11:59 PM Thursday, January 28, 2010 back to top?

• I was sick. Took an MC. Weess~~
I know ive been dissing school these days haha.
I need to rewind and relax. Heh heh.

So whatever!~~

I had an interesting conversation with my mum today.
Aww... You know the most widely question talked upon!

So i Questioned mum:
Bondaa... If you are stuck in an island. Who or what will you pick?
Choose one!
1. Human
2. Sheep
3. Horse
4. Radio -I didnt tell her this
5. Al-Quran... -didnt tell her this too..
6. Bandage -Didnt tell her this too
dan lain lain lagi... As long as you chose ape bonda nak!.

Mum answered : KUDA!/

Ohhh..
Bonda tau... Apa asyura akan choose?
Asyura.. choose.. SHEEP!
Sebab kan.. Nanti boleh minum sheep punye susu...
Abeh juga boleh makan dia! Tapikan.. kalau dah makan dah takda lagi lah...
Then mum laugh! haha... As if AMUSINGLY. *Aww.. im so proud myself*. hahaha.

Then mum says:
Alaaa.. Bondanye kuda lebih bagus. Boleh jalan sana sini, tak penat.
Abeh dapat sungai! Air.. Ikan... Buah-buahan... Banyak lagi boleh dapat.

HAHA. Then i thought to myself, Eh not baddd uh bonda nye thinking/explaination! :D
HAHAHAHA.

Still... I think im gonna stick with my opinions. Hohoho.

11:59 PM Monday, January 25, 2010 back to top?

• While walking the stairs down Golden Landmark hotel, I FALL!

So yeahh.. I fall down the stairs, cause i didnt realised that there was another step down. -I think i was too confident that there isnt, and that i was only looking ahead. =.="
My feet touch the ground, but it couldnt hold it, then i lost my balance and yeah..

I fall like a Princess! :D
Yeah... With both legs together on side to side and hands touching the floor as if to regain "dignity" or composure. HAHA!
Oh! you know.. Not the cross-leg, but the other one: where "feminine" lady sit with their legs together on a certain side.

Ouch-iness one of the legs pressed again my right leg, the ankle there.
So once fallen, ive just stop there, didnt do anything at all. Trying to think...
Then, i began moving my leg away with my hand slowly, as if i broke a bone, man!-.-
So i just sat there with my back resting against the wall.
Waiting waiting waiting.. How should i go about from here? I hope i can still walk. I have work at 4pm! Cant afford to cancel. Huhu.

Later on, came a women and her husband who came out from the glass window.
She asked me if i was Ok? So yeahh.. I said im fine..
She wanted to help me. And i thought to myself.. Help what? I cant walk.. my foot is painful.. Maybe i twisted my ankle?.

Then came in the shop owner who came out. Saying lotsa people have fallen down from the stairs.
He took a chair and placed it near for me to sit. Then the woman, with her strength lifted me up for me to sit at the chair. Of course, i didnt depend and put weight on her,i supported my self to stand.

While sitting both the woman and her husband along with the shop keeper, went their own way.
I kept on thinking... Man.. I gotta gooo. I cant afford to waste time. I have work right now. Im scared to cancel for work, since replacement and craps stuffs there is! Arrghh.
Asyura.. you have to get up and walk!
LIFE STILL GOES ON, EVEN IF YOU FALL DOWN. GET UP AND GO!

With courage and determination i tested my hurt leg moving around, doing foot exercise.
Finally, I WALKED ON! (:

Moral of the story:

You fall, then you get up again. No matter how painful it is(hopefully not so exaggerating though!).
Because life still goes on. You have your appointments and to-do lists to do.
Eventhough i know.. Blerrgghhh This-im hurt- but still having to move sucks huh?. Yeaaa..

Ive always thought that in this kind of situation, nobody will come and help you(or me).
Cause to them, they think that they dont know what to do and that they are of not much help at all thus they'll just be a passer-by spectator.
But thankfully, there are others too who helps even if its not much of a help. Hees.
THANKS ;D

11:54 PM Thursday, January 21, 2010 back to top?

• So i was super happy that i pass my health assessment for Abdomen! :D

I was all smiles and shrieks when i went outside of the room. haha.

All thanks to my last minute model, Syafiq-san. -My Japanese classmate.
Oh yeahh.. My first time with a male model. hahaha!

So i couldnt stop grinning and my mind was .. Syafiq, syafiq, syafiq.. Thanks a lot!
Because my model wasnt there... So never mind just use him. Hoho. Benefit uh! ;D
Yeahh... He told me to relax during the process so yeahh. It was comfortable uh.. and i wasnt anxious, not so much (: thanks!

Also nasib baik, i dengar the lecture who's assessing me properly about the enlarged spleen theory. hahaha.

I realised that im very anxious about doing things like wanting to get to the important parts, but then.. Its the first part too which plays a part too. hees.

Anyway, while walking towards my bus stop, there was these two man walking opposite direction of me. Then one of them, nearest to me,
Suddenly, said to me... "It's good to be happy..".
Whoaaa.. Was i really showing it too much? Lol.
I bet my eyes were sparkling, my walks were spring-ing and my pathway were growing flowers! Hahaha xD

Thanks dude!

One thing for sure, ive finally past one of my hurdles. Hees.
ability, esteem, ego, setbacks.

12:11 AM Tuesday, January 19, 2010 back to top?

• Its a lyric of a song. Hehs. :P
Very Melayu i know.. HEH HEH.
I like how they use similarities in here. Hees~
Its nasyid, so yeahh. I'll listen to songs as long as i like it. So yeah..
Meaningful.

Click here for song

In-team - Segenggam Tabah

Bagaikan camar pulang senja
Patah sayapnya tetap terbang jua
Sekadar secicip rezeki
Buat yang sedang rindu menanti
Segenggam tabah dipertahankan
Buat bekalan di perjalanan
Kau bebat luka yang berdarah
Kau balut hati yang calar

Telah tertulis suratan nasibmu
Derita buatmu ada hikmahnya
Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu
Tak siapa tahu hatimu

Biarpun keruh air di hulu
Mungkinkah jernih di muara
Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu
Pasti bertemu tenangnya. "

See? Its all connected nicely. ^^
Oh yeah motivational too.
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Today, Monday, Im happy(:

7:31 AM Thursday, January 14, 2010 back to top?

• *sigh*.
Ive been telling and pujuk myself about yesterday nursing lab skill's test.

Im still kinda sad about it even up till now. ):
One thing about SLEEP is that, it helps me break away from thinking of the memory of yesterday.
Tetapi sedihnya ialah, setelah bangun dari tidur itu, bayangan semalam masih menghantui dan mencengkam minda. ))':

Ive never thought that it would be me next. Failing, cause of contamination of sterility.
Urgghh.
Im just mad at myself for doing that mistake. Even though ive told myself before that i wont do whatever they did.

2nd attempt dapat oklah.. baguslah itu.
I mean i will do well and pass the 2nd attempt.
However, WHY AM STILL SORE ABOUT IT? -you get what im trying to say?

expectations.mistakes.2nd attempt.self-efficacy.self-esteem.

Sudah lah. Dah lah. Stop it laaaa ok?!
:|

3:30 AM Wednesday, January 13, 2010 back to top?

• Well, i was contemplating if i wanna go home or go marina barrage, after school.
Yeah i know crazy idea!
So eversince the morning i wanted to go to the latter.
But then once after school comes, im kinda tired though.

So i asked a friend if i should go? Yes, alone.
Then from there we talk.

The conversation went something like..
#1:Alone? If got somebody accompany then can go lah.
Me:But then to me, so what if im alone? Ok what.
#2: Yeah.. But wont it be better and more livelier if there's someone accompany you?

Well, it got me thinking.

Because ive always been falling by my ownself.
So i guess it doesn't matter if i were to fall again.
I'll get up again all by my own strength.
However, deep down inside me,
I know about this screaming voice saying "Catch me when i fall..."

Do you understand what i mean now?

7:09 PM Monday, January 11, 2010 back to top?

• Ive just checked out this song.
Big bang - Haru Haru.. Kyaaa~~ yes yes. Haha.
Im in love :P Lols.
Thanks eh annisaa for introducing me to this song, last sunday. haha!

BIG BANG- HARU HARU

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru
Mudyeojyeogane

This is soo upbeat. Haha ^^
It makes me feel like taping my feet and jumping. Weess~~
This song is making me happy now.
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Ps: 2009 English O level Result: C6 !(:

Dont really know if i should be really be happy or down about it. Hehs.
But i guess, now, life is actually getting clearer.

But umm.. Im still thankful for what i have.
Oh whatever lah asyura eh. Its good ne? ;D

-yes it is. Thanks.

Alright baby! Time for sponsorship. Hehes.
I hope can. Hehs.

1:16 AM back to top?

• Ive been telling this time and time again!
That i really love AOISORA!~~
Yes yes, it makes me filled with ever-whelming love and appreciation for it.
Its like a never-ending picture looking at Sora. With those clouds and Aoi-ness. Hmm..

Ive never been to marina barrage in the day, only in the night.
I'd like to try that though, one day. Hees (:

I prefer Sora-gazing rather than Star-gaze!
Cause i love looking at those fluffy clouds and seeing how each have its own shape.
As well as seeing the clouds moving and passing away, blown by the wind. Haha.

I would love too.
Especially taking a picture of the Sora and the green grass.
It'd be a wonderful picture of natural-made. Hmm.
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After madrasah today, Sunday,I had a great time with Annisaa. HAHA!
Banquet, Iluma, Arcade, Movie - Hear me & the Sky top. Wees~

Movie was niceee!~ I mean it.
I would want to learn and speak Sign Language if i have the chance one day. Hmm..
Love story. Imma sucker for sappy-slash-romance drama. HAHA!

Arcade, well.. we only played one game though. The jukebeat-something. haha.
Cant believe i actually bought the card to play the games! haha.
Oh well, at least it'll cheer me up if ever i were to need some entertainment. Haha.

Hey hey!
Remember you've told me before about the drum game that you've always like to play?
And how Bugis is somewhat your arcade hang out?
Maybe that was you! The name that i saw that got quite alot of highscores in that Drum game. HAHA. Tatakei-something (Sorry i forgot/dont know what its called).
Well, yeah. Ive always knew that you like that game. And of course im impress that you can play it so well, unlike i do! haha. MAN.. I really sucks in games yeah? :P Ok, Amateur. HAHA.

Pictures with Annisaa! Haha.
-The sky top view.

Oh yeah! Me and annisaa talk alot~
I mean.. Its nice talking with her. Hehs. -unlike you know.. umm School?.
We talked about driving license! Woots~

Anyway, in madrasah today..
Annisaa and me, did a Birthday Letter and gave it to Halimatul Saadiah, our project groupmate 2009! haha.
It was prettyyy cute lah doing it! haha.
-Oh man! She's hot too.. GAGAGGAA :D -*"tak habis-habis!", i know Annisaa will say that haha!

Also! For group project this year, instead of us 3- Annisaa, Asyura and Halimatul...
We have another one joining, named Jannah! hehe :D
Do you know what im grinning about?
"HAHA! Man... Ive collected the hot babes in my class man! hahahahahahha ;DD"
And besides good looking, theyre also good speakers. Awesome presentation we'll have in 2010.

After madrasah ended, on the way towards Banquet, We met our Sem 5 groupmates.
"Heyy.. Korang..." *So slang and mentel punye sound* HAHA! :D
It was nice seeing those 2 ladies again. Hehe.

2:47 AM Friday, January 8, 2010 back to top?

• Hening malam ku sendirian

Langit biru ingin ku melayang

Melihatkan bintang menghiasi sang malam

Tatkala tiupan bayu membawakan awan bersama


Apabila mata memandang, diungkapkan indah.


-Blergh. Just a try. Hehs ;D

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I gave mom $100 today! Weeess~~
I finally did it yea. Haha
25% of my salary given. Hmm...

Im being no good right now...
Sigh.

4:05 AM Monday, January 4, 2010 back to top?

• I envy.

Looking at Taufiq's facebook pictures...
I believed that he have greeeaaat friends!
Like the outings they held and meeting-up of the groups.
I bet its fun :D

Hmmm.. Quality of life. Enjoyments. Blessings.

Ah, i feel sad. Kind off.
-i dont have what you have. Hmm..

Missed. Closed Friends. Laughters. Seek. Loved. Deprive.

I believed my only escapes will be Manga.
As well as working continuously.

Blergh.
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They'll come to me when they're in need.
Then they'll fly off once they get what they want.

That flower, somehow it seemed so sad.
Giving away the nectar of what it can only provide.
And Gone. Already gone. All is gone now.

Heys! Come on. Dont be.
Those pollens, they'll spread far and wide.
Flowers will bloom one day in many fields.