4:29 PM Wednesday, September 30, 2009 back to top?

• Semoga hari ini lebih baik daripada semalam, & esok lebih baik daripada hari ini.

-lalu akhirnya kita berpisah~~

8:56 PM Monday, September 28, 2009 back to top?

• Hahs. I want this feelings back.
-Those nostalgic feeling!

Those feelings, when you heart starts to lurch, youre caught in your breath. & you feel as if there's butterfly in your stomach.
As well as the feelings of the rain breeze brushing upon my skin and the breathe in of the freshly cold rain breezes.
:D ! *hees~

Hmm.. I dont know what else to say. lols.

Oh!
I feel like watching Korean drama FULL HOUSE! HAHAHS. Looks kinda fun. ^^
But not now though hopefully one day! xD -after attachments.

After last week of attachment, the next week is a holidays, i hope i'll be able to work Famous Amos for the whole of 5 days-the weekdays!
Aww.. This week i have no FA work, cause of schedules clash. -I think she abit pissed with me for not being able to work? hahs.
Sorry sorry, for not telling in advance about schedule. hees~

Syura! Remember Princess Hours? xD Hahas.
You used to stay up all night watching and hurrying up to finish the dramas. hahas.

Wells, im supposed to finish up Sejarah Islam projek now -_____-' But im distracted! Wahahas.

Nadzeef is one of my closest and best nice friends in NYP. ^^
I appreciate our friendship!(: Thank you. Hees.

1:01 AM Friday, September 25, 2009 back to top?

• Hence, i bought Pokka Apple Tea because it reminds me of APPLE! hees (:
-a code name you somehow given me.

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Attachment today was a morning shift, 7AM-3PM.
Pretty alright, kinda busy. Though to me, i learn alot of stuffs.
Okiees.

A friend of mine says that I Am GILA. Hahs!
Why?
Cause I attachment from 7-3PM. Then after that i go visit nenek at the same hospital too. Then at 6PM today i went Famous Amos work.
Penat ye asyura? hahas..
Err kinda uh. i wonder how the heck am i gonna wake up tmr. Gotta bangun at 530AM. Hopefully i wont procrastinate!
& im planing not to come late! Gagagaggaga xD

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About "Adorable vlanDra", we're not very friendly these days. As in happily and cheerfully chatting long conversation.
Maybe because he got exam uh. So thats why the busy.
However, a part of me still bugs me. Hehs.
Are we still gonna stay stagnant or a possibility of climbing up the obstacles? Is there is? If so when?
Haha wadever asyura, remember... Sometimes when you look at the pictures of his friends and him.. You cant help but feel inferior sometimes, dont cha? Yea..? Hahs. (;

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Oh i hope Jalan Raya with madrasah friends jadi! ^^
Hees. October 10 yea? Saturday, hopefully. Hmm i still havent inform them and Ustazah Salbiah.
Ahhh i miss Ustazah Salbiah.

Oh yea.. Also,
My Sem 5 Tafsir Ustaz also!-eeek i forgot his name -.-' hehs.
Oh i remembered. If im not wrong Ustaz Azhari! :DD
I like his lesson. Very thought provoking. Hehehes ((:

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I feel as if im missing something. Hahs!
T.T
-Im not sure what it is.

11:46 PM Tuesday, September 22, 2009 back to top?

• Apa yang ku ingin adalah Ketulusan Hati.
Sesuatu yang ku masih ingin memperbaiki kan diri sendiri ini. -tanpa rasa riya'.
Insyaallah.

Today first clinical attachment. Shall not go into details though.
It was alright, more to orientation. Hands-on should be tmr.
I kept on thinking, can i really do it? What if things happen? How far is my capability and knowledge?-LEFT ME TO WONDER.
Cause im still kinda scared, doubtful & butterflies.

All i know is that, i shouldnt lose sight of my reasons as to why i join nursing!
When around Subuh time today, i remembered this sentence during the RYC:
"Hub bun Minaallah, wa Hub bun Minan-naas", Syura remember that ok!
Jalan menuju Allah, dan Jalan menuju Manusia -something like that. Hees (:

Dear God,
Im still trembling to walk this pathway. But i know that, this is one of the steps towards reaching you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. T.T *sobs.

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Tak sangka, Mak Dah, tinggal next to Temasek Junior College! I didnt realised that! hahs.
Cik Atan drives me today after sending Mak Dah to her house so thats why we pass by there.
-nenek masuk hospital today, thats why i saw my aunties and uncle.

When i pass by the TJC...
Rasa begitu nostalgik dan sayu hati merenungkan.

Remember the time, where whenever i passed by the school:
"

I would always feel amaze, anxious, agony and hopeful?
Feeling that i wanna be in the same school as my boyfriend.
Oh gossh the school is so big. I wonder whats its like inside?
Will i see him today? Who knows we suddenly cross-path and meet? hehe ^^.
Urgghhh.. I looked crappy if i suddenly meet him.
Ahh... To whatever to him, i dont care.-though part of me feel attached/cared.
Alright alright fine! Once again i hope to see him again pretty please?

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Well yeah, lotsa things were in my mind.
I guess, for me the most wonderous thing was being hopeful in meeting him again. Hees! :D

Im fine. Really im fine.
Both of us knows that its pretty much time for us to move on. Yeahh..
Officially? Not yet.
-Not sure if its gonna be silent, or meet up-sending cards! hahas.

Read this:
As I weigh the meaning of those words,
One thing became very clear.
There was no hope for us.
But even if our feelings for each other were dying…
I found myself wondering, the fragment pieces of memories we created were fond and beautiful, my dear.
Thank you, even if its bitter-sweet(:

~`Seperti apa yang telah saya katakan,
Ketulusan hati. Unconditional Love and Acceptance from a person to another.

5:56 AM Monday, September 14, 2009 back to top?

• Im sorry, I kept on falling!
):

Lots of things happened. Hmm blunders here and there.
As well as pending thoughts and actions.
Hmm..


~`Ryuusei.