11:59 PM Saturday, February 27, 2010 back to top?

• I have a dream.

To live in a terrace house which overlooks the sky at the roof top,
& a greenery garden filled with flowers in my backyard.

At the sky top, i plan a place for me to sit and relax, lying with my head looking up into the sky with a shade that covers me from the bright sun rays.
Even when it is a clear day or even a starry sky, i would just sleep peacefully with the wind blowing over me keeping me slightly cool.

In my garden of flowers, where brightly shades of colours sprung and the surrounding air smells of lavender, roses or other such smells will fill me up in a relaxing easiness.

Both sanctuaries is where my heart is, feeling at ease with myself, in contact with nature and the beautiful world.
Not forgetting, where i will always praise Allah Subhanaallah Wa Taala for His magnificent creations. MasyaAllah!

Dear Allah, if this becomes reality....
- i would really cry! (:
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Dont give me a stalks of roses cause they'll soon wither and die.
Give me a PLANT of roses with it's roots still planted underneathe the soil.
For i will like to grow them and see them blossoms.
As time passes by, even when the old ones dies but still i can see the new ones-these roses- keeps budding and growing forever more.

12:33 AM Friday, February 26, 2010 back to top?

• My house today (25 Feb) buat Maulidur Rasul. Then the majlis orang datang my rumah.
Alah... As usual, eversince i was born ada ini!

So anyway, there's the part where "Ya Qadiyal Hajaat... Ya Qadiyal Hajaat", the mintak hajaat;
-we doa kepada Allah tentang apa yang ada dalam isi hati kita.

So close my eyes, and i berdoa.. "Supaya persahabatan Asyura dengan dear Friends bertambah kuat, bonding kita orang. And hopefully dapat jumpa dia orang lagi."
& other wishes. hehe.

Guess what!?
MY WISH CAME TRUE !! :DDD

I met Herani & Zunairah just now around 11pm. Heeee!~~
Its like.. So magnificence. You thought of someone or want things to happen, and in the end it appeared!
THANK YOU ALLAH! :DD

Hence, once semua orang dah balik, mum... ask me.
Asyura..yang kawan asyura itu yang tinggal dekat sini.. tanya dia nak nasi briyani ke taknak? Ada banyak extra.-Referring to Herani.
So i called her up, then i called Zunairah.
Since both Herani & Zunairah stays quite near my house area.

So yeah.
Malam-malam begini... Nak kasi dua anak dara itu.. You know lah, Susah sikit..! haha.
-i also was kinda scared that i wont get to meet them. haha.
But still i was pretty much excited meeting them and *click* they came! haha.

The thing which kinda made me sighed a sigh of relief was, they CAME to my house doorstep! Haha. Nasib baik lah kau asyura! :DD LOL.
- Mentang-mentang hari raya pernah datang my rumah, so dah tauu lah ni! hahahaha! :D
Well Herani came dulu, then few minutes later Zunairah datang.
Oh yeah, mum gave makanan/kuah-nasi briyani, kuah dalcar, ayam, daging, muffins-extra though. Hehe!

Herani, dia kata dia jumpa mak dia kat bus stop so dia boleh lah singgah my rumah sekejap (door step).
For Zunairah, her dad hantar her here naik kereta. Then she naik atas uh, my door step. About Zuu's dad, biaser uh.. Dad hantar. Rumah dia kan kena walk across road and i understand uh her family.. Like dad strict. So yeah.

Honestly, i was like... SO HAPPY & EXCITED.
As well as "AWWW... AKU RINDU KORANG LAAA!~~:D".
Hehe.
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Today maulidur rasul, was alright. Not many people-makcik dan anak mereka-came compared to last time. Maybe due to weekdays probably.

Ahh.. I still remember when we were young, me and the guests while us still being a child, somehow or rather, we went to my mum's room, on the air-con, and then we'll loncat-loncat, do cartwheel and even choke-slam each other. HAHA. We play play!
Then after majlis finish, i remembered mum marah me and lil bro Hakim sebab kita orang kasi budak-budak main-main kat katil yang untuk tidur itu. Lols.

Well those days, we siblings tak suka ada majlis sebab nanti kena tolong and kemas! So yeahh.. And susah payahkan kita orang ajee. Sambil we siblings kena share katil or even tidur kat living room! Nanti katil kita orang pun diletakkan kerusi dan meja-untuk relieves space tu pasal! Haha.

But this year different. Only my katil je yang letak kerusi and meja. Sebab the rest of the other barang-barang my dad tak angkat or is put somewhere else!
So guess where I sleep? -In the living room of course!
Asyura bentangkan Carpet(sebab carpet Dad gulung), bantal-bantal, bantal peluk, selimut untuk myself.
Tapi, the one thing that is best about tidur luar pada itu hari ialah, Asyura pagi-pagi buta main Internet AND Chiong study Childbearing book for the next day's Exam! HAHA! :p

Oh yeahh, the past few days pun, Asyura tidur luar. Abeh Asyura bakar 'Bathi (Incenses)'. Heh heh. Cause baunya buat Asyura suka lah and easy to sleep. Also angin udara dari luar tingkap BEST! Sedaplah nak tidur.

Moving on, Teh (Who is my nenek, we call he that), she datang rumah untuk tolong, seperti biasa every year. But now she very tua and tak larat so she buat sikit tak banyak.
I told mum, Teh dah tua, memang tua! 76 years old now.
I mean, somehow, Teh tanya Asyura questions, beh Asyura answer dia lah, then thats how we got started talking! I like the conversation with Teh. Cause both my grandparents, we dont really have a quality time together. Macam jumpa salam, reply answer, tolong gitu. So yeah. Im glad to have a conversation with Teh. LOL! ;D
Like really.. talking with Teh, really makes me feel as if im talking to orang tua! Probably due to her aging years.

What else? I mingle with the guests-the perempuan side lah of course.
Bila part makan, Mum and Sis-Kak Mai, dia orang kata"Oi..budak bertuah ini. Orang tengah buat kendarat dia sendiri tengah shiok makan.. cisshh.". HAHAHA.
Then i reply, "Sebab asyura kan host...!"HAHA! :D
Well yeahh, i Did talk with the guests. LIKE REALLY! Im not so good with people i dont know right, but still i TALK! Congrats to meeee~~ haha.

Somehow the conversation topic is of Nursing (school) and CAKES!
Tanya about attachment. The BEST part, CAKES!
They say.. If i MINAT buat cakes, surely i can do it. Buat cakes or brownies kena patient dan banyak practice.
WHY THE TOPIC OF CAKES OR BROWNIES?
Cause a few days ago, I BAKE BROWNIES for the majlis and packthe extra brownies for them to eat at home. So they know that i yang buat, Sebab my dad go announce the majlis people kata "INI anak anta yang buat! Asyura!" -.-'ZZZZ embarassing, but still yeah.. I make it. Lol.

Haha. Well i didnt tolong kat dapur much. Lols. :DDD
-asyurapemalastupasal. heh heh. I did other stuffs.

Oh yeah, the majlis ends with orang-orang mengambil bunga melur yang baunya harum itu! (well i cant smell if it is! im like tak buat apa-apa pun-.-")

Well, i believe that this year is really different. From my point of view, i think im becoming much more emotionally and cognitively mature!
Weeees~ ((:

1:37 PM Monday, February 8, 2010 back to top?

• I just feel so listless now or even these days.

Yeaaa, like moneymoney, studyy & manga.
*sulk*.

I wanna relive the past somehow. My mind wondering off to.
Cause, i have this 'I Miss Those Times' feelings.

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Once upon a time.

I told Annisaa, that i'd love a birthday celebration like that!
Helium balloon, the greenery and blue sky. With love ones. (:

12:07 AM Tuesday, February 2, 2010 back to top?

• Dear Love,
Its been quite a while isnt it?

Tell me something i dont know, please. Time!
When will it be? When will you come? *tick-tock the clock's hands move*.

Honestly, once again.. You made my heart in disarray.
Seeing you once again.
I was surprised, yet happy. Glad and thankful for this meeting. (:

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My thought wanders while waiting for Nadiah at Bugis mrt today.

In my mind, i was thinking of the past memory where there was once upon a time.

While sitting down at the staircase, reminiscence...
A familiar figure caught my view-
And yessss! It was ADRI ~! :DD haha, coincidence much?

Hmmm Hmm..
He was walking towards the escalator, once i saw him, and our eyes met..
Its like -.^ Hmm? The word to describe it was Disbelieve.
Yea.. couldnt believe who it was right in front of me (or us).
So then i stood up, he while the escalator goes up his face staring at me.
Out of nowhere i just ask "Where you going?". And he replied "I going work"...
So then not wanting this chance to slip by, i went up the staircase meeting him at the end of it.
It was nerve-wrecking, panting a bit going up the staircase! haha.
But all that was in my mind was, I WANNA meet HIM!
Thanks(:

Finally we met at the end of the staircase. We talked for a while since he's rushing for work.
Then we said our goodbyees. ((:

Its been a long time since ive last saw him. Yea.. his hair grew! -This just shows how much times passes us by. Hees.
Ummm.. The same broad-shape shoulder figure. Hmmm... Which i noticed and seemed so reliable. Haha.

I got mixed feeling.
Seeing Adri again to me was an amazingly happy feeling. Yet deep inside there is this sad stinging feeling. But its ok. Im fine.. (:
My mind after the occurrence was fumbled.
Its like, i wish to... What if... But I dont know if there is a chance... But no its ok.. Maybe its just not meant to be. Haha.

Whatever lah Asyura, stop it.

Hmm.. Lets ask a question.
If there was a chance, would you go back to a previous relationship? -that was my mind which thought about it.
Answer: (may not be accurate or right though, may change as time goes by).
I guess my answer will be, Maybe i do. Once we talked and know much more about each other and having our common grounds or so.

What we lacked in each other was, maybe about:
Being together, talking, playing teasing, just plainly communication as well as being physically there & supporting each other's back in times of needs. Do you think so?
Its sad. There could have been a chance if we only try harder.

But its just that, like you said, the feelings just arent the same.
I guess its just me being wishy-washy. Hahs.

Well, its ok. Im fine. Really fine. Yeaa..
Thank you, dear love.

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PS: Nadiah got into NYP! Woohoo.. Cool.
Can see her in school sooon... Banking & Finance, Business section. Haha.
We were separate for a year due to different pathways, but now, its seems that the road is becoming one. (: