Grrr.... Ive been making a new blog layout for this blog for hours. Still.. Its not what i expected it to be. Sheeshhh. Unsuccessful! There are some codes which is wrong, that i need to figure out. Hmm... Maybe one day, i'll continue it again. Hehhs.
Something makes my heart beat faster just now. But too bad, a few minutes/seconds later its gone.
Maybe its kinda good too. Cause i would not know what the heck i should or would be doing later on.. -BAKA, Asyura. :/
School today was......? Hmm.. The same. -_-'
Physic lesson today, Mr Phoa looks sick. Hmmm.. I feel sad/concerned for him though. Hehh.
I gotta revise my Physic! My physic like crap. I dont wanna blame it on the teacher though. Its my fault and i do know my weakness.
Asyura, you gotta study like crazy, okiee? Remember this year resolution? And yesterday event? ((: -heh. im telling myself that.
So anyway, after Physic was MT lesson. When its time for the Malay students to go to other class, i watched My Phoa walked by. -I perhatikan dia. He was walking like wanting to faint like that. Like very slow and kinda walking as if he is in dizziness. Ohh, and he was carrying his bag too.
Dont know why, but then hati mula tergerak hendak buat sesuatu. Hehh. -Maybe i was feeling sad for him. Or probably im a person who is just compassionate. Haha.
So yea.. I approached Mr Phoa. Then ask him, "Teacher, are you ok?" Then he said, "Been feeling sick for the past few days..." -atcually, im kinda like surprised when he said that straighforwardly. Cause you know people.. Who always says that theyre fine when theyre not. Out of nowhere, i said to him.. "Ohh.. Let me help you carry your bag.." Then he was like, "Ah... Really?" Me, "Ya." He replied, "Ohh ok then."
Haha. So we walk together to the staff room. On the way, we talk some stuffs. Mostly, it was me who open up the question. Haha. Like, the library book he was holding-this library book have been lying in our class for god know how many months. Yet no one is bothered to help return it back. Then he said that he's gonna return it back to the library, since his house is near a library. Then i asked him where he lived. He told me that he lived in Marine Parade. Haha. -I onced saw him before at MP library. But if im not wrong, at that time, i wasnt his student and he dont know me. Hees.
Im a curious person you know... So i went to asked him "Cher, are you married?" -_________-" hahahahahaha. He answered, "No." "Then your age, eh?" "Hmm.. 33".
Haha. Surprised? You readers were actually thinking that i have a crush on him right? hahaha. Soo no no no. :D
Reached staff room already. Said "Byee". Then off i went to MT class.
Stupid people! Grr.. He's actually nice and funny as wells as quite a good teacher. Its just that people took him for granted. And started pointing finger at him-i mean blaming him- for the things they dont understand about the subject. Ive been watching them okiee. They were talking among themselves and obviously their body language were'nt interested in listening to him. I can totally relate to how he's feeling about it. Hehh.
-i wont tell anyone that he's married. Hehh.-got lah why... also there's the part when i talk to him about him did taught VJC before.. For which i didnt probe on that matter much. Hehh. Its funny how he said that those people, very slack one and do things last minute.. -__-"
Ohh.. Somehow.. Sometimes... Ive been feeling that i kind of hate it here. Its really annoying, the noise. Pfft. Escape.. Runaway. Hah! *roll eyes*
An example, last Sunday... After that incident.. I was kind of feeling that i cant take it staying here. Its demoralising me. Felt as if as if i want to be far far way from here. So yea.. I went out of here to a place. Hehh. -I do good stuffs there, you idiots. Hahs! Wont tell what.
Oh hey.. I think ive probably find my secret/bestest place to hide. Haha. ;D
Ahh.. I miss you, Adri. )): ILY. ♥
~`Kau bagaikan pelangi yang hadir selepas hujan turun suram. ((: Hehe. Good nite, Dear Love.
Had Science Practical exam today. Physic.. Pfttt.. I surely made stupid mistakes. Chemistry was darn easy. Nasib baik for physic, Mr poon got kind of tell me what to do.. if not my physic is pointless to measure. But still i just hope i'll pass physic practical. When i came home, and went to sleep. I cant forget about todays' event. Doing stupid mistake in Physic. Hah!
Then after our shift ended, those people who are shift 1 (me) are to be "locked up" inside Av Theatre.
Nadiah and me sat together. We started to talk then. -Honestly, yea.. Its been a long time since we did actually 'Talk'. Hehh. -You can blame me. I was the one who kinda avoid her. Hehh. Sorry.
Then we talk talk some stuffs. Her family problems. Her Sinda/tuition/friends etc. My stuffs. We also talk about HMT and Malay. And our future school for which whether it would be a Junior College or a Poly. I told her... That, if we're going to Poly, taking HMT is TAK GUNA. Then we discuss, about dropping HMT or not about it. As our Malay sadly is a B3. Still dah bayar untuk exam, so yea.. we decided to still stick to HMT.
Later on, we discuss and write our aims. I was the one who writes it.
I wrote Nadiah's name and her aiming for L1R5. The highest score for which she gotta aim and her lowest score for which if she falls a bit behind. Haha. Her highest is 15 and lowest is 19/20. There's still hope to go JC since minus 4 points. Haha.
Then i too, wrote mine. The highest score which i want to aim is 10 points. While the lowest is 15. Haha. There. Ive already told you my goals and achievement. Hees. Lets hope i can get it. ((;
After that, the paper i wrote for Nadiah, i wrote a piece of note for her behind the paper. Wrote encouraging stuffs to her. Its sort of like a Pact/Promise thing. Cause you know... Sometimes we're scared and our confidence would waver up and down as time passes by. So by writing that note, its is like an encouragement for us both. Hehe
After writing the note for her. She wrote me a note on the back of my paper. HAHA. :D
Hmmm... By the way, on her paper... I wrote: "TREATY OF AV THEATRE". see? This means an agreement. I got that idea from the book infront of me that time which was my history textbook. I was reading on Germany. And you do know that Germany did sign a "TREATY OF VERSAILES" Hahaha.
So yea... Thats how i got that idea. For which, im not wrong Germany signed that treaty at Versailes. So for us both, we signed/did it Av Theatre. Haha. ;D
Gotta work hard! (: I feel joyous about this "note" you know. Hehh.
By the way, A new favourite/nice song which ive just heard for the first time since last Sunday was... Rihanna - Take A Bow. Woww! Im really impress with that song. Hehh. Its really nice. Listen to it.
I know, there's something wrong.... But i dont know the truth. And im scared to know the real truth. I kept on denying just to cover the truth, i know that now. But still....
I dont know. I dont know. I dont know what to do now... Im feeling tired of this, but i kept on clinging.
I dont wanna hope so much.. )':
~`A blank paper, just empty words there. Indescribable, i'll say.
There's this song which i like now. Haha. ;D
And also a song from her called Desperate. Both songs are very meaningful, the lyrics i mean. Hees.
I cant seem to blog now a days. Its not because this blog have problem or whatsoever... Its just that... The past few days/weeks... Everytime i wanna blog, the computer isnt infront of me. Then when it is infront of me, i just dont have the mood to blog. -___- Sheessshh.
Things and stuffs had happened the past few days. Some are joyful, cheerful, melancholy and sad moments. So yea...
Hmmm... Should i write it down here? Well... Its gonna be a long post.
BEWARE!
------ 10 April, My Birthday! -obviously ;D Was really glad that there are a few people who wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And also, some sign off with "WITH LOVE" or "I LOVE YOU!". Wahhh... i feel so loved. Haha.
I like Raeesah's message. Haha. Very funny. I shall write it down here. "Happy birthday! To you! All the love to you darling ashus! The leader of the malay choir pack! Love you love you love you. Muaks." Haha. Banyak kau nye leader of the malay choir pack! Lols.-__-"
Im glad you remembered my birthday. HAHA :D Or else, i would really really be unhappy if you dont remember. Hehe. But the sad part is, thats not the words which i want to hear/see from you -im making these complicated, and by the way the words im referring to isnt Happy Birthday another WORDS/PHRASE. :/ Hehh. Its alright though (:
Had Choir that day. My last day in Choir-stepping down already. Had sort of a farewell gift by the juniors to the seniors. Each one of us seniors received a puzzle with a message by the juniors to that senior. I also received. For me, i shall say "Thank you for the effort and the rememberance" about that last day of choir.(: Then when its about time we end choir, the WHOLE CHOIR sang me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG! Haha. Thank you. Thank you. *beaming brightly.* Lol.
I asked Nurin, how they know its my birthday. And i also pointed out, is it you Nurin?!. Haha. Then she admit yes. Hehe.
Me, Nurin and Syahadah walked out of school to the Bubble Tea shop, our last day together-Too bad Raeesah didnt come. Hmmph. On the way there, we walked linking our arms together. Haha. Very funny and cute, to me lah. haha. It'll be better if we did take a photo of it, but still without Raeesah its not the same.. You know.. I mean like, us doing the action TOGETHER.
So yea.. Thats what happened.
Ohhh!! I forgot to mention about my ABANG! My brother, Rahman! :D I pretty much was super duper shocked from him, okiee! I'll tell you what happened.
I was sleeping in my bed. Then i felt a presence beside me. Someone tap on my arm. I opened my eyes and i saw that it was my brother.
My Brother said "Nahh.. Happy Birthday" as he gave me these notes which i took it from him. I said "Thank you!" to him. Later on, he walked away.
When i say NOTE, i mean Money$$. :D So yea.. My surronding was dark. I took a look at it. Then i find myself saying, deep inside "Ohh.. okiee. $50 dollars." This is what my brother always gives during my birthday for around the past 3 years. At that time, i was thinking that the $50 was what he always gives me, so yea i dont think too much about it...
Few minutes later, i found myself thinking.. "Ehh.. asal ni duit ni macam ada banyak/berat gitu?". This is because, the money is folded. Then i rub rub the money lah. Haha. Then i went to open the note, forming into a rectangular shape.
And TAAADAAAAA!! I found out that there is a TWO $50 notes! A total of $100 ABANG kasi!! ~~Wohooo! haha.
I swear i was surprised. I didnt knew that he still remembered about the conversation we had in the kitchen. Haha. Wanna know what we're talking about? That day, while we're eating.. I started out with "Abang.. nanti birthday asyura kasi asyura $92 boleh?". He replied, "Buat ape/asal?" Me, "Sebab asyura nak lagi $92 lah untuk beli handphone. The phone cost $392. Abeh asyura cuma ada $300 which ayahanda kasi. So i need another $92. Boleh tak abang kasi? Please.."-i say it sambil senyum-senyum like this *:D* Then he said.. "Ala.. Tak nak.." "Huhh? Asal?" "Sebab asyura jahat..." -_- Then my muka dah macam beruk. Haha . Dah muka sedih tapi i hide dari terlihat dari abang. *:(( to :]* Hehh. Then i dah merajuk lah.. In my mind i was thinking, "Tak guna lah mintak dari abang lagi since he said that he dont wanna give. Hmmph :/"
So yea... Imagine my surprise when i found out he gave me a $100! haha. Wahhh.. Abang baik ah! Haha. ------ 13 April, Madrasah- a few days after my brithday. I received a Ferrero Rocher box from Herani, Zunairah and Nadiah. Its this big box that contains 18 chocolates inside. Haha. Was surprised when after i came inside the classroom from buying food, i found a box at my chair. Haha. :D
Annisaa too did give me a present!
Thank you. (: ------ Last Tuesday, 15 April. Raeesah's last day in school. She got transfer to another school the next day, which is St Joseph Institution International (SJI). Dont know why she transfer. She just said that "Its better for me". Haizz..
So ive received the present Raeesah bought for me on that day. A Princess Diaries Vol 9 book! Haha. Something which i really want-its the last series of the book, okiee. Lols. But i havent read the book yet as i dont wanna know the ending right now and im busy with things these past few days-concentrate on revsing, exams coming. Though the temptation is kinda calling me to read it. Haha. (:
Before i met Raeesah, i went to see Nurin. She was looking for me. The thing that makes me sad was seeing Nurin cry because of Raeesah's leaving. I didnt know that Nurin can be soo emotional. Heh. That just shows that she's caring and have a heart! Hees~ But its okiee, i understand her. I mean.. Yea... The THREE of us, Raeesah, Nurin and me have been friends for around 3 years! We always heve fun together and laugh out loud like nobody's business. Then when we're going home from choir, its really funny that all of us behaves like crazy and mepek-mepek. Hah. And not forgetting the mencela-cela things-the bad stuffs/comments- we said about choir and the people there and how we agree on the comment! Haha. ;D
This is what Nurin says "Ehh... apalah Raeesah. Its like we've been together eversince 3 years ago. We were really close. But then suddenly she got to go transfer to another school. Beh aku alone sey. Kau pun sama takda..(she's referring to me, Asyura-cause i step down already)." ): -i swear it was really touching! Haizz...
Later on we took pictures of the 3 of us. Our last memories...
Its sad. Both Nurin and me wonders.. Would our friendship still remains the same, now that Raeesah is gone? Hmm.. i dont know. Maybe a bit different? In my opinion, life have got to move on right? You cant still stay in the past. You got to let go. But sometimes, although we're far away, it doesnt mean that we would not remember each other right? -gosshhh, i cant explain this part. Its kinda complicated. Hah!
Anyway, we SHALL go out together one day. We'll bring along the rest of the Malay choir too! Who cares if people call us racist. HOHOHO. -hmm.. i wonder who was the one who started saying out that its racist? HAHA. (;
------ 19 April, yesterday. I went out with Nurin. We went to National Library together to study/revise. Both of us mostly studied Physic then do a bit of Math.
The irony is that... Nurin, a triple pure student vs me, Asyura a combine science(Phy & Chem) asked me on about Physic question! haha. -.^ Lols.
So yea... im glad that i can answer her queries. Haha. Cool, I explain to her the science stuffs. Hoho.
Wanna know something... Im actually not that good with Physic. HAHA. :D Hmm... Im that type of student who is 'Boleh tahan/okok' in this subject. Usually i got around 60%. Haha.
Remember that time, during a holiday, i went out with Adri. I asked him to tell me how to do and gives me the answers for all the Physic questions hw! Haha. Thanks to him, ive finished doing all the Physic hw. Laugh out loud. Blueks :D
I know that i have much much potential to excel. Hehe ;D If only i could grasp the concept and understand Physic deeply. -__-" Heh heh.
On the way home, Nurin and me walk past the shops inside the shopping mall. I bought her this Cat keychain for her. It is as a token of memory for her. My last good bye and thank you to her. Hehe. Also i know that she loves cat and and also babies-which everytime i would hear her say "Awww.. Dia cuteeee.." O.O haha. So yea.. Bought that and gave it to her. Its nice lah. Haha. :D
Took pictures on the way home. (; I send Nurin home. Then walk towards my house. Haha. It was around 10.30 when Nurin went home. And I was like very baik hati to her saying... "You want me hantar you straight ke depan pintu rumah you ke pe atau kat sini(lift) aje?" HAHAHA. ;D Seriously, i have all the time in the world, okiee. Im not that scared coming home late in the night, anyway its not that late. Ive just reached home arount 10.40 around there. Haha. Anyway, Nurin did asked "Hantar kan aku balik boleh..?" Then i didnt say a word to her. Then few minutes later she tengah menrungut kata she kena balik rumah cepat sebab her dad just called. So yea... I told her "Okiee lah. I hantar you balik rumah. Jom..." Then she happy! -.- Haha.
There's a full moon yesterday. Ohh wait, is it really full? Its somehow according to Nurin, the full moon came out the day before. So now i guess the moon is dissappearing lah. Haha. I cant see stars that night. It wasnt bright. Lols. ------ Today, 20 April. Madrasah was the same as before.
Well today... An interesting thing happened. Im kinda.. Shy to write out here. Hehh. Its kinda umm embarrassing.. -i guess. Heh :D
Hehe.. I shall write here. Okiee. Brace yourself. Lols.
On the way home, in the bus... Me and Zunairah were walking down the aisle of the bus. While walking... I noticed a guy-whom i dont know. Then somehow, that guy really look familiar. I caught his face while walking, he was sitting down.
In my heart i was saying "Hmm... That guy? Is it him? Really? No it couldnt be. I probably tersalah orang.. Hmm.. But honestly, OMG his face looks like Adri -_^". Yea yea.
Then me and Zunairah took a seat behind him. I was like... WTF!! HE LOOKS LIKE HIM LAHHH!! *_*
I told Zu about it. Then she said.. "Hmm im not sure. I didnt see his face properly. No lah.. Not him lah.." She add on, "I think right Asyura... I think you really really miss Adri alot until you think that that person looks like him". HAHAHAHA. In my mind i was like "Banyak kau nye.. Until you think that that person looks like him. Sheesh*-_-*" lols.
But, one of the things she said was right. I guess.. I really really really do MISS him a lot. *sigh* :/
Wahhh sad sad T.T ------
Hmm... Shit. I think pd is coming thats why im thinking of all these emo-emo things. Pfft. Wondering about this certain stuffs have left me feeling very.....(i dont know) speechless?
Thank you for all that dearest darlings. It have truly been really wonderful.
The thing about birthday, which im looking forward upon every year is always... The thoughts of those people who remembered me and wishing me a very happy birthday.
Some days, i find myself wondering.. Have i done enough? Have i created fragments of beautiful memories? Have i make an impact in other people's life? Yea... I guess i did.
Like i said, I love you darlings. For your existence, support, making a different in my life and the smiles and laughters we've shared.
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN, to ASYURA !! :DD *SQUEALS* Haha.
Another year older, it is.
Somehow, it feels nothing much. Haha. It just shows that its been 16 year i have lived in this world. Lols.
I hope for this year to be a very WONDERFUL year! Pleasee~ Lots of SMILES & LAUGHTERS in my life.
Also, to get veryyy goood O Level grades. To be like Adri. HAHA. :D Hmmm.. then Go to Victoria JC. Hees~~ Well, im writing these down.. Im not that smart, i know that. BUT IM GONNA TRY HARD !!
Fcuk damn it. I dont care about that thing anymore. Forget what i said about wanting it. Its always been like this isnt it? Hoping and in the end it didnt come. Whatever. Darn you.
)):
People asked me Stup-endous questions. And its really irritating and annoying to answer back. Pfft -.-'
Grunts. I'll cool down soon. And will forget about these stuffs happening. -Yea.. thats me. Forget and move on. O.o
Okiee. I'll look on the bright side.
Firstly, on Wednesday-Hml class. Ive finished writing my karangan peribahasa during that period of time! Wooohooo.. Its considered as an accomplishment okiee. Because usually i spent more than 1hr plus doing karangan. Not only that, this is peribahasa karangan im talking about-supposedly hard to write. Lols. My second time writing peribahasa karangan! You know.. the first time i wrote my peribahasa karangan i spent more than 3 hours on it! Yea.. of course lah.. i wonder around-cant concentrate thereby did something else. Hoho :D
Secondly, My report book. Ive received it last friday. All of it pass. Except for the first test for History. And the first test for E.Math. Could you believe it that i failed my E.Math?? They always say E.Math supposedly to be easy. Well.. Believe it! I failed and thats evidence! -__-" Ive totally slacked lah.. Haizz. About Core Geography. Surprising both tests i pass! Weehooo. Another accomplishment. Cause last year, almost the tests i always fail. Haha. Im not sure if its because now im studying Human Geograohy not Physical Geography though. :D Anyway, Ms Shawa said that if my result which is both around 60.. Whereby if i kept myself constant and improving and adding with my Physical Geography i could at least got A2. Whoaa... Okiee. Haha, I'll try i guess ;DD -i hope so.
Lastly, tomorrow's SPEECH DAY!! That day, yesterday, Thursday.. I did my rehearsal. For NE i said my speech. And DARN! i said it tooo fast! And im not very well verse in it. Ahh. Cause i didnt actually memorise by heart. Hehh hehh. I did memorise it now. And the thing that still stays the same is that i kept on talking soo fast! I really gotta slow down my speech. Hmm... I'll try, i'll try... Shall practice again later. Hehh. I just hope that tomorrow I WONT MESS UP! ((:
By the way, my neew favourite songs are from Colbie Caillat. Such as her song, Bubbly, Realize, Oxygen and Littlest thing. Check it out. Its Nice. ;D
Now im soo over with Marcos Hernandez with his song The Way I Do. Haha :D
Hmmm.. Nothing much to talk about now. I'll stop here.
I guess others will realize their mistakes once they've fallen down. But its too late to catch them self up again once they've fallen down.
And sometimes reality can be so cruel.
Thus others hope for a miracle to happen. And then youre given a second chance.
And with that you ought to give all your best in it! (: -just a reminder for me.
Hmm... Some weeks ago, i was filing up my papers. And i saw this English paper 'Goals & Achievement' that my English teacher told us to write. When i read that paper at that time, i was pretty proud of myself. Haha. -by the way, i actually have forgotten about that paper and the things ive wrote. Haha :DD But blahhh! i didnt actually really do the things ive wrote ): Haizz..
And also that O Level Malay paper. That paper which wrote 'B3'. Haizzz... I was soo disappointed when i look at it. You know that feeling whereby you placed a high hope on certain things that you wanted so badly and then it didnt turn out as expected. It came tumbling down and youre crush? Yea.. Thats it.
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
I loves the rain, seeing the raindrops from my window.
Staring up at the big blue sky, laying down.
10:15 PM
Wednesday, April 30, 2008 back to top?
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
