11:59 PM Tuesday, October 27, 2009 back to top?

• To update about O level Engllish 2009, on 26 October,
Well... The paper was alright.. Can be said that it was do-able!
So im glad and happy about it.
Alhamdulillah \^^/

I poured in my heart and soul inside the paper yea.. ! HAHA.
*gushi gushi. :D

I hope the result will be better. Hees.
ASYURA CAN DO IT! Weeess~~~

-lets wait and see till Feb comes then. Hehes.
Oh yea.. There were few who wishes me. So yea, thank you much! Hehe^^

Ps: Paper 1 I was careful with my words and thinking of creative ideas.
Wrote Argumentative essay. Hehs. The situational writing is not too bad. hehs.
Maybe i score better in my situational than essay? Who knows!
Paper 2! OMGG... Its about DREAMS! There were words like REM, Sigmund Freud and hypotheses/interpretation of dreams which was interesting and some topics i have learnt about! OMGGG. HAHAHHA
Ok asyura. Thats an advantage for you... As long as you answered the question correctly. Lols XD

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For Elective module, I registered Japanese Elective module!
Yays! Finally~
Ive been talking about taking Jap ever since before i came into NYP. Hahaha.

Oh yea.. People these days needs to chill. Uhuh. Lotsa dramas.
Sometimes i wonder, are we or the other opposite party are in the wrong? Who's to win and who's to lose?
And how long are we supposed to be patient and keep calm about things? HEHS :P
-its hard to say.

PS: TODAY IS THE 27 OF THE MONTH! (:

12:15 AM Monday, October 26, 2009 back to top?

• ..... Because i wanna believe in miracles(:

Dearest ASYURA,

Gambatte-ne with tomorrow's English O Level 2009 exam!
Remember all the reasons why youre retaking this exam, those past sad memories and those obstacles as well as hardships youve gone through. Ok?

Looking back through this past months, its amazing how time passes by.

Remember the time where you were crying while walking towards the bus stop from school, just wondering where you went wrong and how screwed life was?
Where you dont even feel like wanting to go home at that point in time.
Added on, instead of going back home-which you find that there was no point in it-hence you went to someone else's house and somehow began to feel comfort.

There in that place, you talked and discussed about life pathways which were soon to be taken place whether you like it or not.
Further considering and support from a relative you eventually made up your decision hence you chose the course you are in right now. You were pretty much fine with the decision you made.

While those nights after that fateful day, you toss and turn as well as crying softly in your bed wondering about faith, God and whose fault was it.

As well as remember those times, where that particular person keeps on talking negatively about you.
Saying that God does not want you to pass because you disrespected and disobeyed them. Blaming everything on your behaviour as well as giving examples on those closed ones who had so called 'Failed in their life' or 'Being a failure' according to him.
Furthermore, saying that you have been influenced by them and criticising that everyone of his closed ones all (including me and 3 or 4 others) are a failure!
While listening to his 'preaching' which will last non-stop, sometimes you would talk back at him because in your opinion the things he said were not very true and were extremist as well as narrow-minded thinking-which you dislikes about him.
No matter how much you rebuked there were always something he would reply and most of the time what he replied does not make sense or it'll burst into another topic.
His words, apparently to you, shoots out full of negative words which brings you down and would began to make you feel sad once again.
Hence, he repeatedly reminded me of what he said even a few days or weeks after!
Things with GOD GOD GOD, that was the reason why you got uncertain and doubtful.

In your opinion dealing with that one person was the most excruciating mental distress on you.
Where your faith begans to drop, you doubted God and you doubted fate as well as destiny.

Consecutive nights kept you awake and still kept you wondering about life problems.
You started to think, is this the right choice? Going to this course? Whats gonna happen after this? Will i be able to like it?

You then began to ask yourself what do you want in life as well as saying to yourself to move on.
Your faith and about God started to increase unlike before when you were depressed as you took one step at a time.
This may probably be because of madrasah and others:
-having Ustaz Azhari's Tafsir lesson due to the way he spoke about the miracles of things
-dearest Ustazah Salbiah who taught me from sec 3-sec4 where her ways, action, nice character and personality makes me admire her most
-as well as previous encounters with people and experiences makes you gradually move on.

Furthermore, reading the Quran and its Tafsir where randomly flipping the pages for answers somehow guides you in life more or less.
Besides that, you finally knew what you want in life as well as things you wants to change about yourself. To be close to God and to be close to People.
Killing two birds(or even 3!) with one stone you finally think that Nursing was the right choice for you. (;

HAHA!

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Thinking back, maybe failing it at that point in time was a blessing in disguise?
Makes me realize and experience new things.
Going to work so that i can pay the exam fee myself-without bothering/asking my parents. Cause i dont want them to say im using their money for something which ended up futile, SO no complaining! Hahs.

Maybe because of it, there will or might be a better opportunities for me out there? Who knows.
Cause they say, Semua pasti ada Hikmah nya! xD
Chey chey~ Lol.
HAHAHA.


Ps: Im kinda excited and scared to sleep! Waaahh~
Good luck Asyura! (:


12:50 AM Friday, October 23, 2009 back to top?

• Aisuru Anata Crazily! (:
-to be in love with you crazily...

I created myself tau! haha. Japanese plus English word.
Entah betul ke pe tak tahuu.. (As in Grammar or sentence?!) hahahaha.

Hmmm, i think the sentence is cute! :D

Hmm.. Wardah msn me and she wrote/use: Syg ku asyura.
Wees~ Thank you\^^/

Hmmm.. Then with vlanDra I wrote: Saya rindu kamu.
Lalu dia reply: Saya pun! Hugs Lol.

Omgg so cuteee~ hahahaha.
Kyaaaa!~

Aisuru Sorairo
To be in love with Sky-Blue.

Anyway, i heard a conversation from Kim to this Zan's friend.
She talk something about...
Dont let your pride and ego makes your relationship to end like this.
If you see and think that there is future in your relationship for which you're able last together then stop your ego and saves your relationship!
If you think that there's no future for the both of you then its alright to end just like that.
-well... something like that. Hahaha.

And im like.. Woaah... What she says pretty much makes sense! :O
Pretty much get the hint of: Whats the point in having no future!? Haha.

11:43 PM Tuesday, October 20, 2009 back to top?

• Hmmm...
Today was at first good, alright then tumbling, not bad and great.

Ever had an experienced where...
A certain particular situation bothers you
But then when you say about the situation as it is or write it down, you find as if this thing is actually not worth mentioning?
Its like banyak susah hati nak berbual! hahahah.
Blerggh =.=

At the end of the day, on the way to home..
The journey was actually self-satisfying! Hahs.
Wees~

So i took bus 13 from YCK mrt...
Where the bus drive past the Masjid Muhajirin.

Then it made me remember about my previous visit to the mosque...-with my family which we prayed mahgrib there. For which the occasion was to visit Aunt Mamaenab's house for Hari Raya which she lives just opposite the mosque.

Hence, i was reminded of myself about that day..
Where i had told myself this, "Next time... Asyura datang masjid ni i shall derma uh! Sebab tak sempat and takda duit nak kasi uh nari!". Hehs.
-nahh..im not bragging.

So yeah.. after a few struggling with inner self.. I finally decided to go to the masjid and pray.
Prayed Asar and qada' Zohor.
As well as 'Makmum' Maghrib and Ishak! Hahaha yes.
Stayed there for quite some time uh. Hehs.
Read my Ulum Hadis-Pfftt Test uh this sunday.
As well as reading the Quran after every prayer.

I find myself that i will read Quran, most of the time, only when im in Masjid! Hehs.
At home.. SEE FIRST! Depends on mood. Lols.
So yeah. At least you baca than tak baca ye asyura. HAHA.
Cause at masjid macam takda distraction and the motivation of 'If im here, might as well i baca Quran tau!' thinking.

Oh heys.
Im doing what Ustaz Azhari does about reading the Quran.
Which is: Random flipping of the Quran page and asking God what topic shall i learn/read today.
-well something like that. Haha.

Its pretty cool uh.
For example, asking God to gives you directions/guides through the Quran.
AND well.. Does it work? Haha :D
-Well.. There were a few times which some of the pages/text answered my questions. hahaha.
So its interesting. And i'll always ask some questions before i flip the page hoping that things will calm me down. Hehs^^

Good stuffs.

I gotta sleep now.
Oyasumi~

11:40 PM Monday, October 19, 2009 back to top?

• I shall begin my post saying...
HELLOO ASYURA! :D
-just to brighten my mood ZZzz hahaha XD *mepek-mepek.

Oh heys, asyura...
Remember wad you said about the "hub bun minAllah, wa hub bun minan-nas"?
Well yeahh.. Come on. Going to school and studying is part of it yeah! (;
Okok. Mehh... Just remembering myself.
Cause im just not so into looking forward about school T.T *sad.

Life is starting back again.
Whereby i know i gotta move on in time.
*darn... dont push me. i dont like it. but still. it keeps on moving. Hehs.
ANSWER: I should run! Duhh =.="

"

Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

O-town-Nothing at all

"
Hmmm.. I've been listening to songs which is kinda like the oldies..
Somewhere when im in primary school's period. haha.

There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never...
-hahs. so true. thats why they say all you can do is to get back up again!
Hmmm.

Important dates are coming.
-Im feeling kinda scared though. As if expectations needs to be met! :S

26 OCTOBER! -O level English exam Paper 1 and paper 2.
Syura, last chance. Gambatte-ne. *grins hard.

There's 27 October... HAHA! -.- Cause i like 27? Probably so.
AND there is
1ST NOVEMBER! -Happy birthday to someone. (:

Sometimes people from the outside, when you look at them, you say they look sombong...
However, sometimes seeing may not be the real thing. Haha.
Probably its just they way their features are that makes them looks like it.
Others.. Just wanna maintain a strong impression- not wanting to be seen weak due to their (weak self-esteem) inner self. Hees~

I must study~~ SERIOUSLY!

Nursing huh?
Hmm.. I think today's subject module is kinda interesting.
Child bearing. haha Nice stuffs ^^.

Heys. Im not pretty sure of what i wanna become after graduating.
There were a few things i want in mind. Hahs.
I want to see growth in people! Hehs. Sort off.
Giving encouragement and education. Hmm.. Careers like TEACHING! Oh man..
Heys. It'll be great if...... Gahhh.. i cant explain it.
Its not that i dont wanna be in a hospital setting ward.
Rehabilitation, Education, Paediatric, Cancer & Heart-im interested.

Im dreading school. Hahs.
But today, with Nadzeef was nice. haha.
Omgg... I learn something new with him haha.
Oh he's my so called buddie partner.
Heys. I dont mingle well with people(sometimes).
With Nadzeef and girlfriends cliques, myself,is kinda abit different. Sad.
talkative/spontaneous vs quiet/reserved. :(
Im sorry. Maybe thats just the way i am or things or especially conversations are.
Hmm...

-Crap! Im starting to write negatively. NONO! Hmmph. -_-

Dear Asyura,
Stay strong love, and I hope you'll feel better in time! ^-^

12:27 AM Thursday, October 15, 2009 back to top?

• Dear God, I still kept on hoping...

sweeps me off my feet~ hmm..

10:23 PM Tuesday, October 13, 2009 back to top?

• Bunny!~ Wees ('.')

I bought a Bunny keychain yesterday! Ahaha. Its super cute laa! -it must have been due to the motivation of seeing the RABBIT at Ustazah Salbiah's house! Hoho ^^.
Then i bought this flower-shaped looked like diamond- keychain. Which i like the way how it changes colour when's there's light. It makes me think: As if seeing hope when there's darkness, seeing through how things will turn out. Hehs.

Hence, both keychain is used as a hp strap since i badly need one! HOHO.

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Ive finally given out all my presents to my dear close friends! ^^
Yays ('.')V ; My madrasah masjid kassim's friends. hees.
HAHA! Someone says, im sweet! -Giving the Famous Amos Soft and Chewy to them! haha. Lols.
Well.. Actually ive always wanted to give or do something for them eversince so long ago-since the outing! Hahs. Cause they're my cherished friends and i'd do things for them so yeahh! (: Honestly, yes. I treasure them! And i thank God for having meeting and being friends with them. Surely.

Hmm well, both cookies are different flavours. One's the NNCC another is Choc fusion.
So on that Saturday/Sunday(morning) i gave to Faisal first.. Since it was easier.
Then Monday gave to Rahman.. Meet him at Bedok.
Later on today i gave to Herani and Zunairah. Hoho. ^^

Oh~ I did give to Annisaa too on sunday. -Satu sorry ye.
As well as Taufiq, since i kind of owe him his Hershey's cookies and creams! -___-" Hehs. -Lols. This cost more than that ok. But little in quantity though. Lols.

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Yesterday, Monday.
Once given and went separate ways...
I find myself thinking.. 'Urgghh Stupid. You missed your chance! Pfft -.-' Hehs.

Ohs. I went to Changi airport.. Supposedly to study.
But all i did was do Sejarah Islam ppt projek -_-"

Oh yeah.. Not to forget...
MY MASSIVE SPENDING of items!
Which is the Minitoons keychain and WATSONS!

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I went to someone's house today.
Gave the items and asked about the moodiness/merajuk-ness about what happened on that day.
Found out that its actually quite stupid -Miss-communication uh!.. Blerghh.
Pasal tak msg tapi msg lagi satu orang pun boleh pissed off. Relax uh. TERLUPERR.. Anyway itu msg is just note taken but not that urgent to reply. Hmm..
Right or wrong, I said sorry to her and she knows what happened already... Since Faisal explain to her already. So yeahh.. THANK YOU FAISAL! Tak sangka.. Hees

-eh. But actually eh... I didnt know that she was mad at me. Uhuh.
Till she told me! Blergh. And i also cant believe he realised the tension too while i kinda didnt know/realised about it. Hehs.
Asyura very sloww... -__- Huhu.

Though a bit stupidly bothering me just now. hehs.
But all ends, and ends well! (: Takmu ambil hati! (L)
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Oh yea.. While walking at Bugis junction today.. Past this animal shop... I saw another cute rabbit! It was very fluffy! And it seem to be healthy and was eating when i last saw it. The ears was pointy (if im not worng)... Must have been a MALE yea? ^^ hoho. CUTE.

Yes, Whats up with me and BUNNY these days. -___-" HAHAHA.
So true!

Psst.
This lyrics have been singing in my head ever since yesterday....
Since that little boy sings it in the bus 60 on the way to Bedok!.
"

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

*Aizat-Hanya kau yang mampu

"
Hahaha. I only like that part of the song. But the first 2-3 verse is pretty alright uh.

Lolols.
The part is pretty cool uh-the lyric and melody.
Macam Peterpan-Semua tentang kita. Hehs.

Hees.
Here's MY BUNNY! :D


Oh yesss.. Im poking her! HOHO.
*POKES. Giggles XD
The ear have this 'LOVE' word on it.

Pretty nice! (;

-Mehh.. i sound like a little girl haha.
Wadever.. Amuse yourself yea, Asyura. :D

2:18 AM Thursday, October 8, 2009 back to top?

• Oh darn, i wanna have a boyfriend! -_-
Pfft. Hehs.

Gagaggaga.
It'd be great, that is if the person's the right one.
Blerggh.

Asyura likes to fantasize uh eh? x) Lol.
-yeah true.

But she always hope, but dont expect things too much...
Since she thinks that "dont put so high up or else you'll fall real hard".
Though the sentence can be contraindicated. Heh.

Oh, i still remember about the post i blog about..
You know the MRT part and the pillow, about having bf and stuffs. Hahahha.
Rawwwr! \m/

Darn darn darn darn.
I miss the fluttering feelings. Huhu.

Sometimes, Asyura you live in your own world uh? -.-"
-hehs. Because thats where all your dreams and wishes comes true isnt it? :D
Eventhough it may not be real but at least it serves a certain portion of your desires uh, i guess.

Sedih uh, about vlanDra. HAHAHA.
Macam bodoh gitu, kau Asyura. =.= Hmmph.
Thinking, wondering and waiting.

Huhu. Stop it ok.
Its as if youre coming back to the same cycle.
Oh gossh, maybe im a masochist!? Hoho.
Ok dah. Merepek. Tssk -.-

Honestly, sometimes what we think/wrote in the past/present may seem to matter the hell lot for us at that point in time.
But once its already in the future, you'll think back that YOU'RE ACTUALLY PRETTY STUPID to think about that! =.= Ha haha ha ha.
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Im left with today and friday for attachments. Yaayys~
People are missed! xD
Im gonna take my new spectacle this friday, cant wait! Wees~
As well as working my ass of for money to come every month- FA uh!

Its Thursday morning now.
Attachment work at 7am today. Time now 2.33am.
Zzz.
After attachment later have FA at 6pm. Hahs!
I just hope my mood to go work is still there like the way im feeling now. Hahaha xD
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I miss Someone.
Pretty much, i guess so yea? (:
Who and where are you then?