2:08 AM Sunday, December 15, 2013 back to top?

• Read my previous blog entries..
AND i still love this quote:
Hehehe. Cute kan!?  :D Apakah ini peluang or passings-by... ataupun ini takdir, Soulmate?

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• Sometimes, i find myself thinking, that Asyura... You deserve better than this.
Drop him dear.

Havent you ever wanted and prayed and also sujud, saying "Oh Allah, gives me the best, for you are the best of givers. gives me someone who when he reads the Al-Quran he read it so nicely and expressively till it'll make me fall in love with him and his voice, and when he talks he talks with kindness an which he tell me stories of the Prophets and Sahabat which will help me increase in knowledge and wisdom, and Ya Allah, when we will meet each other, we already knew and feel hat he/she is the one for us. So guide us, Ya Allah".

But then now... somehow i wonder where my passion have gone to? Where are those  ideals you spoke of?
Hmmmm..

Its not that i dont love/like Ean.. he's very kind, sweet and patient btw! (:
Very very...

Then sometimes i always wonder, if this love...?
But if this is love Before marriage, isnt it just Devil's play? :(
So if i truly love him, i should let him go, right... Because it not supposed to be this way

But i guess.. part of me couldnt. Because of this/our relationship.
Maybe because of all those sweet things he did for me, the long waitings he've waited for me, those glad to see you after a hard days at work, the sometimes i bully him just to be 'manja' and being a princess for the day. HEEES.
Work been tough lately, well it have always been. But much better now, insyaAllah
Maybe its the letting go of him which will hurt him which i dont want to hurt him.

Because you know, he have always been my closed and bestfriend eversince ive met him. We've been always contacting and meetings frequently. He was there for me.-though i know ppl wont alwys be there, its's Allah, therefore they'll say seek help and guidance from Allah.; I know that.

But, but, but... i dont know why... I guess part of me will say, 'apakah aku good enough for my soulmate yet?' I wonder.
Kerana sayang, kau sungguh jauh dariku sekarang.

Well you only need the light when it's burning low;
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow;
Only know you love her(/him) when you let her(/him) go;
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low;
Only hate the road when you're missing home; 
Only know you love her(/him) when you let her(/him) go;
And you let her(/him) go....

Im not being angry or upset about him.
im not a good person b. 
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