1:19 AM Tuesday, May 26, 2009 back to top?

• I shall write about todays' event.. Monday i mean, very briefly or so.
Since im kinda tired and wanna sleep.

The most memorable thing about today was going to Causeway Point with Syahidah and Wardah! (:
It was cool. I feel as if we're really getting bonded.
Not like the past few days where i feel kinda lonely.

Hmm, and the time, my girlfriends gave me some pretty good advice for myself!
Thank you. I shall heed out your advice ((:

My girlfriends includes Wardah, Syahidah and NADIAH!
Surprisingly, Nadiah gives me a wonderful advice. HAHA
Oh yea.. Saiful too did gaves me an advice yesterday. Hehe!

THANK YOU!
-somehow, i feel so loved. Hees.
I appreciate it.
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The issue with that person is well... Over. It lasted only a few days.
What a stupid thing!
But well, its good since its over.
Although i can understand the guy's broken-heart.

-*Im sorry, i really just cant accept you.
I have things i pretty much have to do on my own before i go into these things.

So anyway, the conversation in msn went pretty merepek.
-Oh well shall'nt says about the things about him. Everyone have their own good and bad points.
So yea..
Although i accepted it well and being open-minded about the things he said. Hees~
(:

Its ok. Im fine with it. Although somehow, i wish things could've been gone out much better.
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Just like what i chatted with Saiful today.. About

ᵴᶏᵻᵮᴜᶋ says:
ermm..yahh..
but haiz..why must love be so painful and hard!
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
hees
maybe its just not fated.
it needs chances and time!
ᵴᶏᵻᵮᴜᶋ says:
fate sucks..
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
(:
mungkin bila nanti... .kita kan bertemu lagi.........
ᵴᶏᵻᵮᴜᶋ says:
i dun believe in fate..
haahaha peterpan kapa..?
try semua tentang kita..
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
hehehehhe

HEES~

Chatting with Saiful after that guy, really brings my mood up. HAHA.
I find ourself pretty close. Hehe.
Really :DD
Somehow.. we're chatting about love problems then keluar pulak tentang cerita pasal HAIR!
Mepek mepek. HAHA!

Then the part where we were soo excited to go to school together on Wednesday was fun! HAHA.
Also the part where we said goodbye. LOLs.
;DDD

Thank you, dear loved ones.

P.S:
On the way back home from the train heading to Marina Bay.
Nadiah called me-since before that i msged her about meeting up and going to Bugis.
So i talked with her for awhile.
Beside me Syahidah was there.
So she listened to my conversation and looking at me.. kinda curious and confusedly.

She asked who it was. Then i say my friend.
Then the most pretty awesome thing she says is..
When i talked on the phone with Nadiah is verryyy different! HAHA:DD
-I guess so. LOLS! Hmm maybe i kinda sounded mcm the usual me when everytime with her.
ATAUPUN! Me and Nadiah have the same wavelength frequencies. So its pretty alien when we talk, huh!? Hehehehehe xP

11:59 AM Saturday, May 23, 2009 back to top?

• Had floorball practice today.
Quite ok, exchanged contacts with new friends.
They waited for me to finish dressing too. Haha.
Thanks! ;D

Later on meet with Nadiah!
Yea... Hehes.
It was nice, seeing her again.
Soo long sey!

Somehow it feels nostalgic.
Also, we chatted as things are still the same between us. HAHA!

Wanted to go ECP, but then i reached Bedok late.
So in the end we just went to Parkway Parade, since Nadiah had 7.30 pianolesson. Walk around and talk.
We had Delifrance for dinner. HAHA! Pretty cool, my first time ever dine in Delifrance. Hees.
Talk and talk etc.

Then she went off for her piano lesson, then i stayed at Marine Parade library.
Aaaahhh, its been so long since ive visited the library.
You know, the one i last time mentioned about.... "My second home" or "Secret place/garden/hidden sanctuary!" lols.

Damn it couldnt configure my laptop for the wifi thing. Pfft.
9 o'clock came. Meet Nadiah.
I listen to songs using my so called MP3 laptop. HAHA.
The conversation about the laptop substitute as my mp3 was funny. haha. Mepek mepek. Lols.

Went BEDOK McD0nald.
Eat and chat.
We discussed about our life and stuffs. Me with my own 'love problem' and she with her 'school/friend' issues.
Hahs.

The part i showed her the laptop we laughed out loud. HAHA.
-you know i know, they dont know ;D

Around 10.40+pm we head back our separate ways.

It was really nice to see her.
As if things are still the same eventhough we had to catch up on each others lifes. haha!
Hmmm..
Then the way we talk! It was fun.. Its like ive never talked to Nadiah the way i talked with anyone else!
Remember the brain waves frequency thing i talked about? Haha. It was mepek but funny! ;D

I thank God for having Nadiah my close friend to be in my life.
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Later on, on bus 66, saw Harry-Ex-Damaian.
Haha. Talked for awhile.. Dunnoe how we can just strike the conversation. HAHA.
We know each other but dont know each others name! Hees.
He's in ITE Balestier, by the way. Talk some stuffs.

Then when his stop is near we said good bye.
But the thing that makes me surprised is, he hulurkan tangan dia untuk salam!
So yea.. I was like 'huh?'-in my mind, then yea.. I just shake hand with him. Hehs.
Later on when he already alighted the bus.. Our eyes met and we smiled and waved goodbye to each other.
HAHA! (:

On the way, walking home from the long route...
I find myself wondering...
Actually, when we think about our lives looking back into the past, its funny that all those misfortunate things which've happened seems to be brushed away, while leaving crystal memories behind. (:
Hees.
-Well, to me lah!

11:59 PM Thursday, May 21, 2009 back to top?

• Had Bio Test today.
Mcq Questions

Was kinda sad that i got D.
D means Just Pass. Somewhere around 50%.

I was in a state of disbelieved when i see the grade mark.
I was like "Huh?.... Ape ni.. Wtf.. D? Hmm.. OMGG i failed! Eh wait! Tadi Wardah kata D means just pass.. Oh ok. I just pass... At least nasib i pass".
Hehs.

"Ehh... Ini macam itu eh... That day...?"
Well the process of me processing the D was kinda slow.
When i got off the e-learning room, i didnt actually showed my broodiness.. HEHS.

In my mind, i was thinking.
This feels like the O level English grade! Getting a D and processing the grade.
Hmm.
Deja Vu much?

I guess its my fault.
I didnt actually study it thoroughly.
The day before the test i read only a few then in the bed read a little then straight away sleep!
So yea.. I closed my eyes.

I admit.
Part of me was like wishing for luck and that my sureness of scoring it will get me through passing it.
Well, obviously, this is why it reminds me of O level.

I didnt actually studied it. I thought it was all in my mind.
But in the end, it backfires.
The D part, it reminds me, reminds me, reminds me.
I was sad.

So right after i talk with my friends outside the room i went to the toilet.
Stayed there quite a while and msg Shafiq about it. Then yea.. as usual, dia nye case.. very happy-go-lucky betul, dia kata "lols, youre not as pro as me". HAHS.
Well, i did wanted to follow his footsteps. Lols. I guess, maybe im not cut out for that kind of 'studying'. Hehs.

Asyura konfiden tau yang Asyura boleh pass untuk Bio.
Tapi.. Mungkin yang pass itu menakjubkan! Markah D.
Shocking revelation.
-get what i mean?

The similarities and differences between Bio vs Eng O level.

Hmm...
I was sad then, but then my friend was there so i forgot my mark for a while. But later on i was sad again cause i thought of it again.

Now, i just need to do well for my next exam.

Walaupun D bermakna Asyura pass,
Tetapi rasanya macam Asyura fail. Fail in doing her best!
:/

10:29 PM Wednesday, May 20, 2009 back to top?

• Well, i guess i was wrong, about yesterday post.
Hmm, but to a certain extent! I guess. Hehs.

I find myself getting back to square 1.
Oh well! At least i enjoyed myself, yesterday.
-you know..the naik kepala part -.-
hehe.

Then i find myself wondering why do i want to change?
Haha. Asyura you ni macam-macam lah! -.-

So it kinda sucks.
I kinda confront with that 'ismessage' guy, about me saying its hard for me to fall in another love and that im choosy in stuffs. HAHA!

Well you know... Its not because i want MORE!
Its just that, the thing i look for in a relationship is COMMUNICATION and PHYSICAL&EMOTIONAL well-being.

Communication also includes trust.
Such as we can get along well.
We could talk about anything under the sun and night!.
Feeling as if there's no barrier in talking or a reason to talk about. HAHAHA! :D
I dont want this 'silence' thing to be happening.

Then for Physical&Emotional well-being.. Yea you get what i mean.
I like the teasings and flirtings of one another. Play for fun!
-i create that myself. LOLS.

Thus to explain this theory... Its this,
Pillow - is someone who is in closeness. Can be emotional and Physical.
Pole - meaning support of one another.

So example! :DD
In a train, im very very sleepy. Thus seeing boyfriend it makes me wants him to be my pillow! And then as a pole so as for me not to fall! HEHE. *lovelove* ;D

Psst! Of course i do want HUGS&KISSES too! :X
-Although i do know that im not supposed to.

So overall, with closeness and easily open up in conversation thats what i want in a guy.
Hehe ;D
I hope i explain it well.

So i asked this person how come he likes me and the first impression of me.
Hehe.
Just for memory safe-keeping. Not for the whole world ok!
Thank god, only a very fewww knows this blog lols.

~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
haha yea.. ok
hmm okok.
heys, what was your first impression of me ah? i'd like to know though lols
BAM says:
hmm..
at first kan..
i tot u action giler..
tats y i dun wish to talk to u
kinda dislike u
haha
hmmx.. but than.. as weeks goes by..
my tot change
i tink ur very sweet n nice girl

You have just sent a nudge.

~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
ops
i action giler.. errk -.-
BAM says:
i find u very very very cute!
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
really?like how?
HAHA!
BAM says:
err.. ur face expression
n u look cam belo gitu
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
hahaha
okok.
BAM says:
so yeap!
haha
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
Lols yea..
BAM says:
i like u after the dae i ask u bout the blood donating tingy
hah
dunno ler.. the interest just come..
so fer the entire two weeks.. i was wondering.. how to kenal2 n change contact ngan u
freaking funny lor..
didnt noe i was so shy!
hahaha
hadnt u ask me fer my email tat dae..
i wont have the courage
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
haha!
BAM says:
hmm strange considering tat fer the past two years! ive been dating ard
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
lols
BAM says:
!! hah
so i can sae.. ur gD!! heh
hah
hmm
~`*asyura. \o/wees says:
hmm ok! (:
thanks

HEHE *SHYSHY*! :D
Thank you. But right now i cant accept you. Hees, Sorry.
But it really means alot to me. Hehe.

7:09 PM Tuesday, May 19, 2009 back to top?

• Hey heys.

Breaking news...
I pretty much guess/came to a conclusion that there are 3 guys who likes me..
Hehehe.
I feel so blessed. Hehe.
Thanks for liking me!

But you know i know.. Hehehe ;D

But that one other person, i really dont know. Its hard for me to tell and decide.

Those 3, in my opinion each have its good and bad points and my fantasies liking. haha!

But honestly,
I really really really appreciate it that at least there is someone out there who likes me -Eventhough we havent yet know each other more.

***Erkk! My eyes kept twitching!!
Its obvious that someone is thinking bout me. HAHAHA.:P
Ok Asyura. Stop it lah sey... Jangan nak naik kepala.
Hoho.

But really, this feeling. I kinda like it. HAHA.

My head somehow feels like wanting to sway and let go-get what i mean.

Things with new friends and the endorphin kicking in will depends on which place and what's on my mind.
Honestly, i find myself contradicting if i still can become that bubbly cheerful girl.
I tries but somehow, sometimes, i beat myself up of my self-esteem.

I find myself that im being dependent on friends as in being socially-outgoing.
Being wanted to be grouped-in, not being a loner and for people to remember (good things) about me.
So yea.. I had enough of being an outcast or and introvert or a loner or a wanderer.
Although sometimes, being in that shoe, i'll comfort myself saying that i dont need friends, people or a shoulder to cry on. :/

I wonder if one of these 3(or 4) guys will come and listen to my woes, limitation and even my ugly sides. Will you still stay or give up? When you know who i am?
Its scary...

This the reason why i say "i like this feeling", its because, everything's anew.
Im starting anew where no one knows who i am before.

Im still waiting.
Still waiting for that someone, preferably a knight to come and save me from falling.

11:58 PM Saturday, May 16, 2009 back to top?

• I still wonder if i'll be able to wait, for the day we'll cross-path to happen.
Even though maybe i'm still waiting, there's no guarantee that it'll be what i'd expected.
I know that i gotta make a choice.
Since what IF! I lose out? Or maybe i lose the feeling along the way? Or probably thinking that its not worth it so move on!?

Im not sure...
Maybe to some it may seem pretty stupid to wait.
So thereby move on and get over it.
No matter how much you suppressed and kills the emotion inside...
But deep inside, there is always always always that feeling of HOPE inside of you.
Can you actually stop it?

Probably that little light of hope will vanish once time goes on.
Its sad though.

It funny, this 'time' thing.
So right now you're thinking its sad. But once that time come, that feeling of sadness disappears and you'd think otherwise, such as nothing or good it is lost!

Until then, i'll keep on hoping till that ray of light runs out! (:

Bon voyage! Have a nice trip. Hees.

11:49 PM back to top?

• My eyes have been twitching these past couple of days.
According to what i know about this 'twitching sign'....
I heard it is because "Someone is thinking of you".
Ohh Whoaa.. Cool :DD

Hehe.
I wonder who that is.
I hope both of us are also thinking about the same 'each other'. Hehe
*loves loves*

11:47 PM back to top?

• Sooner or later, im gonna get caught.
Holy fcuk shit! -.-"

Although i know that there is always a watcher who knows everything. Just waiting for the time to come and exposed.
Im sorry but still i did it again.

Hmmph.

12:23 AM Thursday, May 14, 2009 back to top?

• It was fun talking with him!
Just like old times! :DDD

Its been long since ive had this kind of conversation!(:
-the mepekness, funny, lame etc. haha.

I miss (ed).

Thank you (:

Your Soul is Welcoming

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, falling in love is all about flirting and feeling playful. You couldn't fall in love with someone who took life too seriously.

I like the "You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you", Thanks!! That helps. (:
&
"For you, falling in love is all about flirting and feeling playful", To me thats true! hees ;DD

11:31 PM Wednesday, May 13, 2009 back to top?

• He asked me today, if im still with ______.

Even though i dont wanna tell and is quite uncomfortable, i still told the truth.
WHY?

Kick me.

Are you sad?
Do you wish for things to be different?

Your Bed Says You Have Your Head in the Clouds

Outward appearances are a concern of yours, but not your primary concern. You try to take care of yourself and your home, but it's not an obsession. You try to be an organized person, but you often fall behind. Certain parts of your life tend to fall into chaos. You are very high maintenance. You like everything a certain way, and you're grumpy if things aren't the way you like them. In relationships, you tend to be quite dominant. You enjoy taking charge. You tend to be a dreamy, head in the clouds type of person. You think in terms of possibilities. You are a bit of a homebody, but you can also make yourself at home anywhere.

Somehow,it's quite true.

10:02 PM back to top?

• I gotta stop this negative thoughts from overflowing.
I gotta hide this negative thoughts and feelings from people knowing.

New space, territory and atmosphere.
So, Asyura, you better beware of your actions and behaviour.
Please please please.
Dont let history repeat itself! -this phrase is really a great lesson to me, for shitass situations to avoid.

Love yourself and be beautiful first. -Although saying this might be contradicting.

Ahh shit, being a leader is kinda hard though..
I always thought it was easy.
Maybe both parties are at fault too.
Confusion can come due to the speaker's inability to communicate well. Or even the audience lack of understanding/attentiveness.

Gotta do my "projects". Holy macaroni. --__--" lols

7:07 PM Sunday, May 10, 2009 back to top?

• I really have and need to stop this wild imaginations!
Really, its really bad whenever that time comes.
Im afraid that it'll be with me till the future.

I wants to stop it but i still
keep trying to do it.
The feeling of euphoria, pleasantness and excitements, i felt.
I know its wrong but i still do it.

4:01 AM back to top?

• truth to be told,
sometimes, his lectures are pretty depressing.
then whatever you retort there is always a reply back from him.
then when it is a reply, sometimes it doesnt make sense towards the retort.

but the thing i really dont like is his depressing lectures. really really.
*i guess that the reason why we didnt listen to him.

he goes away and a few while he comes again. and repeat the things he said from the past too.

really really depressing.
the "advice" somehow turns out to be a news of bad stuffs and either as the saying says " it goes in the ear here and comes to the other side of the ear".

oh man!
i know musstt be positive. but really.. feels crappy.