Well.. I have to go and print the Maths paper, Mr Arul gave me. So i went to the shop at night with Hakim, my lil bro. Like about 9.15pm went out of house. The shop is located near the Eunos CC. It was about 9.30pm when we reach there. But the shop was closed.
Then i called some friends-who lives near my house- asking them if they can help to print. But they say their house cant print.
Then i asked Amelina for Fauzan's number. Dum di dum di dum..
Well.. I went to Fauzan's house to print the papers. Cause Fauzan's house is just next to my block. Block 115, me 116. Lols
Umm.. At first he said cannot. Then he called me back saying he said that his mum kasi. Hehh. I guess its kinda like his first time a friend come to his house. Also its a girl. HAH!
Anyway as i went there, his mum was very welcoming!! haha. At night pula datang rumah orang. lols.
She still remember me. Hehh hehh hehh. The girl who membuat persembahan dengan fauzan, saling membaling pantun.. ;Which by the way.. At the end of the majlis SHE gave me $5 !-yea.. i still remmber. Haha.
The house okiee la, nice nice. Fauzan ada bilik sendiri, computer sendiri, toilet pun sendiri 0_o Wahhh... Must be great having no one to share with-though it'll be lonely.
At there, i print my stuffs. Also Fauzan's mum sediakan me air coke and cookies. Whooossh sedapp babe!
Yea.. And i can talk naturally with Fauzan's mum. Haha. Cool. I can communicate with an elderly. Also with her, i dont feel kekok. Hees.
By the way.. I got two baju kebaya from Fauzan's mum which she gave me. Lols. Cause it was atcually for her but the tailor made it like teengaer's size, so she cant fit in it.. Hence she gave me. Wuahaha.
Ohh.. She asked me to try the baju.. So i tried. Guess what!? When i tried the baju.. *Gasped*"Ahh.. Syura.. Cantik Cantik lah awak pakai baju itu! "-with a snile on her face, Fauzan's mother said that.
Im like whoa... This must really be nice till her reaction shows like that. Hehe. The baju is a kebaya. One is in kinda silver in colour while the kain is silver and black. Another is in blue colour while the kain is in blue and dark blue. Okiee okiee lah. Boleh tahan jugak. Hehh.
Also she wanted to give me this kinda necklace/bead-an accessory. But i didnt accept it. As i tak kuasa pakai nye. Hehh..
Umm.. Fauzan's mum suffers from cognitive(sp?). Its like an eye irritation which blocks your view. Sort of like rabun tak nampak. She also said that she cant even see my face. Nak masak pun susah.. So she tak keluar lah. Takut takut nanti apa apa jadi kepada dia. Hmm.. Sad eh.
Orang dia baik sekali. So does Fauzan. Hehh. And i cant believe people dislikes Fauzan. Pffft! -.-
Me and Fauzan.. KAWAN aje.. not more than that.
At first before i knew Fauzan, i dont really talk to him. And i was thinking of him as a nothing. But as time pass by, when we were p5 buat persembahan my thought of him as a nothing slowly diminished. But now.. I thought of Fauzan as a good person, rendah diri tetapi sikit kekok. hehh.
Fauzan's mum says this "Syura, anggap kita orang sebagai saudara mara. Nak datang sini pakai computer untuk print.. silakan. Cik tak halau. Nak belajar dengan Fauzan kat sini pun boleh.." Hees. I was like sooo... Awww. She's so magnanimous her heart. Hees.
After printing, drinking my water and eating cookies, i went home. Actually tak payah di teman hantar pun boleh.. Haha. My house is just right next block. Very near.
Anyway, Fauzan gi teman me hantar until reach down the stair lift of his block. Hahaha. Though, if he really is a person who is a gentleman-eww=.=- should/could hantar me to my block. Haha. Blahhh.. Dont think otherwise.
Yea.. It was very welcoming coming to his house. I also saw Fauzan's father. Hehh. His family very close.
& a pinged of sadness and guilt i felt for him. Hees.
For English.. PFFFTTT *roll eyes* Damn it. I wasted time writing the speech. Then the essay.. Was only 2 pages. -_- There wasnt enough time left. Hur hur. Gahhh... Please, please.. I hope i PASS English.
For English end of year exam, I hope i can get at leasta B3. *encouraging smile* (:
Then for the Malay Paper 1 today...
Well.. I think i did GREAT!? I think so. Haha.
I could write well. There was enough time. Maybe if there were some parts wrong.. It will be my Bahasa. Hehhh. Great great. I hope i can get like about 45. Pleaseeee... *hopeful* ^^
If i were to do great in this malay paper, this means that im okiee and quite ready for Malay O level. Hehhhs.
Anyway, at first, im not sure whether want to take the Malay paper or not. Part of me felt like im too tired to think and to be creative due to English exam the paper before Malay.
Still.. In the end, I decided to take the paper. As i'll just take the Malay Paper 1 for FUN! Let me repeat that.. : FOR FUN -__-
Yea... I know its not counted inside my report book as i did already mine. Meaning i did it during HMT, as the HMT marks counted for in my report book and not the one im taking. Anyway, it'll be, the one im taking as a gage for me. Hees.
Ohh.. Im still confuse about Malay. No not Malay.. Just the part about me taking HMT. Cause the rest of my friends who takes HMT, did not take the Malay paper today. Which they dont NEED to. But Nadiah and me took. Haha. Extra.
Actually those taking HMT, everytime during Malay time, they will go to the school library. I dont know why they have to go there instead of joining with the rest of their class..
When Nadiah and me take HMT, we were told by Cikgu Nor to still stay inside her class.. As she want to expose us to our Malay. -I guess she knew our bahasa is quite weak. Hahs. Im glad she let us inside her class.
Then during Mid-Year, she still says that we continue doing our Malay Mid-Year paper. So yeahh.. Thats why we did the Malay paper today.
Talk about Cikgu Nor... Well, she is a teacher and i respect her. Well.. Sometimes i dont think her lessons are great. Like its no use as we dont really learn a thing. We all would just be doing what she wants us to do such as doing kefahaman, latihan and berbual masa. -I think the berbual masa is so that we can talk more in Malay, increase our Malay language speaking. Which is a good thing.
Compared to Cigku Nurul.. Who taught us before.. Cikgu Nurul is much much better than her. In Cikgu Nurul class, its fun and i learn new things. And there is no feeling of left out which sometimes i felt duringg Cikgu Nor's class.
Amelina agrees with me that she isnt a great teacher and that she prefers Cikgu Nurul more than her. She also says that she doesnt really like Cikgu Nor. But me.. Well.. Im okiee with Cikgu Nor now.
At first i dont really like her but time passes by.. And somehow i get what she mean of what she is doing to us. Like doing Malay wb, kefahaman and ten year series... It DOES help in my Malay. Hees. Anyway, thanks to her.. I got to go to HMT!!! *Terima kasih Cikgu.
But sometimes with Cikgu Nor i find her as if she's faking it and really dont care about us-Me and Nadiah, though i dont know about Nadiah. Though probably its just my mind which is imagining things and getting that feeling of being brushed away. Hehhs.
Whatever it is.. I dont really take to heart. She is okiee. Its just that, i find Cikgu Nurul more better. Hehh. Maaf ye? There is no hard feelings of me towards Cik Nor. I like her.. okiee okiee la.
All I want to do is to IMPRESSCikgu Nor by getting an A1 for my MALAY O LEVEL. I have promised her that im going to get an 'A' & I Dont Wanna Dissapoint Her. (: as well as i dont wanna dissapoint myself.
Cikgu Nor, saya harap awak akan berpuas hati dan gembira jika saya dapat distinction. This is all because of you that i wanna and have to get an 'A' for Malay O Level. Insyaallah. ((;
By the way, yesterday was 27 September. Happy 1 year and i dont know how many months plus we've been together, Dear. Hees. -It seems that im not excited about this. Hahh! In fact, I am not excited about it. *roll eyes*
Today is Friday, Tomorrow is Saturday. I love weekends. And i seriously need to study. No more playing around and delaying my work.
My parents have fly off already. Hehh. And i didnt get to salam them. As both my mum and dad was asleep when i was going out of the house this morning to school.
In the afternoon at 1.30pm, dad messaged me. He said " As salammualaikum- Selamat tinggal-bye". And i replied back.. "Mualaikumsalam. Selamat tinggal. Berhati-hati. :)" Yup..
Anyway, i hope they have a safe trip. Also about what my mum said, at there, a certain place-i forgot which-they say if you berdoa di situ, your doa akan termakbul.
Well.. I hope that my mum still remembers about what i said/asked/want her to do. That is.. "Doakan Asyura, untuk mendapatkan A1 untuk O Level Melayu. Dan mendapat about 6 to 8 points dalam Peperiksaan O level. Serta tidak lupa, doakan Asyura untuk memasuki VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE!" ((: Hehe. ^^
I was kinda sad when receiving the message. Who knows what will happen to the future. Yea?
Then in my mind, i was thinking of scenarios of what if... Hehh. My mind is like a drama shows sometimes. =.= Hees.
School wasnt as tiring. Haha.
By the way, during history class... For SBQ, purpose question.. I got 5/5 for purpose! Wooohooo! ^^ Wee~ I cant believe it. I got correct. Lols. Cool :D
Hmm.. Me and Nadiah thought of want to study outside. We decided to study at Pasir Ris park. Then in the end, tak jadi -.- . Cause i said, the place should be wet as it rain today.
Speaking of rain, its totally awesome today in the morning when i was going to school as it had rain. I just love rainy weather. Hees. Also if it was raining in the morning as in going to school time. I'll totally love it. Hahs! Because i can go to school late late. Wahaha :D
Umm..
~`I dont know if its me who is the one who is making me confuse. But somehow.. It is you who are making me confuse. -that someone who's making me confuse.
Sometimes i wonder whats the use if you're not there to hold me. I guess.. Im also at fault too. For not being there for you and catching you while you fall.
I just wanted to share a thing or a message i write of how i feel. Its like a message about him to him. But of course i didnt send it to him. Hees. :)
Here goes.
---- When you're gone. The pieces of my heart are missing you.. Dear dear. I miss you. I miss you soo bad. I cant help thinking of you. And i wonder if you feel the same way as i am too? I hope that, That feeling you felt and have for me during the time we're not talking won't waver as time passes by. The feeling of "I MISS YOU". (: ---
Yup, that was what i wrote. Sadly, he's never gonna know how i feel deep inside.
Unless he reads my blog. I dont think its possible as i did not give anyone my blog url. The rhythm of love, The feeling of sound. The beat of my heart ♥
Well.. I had my period today. And it was really painful. Had stomach cramp. Gahhh! Haha. At the same time.. Yaayy.. dont need to puasa and sembahyang. Can go out without thinking of praying. Haha. Thats the thing about periods which i like.
When having periods, i feel like im so carefree.. As in i can go home very late like maybe can go to library to study and stay there until the library close. Because, usually i will always think of praying and it will obstruct my work. Lols. Get what i mean? Hehh. -Though im NOT complaining that Sembahyang is a chore! Nak ke taknak still kena buat. Ia adalah wajib dan tanggungjawab sebagai seorang Islam.
Anyway, today buka puasa-though i tak puasa-My family and cousins from my mother side of family came to buka here. Because of tomorrow my parents will be going to Saudi Arabia untuk mengerjakan ibadah Umrah. Hees. It been 3 consecutive years counting this year-i think- that my parents gone to Saudia Arabia. Hehh..
Alright anyway.. My other side of my family came to buka puasa at my house. I didnt talk much with my cousins. By the way Hanis didnt come. Well.. I feel really awkward with them.
Cause im not sociable with them/people-unless they're really really close to me or im comfortable with him/her- unlike my older sis Kak Mai. *Sigh* Also because of the past which have ruined my relationship with them. DAMN IT! Arghhhh...
If i could turn back time, i wont say those things. I doesnt mean to criticise them. I just say it like its a fact. Argghhh.. And they thought wrong. Grr... And also, if only.. I had not say it to someone.. To Hanis. Im sure things would not get messy.
Cause she, Hanis, blabbered it to them. And then.. Me and my cousins except for Hanis wasnt talking anymore. Though Hanis somehow i find her fake.
To add on, the awkward moments or can i say the 'silence' between me and Adib(cousin). We're both are like quiet around each other. Well i dont know what to talk about with him. Usually he was the one who was making jokes and i just laugh. Stupid thing-likeness i mean. Hehh.
Haizz.. :(
Anyway.. Now we're kinda okiee okiee- i mean with my cousins. Though there are scars left. Sad.
~`And.. It looks like everything wasnt the same as it was before.
My parents will be going to Arab tomorrow. I wont be seeing them off. As they berangkat in the morning about 10.30 leaving the house. Which i got school in the morning. So yea.. Farewell. (:
Hmm.. About 2 weeks they're going. I think its 15 days if im not wrong. Haiyaa.. STILL can survive without parents. Haha.
Though probably the house will be quite messy, i guess. Due to past years scenario. Hehh.
Ohh and i still remember.. Last time when they're gone to Arab.. I got slapped by elder sis. I think it was because of me being rude or something. Well.. During that period, I HATE EVERYTHING! I hate elder sis too and everyone around. Well im not really sure of what happened.. Ive forgotten bits and pieces of it. Hees. The house was really in a mess that time. And i guess circumstances of the surrounding makes me feel angry and unfairness towards the things around me. Hmmph. Thats what i could remember.
I guess i have some issues of myself. Hehh. Social interaction with others. And finding the real me. Hehh =.=
Exam this Friday. English paper 1 and Malay paper 1. (: Better buck-up!
I did a good deed today. I guess that why i was quite happy. Wahaha :D
Alright.. So in the morning, as always my face was STONE -_- Lols.
Anyway, when i was inside the bus going to to school.. There was this woman who was carrying a child. Then a bottle of milk fall on the floor. I was standing at that time and the bottle was rolling and it nearly rolls our of the bus door.-get what i mean? While the bottle was rolling.. I saw it and in my mind i was thinking.. "heys.. that bottle.. if i or people dont catch it, it will roll out of the door and into the outside..." So quickly, i bend down and scoop the bottle. At the same time there was lady who also wanna take the bottle. But i grab it first. (: Then i gave back to that woman. Then in the bus, i didnt look at her. My face was still stoning haha :| Still i was quite proud and happy of the deed i did.
Near the traffic light crossing to school.. I saw Farah put her mp3 inside. Then her ear piece-you know the cotton wool covering the ear piece drop down onto the floor. Which she didnt notice. I was standing behind her. In fact i was resting on a stone. So, in my mind i was thinking.. whether to tell her about it or not. After few seconds later.. i decided to tell her. I said " Farah.. your earpiece" as i showed her the floor. Then she pick up and says "Ohh.. Thank you." And she gave me this very pretty smile of hers. Hehes. Gahh.. She's very pretty.. Even her smile is. (; -I envy her. hehh =.=
Anyway.. In school.. Me and Chang Xiang talk alot. Hehh.. I told him about my new phone and then i ask him to give me his mp3 via bluetooth. Hahaha! Great. Yea.. I know that we both like the past few days or weeks i always grunts and hmmph to him. Haha. I guess i was happy today. Im in a good mood. Lols. Also with yesterday i didnt waste time.. As in i study yesterday.. Leaves me feeling great. Haha.
The most significant thing i did about today.. Was studying Geography! Haha.
Went with Nadiah to Marine Parade Library after school. There were a few places which we thought of going to study.. Like East Coast, Esplanade Library and National Library. But this places was object by so far... Me. -_- Too far, lazy to go there... also East Coast would be quite hot.
By the way, the post i wrote a few days back... Well.. when im with her, it somehow feels like there is nothing wrong. We're still able to talk like per normal. Probably some actions of hers annoys me or im just confused myself. Argghh. >:|
Hmm.. I spend time in the library studying and highlighting the chapter river for Geog, for around 3 HOURS! haha. Cant believe it ? Well believe it. (: I say its 'about'. I think that i can still remember the topics i studied till now. Umm.. Roughly, i guess. :P
By the way, Kakak Asiah came by our home today. She dropped off the handphone i asked her to bring and to be borrowed. Was very happy when first seeing and thinking of using it.
But.. Im having second thought now about the handphone. Pftt. Well the handphone is great!
Sadly, for me i just think that it is just an extra feature.. In having touch screen system and many MB to be stored. Well the hand recognizable system.. The one i talk about writing at the touch screen system.. Isnt that 'really' good. -_- I gotta write properly but sometimes it still doesnt work.
The handphone wasnt as great and impressive as i thought i'd imagined it. Hmmph. I kinda find it a bit leceh. -_- . Note i say 'a bit'.
But still im quite happy and contented with it. Maybe i just needed a few more try-outs/practice. Haha.
Anyway, i REALLY REALLY appreciate of what Kak Yah had done. Lending the phone to me-though the phone is Abg Zain's phone. Coming to the house to give it to me-though she put it on the table as i wasnt at home. :)) Thanks a lot! I shall use it to my outmost ...(something something)... Haha.
Ohh.. Then, my handphone Motorola V3, my older not elder sis is kinda using it. Shit! Cause if she use it, she'll probably delete my msges which i stored inside that phone. Which the msges stored inside.. 6 of them are from him. Which i kept for kenangan and also to look back upon. =/ I soo hope, she dislikes using my phone. Oh pretty pretty please. o_O
Well just to say, Exam is really really around the corner. Haha. "Around the corner".. Sounds like playing hide-and-seek. Lols. -_-
One more week to for the exam to begin.
Few more weeks-if im not wrong its' 5 more weeks to my.. O Level Malay Paper. X)
Yup yup.. 1) Gotta work hard. 2) Put in more effort in studies. 3) Stop using the comp for personal uses. 4) Stop reading story books-Like what Mr Arul had said to me. 5) Start Studying. 6) Absorb all the things that i've studied. 7) Have DAMN GREAT good results. -score distinction in E. Math, A. Math, Physic&Chemistry, Malay, Geography-Though geography im not too sure, but i'll try. 8) Get over and done with studies and exams. 9) Get A1 for MALAY O LEVEL EXAM! 10) Enjoy the rest of this year. ((:
"Score for full marks.. Not just pass or get distinction. Because if you score what you wanted, you'll eventually falls in the lower category. Example, if you want to score A, but then in the end you got lower than A meaning you got B. So by telling yourself that you can aim for full marks, die die you'll fall into the A1 or A2 category. ITS ALL A MATTER OF MIND, psychology. " -Mr Arul, tuition teacher of Asyura. (:
Yea.. I'll try. I'll try. Still today, Physic lesson, we did exam paper.. I dont really know how to do. Still the one that i think/do know how to do wasnt really the key words the marker is searching for. Haizz *sigh*.
Went to madrasah today. Zunairah didnt come. But Ili did came! Hehes. So long didnt see her. Its like 3 weeks we havent met. Lols.
Well, in class was quite Fun! Yup yup. Rahman started to kacau me again. Ahh.. Those times. Lols. Cause, before, he used to disturb me. But, after this kinda 'silent' between us when we were having our own steady.. Our friendship wasnt close as before. Also, the part about telling isi hati kita berdua antara satu sama lain. (;
Yea well.. Im glad we're okiee. Its like dah sikit berbaik lah. Well he tease me about my pronunciation in "R". Yea.. Then he have to read by ustazah Salbiah. Then he read pronouncing the "R" with sleng/slang. Haha. Like mat salehnye type lah. *roll eyes*. I dont think i read like that -__- haha.
Tuition was canceled. Mr Arul got sore eyes.
Buka puasa, we buka at rumah cik atan. Cik atan invite my family. I went out like about 6.35pm. Reached at tampines already late, dah azan maghrib. Hehh. Pray maghrib sendiri. And then we all Cik Atan's family and my family sembahyang Ishak and terawikh sama-sama.
There was also this two guys who came to Cik Atan's house pray sama-sama. The two guys is like 15 years old to 16 years old. They look 15 years old. Well, they are Cik Atan's students.
One of the guy is called Firdaus another Taufiq/Taufik. When they came there belum lagi masuk Ishak. Then they go salam my father. My father ask them their name. Then they told him their names. Then my father asked " Tau tak apa nama Firdaus itu?" Then Firdaus kata "Tau.. Syurga Firduas." Haha. Then my father asked "Abeh Taufiq ?" Taufiq replied he doesnt know. And then my dad says.. "Petunjuk Allah" Hees.
Basically, i didnt talk with them. We were doing our own things. For me, i wanna make friends with them but then its like im soo malu. And that i dont have the guts to do it. Haha. Also there is my uncle, Cik Atan. Well probably he will say some merepek things like.. I like them, matchmake or whatsoever. -__- Hah!
Alright, they're pretty.. Umm what should i call it. Decent ? Handsome? Cute ? Charismatic? HAHA. i DONT KNOW. Their looks are quite okiee lah. Alright, MORE that that. HAHA :D *wink wink* (; -i shouldnt mention this here. -__- cause people who read might think otherwise. Hehh.
When home alone later on. Cool! (: Wanted to buy Famous Amous Cookies. But TM there, that shop was about to close. And they already packed their stuffs including cookies
But the thing which i am disappointed about today is, Kakak Asiah, my elder sister didnt come. Because she said that we'll meet. So that she can give me the handphone i asked to borrow from her(its Abg Zian's hp) to me today. Yet she didnt come, as her husband is sick and she have to stay with him. Haiz.. She msged that she was "Sorry". Yea.. Its okiee. Nvm la. :(
Cause the handphone is touch screen system. And it would be great if i have that. As i could write all my thoughts and feelings inside the handphone when i need a paper/blog to write/type out. My handphone? Pfft. Its kinda hard to press the button let alone not having a note pad. I hope that handphone have a notepad. I heard from my sis it recognize your own handwriting.. So yea.. It'll be easier to write out as sometimes my mind would just forgot what to write a moment later.
There is this new song, which i really like. A new favourite. Who knows it will stay as my favourite for many years/times. Lols. Too bad, my mp3 cant put in songs. Pfft. Cause this comp something wrong cannot use Window media player. Ahh. I'll just have to record it. Hmmph.
The song is.. Artist : Hellogoodbye Tittle : Here ( In your arms) ((:
AWESOMEE SONG!
I like the chorus. It goes like this..
You are the one, the one, That lies close to me. Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly." I fell in love, in love, With you suddenly. Now there's no place else, I could be, but, Here in your arms.
I really like this part when it say.. 'Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly." ' Hees. ~`I really MISS YOU like crazy, Dear :(
Here is a song. Which to me, i find it very meaningful. Lols. If you look deep and understand it clearly.. You'll know what the composer wanna tell you.
Also, sungguh indah bahasanya. Haha. :D I gotta listen to malay songs to improve my Bahasa, Malay. My bahasa... Pftt. Im not that great. Lols. Like i always write always berbelit-belit. And very long winded -_-
Ku Intai Cinta Dalam Rahsia - Jeslina Hashim.
Berbisik di dasar hati Bertanyakan pada diri Tentang kekasih Tentang cinta
Haruskah aku menanti Haruskah tangan ku ini Menggapai hanya Ilusi mimpi
Putusnya di dalam hati Tak mungkin bercantum lagi Ku intai cinta dalam rahsia Dan airmata
Mereka sering berkata Cinta itu milik kita Tapi mengapa kau enggan Ucapkan cinta ---
For me, i think this song is about... A girl in love with this guy. But this guy doesnt want to fight for their love. How she is really saddened, heartbroken and depressed. Its like she grasping for him but she just couldnt reach it.
Hmmph.. Thats much about it, if what im tafsirkan is right. Hah! I dont have time to expand. Figure it out. (: I think this song is quite an old song by the way. Hees.
31th post, unconsciously putting a void around me.
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Dear Diary,
Sometimes i feel as if im putting a void around me. Keeping anyone from coming close to me. Hees. Thats how i feel.
Like im keeping my distance. Keeping my distance from Nadiah and others. Hmmph. I should be very careful.. I dont wanna lose her.
I wonder why.. Maybe it is is because i dont want them to know the real me inside. Or maybe it is because i wanna be alone an think about the situation im in. Hmm..
Diary, sometime i wonder... If she is truly my best friend or just someone for company. If this friendship is genuine or fake. If she is that person whom i search for a best friend.
Diary, somehow.. I guess ive not been totally honest with myself. And im very confuse.
What im looking for in a best friend is a person who is really funny till my stomach hurts and when im down that person will make me laugh heartily, a person whom i can express myself when im with that person, a person who can instinctively knows whether im having troubles etc without me telling that person, a person who will always be there or me as well as help me,a person whom will boost those lackness that i have in me, a person who is fun/bubbly to be with, a person who will always encourage me to do my best, a person who will honestly tell me if what im doing is the wrong thing thus will advice me. -etc etc.
Is she ? =\ Fikiranku buntu. Entahlah eh.
Arghh... Let it be. If she's not the one, then it'll be all right if we are to be just friend.
~`Sometime i find myself pretending.
There's this saying by Shakespeare.. Everyone is an actor and an actresses. This world is a big stage which we act in. ((;
-Got that from Cikgu Sahriana. I have to kinda agree with her. But still there are some people who aren't acting at all. Just naturally being themself. I wish i could be like the 'some'. (:
Umm.. I didnt realized that there was someone who tagged on my board. I wonder how the person knows my blog -.- Anyway, i've looked at the blog the person gave me. Yeah.. Cool. I can now asked question about A.Math, E.Math and Chemistry to someone if i didnt know. (; url : http://askalwayslovely.blogspot.com/ email : askalwayslovely@gmail.com Okiee Great.
Anyway.. Umm.. The things which was significant for me today was... A SMILE! (: Yup yup.
Well.. I was walking to the bus stop, the bus stop which goes to Bedok or Tampines. I saw this guy a few distance away from me who looks kinda familiar. It was Syed Uzair. Hehh. Well he was sitting down. I wanna sit down on the bench so i walk toward and pass infront of him. As walking, we both look each other and i smiled at him and he too smiled at me back. (: HAHA. Yea.. That was it. And then we talk for a while. Just asking why we're here and about study hour finish already or not. Thats all. Me and him, we dont really talk much. We'd just acknowledge each other. So yea.. It good lah that this happen. Pfft-You know why.
Alright, to people 'a smile' may seems nothing to them. But to me, it meant a lot more. Hees. I like the fact that i smiled at the person first or the person smiled at me first... It somehow gives me this joyful feeling inside of me. Yup yup. ((: Like fireworks exploding in the sky creating very beautiful shapes and patterns.
An expression; "Diukirnya senyuman menandakan mulanya sebuah persahabatan" ((; Hees. Something like that.
Ohh, when going home from HMT, I thought of wanting to take bus 14, cause i dont wanna take bus 229 as the bus 229 travels so long and i dont feel like going to Bedok library or Bedok Interchange. So whats the point of taking 229 if i dont wanna go Bedok Interchange.
Anyway, 229 came first. And i saw that my HMT clasmates was taking the bus 229. While they were boarding up the bus, i was standing still hoping for bus 14 to come.
Then Imran walked pass me. He asked "Tak naik?" Me "Tak. Tunggu bus 14 ah.. Kau?" He "Naik. Tunggu bus 14 lambat sey. Jom naik..?" Me nodding and says"Hmmph. Okiee." Yea.. And I gave him a smile lah.
Then the stupid part happens. Well since Imran was infront of me walking up the bus and im behind him, he found this empty seat and i wanna sit there which he'd already taken. I didnt realized or see my surrounding as the first thing im in the bus was to sit down on the chair. Well Imran had sat down already. And then got this girl who had just sit infront of Imran's chair. Then another girl was trying to go sit with the girl. And we both we're like: Im going to sit she also was soing to sit. When i back off then she back off. So i was like moving right and left right and left and i saw that Imran was sitting alone so i thought of wanting to sit beside him lah. Then when i nearing him, he said something like .."Situ ada tempat" or "Duduk kat lain/sana"-something like that. So i turned my head facing behind and saw that there is an empty seat. Without further a due, i quickly sit down.
When i was sitting down, i started to think what the heck happen to me. Like why did i suddenly wanna sit with him. And about the girl and how i reacted. How i reacted like a dork -_- Pfft. I wanna sit infront cannot sit behind also cannot. So its like im totally paisey lah. A thought cross my mind, Nasib baik Asyura tak turn belakang nanti dia orang mungkin nampak incident tadi. Hehh.
Also, it was kinda stupid of me without thinking much thought of siting beside him. Hmmph. I guess it was because i wanna sit really badly and i dont care with whom. So yeah.. Thats why. Then yang kena paisey ialah kena halau oleh Imran. Well kind of. Pfft. Should have known, not to sit beside him. Hahh! Lame-o. -_____-"
Ohh, then got this old auntie sat beside me. Then in the bus, guess what she do ? She pick her nose. Damn it. *roll eyes*
By the way, bought this karangan yang ditulis oleh pelajar sekolah Temasek yang cikgu Sahriana kata kalau nak beli kena bayar. Its a komplikasi of karangan yang terbaik. So I belilah. Who knows, it'll help me in my karangan or memperluaskan Bahasa saya.
Yeah so thats interesting about today. -.-"
Ohh, yesterday i kena marah oleh ibu bapa. Then dad lecture he said about hormat ibu bapa. Kerana kita tidak tahu bila mereka akan tinggalkan dunia ini. Anyway, since my mum and dad are going to Arab on 27 September, i guess thats why dad says it. Moving on, i talk back to him saying" Asal Ayahanda cakap ni.. Setiap orang akan mati ape.."etc. Then he said, "Bapak ayahanda sudah meninggal dunia ini. I feel regret you know. Regret! I feel i could have done much more better when he is still here."-something like that.
Dum.. di dum.. di dum..
An idea flashed my mind. "Ehh... ini cerita ni boleh dijadikan sebagai karangan yang Asyura buat itu hari. Tentang 'Peristiwa yang menyayat hati kamu' ".
Well.. I would start with Tasbih yang sedang dilaungkan pada Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Seorang perempuan sedang menangis kerana kesal tidak dapat mohon maaf daripada ayahnya yang telah meninggal dunia di Arab semasa menunaikan Umrah. Dia kesal kerana telah berikap biadap terhadapnya... Tetapi sekarang tidak boleh. Kerana dia sudah tiada di alam fana ini. Cuma dapat dia menolong ayahnya ialah dengan membacakan dan mensedekahkan ayat-ayat Al-Quran yang dibacanya kepada ayahnya. (: Tra.. La.. La..
Macam mana, bagus kan ? Haha. Yea.. I should write about this rather than what i wrote about in the karangan i wrote. Lols. Good Idea! Hehe. I like a story which starts with describing about background and then focus on the character and then plunged to the story line, etc. ((:
Cool. Its night now. Lols. And i still need to do homework. Which by the way, yesterday free time, i didnt spent my time wisley. Damn it. :/
Ps: ~`Hati berbicara, tetapi tidak diungkapkan. ♥ Hahs. I thought of that phrase myself. Deep right ? Hees. I thought so too. (:
PFFTT! My partner who always sit beside me during class except for Malay lesson... IS TOTALLY Annoying. He makes me feel like a volcano wanting to erupt and spew lava on the Earth floor. >:/ Yea..
I hate and dislikes does insult/bad things he says about me or about other people or something else. The things is, when he says bad things to me or other people etc, it seems to me or sounded to me as if he is insulting. Ohh.. just keep your god damn mouth shut can? If you dont like something go straight to the person and say what you think of that person.
Sometimes, when he said something bad about me, it sounded like an insult. A scenario, "You look ugly!"-Not that i care about people telling me im ugly..- Anyway he says"Ohh, hey can i borrow your pencil?". I'll say "No"-cause he didnt deserved it for what he'd said. Then he asked again.. And i'll reply "No." He asked me summore and says "If you let me borrow your pencil, i wont say youre ugly." I'll reply "No". He kept asking me again and in the end i gave up and let him borrowed. Then he says "You're not ugly. Im just playing saying that you're ugly, Dont take it to heart." Or sometimes after i let him borrow my things, he'll say " You're ugly." And i give him this irritating lookand he'll go "No lah. No lah. Youre not ugly. You ugly.. Eh.. No.. No.. No.. Youre not ugly". -thats when i was starting to raise my arm and doing an action which is nearly punching him.
Asshole! Its not once, okiee? Its many many times! I feel like slapping him. Gahh.
Things bout him. He's so gross. Like he rubs his mucus on his sleeves, bad breath after he eats. According to Alger.. He picks his food which is inside his teeth and then rubs his shirt. Keep falling sick-which by the way will spread to me- for example he have a cold/flu and i'll get it if my anti-bodies is low. Sleep in class and his table is always not tidy and is always filled with stationary as well as his file which is thick-not unfiled-I dont really care about this. Have sweaty palm-which went it sweats and he was writing with ink pen so the ink smudge to the paper-Though i dont really care about this since its his paper not mine.-By the way, be civilized more can? My partner last year have sweaty palm and she have initiative to take a tissue and put it underneath her palm so as not to smudge*roll eyes*. Ohh when he cough or let out a big sniff like "Coughh coughh!"/"HA..HAACHUMMM!", do you know what happen? The saliva that flows from his mouth fly to me. Why? Cause he didnt do it on the other side of him, (as in on his right side) or cover his mouth. Then when he have a running nose .. he would "sniff.. sniff"(as in suck it) then after that.. There would be sound coming from his nose -.-" Gross. Then when during recess, i was doing my own work and hearing my mp3.. After he came back from canteen.. He would smack my table real hard and the table going "Banggg.." as if wanting to shocked or scare me-When this happen i would say.. "Dont do that lah..", "Dont disturb me lah..", "Go away lah.." and under my breath i would say "Stupid/bodohnyer lelaki/kurangajar/Aku sepak muka dia baru tau..etc". Bloody hell.
I dislike seeing his untidy table and then sometimes when during Malay i came back to class i find him sitting on my chair and seeing his table messy filled with files thats why he sat in my place-though i dont really care/mind about this. I dislike telling/explaining him what teacher is talking about-Cause he is sleeping so its his fault. I dislikes him copying my notes/papers-unless he didnt come then i'll give. I dislike him insulting me and others. I hate his sarcasm-which actually to me seems like an insult! I dislikes letting him borrows my stuffs like correction tape-correction tape to me is very expensive so i dont like people using it-Though i know i always borrows/takes from people-Hahh Kedekut.
And i would be thinking, if only i had known his character since before.. I WOULD NOT EVER EVER let him sit beside me. By the way.. It was term 3.. And that time he was sitting the next row and table just next to mine. And we were talking. Since i was sitting alone, there wasnt anyone beside me and i was thinking of a company/partner if i want to have or not since Nadiah is sitting beside Syahindah. So i say to him, "If there's no one sitting beside as in when the rest of the people already come and no one sitting beside me you can sit beside me ah.." Then his eyes shone bright and he mistook my saying. And then quickly he sat beside me. So i thought that this time im gonna have a great partner. But NOOOO! i WAS WRONG. It turns out he was the worst partner ever i have sitted with! SHIT SHIT SHIT!
Sometimes when im not satisfied with him, I'll slap his back to wake him up when he was sleeping-so thats an excuse to beat him up. Also to slap him(his back), sometimes real hard, because later he wont understand what teacher is talking and will ask me stupid questions on what teacher is saying. Or sometimes when we're talking, he 'jokingly' says bad things to me, which sounded to me like an insult.. I'll slap him or beat him or pinch him!! Muahaha :D Biar rasa sakitnya.
Today during chemistry lesson. Mr Nazrul came into class and teacher was standing right infront waiting for the class to greet him. I was lying on my bag and have already taken out the worksheet teacher told to take out. Then he, the person who is sitting next to me told me to wake up. I didnt stand because the class isnt ready to stand and greet. I know lah what im doing. Dont need to tell me what to do. Though i think he means well. Anyway, we greet. Then later i lay on my bag when Mr Nazrul was talking about some unimportant stuffs. And That bloody guy irritates me by pushing his pen button up and down, up and down making a sound near my ears. Then i got irritated hence i went to pinched his arm! "Hahh! Padan muka. Biar rasa sakit!"-bisik hatiku lagi. Hmmph.
Ohh and today he says to me. About how we dont really get well along with each other. -well sometimes only. And he says "Can we talk ?" I replied "Talk what?" He says "Just talk.. talk like normal.." We did talk like normal conversation! That depends on what topics we're talking/discussing. Anyway, in my heart.. i say "Go away la.. I wanna read my story book 'Uglies' Dont disturb me." Hmmph. Anyway, I just brushed him away and say "I wanna read my book . Dont disturb la..". Hehh.
Alright, the good thing of sitting with him is that.. He have many ideas to contribute when doing projects. If he sit beside me i can ask him what teacher was saying when i dont pay attention. I can copy his work. He'll bring correction tape, puncture and staples which i borrows from him. What else ?? A person/company to talk to.
But somehow i feel.. I dont need any partner also can. I can survive. Pandai pandai lah. Hmmph. Well yea.. thats my rant about him. About Chang Xiang. Bloody asshole. Though somehow benefits to me too. ('_^)
Yea.. I know sometimes i can be bad, selfish, sarcastic and bad mood etc. But sometimes condition force me to be that! And I'm Sorry if i were to hurt people's feeling. -anyway, i maafkan dia. Cuma kadang-kadang tak tahan dengan karenah dia! Pfft. Ohh and i know talking or writing about someone is bad/mean.. Soriee. Im letting out my frustration here. *roll eyes*.
School was normal today. The same, bloody boring thing. By the way, Had 5 periods free. Teachers didnt come. HAHA. Did my own things. I did A.Math mostly, revision, the one Mr Arul gave me.
Anyway, on the way to bus stop .. Leon was beside me and ask.."You going home ah?" Then i said "Ya." He replied "I know you're going to study your geog to get a1 right?" Then i answered "No. A. Math!" His expression "Whoa.." And he walked away. I guess i said 'A.Math' leaves him speechless. Haha. Cool. (;
I need to do homework. & I need to STUDY and REVISE!
One more week to EXAMS. And a few more weeks to O Level Malay exam. Ohh crap!~
28th post, probabaly tomorrow gonna have Monday Blues! :P
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Dear Diary,
Went to madrasah today. I wasnt that late. When i came into class.. there were like 5 people in the class. Zunairah came i late while Herani didnt go to madrasah.
I message Herani why she didnt come... She said she dont have mood and lazy to come! Haha. Its usually me who felt that way, sometimes. Lols.
Hmm.. During Arab class, the guys didnt CABUT! hahaha. Cause last week kena dapat tangkap by ustazah. Blueks! Ustazah Khadijah was irritated with the class-esp those boys- about Bahasa Arab which supposedly is easy. Hehh -__-
Ohh.. Those two Sharifah and Farid-they're siblings- quit madrasah. Sad. I can understand why they quit. Hehh.
Rahman asyik kacau Zunairah about Muhammad liking her. Rahman even msg Zunairah about it and Zunairah replied to him "NONSENSE" hahs.. I dont know if its really true. I think if Muhammad Like Zunairah, Zunairah doesnt-WHICH she doesnt have any feelings for him. Haha. A phrase "Sucks to be you!" Haha. Madrasah today, we went home at 12.40pm not 1pm as there was no recess.
Reached home , i read my Meg Cabot book which i borrowed from Marine Parade Library yesterday. Ohh and ive read it till its near finish yesterday night till this morning 4am. And at 4am i slept. Wake up for Sahur at about 5. After eaten.. I continued till it finishes. Hahs.
The book.. Tittle : Missing you Author: Meg Cabot. My FAVOURITE AUTHOR!! (: The book is a 1800-Where-Are-You series.
Sadly, this book is the fifth and the final last book for 1800-Where-Are-You series. Anyway, this book is AWESOME! As always from Meg Cabot. Haha.
I love the two couples -Jessica Mastriani & Rob Wilkins.
Well.. In the first place Rob was Jess ex-boyfriend. Cause Jess saw Rob kissing this women-"Miss-Big-Boobs-As-Big-As-My-Head". But in fact she got it wrong.. The women started it first and Rob was just the victim.. He didnt even try to kiss her. When Jess seeing those two she ran out of where she is and then she migrate to New York as she's going to Julliard College. Ohh She actually lose her powers as she cant have any dreams and always had nightmare. But then 2 years pass and she could sleep well.. Until Rob came and ask Jess for help to find his half-sister. Which at that night Jess dreamt of where Hannah(Rob's Half sister) is. She have her powers back. Cause after the war, she went through last year, she cant sleep thus she had nightmare.. Hence she couldnt dream anymore. But after 2 years later she can sleep well and dream. And they both were talking again...
Ohh.. The scene about Jess finding out that Rob had kept paper clipping about her, the ring he'd given-which in fact he'd thrown it to Jess and Jess catch it. When Rob said what she wants .. Which Jess actually WANTS HIM but couldnt say it as she was confused if Rob didnt think the same way. Also the part in the end.. knowing that they loves each other. As well as Jess seeing Miss-Big-Boobs-As-Big-As-My-Head and didnt run away like last time but went towards the women and gave her a piece of her mind to that women. Introducing herself as Jess, Rob's fiancee and that she would hit her if that women were to kiss Rob. Haha.
I know I talk of the book about the romance part only. There is also the adventure part and how she uses her skill not to use violence but tactics-such as threatening and how hse have grown up. Hehh ^^
Today tuition, Mr Arul said that im very enthusiastic in Math but i have to follow up. He also knows that i readystory book in the night. Guess how he knows ?
By my asshole lil brother, Hakim! From what i got out of him.. He said about me like to read about loves stories.. And probably more than that.. Which include me having a boyfriend. Pfft. Im not sure about the boyfriend part. But it looks like it.
Ohh and when i was praying Maghrib, Hakim sibuk-sibuk tengok my msg. Which by the way... Adri's message was there since the last time he messaged me which i still kept. Damn. I should lock my phone when im leaving it alone. Pfft.
~`They say, its not howlong you studied but how much you understand it. Same with love. Its not how long you've been together but how WELL you know each other! (;
As mentioned from the previous post, i went out today to study/revise/do hw. Went to Marine Parade Library. (:
Marine Parade Library to me brings back memories. Nostalgia. ((: Yup. Yup.
Everytime i hear, see or go to Marine Parade Library.. It ALWAYS reminded me of Him. (; Yea. I do miss him. Hmm..
Alright, so Zunairah and me met in the bus 15. We went to library. The place was crowded and in the first place we could not find any place for us to sit/study. Then a few minutes past, there was a table in level 3, the children section which was vacant! Woohoo~
We began doing our own things. Zunairah revise her A. Math and her Physic. For me, i did my A.Math-binomial theorem and then did E. Math-the hw Mr Choong gave- and later started doing Malay-the O level paper.
Zunairah, was a great helper! (: Thanks!
When i was doing my E. Math, Nadiah came. Umm.. During that time, we didnt talk. As both or i can say all of us were doing our own stuffs. She did her music hw-she takes piano lesson by the way- and then started on her E. Math the hw Mr Choong give us. Nadiah is weak in her subjects. Pfft. The hw Mr Choong gave to me was quite easy-though there are a few questions i asked Zunairah. Yea.. Anyway, Nadiah was stuck and i helped her out. (: Few hours passed and Nadiah had to go to Piano lesson.
Dum di dum di dum.. Time passes by. It was about 6.15pm. I told Zunairah, i wanna go to Bedok Interchange first to go to Bedok Library to borrow Scott Westerfeld book which I am addicted to the series Uglies book. Haha.
We went out of the library. Near the entrance outside of the Marine Parade library, Zunairah asked me if i knew what bus to take. So i said "Yea.." And asked her "you tak pernah datang sini eh?". She replied "Hmm.. ya! I think i have. You're the one who last time ajak me go here and showed me where Adri's school is.."-something like that. Haha..
Woots.. She still remembered. Haha. At first when she said that i was kinda thinking back, "Hmmm yea.." Hehh ^^. And also it hit me. The last time when we both went there.. I was like kinda in tears doing my Maths! Cause at that time i was thinking how weak i am, and how i misses him and how i felt that im not good for him. Also that time, i was listening to my mp3 songs; Brown Eyes by Destiny Child. Hees. That song is simply touching and deep. And i wonder if.... ((:
Reached Bedok Library. Searched the book which i want. But too bad i cant borrow as i have used up all 4 of my books. Hmmph. Felt wasted. Lols. So headed back to Bedok Interchange to go home.
While we were walking to interchange, i told Zunairah.. "You know... Everytime i went to Bedok, I found myself wishing that i could meet with Adri. Hees (; " . Yup. Its true. She replied "Woww.. Asyura.. You really miss him, huh?" Haha. Umm.. its either she said Miss, Loves or Likes..-cant quite remember.. But i dont think it's likes? Heees.
Yea.. headed home.
The thing about being with Zunairah and me-without other people around us as in without a third person such as Herani or our classmate etc-.... I found out that i CAN really talk with Zunairah. We can talk about any topic. Unlike with Herani, i find myself thinking about what to talk about. Well kinda for both. Hees. Anyway its cool. An improvement, i can say.-Know what i mean?
Yesterday, Ms Shawa gave back Geography test/common test-i forgot which paper. Got 9/20! Hahs. Bodoh!! One mark can pass already. Haizz... Sad )):
Today, had A. Math quiz. I dont think counted for report book. Mr. Poon said.. To gage us how good we are in trigonometry. 3 questions. 2 trig equation and another is the drawing of graph question. I wronged one question. Haizz. Actually it was because i did 1C which should be 1B. Gahh.. i can do 1B la.. Anyway, Mr Poon says if we have E(stands for equation) or/and C(stands for graph) we need to stay back for awhile. Because that means we have problem. -__- Hah! Im so not happy. Hehh. Cause i wanna go home.. And kinda want to walk in the rain. Hees. Nvm la.. Stayed back for awhile. Then go home.
Ohh.. there was no Malay as Cikgu Nor didnt come. (: Yayy... Cause i can read my book which i borrowed from the library a few days ago, i think.
Then all the way.. I read and read till finish. Haha. Finished the book in less than a day! (; Cool book!
Tittle : Pretties. Author: Scott Westerfeld. Its the second trilogy of the "Uglies" series. Hees.
Hees. I like the part when Tally and Zane are together.
A scenario was when.. When Zane had brain damaged and the Special(this some kind of police force) were coming to them and catch people. Then David, Tally's old flame was with her too. David asked her to come along but Tally do no want. She wants to stay with Zane. Zane had a transmitter which is used to track him and could not be removed. That was how the Special knew where he is.
Anyway,Tally told David to run and save himself but David wanted Tally to come too. But Tally didnt want. As she wanna stay with Zane. The memories of Zane and Tally being together and the love they had for each other makes her wanna stay. While David, an old flame.. Which Tally realised that Davis was just a crush. And she cant go back to the old memories of being with David, when Zane was the one whom she felt strongly in. When David still dont wanna leave to save himself, Tally shouted "Get out of my face. I dont want to see you, you Ugly!" then turning to kiss Zane.. and slowly David walk out and run out. Tally had to do it to make him go away. As Tally do no want David to be caught by the special too.
Zane laughed. And said to her if she was ever to break up with him.. Leave a note to him. Hahas. Zane told her that he didnt want to go back to the way he was.. Being Pretties. And Tally replied that she will cure Zane.. Being Bubbly again. Like the times when Zane and Tally being together makes them feel. Yea.. In the end both of them were caught by the Special which they deliberate do so. There was no choice. The transmitter would know where Zane would go and the transmitter cant be crushed. And Tally dont wanna leave Zane as in the book Tally says that she loves him. -Thats part of the story in the end.
Another part of the story i like best was when both of them, Zane and Tally kissed and the things they did being together and creating memories. ^^ Yup. Im a girl.. So yea Figure it out! :D
Hmm.. Thats much. Anyway, I wanna go and borrow library book on about the 'Uglies' series. Book 1 named Uglies and book 3 named Special. Hees.
Ohh.. Tomorrow going to Marine Parade Library to study. With Zunairah and... Nadiah. To tell the truth.. Actually i dont really intend on wanting Nadiah to join. Hmmph. Its kind of invading my personal space. )): -Know what i mean? Somehow part of me inside wish that she wouldnt come. Other part of me says: Tak baik kalau macam gini tak nak kasi dia datang, anyway Zunairah ajak ape.. Another part of me says: Biarkanlahh kalau dia nak datang. Yea.. Mixed feeling.
Alright then. Its up to her. I'll be open-minded and not being bias. (: Yup yup. See you!
I seriously need to study! ((: Got my report card today. Failed two test-English and Geography. Mostly the other subjects around 60-68%. My E. Math POWER!! Serious. Got A2! ((: Hees.
~`I MISS MISS HIM!(: Hees. When are we gonna talk or message ? *sigh*.
Today was AWESOME!! Muahahaha :D -Note: Awesome. Hahs.
Umm.. Well.. I didnt sleep yesterday. Meaning today morning 12am.
Cause i was busy doing something. Well like about 12.30am i started doing my A.Math but then i gave up and asked older sis if she had studied trigonometry. Actually i asked her because i wanna sebuk-sebuk see see(uhh not really, just out of interest). Then if got question which i as a Sec 3 student taking A. Math ;) knows how to do the question i shall gladly help her if i can. Hahs!
It turns out that there is this trigonometry question which she needs help. Hahh! Then we both crack our brain together to deduced the equation and the answers! Hehh. Yeah.. Cool. She likes/prefers to use Phythagoras' theorem. I told her not to use it as sometimes questions may not be very nice. Like if you have an angle and one side of a three sided figure, you cant find the other one/two side if you use Pythagoras' theorem. (: She's confused with how to use the Toa Cah Soh formula. Hmm. At some point.. The question was a bit complicated but we didnt gave up. Hehe :P
Yeahh.. After spending a few minutes on the questions and explaining.. Finished already. Then i started doing my A. Math back.
After A. Math did my Malay Karangan which need to hand in by today. Umm.. i wrote out in pencil as a draft. So that i can write block again in another paper. Well.. The karangan took so long for me to complete. Yea well.. 'Writers block', you call it. (: Funny, during the first part of the karangan i couldnt write ready well as in i do not know what to start. But when the middle part and the ending of the story kicks in.. I started to write naturally. Hehes.
The tittle was "Peristiwa yang menyayat hati kamu." Hmm.. Im not sure if my story was quite pressed into it. Well yea.. I did put it in. Hmmph. Ohh in the karangan i put some creative words inside it. Thanks to me reading Malay books! hahaha :D:D
The karangan also questions about people, hawa nafsu, people leaving their agama's believe, whats wrong and whats wrong.. etc. Something like that la... I wrote. (: Listening to Ustazah Khadijah's lecture about 'Berjihad' was worth it. HAHH. I wrote about poeple need to berjihad melawan hawa nafsu kita. Sebab ... etc etc. :P
Ohh.. and i didnt sleep the whole night of today i mean. Due to doing my Malay karangan. But it was worth it. (: This is, i think the first time I wrote a karangan which really satisfied me. ((;
Had to go school I was Not late. Haha.
Anyway, the great thing about today was.. In HMT! :D
Well.. As Cikgu Sahriana promised, if there is 100 percent attendant in her class, she will buy us all pizza. (:
Hence all was present. Even on Monday there were 100 percent present. HAHH! Yea.. cool.
Umm.. In the class, we have to do Malay Paper 2 which counted in the marks. Then out of nowhere, the 2 guys(Danial and some other from Green View-i forgot his name) in my class bought in pizzaa! Yea... Ohh and Cikgu gives us each a donut too.
The pizza was great. A good start to make myself happy and looking forward to Puasa besok-somehow. There was Hawaiin pizza and Barbecue Hawaiin pizza(?-not sure if that is what it calls.) Anyway, the stupid thing is.. I accidentally stained the sos of barbecue pizza into my white shirt *roll eye* Yea. Stupid. Should have been careful. If there was no stained in my shirt, i would enjoy the pizza worthwhile. Hmm. Nvm. At least it was great eating the pizza. Only a few times did i get to eat pizzas. Hee.
Went home after that. In the bus 14, I asked Sofia if she stopped at interchange and she said yup.. But we wont be taking the same bus if we go to interchange. Anyway.. Since im lazy to go to Bedok Interchange i dropped out of the bus to my bus stop to take bus 66. Waited and boarded up the bus.
In the next bus stop, there was Imran boarding up the bus. He saw me too. Then when his stops was near.. He was standing near the door. And me and Imran looked at each other. And he smiled at me. And i smiled back. Also we kinda wave a little. A sign of greeting goodbye. Hees.. (:
This is the story of my today. The third day of term 4! Blueks.
Ohh.. And i cant believe S.A have spare tyres. Ass lah he. I never knew he was like that. I thought he was 'setia', i guess not. Hmmph. Whatever, I dont care.
Berat hati rasanya tiba-tiba. Hmmph. Im worrying about some stuffs.
Its because i havent make a difference.. Told myself to study... But NOO i didnt. PROCRASTINATION! )):
Ahh.. i havent do the Malay Karangan! ARGHH. And A. Math hw to be handed in tomorrow.
It rained while going to school today. Felt the rain dropping on me. Cool. Haha. Cause didnt bring umbrella-as if i will.
Im not like some girls who would wait and stay at sheltered place when raining. I saw them sitting under the block, void deck. Hmmph. Dont know lah what they're doing. Probably wait for the rain to stop. Hah! Wait for the rain to stop, is like wait for the cow to come home! I should say so. Blueks :D
Anyway, acuh tak acuh.. I pergi sahaja jalan under the rain. HAHAHA. Nice! ~Wee..
Err well today in MSN at night.. Someone named S.A-wont tell who, confessed to me.
He have a girlfriend now by the way. Anyway, he says that long time ago he wanna stead with me. Hees. (: Then i ask when.. He said last year. And then i asked why he wanna stead with me. What was so attractive about me? .. He replied, because of my personality and my smile! (; HAHA.
I think he said personality.. or sweet.. or some other else word.
~Wee.. I guess if i do smile, it makes me so much more ceria and manis. Haha. My smile is awesome when i really do mean it. ((: *WINKS* I loves my nice smile. Hees.
I think he tertarik with my smile because.. In madrasah i laugh a lot-Because of something funny.. Lalu terukirnya senyuman. (: Hehe.
Feeling happy. Lols. Thanks for telling me. But i have someone else. (; You'll make a great couple with her. I hope you last long, aite. Hees. (:
People always say "I hope you and him/her last long. (:" Somehow to me it seems like its the same repeated word said again and again. But still they ended up breaking. Hmmph. But only some/segelintir of them, not all ended up being together and married for life. Hees.
I think it is because these people believes in fantasy or perhaps in miracle. Or its just a sign or blessing or being nice . Hees.
Ohh.. Ohh.. they say they hope you and him/her last long.. But they didnt mean Forever! Hah! *grins*
Hmm.. I guess school was alright. Haha. Same as before.
Lots of people were late. Hehh. And im one of them. Yup i came to school late. HAH! -as usual, nothing surprising -.- But nasib they didnt take our names.
Ermm.. During Physic lesson, Mr Sng was teaching about reflection, refraction and internal reflection(i think).
Uhh he explain to us about the light passing through mirrors (something something) etc etc. Well he was explaining to us and also in simple ENGLISH. Still.. What he said sounded Gibberish to me. -Foreign words to me. And i dont understand what he is really talking about, well some. Pfft. I guess now i know, how characters in story book i read meant. -__-
HMT, had to do paper 1. Did bahagian A-writing letter/situational writing. Bahagian B-Karangan buat sebagai homework!
After HMT, went to Bedok Library. Haha. Borrowed a malay book. Hehe ^^.
Actually, when going home time.. I took bus number 299 which the bus stop at Bedok interchange.. So apa salahnya singgah ke perpustakaan Bedok kan ? Hehe. -Like killing two bird with one stone. Haha ((;
NEED to do homework. Especially karangan as counted for ca marks. Hmmph.
Nahh.. Not boyfriend. Pfft. After the talk we had.. I know we're okiee. So yea.. Great! ((: Still we're not talking. -im giving him 'space' remember?, shall not disturb him.-Although i kinda feel like malas want to layan. -__- (im sorriee). Somehow, deep inside me feels that its bloody stupid/ridiculous if we're a couple but we're not talking. And also the part about me feeling that i DONT know him well andi dont know what to talk during our conversation-if so, its mundane talks. Ahh saddening. -& i dont know what to do. Im soriee. Im sorriee. Im sorriee. :/
Anyway, not that. Umm.. Today when to madrasah. As usual i was late again. Zunairah too. So we went to madrasah together lah.
Umm on the way, Zunairah and me talked with each other. She said "Wahh.. Dah 2 weeks ah you didnt come huh?". Lols. I replied "Yaa.. Asal? Miss me? *grins&smiles* haha". And she just smiled. ~Wee.. (; I guess it was. Hehe.
This is the thing about madrasah. When i didnt come, they bother to ask why i didnt come and was concerned about me. Thats why i Love going to madrasah-unlike everday school. Hehe. I feel a different person than i was when in madrasah as if it was the real me and i was alive rather than in everday school. Hees.
Yea.. Cool. (>'.')><('.'<) Hugs*
Umm.. Had tuition today. Did A.Math on Binomial Theorem. At first start of the lesson i was focus.. Then near the end i was losing focus. Did mistakes and Mr Arul said "Whats wrong with you.. Sec 2 work you know.?" Well i didnt expand and times on the term thats why. Anthe binomial theorem the 'factorial' part was a bit confusing.
When lesson finish.. He said to me that i need to put in more affect for my subjects. And that Math, Science, Geography and for me Malay is a DO-ABLE in achieving 'A'! Yea.. i understand what he means. Its easy if i try hard enough.
Sometimes, when teacher explain.. Like in Physic, teacher explained eventhough it is in English.. It felt as if he was talking Gibberish. Those English words he use to explain still isnt absorbing into my mind. *Sigh*.
I seriously need to work harder. Tomorrow is the starting of new school term 4. And im having Monday blue. Haizz.
Umm... went out with Kakak Yah along with Abang Zain(my sis husband), Azzahrah(my niece) and Qistina(Abang Zain's niece). Both nieces are still so young, younger than me by the way. -.-
Anyway, i went out with them to watch the movie "Ratatouile"-if thats how its spell. Uhh the show was great! If rats were actually like in the movie, being a good cook, clea and can understand human.. Im sure there wont be poisoning or killing of rats in this world. Haha :D Its is a Great show la..
Actually, we watched the show at about 6.30pm. but then they fetch me at home like about 2.30pm like that. Then we went to eat at changi. After that, sis had to go for an interview. Then go to the movie place and walk around the shopping center while waiting for 6.30pm to come by. She said.. If participate in interview, you'll received $25!! Cool! Ohh, sis give me $10 from the interview money she received. And i take tak malu ambil sahaja lah. Haha. Im kinda broke =.=" Lols.
Somehow part of me felt that the first few hours before the movie was mundane and a waste of time. Cause, walk walk and see see etc. Though i like the part when seeing the shop 'This Fashion'clothes-dang NICEE! I wanna buy, but i have to save money for other uses(; Anyway, clothes can wait for awhile.
Arrived home like about 11+pm. And then inside my room, tak pictures of me. Haha. I tried taking many pictures of me.. of different pose. But i look ugly or the picture didnt turn up nicely. -_- From all the pictures ive taken.. 3 pictures that wasnt deleted. haha. I tried posing smiley face, vogue face, sexy face, girlie face.. and it wasnt up to my expectation. Haha. Ask me why i posed as sexy? Cause to compare myself-know what i mean? Hah! Complicated, yea. As in do i look like that or is it me or it isnt me-type ? etc.
Hmm.. nothing more to amplify. Fikiranku buntu =.=" HAHA. Its night now.
Shucks. I told myself to study for this week but i didnt really do it. I procrastinate it. *sigh* :(
-Well on monday 3rd September. Had S.S extra lesson. After finish.. i stayed in school. In the canteen, Alger and me talk about some stuffs.. haha. We're like quite close now-being friends i mean. Lols.
And off we went to see Mr Choong, our second E. Math teacher. I asked him about the E. Math hw didnt know how. Time passed by and we have to leave. When leaving, we three asked about each other well-being. Haha. The term for this is "We Bonded With Each Other." Hehe.
Err.. Mr Choong, to me he is a very caring and hardworking teacher..
He even did and printed notes for us. Eventhough the class is noisy and do not want to pay attention at him, he still didnt give up. And when he have gone through so many sub-topic about the topic that we're learning and one of the class said that he/she don't understand and wants him to repeat all over again from the start, still he repeat himself all over again. Very patient, he is.
I guess the problem for him is that, he is kinda not loud when talking to the class-though im not sure, cause the class voice is over-throwing him. Also, when he explains.. it isnt really 'that' well-though i do know what he's talking about la.. Hees. -Understand what i mean ? Haha.
Some people don't like him and don't want him to be our E. Math teacher. They even talk bad about him. *sigh*. I find it soo sad that people dislikes him. Doesnt they know that "Not everyone is born to be a teacher". They even criticised him on his thin appearance and clothes. "Not everyone is perfect, okiee!"
Im not sure if me being nice to him is because i sympathise him. I don't think so even if it is i would say 'a bit' only. I'm more to respecting him than pitying him. Hees. When he teaches, ive been very supportive. And being friendly with him. Haha. Im proud of what i did. ~Weee. ((:
-Tuesday, 4 Sept. Wanted to go to school to study.. But i was happily sleeping -.- Did nothing much and didnt study. Pfft.
-Wednesday, 5 Sept. Had Chemistry lesson early in the morning and ended at 9am. Then after that should have Geog lesson but Miss Shawa didnt come. Then had A. Math lesson at 2pm.
During 9am to 2pm about 4 hours waiting for A. Math, well.. it was awesome-kinda. Spend time with Alger and Leon eating Tom Yam in the canteen. Talk talk and laugh laugh. Then Leon wanna go home. And I wanna go to School library to study or rather do A. Math hw. Haha. We went our separate way.
In the library, while i was sitting down and doing my work, coincidentally.. Alger came inside the library. And i tegur him. "Hi Alger!" He was like shocked to see me. Lols. Then came in Christpher, also my classmate. Ohh in the library, at one point in time, i played Alger's DS. Haha. Played racing car. -.- I was BAD in it. Blueks. :D
Then 12.30 had to leave the library as lunch time period. Head down to canteen. We three.. talk, joke and sabo-ed. Err.. and Christopher wanted Alger to belanja me and Christopher food due to the "trauma" we accounted in the library. Haha. He didnt zipped his flyers and Chrisopher jokingly said "You even hinted to us that it was open -.-". haha kental. Lols. While we laugh, Christopher's face was red! hehe. Ohh and one of those two guys friend came to the table we're sitting and accidentally touch something. We three were laughing at him la. Then he even smelled it. GAHHH! Stupid. Its bird shit. -.-.
Seriously, that day, was really funny. Its rarely that i got to laugh out loud. Hah! Went to library back and off we went to A. Math lesson.
Thursday-Friday, 6/7 September. Well.. its in the morning actually, i should say that it was on a Friday morning.. About 1+am. My parents are going to Haji/Umrah(i forgot which one. hees.) I think Haji. They'll go Haji during the Ramadhan period until 2 days after Shawal.
I told mum, "Apalah bonda. Bonda pergi masih important time of Asyura nyer life tau! Selalu macam gini. Masih Asyura ambil PSLE bonda pun takda. Streaming exam pun takda. This year kan Asyura ambil O Level Melayu.. Abeh bonda takda. Hmmph"-Something like that i said to her. What im trying to say is that, during the most important event or can say exam.. My parents are not at home with us. Cause for me i kinda feel the lost .. Because the rumah macam tak teratur and furthermore im having O Level(which to me as ive mentioned before is a big deal). So yea.. faham faham aje lah.
My mum replied "Ehh.. ingat bonda pergi sana suke-suke aje? Bonda pergi sana jugak untuk doa kepada Allah untuk Asyura tau juga." When she said that, i felt happy and felt like crying. *Air mataku mula bergenang.* She cares. Oh my god!
I replied "Okiee.. kalau gitu. Bonda doakan Asyura. Mudah-mudahan Asyura dapat A1 okiee bonda. Ingat tau ma.. doakan Asyura untuk dapat A1 nyer O level peperiksaan." ((:
Mum "Amin." hees. Im glad. Semoga Allah kabulkan ye. (;
Sheeshh.. while writing about this incident.. makes me feel teary-eyed uh. hehh.
So today, 9 Sept. I went to Tampines Library. Read a book till it finished and then started on with my studies. I started studying like about 4pm till 8.45pm. If im not wrong. Hehh. When home at night lah.
I find it very cool and enjoyable to be going home in the night, Its like.. Im being free. Lols. Well.. i dont really have opportunities to be going out and coming back home at night-not that my parents doesnt allow. Its just that, i always wear tudung when i go out-tudung is not an issue in here- and i find it hard to pray if im outside so thats why i stayed home mostly. But since today i actually, in the first place, thought of wanting to go to school which in the end i decided to go to Tampines Library. And also since i have my period so i enjoy my day 'OFF' lah. Going out.. Know what i mean la. Heees.
After going out of library, i went to Tampines Mall. Bought stationery and went to look at some books.
I didnt call mum that i'll be coming home at night since i thought that there is no need. About 9.55pm i was walking going home, mum called me. I told her im walking home at that time and will reach home in a few minutes. Surprisingly, she wasnt angry-which i do know that she wouldn't be angry la-at me. She just said... Next time call. Haha. Reach home about 10pm. ((:
Umm.. didnt went to madrasah today. Haha. Due to oversleep. Blergghh.. -_- Hmm.. Its like 2 weeks i have not been attending madrasah (not counting last week, since last week there was no madrasah). Making it 3 weeks i have not seen my Dearest friends (; Damn, i MISS them. Haha.
Madrasah is the best-est day/thing i've always look forward to. Hees. At there, i Can be myself and i Dont have to worry about things. (:
Dum di dum di dum.
Went out with Herani today. She wanted to buy Malay assessment book for O Level. We walk around Tampines. But there was no shop selling it. Hehh. Quite tiring, walking walking. =.="But its okiee lah.
Dah puas jalan-jalan tetapi tak dapat cari buku, lepas itu pergi Tampines Library. I brought my Math to do. But she didnt bring anything. Hahs. Still she waited for me. (: Few hours later we went back home.
During our journey, gahhh... i wasnt much into talking. hehh -.- Hmm.. i dont know what to say actually. So i just listened to her and help her la as well as some stuffs i talk about.. =.= :(( pfft. Im not much of a talker. Blahh.
Ohh.. yesterday. 1st September The humanities trail was quite fun. Hahs. My group consist of me, Chang Xiang(sec 3), Fatin(sec 2) and Saiful(sec 2). The humanities trail is like the show 'Amazing Race'. Have to run and find the person and answer the person's question. Yea..
And guess what! My group won 3rd place in the Humanities Trail. Haha cools :)) I didnt expect it to be us. Lols. An effort that wasnt fruitless. :D
My wishes for this ONE week September holidays is: May i study and revise my subjects. As well as do my homework. Haha. I seriously need to buck up and study study study and ABSORB the things ive studies inside my mind. =.= *Grins* -i hope i'll do it. Cause' sometimes my procrastination takes over me. Pfft.
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
I loves the rain, seeing the raindrops from my window.
Staring up at the big blue sky, laying down.
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Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
