkir.


~`Langit biru aku ingin melayang. Bawaku terbang tinggi.

6:30 PM back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I need to get myself up!

Somehow, there's a difference between me the now and the me last time.
Haizzz *sigh*

I dislikes the way things are going right now.
It just dampens my mood to change.

Shits! I need to overcome this.
The things that is bothering me.

I wonder what went wrong... T.T

Im broken.
And i dont have time to pick up those pieces.
I should move on.

~`Its just one of those things you have to get over it.

4:19 PM Tuesday, June 3, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

I want to say this directly to a person. But somehow, i couldnt find the courage to tell that person.
Well, i guess i'll do it indirectly then. Haha. ;D

"If you think that i have forgotten about you,
I shall say, NO! I did not.
Im still here, always am here.
I may not always be there for you,
I may not always be there to get in touch with you,
I may not always be there for you when you're down, angry, happy
or whenever you need me,
I may not always... always.... always...
But, do you know something?
You are always always always on my mind." (:

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Cinta, ke manakah telah kau pergi
Cinta, terlalu lamanya ku menanti
Cinta, terlalu lamanya begini
Cinta, telah lelah ku disini

Cinta, benarkah semua itu telah berubah
Cinta, benarkah rasa itu telah pergi
Tak mau ku membuangnya jauh
Ku cuba mengerti tetapi jalannya buntu.
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Anyway, ive got the inspiration from a song;
Mervells - Telah lama menanti.
*Take note: Its not all related to what i have written.
By the way, i like the song, its beat, rhythm.

I guess thats how, i came to write that out. haha.

11:59 PM Monday, June 2, 2008 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

There is TWO events which i shall blog about. Its on about learning journey.
One is on 30th May. And another is on 2nd June, today

30th May: It was NE learning journey.
So we had a topographical learning skill trip. And also, we learnt about geography and history. Haha.
And so! We went to Kent Ridge Park. It was ok.
I shall not bore you with the details.

So anyway, an interesting thing that happened was, during the time while we had a break/rest.
So at the place where we took a break, there was this vending machine. That uses coin to get the product. haha.
And i was kinda hungry, and i dont have coins but only $notes$. So i thought of changing money la/asking for money.

So infront of me was Zhi Han and Sean.
Me : Zhi han! You have $1 change?
Zhihan: Nope. But i have 50 cent.
Me : You eh? [to Sean]
Sean : I have 50 cent.
And in the end i collect both 5o cent from the two of them. HAHAHA. :D

You know something? I didnt pay them back any money, ok?
Hmmm... Cause at that time, i was thinking of sharing money together. So share the food lah.
Then after i bought M&M chocolate, i gave to Zhi Han & Sean some. Hmmm... I think it was Zhi Han who dont want it, while Sean did take it. HAHA.

Sheeshh! Why am i writing this?
Well.. Im actually touched by their umm.. Kindness? haha xD
Yea. I was pretty glad and happy of what they did. Hehs. ;D

QN: Ever wonder why the sea some parts of it looks blue and some part of it looks cobalt blue?
Example, if the sea were infront of you it looks blue then in far away it looks turquoise or cobalt blue?

Well.. I know the answer. Hehe. I asked the tour guide.
And he said something about (if i could remember it well):

Firstly, Its because of the clouds above and the sunlight. The water colour looks different because the clouds block the sunlight ray from going through towards the water. Thus the water looks different to our eyes. So if there is cloud and there isnt any cloud, the water will look different to our eyes.
This is kinda like roygbiv, about light spectrum- if you wanna know more about it.

Secondly, It may be because of the depth of the sea bed.
If the depth of the sea is deep, it will look darker. While if it is not deep, it will look light.

Hahaha. Great information. Though i know that the answer for this question is not as detailed. HEHS.

ALSO! My queries were answered my Ms Shawa about Bird Nest Fern.

You know.. I always wonder... If the Bird Nest Fern Drink-you know the can drink- comes from the Plant or what.

Cause you see... We were walking past the Bird Nest Fern plant.
Then i asked Ms Shawa, about the drink , where did it come from. HAHA.
Cause i was thinking whether is it really true that the Bird Nest Fern drink REALLY come FROM Bird Nest Fern, plant. HAHAHA. ;PP
So anyway, IT IS NOT TRUE that Bird Nest Fern Drink come from Bird Nest Fern, the plant.
The drink actually come from the Bird's nest itself. HAHAHA.

Lols. TWO question worth of knowledge.
HAHA ;DD

2nd June: NE AMBASSADOR DAY OUT! Museum~~

So at first, we went to Singapore Stamp Museum.
Ever heard of stamp museum? Haha. Me too. Ive never knew that Stamp museum actually existed. Heh heh -.-"
After that we went to KFC at Funan.
After that we went to Singapore Art Museum. Heh heh.

Well.. The journey there was fun! With all my Ne Ambassador members ^^.
They're great and funny people.
Then there was the part where when crossing a traffic light, Me, Sabrina & Ashiqien hold our hands and swings our arm while walking. Haha.
It was pretty cute! Hehe.

The Singapore Art Museum was our last stop. From 8 to 3 we ended our journey. Lols.
Pretty long huh? But it was worth it. I had a really great time. ^^

After that, supposedly we were to go home.
But then Yen See, Yu Fong, Shayne, Me, Jonathan & Chang Xiang decided to go Esplanade.
Then when we reached Esplanade we decide not to go to the roof, since the weather was sunny

So we headed to Marina Square. Me and Chang Xiang went to Starbucks to buy Frappucino.
I bought Chocolate Frappucino with creme. Hahaha. My favourite! :D
Then we went to meet the rest at Marina Square, Mc Donald.
Then we sit and talk some stuffs.

The conversation were pretty interesting!
And somehow... I kinda felt a bit left out.
Cause i dont have anything to talk about, mostly i listen to them.
Then some parts they spoke in Chinese but its ok since i didnt really wanna listen to what they're saying. -By the way, im the only Malay out of the 5 people including me. Hehs.

Then around 4pm we headed off home.
Chang Xiang went off early.
So somehow, Shayne paired up with Johnathan. Yenc with Yu Fong. And that left me in between. Hehs.
So went we walked-i was beseide YenC and on the other side of her was Yu Fong- Yu Fong said,
"Heys, Asyura! Youve been quiet all this while huh?".
And i was like, "Hehs" and *SMILE SMILE*

Actually, while i was kinda feeling sad, but at least, im glad that they notice my quietness.
It shows that at least i am there with them and that they didnt forget about me. Hehe.
Arigatou. ^^

So while on the way, i was doing my own business. Listening and doing the things i do.
And i was thinking, "Its sad. How i wish i could talk freely. So weird... I cant find a conversation to talk with them. Haizz..." *sigh*.

So yea.. Thats it. I had a pretty great day out with the NE ambassadors.
You know why i wanna join them to Esplanade?
Well... I wanted to experience how it is like going out with friends/them. Hehhs -.-
And also wanted to know how am i gonna act. Hehs. -I guess ive already found out about that.

Still i had a wonderful time with them ! ((:
Thank you, guys.


Yea.. Thats me & YenC.
Haha. Somehow YenC seems abit funny in this picture. LOLS :DD


Presenting: The NE AMBASSADOR! ;D
Pretty cool picture! See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil! HAHAHA.
& i look soo weird. Lols -.-
Haha. There are 8 of us here. But there are others who didnt come. So yea..

It was fun while it lasted ^^