12:50 AM Monday, December 27, 2010 back to top?

• Dear love,

Probably I will stay working, just to see how things goes between us.
But I'll take my leave once this love fade and ends.

I'm sorry.
You're on probation, baby. (:


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I may be paranoid right now...
With all those missing you feelings and the often phone calls I called but you didn't picked up.
Well... I don't like how things are right now.
Its like I'm here waiting and missing you aimlessly, wondering if you're feelings are starting to shake or am I jumping into conclusion. So yeahh..

Its laughable, how I dislike waiting, but still I kept on waiting... hoping that these weird thoughts of mine are not true.

Just like what happened between me and previous love.
I hope you're not the one-of-them kind of guy.
Because It'll be.. no, I'll be sad.

Come on dear babe! Think positively.
He's just TIRED! With all the working and the christmas period going on the past few days. ((:
Think nice about him, my dear.

11:26 PM Sunday, December 26, 2010 back to top?

• Hehehehes. Okoks, so ive been tumblr-ing around.

And ive always like this Doa/Quote. So i shall post them here. Which i did mention about it somewhere in my post before. Hehe.

“YA Allah… seandainya dia diciptakan menjadi milikku, baik untukku duniaku dan akhiratku.. maka satukanlah kami dalam ikatan pernikahan..

tetapi Ya Allah…. seandainya dia bukan milikku, tidak baik untukku duniaku dan akhiratku, maka pisahkan kami dan hubungkanlah kami sebagai persaudaraan islam..”

Yeaaahs(:
-Ps, not the marriage part i meant, not now though. haha.

Although its true that people say, you will never know unless you fall..
But come one, have faith in God's hands ok?

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I wanna try reading a book from this author Burhan Sodiq - Ya Allah aku jatuh cinta.
I wonder if its a good read. Hees. Hopefully soon~ If i can get the book. hees.

5:43 AM back to top?

• So i told Juli, on Chrismas Day, 25december today.. that i wanna quit FA.
Then she asked.. work for her lagi lah till Chinese new year, in February 2011.
& i replied, "I'll think about it...".

There's always the i want something, but i just dont know when can i get it.

Let's see...
I probably can cope with school and work - Insyaallah.
I think ive been pretty greedy for money? :( Like being crazy working, eventhough i got my allowance every month. Hmm..

& there's one more thing, which have been on my mind.
-What about him? Z-carebear?

If i quit, i wonder what's gonna happen between us.
We wont be able to walk home anymore, unless i take time and effort to meet up with him and so on.
We're still status 'Just Friends', although a 'Lover' somewhat.
There wont be anymore holding hands and getting kissed, which i like but will be missed-although i know its a NONO good thing. Hehhs.
Well you know.. The feeling of actually being loved by somebody.

Ive always been wondering, if he is the right one.
Well.. He is pretty sweet and nice and all those stuffs! (:
But probably i just want MORE in this what-you-call-it Relationship/friendship we're having.
I'm sorry... If im being such a fickle-minded person or whatever, but its just that, if i were to have a boyfriend, i would like to have someone who is a listening ear and the "I'll be there for you, if you need me, baby" that kind of person.
Someone who i can depend and count on!

Ive always been having trouble with finding that someone who i can depend on.
The day before, i broke down and cried for God knows stupid reason.. So while i was walking back home, i scrolled down my phone contacts since i need somebody to talk to but....
But no one was able to answer my calls, or in fact if they answer, what the hell am I gonna tell them?
No one was there.

But hey you know... one miracle thing happened. Z-carebear finally called me back for god knows how manyy times Ive tried calling him already. It was upsetting at first, since he didn't pick up my calls-the "i thought I could depend on you but you aren't the one", but I cooled down once I talk and listen to his voice. So yeahh I'm glad. -although I didn't actually tell him almost everything but its ok. (: heees.

Oh well. There might be something real between us two.. - WHO KNEW?

11:59 PM Thursday, December 23, 2010 back to top?

•

@7.03pm, Today;

Hatiku hampa :(

Masih terasa sentuhmu...

Tak taulah.. these days macam melancholy gitu.. terkenang akan masa yang lalu.
heeehs. lols.
I guess its because of New Year coming, Fireworks, and the "We've been through it all" thing... Hmmm..
Hees.

12:35 AM Wednesday, December 22, 2010 back to top?

• I wonder when will goodbye ever comes.
Im waitng... Still waiting...










&Maybe there might be something real between us two...- Who knew?

2:27 AM Tuesday, December 14, 2010 back to top?

• Its been tough the past few days. Im so held up tight.

I wanna just drop down and stare. Stare up at the sky. The stars, the wind blowing. The breeze and the sea.

Im shagged. When? When can i breathe easily?
Ive been enduring. Few more days. Few more days baby, till its over. Over.

Patient please, dear... :'(

You know those moments, where you just FEEL like going somewhere. Ive had that thoughts/craved for a few days already.

Every time when i sat at McD near MSQ overlooking the Esplanade and the sky.. Ive always had that thought of "Hey, i wanna go to the Esplanade Rooftop. Take a deep breath, the air and the pretty sky, the sea."

The rain breeze, makes me FEEL in revisiting the Beach again. You asked me why? Those memories, the sky, the breeze, the colour of the sea, as usual.

One of those days.

9:28 PM Wednesday, December 1, 2010 back to top?

• Its been so long since ive last blog. Haha.
Its December 1st today. Hmm... Aww...
Man! A few more days till 2010 is over huh? Hees.

Lots of things happened while i wasnt blogging. Hmm yeaa. I was here and there.
Catching up on things and catching up on my heart as well. Haha.

Im not broken. Just feeling contented and bless. Thank you God. (:

There is someone that i like currently. In love? Well yeahh probably so.
We've been going out a few times for the past few weeks. Talking and laughing about things.

I realised, When a couple holds hands, they interlock their fingers together. They dont usually as in 'cup' their hands. Uh-huh! Lols.

I once had a conversation with Annisaa. I said, "The best thing about a boyfriend is that he is like a TABLE!". Yes table. A table where you can just dump your bag, wallet and whatever for him to hold. HAHAHA.
Seee?
I even once said that a Boyfriend is like a 'pole' or a 'pillow' too right? Someone whom you can lean on and act as a cushion for you to sleep. Hmm.. :D

Hees, Well.. We're not officially together yet.
He likes me, & i like him. But im just waiting to see if it's worth a try. It probably is. Soon, ok? (: Be patient.

Because didnt i once said, The next time i fall, i wanna fall in love so deep with someone whom i think 'This is it, Its him", where i shall say "He's the one". :D HAHAHA.

He's sweet. Really sweet. I cant believe he can shop-ed! -.-"
Oh, his name is Z-Carebear (:
Well Carebear, because he'd given me a Carebear out of the blue. Which really surprises me out! Hees. Thank you.