3:50 AM Sunday, November 20, 2011 back to top?

• What should i do if youre too far gone?
Till i cant catch up to you?

Masih berlarikah aku?

11:55 PM Saturday, November 19, 2011 back to top?

• Ya Allah, orang yang aku cintai akan menyambung pengajian Islamnya ke DPI (Diploma pengajian Islam).
Sedangkan.. aku berasa sungguh terhengah-hengah akan mengejar pengajaran dan ilmu (SPI-Sijil pengajian Islam).
Terdapat beberapa subjek (1 atau 2) yang harus aku medudukinya kerana aku tunda peperiksaan pelajaran itu untuk menamatkan pelajaranku dalam SPI (Sijil Pengajian Islam).

Aku takut aku tidak dapat bersama dengannya lagi.
Aku takut aku tidak dapat menjumpai seorang sepertinya lagi.
Aku takut aku akan kehilangannya.

Ya Allah, maafkan aku jikalau aku mengejarnya.
Kerana.. Di sungguh baik. Kan telah aku kata bahawa, "Aku jatuh cinta pada kebaikannya. Aku mencintainya kerana dia membuat kan ku lebih baik"?
Ya Allah, kalau dia baik untuk ku, izinkan aku berlari mengejarnya kerana akhirnya InsyaAllah dia kan membawaku menuju kepadaMu, Ya Rab yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang.

Ya Allah, maafkan aku jikalah permintaan ini Ikhlas atau tidak, kerana aku sendiri tidak tahu.
Bimbingi lah aku ke jalan menujuMu.
Ya Allah, ampunlah aku dari dosa-dosa ku, riya', sombong, hati yang tidak ikhlas dan segala penyakit hati.
Aku tahu bahawa rasa Cinta ini, semuanya Zat yang datang daripadamu yang kau berikan kepadaku. Malah aku memang berasa sungguh syukur akan pemberianMu.



1:25 AM back to top?

•
Hehehe. Yes I dont want to be your girlfriend. I wanna be you wife!
These thought ive been having for the past few days. hehe.

Aku jatuh cinta pada kebaikanmu. Aku mencintaimu karena kamu menjadikanku orang baik.

Hehe. Yes, sebab kau seorang yang baik, dan kau membuatku lebih baik. (:

Semoga kau aman dalam amin. Hingga tiba saat tanganku dan tanganmu bergenggaman di dalam genggaman tanganNya..

Insyaallah Amin.

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Fadhil ~ Orang yg berbuat kebaikan, utama, mulia.
Taufiq ~ Pertolongan, petunjuk.

1:19 AM Monday, November 14, 2011 back to top?

• Setiap kali pandangan mataku melihat engkau,
dengan serta merta aku tersenyum dan mengucapkan Masyaallah.

Kerana engkau adalah ciptaan Tuhan, yang ingin aku meladani, mencontohi.
Kerana aku seorang yang masih belum cukup baik.

Maka Allah, izinkan aku menjadi seorang yang baik, seorang yang muslimah, seorang yang hati ikhlas. Jauh dari riya', kesombongan dan maksiat.
Sesungguhnya, aku kerdil, sentiasa melakukan dosa.

O Allah, help me to remember You, give thanks to You and worship You in the best way.

1:04 AM Sunday, November 13, 2011 back to top?

• Today out of the blue...
I reached out a card which youve given me once. -Remember..? It was the time when you gave me the Carebear.
I realised i still kept the card which ive always placed it inside a book of mine.

So i re-read the messages you wrote in the card.
I dont know why... makes me feel so nostalgic.
Its like.. hey,.. i remember this, on that day... *nostalgic moments. Hmmm.

Then there was this phrase you wrote which i quite like alot, and it was,
"... Dan saya harap di dalam satu corner dalam hati awak tu awak boleh beri saya peluang".

To me that phrase was the most sweetest thing a guy could say. I still remember how you still chased after me and how you waited patiently for me. And i thank you for that.

Then, the thought of...
'I gave you a chance, but you blew it ' came across my mind.
scratch that you blew it.
I guess it would be, i gave you a chance, but i guess we didnt meant to be. Yes yes. That should be it. Its ok. Im not sad. It just that things didnt happen between us.
Although somehow, im glad that we didnt meant to be! (: Hehehe. Because im sure there is someone better for me out there! And it makes me me want to have a better someone, someone who'll bring me closer to God and towards kebaikan. Insyaallah.

Maybe it was a coincidence,... because i went online on facebook, then i realised the date today and Today is your birthday. So yes.
I was probably thinking along the line. Coincidence much? hehe. Awws.

Happy birthday Zainal, yang tak cute mcm carebear i. haha.

12:03 AM Thursday, November 10, 2011 back to top?

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Dear love, how are you..?
I hope youre doing fine out there, somewhere.

May God hold you and always be by your side.
For he wont burden you with actions which you cannot do.

-oh im reminding myself too.
Darling do love yourself.

Im feeling ill.. :'(

Kinda wish for tmr not come.
Oooh.. i want to listen to new radio songs.

Few days ago.. Some thing happened. Scared, sad, thankful yet hopeful feeling. I'll probably blog about it the next time. Haizz.

Hey love, when will we meet?

Maybe i should stop waiting....
I guess i should love only one since He's the one who deserves to be loved and waited, right?
Im sorryy once again :'(

-Oh why am i so sad?

10:28 PM Wednesday, November 2, 2011 back to top?

• I think i should stop seeing/meeting him. -Bumi*
Because if i were to meet him again, i'll be giving him false hope right?
And im kind of pretty darn sure that i dont want him to be my future husband. Seriously.
Im sorry.

I feel as if with you, im using you just to satisfy my nafsu. Im sorryy.. I dont want to lie to you.

You asked me.... If you could:
-Hold hands, how i wish we could, but i cant. Im sorry i onced did, sort off (as in you hold, but i didnt really push it away.)
-Hugging, i know you'd like to, even me too. But then with you i cant. Eventhough it feels good, but i cant, its wrong.
-Meeting and being with you, just us two. Im scared. I dont want to let you fall even harder or givign you false hope and i dun really know your true feelings, who knows im just one of those girls to you,

Also.. Asyura sungguh malu ketika berjalan dengan Anta. I always feels consious about it if i were to go out with a guy.

And im scared i will throw away my pendirian if i were to be with you even longer.
I should keep low. Texting or calling is okay. But meeting... Is a problem.
Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan iman, untuk menolaknya.
Semoga dia dapat tahu isi hatiku yang mahu cinta hanya kepada seseorang yang akan ku kahwini.

Kerana, aku rasa bersalah, dan berdosa seandainya aku keluar bersamamu.

Cukuplah aku mencintai/menyukai seseorang itu dalam diam.
Cukuplah aku mencintai/menyukai seseorang itu dengan sekilas pandang.

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