11:59 PM Sunday, September 14, 2008 back to top?

• Have i ever announced about one of my dreams have come true?

So here's a shout out:
On 14 July 2008, i, Asyura, have finally obtained a HTC Touch Diamond phone !!
Woohoo... :D

I really really love love love my 'Diamond', which i call it.
This is the best thing that I have ever been satisfied about!

Its a great phone, a good investment for the future. Wahhh...

I have been wanting a phone like this all my life. And now I have had it! ^^

Hmm.. I love the phone, so I don't have anything/much to criticise it.

But you know...
Recently, I discovered that my screen is scratched.
Ahhh nooo! Haizz...
Cause I did not use screen protector -.- pfft.

Haiyoo... I feel kinda bit sad. Cause my beloved phone is scratch. Wahh T.T

Oh well, I shall take care and treasure it well.

-psst! I hope that my love for Diamond is ever-lasting hees.
Cause you know me... 'Ahem ahem' much... Hehh.

That reminds me. There are a few thing which I have once really wanted. And it have come true.

For example,
My Zen 8GB MP3 player.
Having Math tuition, with Mr Arul the teacher.
& lastly my beloved Diamond.

You know everytime or most of the time, when i said i love something...
At first i would really love it.
But when time passes by, i didnt really treasure it as much as before. Hehhs.

Now, it seems that my Zen mp3 have some problem. Like it is lagging and a bit dented.
For tuition, now i dont really find it enthusiastic as before.

Haizzz..
That's the reason why I hope that Diamond would not be like the "predecessors". Heh heh.

By the way, my Diamond is a 4GB internal memory! Hees.
It also have wifi. Furthermore, my school have access to wireless wifi.

Hence... You do know what that means don't you?
It means i can go internet in school!
And watch anime/manga. But mostly manga. Heehee.

Remember the promise i made about stop using comp, which means no manga and no anime.
Well... I can channel this through my Diamond. Muahaha.
So that means, i am not breaking my promise. Lols.
-though, ive already kinda broke that promise now. -Im sorry!

-otak geliga eh?
Well.. But i dont want to intent to use it often in school. So yea.. Im cutting these two things; manga & anime-i love short thats it!

By the way! Its been around a few months since i have last watched an anime show.
So all the time, i've been reading manga. Lols.

Ok. Byee byee.

8:24 PM Monday, September 8, 2008 back to top?

• Gyahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Today was like crap! Yeahh...

There were Core Geog paper 2 and A.Math paper 2.
How was it? ... Not much confident.
Well, these two kinda a bit ruined my day, but not soo much.

Well, one thing led to another.

Even more worst, getting back HMT paper! Gagagaga..
I wanna swore a lot a lot a lot!
%#@@#* haha :D

My mark was like shit! yeahh. Fuck damn it.
Well, teacher do say that these paper was actually hard. And there were only one person who got A2.
Hmmm...

Actually, at first i thought i got 58%, at least a C5.
Then later on.. I count count count...
In the end i got 53%, a C6.

I would like at least got a B4 please... T.T

Ahh.. very teruk.
The last time, i get was around 58, thats actually not that too bad, though could be better.
So anyway 53% is like crap! So shitty, i dont know what to say. Grr...

Honestly, im angry at myself.
But truthfully, i know i did my very best in Hmt paper! Yes yes.
Paper 1, when i was doing it and finished, i felt very happy about it.
Paper 2 was so-so.

So anyway, masa untuk musahabah diri sendiri...
Cikgu kata, my IDEAS is great! But its my BAHASA that pulls me down.
Ahhhhhhh! Again... Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Yea, well...
I'll tell you a secret!

For O level HMT, i aim to get at least a B3!!!
Because, if i got at least a B3, there is a chance for me to go to JC- as in last hope.
As there is this one course which called MNEP(i think) which is offered by Tampines JC, they give you scholarship to study Mother Tongue.
So yea.. who knows tup tup, something (worst-well not that bad) happens to me.. Then this MNEP can probably save me?

Hmm.. I use to think that i wanna go to JC.
Now, with things like this, all the craps and shits... Im reconsidering JC.
Poly much? Ahh.

Exhaustion, tiredness. But I know i must still go on.

4:45 PM Wednesday, September 3, 2008 back to top?

• Well, i dont feel like going home.. I dont feel like going library either. I dont feel like going nowhere.

Somehow, i just feel like dropping down on the floor!
Just lie there and close my eyes. Clear everything in my head. Blank.
Just like the song, Snow Patrol - Chasing car :
"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

Well, i cant exactly identify the things in my head.
Manga, studies, naggings, time, love?

I feel like my brain/head is pulsing.

I know that I need to do something useful. And i cant waste time.

Hmm, well i cant complaint. Probably i guess this is the so called 'problem/obstacles' in life that i must go through. Such like 'the heavy burden' that i must lift by myself.

Hardy har har.. -sarcasm.

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I don’t quite know
How to say or
How I feel

3:30 PM Monday, September 1, 2008 back to top?

• You.

Haha. Well, i was thinking of messaging you too.
I was debating if i should message you at first.
And then! I received a message from you first.

Wahhh! Im soo happy^^
Telepathy much??
Lols jkjk.

But honestly yea...
Thank you for messaging me although its only a few sms.
It really have made me happy.

As the thought of 'i always wonder...', well i do wonder about it.
But i dont wanna made an attempt of relinquishing the connection.

For as i thought that maybe right now we're just not meant to be.
But who knows what will happen in the future!
We may meet up and perhaps go on further?

But somehow, just somehow, there is still a tinge of sadness lying there. And perhaps regret too.

If we were to have met earlier, would things have changed? - i dont know too.

I guess now it's left with time...
But how long can i wait!?
Like they say, things change as time passes by. -yea well mostly.
Feelings? Connections?
Im kinda scared about it, when i think of it.

With time, i guess now we have is hope. Hope for a better ending. Conclusion.

With time, we will grow up and mature. With mistakes that we have done, i hope we will learn our lesson and correct it.

Hence, we'll be ready.
To meet for a better tomorrow.

This is my wish.
Right now, it seems that youre the only one i find who is great.
But i do not know about the future if things have change.

I pray that if it is fate, that we may be one day cross path, then i'd gladly welcomes it.
If it doesnt, well its not meant to be.

Well, time and hope is whats left for us now.

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"Tak mau nak ponteng2 eh R. Berdosa nanti... haha"
"Tak lah.. skali asyura yang ponteng.. hee...."
hahahas.