8:58 AM Saturday, November 14, 2015 back to top?

• I've seen someone I admire today. 

8:17 PM Sunday, November 1, 2015 back to top?

• Is this it? This feeling?
Cukup cukup sudah. 

That sinking heart feeling.

7:16 PM back to top?

• Hello November. Its another month to December till the end of 2015.

Hahs. Im feeling some issues with the date 1st November. And thats because of you know who birthday. Urghh damn! I'm remembering all those moments and wishes that I wish it'd be but it did not. Ssshhh.

Because it's Flourescence, my once first love birthday (which mind you ok, he have a gf and i also have a bf currently)...
So I remembered that He actually did text me a Happy birthday text to me on my 23th birthday, so its also a good thing to actually wish him a 25th happy birthday. Coz you wish me i wish you back right. hahaha. Feeling kinda queesy (if you know what i mean).

Its like, ok im not supposed to say it here, thank god nobody's looking at me or reading my post, HAHA! Well, you got to admit it, he's grown so fine! HAHAHAHA omgg. *grin big smile*. 
Yes, so Fine. I tell you. I'd say its, 'When i look at you i instantly smiled' feeling! ;) *im embarrassed now*. hehe.

I knew he'd one day grow to be what i knew he'd be. His thoughts, ambitions and determinations. Sometimes im just so envious of him. haizz. This just showed of how much i really admire him. Hehe.

That big nice (muscular) back, when you look at him from behind. The nice big long arms where you wish he'd hold you... Hmm....
okok -.-" Stop it ok. Dia ada girlfriemd sia, Syura! hehe yea yea I know. 
-Confirm if Annisaa is reading this post she gonna scold and laughed at me. Hahaha. That is If she read this post, coz i know i so longg didnt update my blog.

Back to the text, yes Ive wished him a Happy Birthday... May Allah bless him, increase him with iman, knowledge and lotsa happiness. Amin.
Yea... And.
He replied, hope im (ME) doing fine too.

Yes, this girl is on fire*insert song here* doing fine. Syukur Alhamdulillah.
I'd thank you... Thanks for being the mile stone in my life as i go through this life. You know.. alot of things I did was because of you, partly.
Like you know, a few days ago, i saw my Higher Mother Tongue (HMT) Cikgu Sahriana in my ward, which i nursed her father-in-law. Hehe. One of the reasons why i join HMT was because it'd help to reduce my O level points and because you also once took  HMT, thats why i wanted to be like you too.

I still remembered i once gave you a headband, for your fringe which was long and was irritating you. HAHA. That was somewhere in my year 1 or 2 in Poly.
Remember i bought two, one is the rocking style spike headband. Another is the black headband which when you took out from the bag you immediately like it but then once you taken it out fully from the bag it was a black headband with a black RIBBON on it! HAHAHA.
Im pretty sure you took out the ribbon afterward! Obviously lah, so girly right! hahaha. 

Hmm i dont know. .. Sometimes, i wonder what it'd be like if we are still you know.. hmm...
I wonder if i made the right choice in the you know.. separation/togetherness of this what you call relationship / friendship?
Ok, its not right talking about relationship now. Obviously i dont wanna wish for your destruction in relationship, im not mean! Ok. Im a nice sweet person! haha(:
I hope You will still be 'one of my friends' which i truly cherish. InsyaAllah Amin.
One day, if we were to meet again in a cross-path, let us SMILE at each other! Perhaps be like *Hands up* whatssup! haha.  ((:

I guess this is what you call a first love. Hehe. Lets wish and Doa' each other for the best in life.
Like i'd always say and believe; If it's meant to be, it will be.


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There's this i song by Katy Perry - I'll never be the same.. If we ever meet again.
 Yes, I'll be better. I'll be that lady which i once weren't. I'll be stronger and confidence.
~*Sob sob.