2:46 AM Friday, April 4, 2014 back to top?

• Ok.. Next time...
Bila aku bangun tengah malam...

Akan aku solat Istikharah! (: InsyaAllah. Hees.

Ok. Ilal liqa wa lail saeed.

2:36 AM back to top?

• I feel restless yet sad yet empty.

Maybe I know the reason why, maybe not.

Just a little down...

It's 2am in the morning. And I need to sleep as I'm working in the morning 7am. Don't wanna be late again...

A'ah... Pathetic.
Sometimes I feel pathetic for not having a very close friends by my side.
Don't get me wrong.. I got best friends, just that sometimes they're too far away or busy.. Or those whom I love but unable to meet. So it's sad.

Hmm by the way, Efyn! Alhamdulillah!  I think he's engage!  Hehe. I knew without being told. And I'm soo sire he's pretty happy right now. Amin.

Hahaha..  Kalau lah dialebih baik lagi kan bagus... Hmm... Tapi dia tengah trying.

Dan.. Aku? Entah...

Cita-cita dahulu nak jadi cikgu atau ustazah. Hehe... But SLPI walaupun complete but takda sijil sebab pasal itu subjects. Hmmm A Level Syariah pula tak pass.. Hmm I know I can do better.
Wonder when did I stopped trying? I need that adrenaline pumping.feelings again.

Cita cita... Nak ambil degree in Nursing, tapi sekarang dah malas nak belajar. Entah... Mungkin tak suka tu feeling of inferior or competitive. Ataupun sebab dah ambil degree... Masih ke nak continue nursing? Macam nak nangis je setiap hari kerje... Haizz.

Cita cita... Nak jadi Qariah! Fuyyoo... SYABAS! Hehehe.
Sedapkan their voices when they baca AlQuran? (: bukan ape... Semoga dengan ada hati dan niat nak jadi Qariah semoga aku jatuh cinta dengan AlQuran, Allah dan Rasulullah s.a.w. Dan semoga aku senantiasa membaca AlQuran dengan merdunya. Tapi tanpa niat riyak dan lainnya.

Cita cita... Nak quit nursing.. Atau part time nurse, beh nak terus focus dalam mata pelajaran Islam.
Nak gi full time madrasah ke ape. Heehs.
Bagus jugak kan...? (: rindu pada Ilmu sekarang. dah takda madrasah sekarang mcm dah jadi bodoh and mcm buat banyak dosa gitu. Hmmph.

Cita cita... Macam tak nak jadi girlfriend boleh? :/ sebab... Tak bagus very-relationship.
Tapi.. Kalau takda bf.. Nanti saya keseorangan diri, layan diri and buat semua sendiri... Sebab sekarang dialah Close friend saya sekarang.

Cita cita... Nak kahwin. Tapi.... Betulkah aku ingin mengahwini dengan dia? Hee rasa tak baik sey... Takut I bully dia. Haha.
Tapi nak kahwin takda rumah and harta macam mana?
Abeh kalau nak kahwin but wait few years later to kahwin... Harga HDB flats semakin tinggi... Mana mungkin boleh bayar tu debts :(
Abeh semakin memperpanjangankan perkahwinan tak bagus sebab dosakan.

Cita cita... Nak jadi seperti Cinta puteri Fatimah R.A dengan Sayidina Ali R.A. Saling-menyaling dalam diam cinta dan doa one another.
Tapi... Sekarang dah attach pun... Unless kena break lah.. Hmm

Perasaan perasaan....
Oh Allah.. Ease my affairs.