11:03 PM Friday, February 26, 2016 back to top?

• So yesterday I keluar dengan kawan I yang telah lama tak bertemu and  berbual...
Hehe. Kawan baik eversince madrasah secondary. ((:

I still remember how when we were jn our teenage years like secondary and poly,  how we always talk about our (mostly love) life, and him being my loveguru haha!

So I met Saiful yesterday.
I really cannot believe how much he had change soo much! MasyaAllah. Alhamdulillah.

It was like, "how have you been?"
And he replied, "much better than I was before."
Awww.. He's living in the best moments right now!
I'm soo happy for him! ((: hehehe.

It feels like people along the way they change!  They change their self, their thinking, their perception and about life etc. Isn't it amazing that people can change?
Yes I'm very awed about him.

So this tall boy who's taller than me by the way, he now dah 3 years sign on as Police.  Wahh :O
What a good job yeah, stable income although somewhat stressful job etc.
Dia pun kata he's happy with his life/what he's doing and his work.  (:
I admire that about him.




10:17 PM Thursday, February 25, 2016 back to top?

•

Kan kunyayikan kau lagu cinta
Seindahnya sinar mentari
Seanggunnya sinar rembulan

Kan kunyayikan kau lagu rindu
Kerna sesungguhnya hati ini masih lagi
Lemas dalam kerinduan
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[2/25, 10:01 PM] Kak Asiah: You know, its not of my business to tell you but its just my two sen worth of thought
[2/25, 10:02 PM] Kak Asiah: Before Marriage, its is not about compromising.
[2/25, 10:02 PM] Kak Asiah: It is also not about okay lah he will do kind of thing
[2/25, 10:04 PM] Kak Asiah: Choosing a partner he must be able to make you feel happy, challenges you In positive way to be better. Allowing for space and most of all, its is being happy for the sake of Allah and Rasul.
[2/25, 10:05 PM] Kak Asiah: Also it is not because he has stay long with me so, yeah i get married to him. That is caving to pressure because he want to get married
[2/25, 10:06 PM] Kak Asiah: From what I gather, you would like someone who can read the Quran, teach you to be better. All for the sake of Allah
[2/25, 10:08 PM] Kak Asiah: Hence, my only advice is, ditch the idea of applying rumah.
Tell your partner now that you are not ready as he is.
Tell him to shut up.
Then if he complaint, tell him he can have a 2nd thought about marriage.
[2/25, 10:08 PM] Kak Asiah: Meanwhile, in your own space, seek Allah's guidance. A simple doa anytime you are free or have 1 second for yourself
[2/25, 10:09 PM] Kak Asiah: Tell our Merciful Lord, that you want to settle. But You want Allah to guide because you know what you want.
[2/25, 10:10 PM] Kak Asiah: I know our All knowing Lord, will answer your prayers
[2/25, 10:10 PM] Kak Asiah: Sape tau hehehe dapat Ustaz
[2/25, 10:12 PM] Kak Asiah: Thats all I can say. Because honestly, b4 marriage, frequently I made doa. Then between what I want, Allah gave me what I need.
[2/25, 10:16 PM] Kak Asiah: Dun worry about the house. Allah will provide for you

1:16 AM Tuesday, February 23, 2016 back to top?

• I wish i could love you.
But i cant, i guess.

I hope youre the one ive always prayed for since 3-4 years ago.
Which now then you showed yourself while im still tied down. :'(

But will you still accept me and love me, for ive been dirtied full of sins?
Will you give me a chance? Will we be happy together full of happiness and laughter?

How am i going to be able to get close to you without being guilty?
Shall i break my bond of 4 years of friendship/relationship?

Im not being fair to him....
-stop playing games with his heart.

10:45 PM Thursday, February 18, 2016 back to top?

• Setahu aku... For all the long years ive been working...
Aku belajar untuk 'Alah bisa tegal biasa*.
Namun begitu, membiasakannya sangat sukar. :(

Tentang kerja lagi.

Like ive always said, my work is like a battlefield.
You need to get ready to face whats going to come or not to come in your shift/workplace.
It'll left you hanging with lots of perasaan yang berbaur.

 Its the, I dont mind the darkness; It is what's hiding behind the darkness which im scared off.

~*Oleh sebab sudah biasa, yang sukar pun tidak terasa lagi.

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I message Bonda:
Mum  doakan I ok pasal kerja... Hee.

Then Bonda replied:
Semoga Allah mempermudahkan segala urusan.. Aamin.

Amin.

Hehe.. mana tahu dengan berkat doa seorang ibu Mustajab Doanya! hehe

Ya Allah please ya Allah. Saya takut.... Persenangkanlah.Mempermudahkannya.

I selalu masuk kerja, i selalu baca ayat Kursi lalu Selawat ke Rasulullah


Lalu ku  berdoa: Ya Allah please guide me protect me and watch me like you've always been. If im about to do wrong, you stop me from doing the wrong thing(s). To you i seek for help, to you i seek your Guidance. Maka ya Allah mempersenangkanlah urusanku, mempermudahkannya.

-Kerana aku insan yang lemah :'(