4:57 PM Saturday, February 28, 2009 back to top?

• Wohoooooo!~~
New skin. AWESOMEEE! :D

Hahahas.

OK. I shall try this.

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.

1) I like the colour blue, preferably light blue. Cause it reminds me of the vastly beautiful skies.
2) I want to take a photo of the sunset with me looking in the camera. Adding a caption saying "Cause i see sunset in your eyes".
3) Right now im interested and is addicted with the song Ello - Masih Ada, pretty nice song! But who knows, when i'll get muak of the song -.-
4) I love looking/reading mangas with HOT BISHIES!
5) I wish to take Japanese language elective in Poly. Purely so that i can read Raw mangas and understand Raw anime videos! HAHA.
6) I would like to go ice-skating one day and learn all those cool skate moves.
7) Sometimes i find myself wondering "What if, if we could be together? Was it a mistake?"
8) Maybe its true that im being hopeful and is still waiting for a certain person and that day to come.
9) I like girls/women who is insightful, sweet, nice and kind but will knock you off if tempered. Haha.
10)Every school year, i hope and wish that things will change and becomes a more good and memorable moments.
11)I fall asleep, with my thoughts creating a fantasy.
12)Often, my dreams are about being chased or pursued. They say that "Dreams about being chased often stem from feelings of anxiety in your waking life. The way we as humans respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment."

Alright then. Nothing much to blog on.
Shall read my mangas then!
Oh! I hope today i shall receive my salary.
Hmm.. Then tomorrow i shall bring my POSB passbook! To see if there's anything updated.

Heys! Ive created a new bank account ok?
Mum gives (or is it transferred) from both mum and me joint bank account of $1000 dollars to my bank account!
But! There's a catch. Hehs. I cant takle out that money! -.-
Haha.

Bye byee.

11:58 PM Friday, February 27, 2009 back to top?

• HAPPY 3 YEARS ANNIVERSARY !
-to Asyura & Adri :DDD

Mwahahaha! Really, no kidding.
27th February.
Yes! I am attached. Hees ;D

3 years is super looong! Really really long.

Lets see..
Those awkward moments,
Those fluttering, butterfly feeling,
Those "I LOVE YOU", "I LIKE YOU", "I DONT REALLY LIKE YOU NOW", "I DONT CARE ANYMORE", "OHH! OK I'll FORGIVE YOU" moments,
Those times i thought of things which isnt happening,
Those times i contemplate on things which need to be said and done
and et cetera.

Haha!
Hmmmm, went out with Adri today.
Went to watch a movie together.
Supposedly, i wanted to watch Slumdog Millionaire, but then we watched Role Model.
Cause Slumdog Millionaire, it was at a wrong time-its in GV Goldclass Vivo, NOT GVMax.

The different between those two are, the seats and the price to pay. Mind you Goldclass cause $36 for one person. Hmmph.
I asked Adri whether wanna go Goldclass and he replied "Dont want ah". HAHA. Yeah expensive. lols.
Oh wells, shall watch it some other time. hees. Hopefully on outing day with friend on 7 March! Oh yeah.. cant wait! :D

We talk some stuffs. Hahas.
Its funny, how when we meet then we'll talk a lot of things. Whereas in messages(sms) its not that much.
Oh! I think im kinda improving? As in talking with my boyfriend, i mean. Now I dont really have that awkward or "i dont know what to say" feelings to him. Hehs. Ok bagus!

Adri got into Police for NS. Hahas. He wanted Army though.
Ahh.. Like he says (i think) "Its ok lahh... Police. Although Police uses Gun but Army uses Riffle". lols Whats done is done. Haha -.-
Furthermore, A Level result is coming in March. Hmm... GAMBATTE ! ;D

Adri is sooo laid back eyy? hahas.

Talk about the movie 'Role Model'.
Hmm, well its a comedy ah. Oh NC16 too. hehs.
Alright ah, boleh lah tahan. In the end, those guys learnt something fruitful from their "child".
There is breast, kissing exposed scene there. Man, NC16 tu pasal. Hehs. Ok fine, first time tengok movie NC16. Lol! -.-

After the movie ended we went to find ATM machine since he wanted to withdraw money.
So we went from VivoCity towards Harbourfront tower. Hahs, long way there.
After reaching DBS, there were lots of people there. Later on i told him about Eunos MRT having POSB machine there.
So he suggested we went Eunos while dropping me off there. hahas.

Oh! On the way to Harbourfront, somehow.. The place seems kinda different. Haha.
I still remember the part whereby there is is a two-way path.
One that leads to harbourfront another to the other place.
So while walking i kinda nudge Adri towards my right thinking its the right path.
Then Adri says "No lah.. there lah".. HAHA.
He then recalled the times where i always thought that it was that way not the other way! HAHAHA!
Wowww! He remembered. Hahahas. Im impressed lols ;D

Oh! In the train, i learnt something new. About the new MRT route and stuffs! HAHA -.-

Ok then. So the date ended at Eunos Interchange MRT! haha.
Adri gave me $20 to pay back for the movie fee. This means he spent $20 whereas i spent around $5 for the popcorn. Haha! :DD
Said good bye to each other. I headed towards the bus stop while he headed to MRT for his destination to Tampines( for "bonding" time with his family). haha :P

Overall, its true that I DO MISS ADRI !
Yes, it been a long time since we've last met. hees.
Im glad and thankful to have met you. (:

Oyasumi~

6:18 PM Wednesday, February 18, 2009 back to top?

• Sham's blog is really cool!
Haha. I mean in writing. Its like soo.. thoughtful and full of his thoughts.
Its interesting.

Obviously, he's once my online msn friend.
We kinda lose contact in msn. Cause i guess he changed his email address-maybe.
Later on i found him on friendster and add him as a friend. But still we didnt exchange comment. hehs.
Then in his profile he put up his blog link. So yea.. i came to visit.

So let me see...
That makes me his secret 'admirer' reader? HAHA! :D

Ah heys, his blog song is nice-right now. Ah its acoustic, good for playing guitar. Cool cool. I would want to know what song it is. Hahs.
Of course i wont tell him that there is a secret reader reading his post! -.- And.. Im lazy to research on the song too. lols!

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Its so frustrating yet hopeful when you come and go without any reason or timing.
Its just so weird. At one time youre there and another time youre not. You appear and disappear as and when you like.
You leave me confuse.
When you leave, i find my self telling me to move on. Whereas when you appear i find my self head over heels in love with you?
Yet those feelings still lingers. That 'i dont like you', 'i like you', 'i love you', 'im confuse' and 'im hopeful' feelings. -.-
Probably i know the reason why. Its just that i dont wanna admit it.
Let's pretend that i dont know the answer yet. (:

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Sometimes, even though i tries to recover.. It wavers.
It hurts once again. And i find myself wondering why it happened.
Could it be what he said was true? But he was the one who attack it first and says about all those of god is on his side. Blah blah blah.. - i shall not say more.
Maybe partly, it was my fault during the written exam. Honestly, it was shocking to see the result too.
And what the hell is him wanting to be release from his responsibility as a *a*. Shut it!
If you say that, thats even more worse. Dontcha think so. Youre given a responsibility, by god, so deal with it. Dont contemplate.

You say, find other pare**s. IF ONLY, THATS POSSIBLE! Shit head.
We comes from both sperms and eggs. Because of you TWO, here we are.
*This is what you call biological.
On the other hand if adopted is a different thing, so yea.

To tell the truth,
I AM VERY GRATEFUL for what he's done.
Such as the electricity, money, water & food and a home as shelter.

I dont like it, when you spurts all those mean things when it isnt the real truth. You and your views. How about other people's views? Ever thought of that?
Each people views and opinions are different from one another. They differs.
That one sided narrow thinking is bull, man.

Ahh, i wonder if this is teen angst. Hmmph.
I hope, i wont post this saddening post again. (:

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I borrowed a book, on 'Thoughts'.
Its pretty cool. Such as Auras and Psychic. Hees.
Very insightful.

Till here.

2:24 AM Wednesday, February 11, 2009 back to top?

• I guess they've found out! Pfft.
Shit! baru je satu hari basuh baju. Ahh.. Sial.

Ive barely dodge from my mum's interrogation!
Thanks to lil bro for his 'sharpening pencil problem'. Hees.

Then now its sis turn to ask.
She asked "kerja famous amos best?".
Then i say "yeah...", since i thought that it'll be ok with her and because i think she already know about it (due to me making a mistake in hanging my apron and uniform out in the gala).

Then she asked whats my pay. But i didnt reply the question directly, saying "why? For what want to know?"
She then says because her friend also want to work in famous amos so she is asking her whats the pay.
In my thought i was like 'if she's applying, why didnt she asked the person directly? Anyway, i still dont wanna tell sis'.

So sis kept on asking and i replied "why should i? Its my personal life.", which i dont need to tell or answer anyone.

Then her attack began, if its a good job surely you will tell and be proud of it what. Mesti crappy punye job, selling cookies! Sekali salary dia $2.50 per hour.

And i was like, hehh! Yeahh right! -.- *sarcastic*

This is the reason why i dont wanna tell them!!
Sudah bilang, sekali kena maki! Busted kan!?

Dah baik tu, aku bilang at first! Beh dapat ini nonsense! Bacen betul.

You already know why i dont wanna tell them right!?
So yea...

1:54 AM Tuesday, February 10, 2009 back to top?

• I read a few of my friends(my classmates) blog.
The ones who got into JCs mostly.

It surprised me.
They admitted that they have a very strong feeling of missing secondary school life especially, 4E3. My class.
I mean like wow! The bondage, the memories overflowing its somehow bitter-sweet.

Then i thought to myself...
Somehow or rather, my "i miss you/them" is not that deep-maybe?. Hehs.
But its not that i forsake them or anything.
When i think back, those memories i had, well.. Im very grateful, pleased and thankful for it.
Especially those happy, cheerful, laughable memories. Hees. (:

So anyway, most of them wrote about moving on forward into the future.
Hahs! I guess thats life. Its a cycle-unless there's some circumstances. Hmmph.
Ahh.. Im feeling this feeling which i dont know how to describe it. Haha. Pfft.
Yea me too. I gotta move on and look forward. Hees.
I hope this resolution will last me the whole year, hopefully! Haha ;D

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Im working! At Famous Amos! Hahaha. Yea.
The salary is $4.50 per hour. Ahh.. I used to have big dreams of landing a job of $8-10 per hour job. But now, ahh nahh.. Its ok. Lols.

My parents/family (except for Kak Asiah) doesnt know that im working!
Only a few friends knows about it hehes.
Well, my mum.. Maybe she suspects me! Hahs. Considering on how i always go out and had asked her for my bank account book.

Oh! Me and my mum had this argument over my bank account book a few days back.
That day, I was pissed and was sad(there was tears too) when she didnt gave it to me. She thinks that im gonna use the bank account book to create NETs card or withdrawthe money.
OMFGG! -.-
So enough about that! The matter is settled already. Because of ahem ahem. HAHA!

Why im working?
Honestly at first, it was because of the money. Since i need to buy clothes for Poly life! HAHA.
Also because since im always lazing around at home, why not work and earned money, that is more berfaedah! So yea.
Besides this, ive always thought that im gonna plunge myself in the business stream course. But then in the end i ended up in nursing, a science stream course. So yea! By working i can gain knowledge and explore my potential in the business side too. So its killing two birds with one stone! As in nursing and business. Mwahaha.
I want to be independent. So yea thats why. Who knows what will happen, like if i need the money urgently or what lols.
I also want to prove to myself that i can achieve things. Such as juggling work, school, studies, and retaking O level. So yea!
Its a challenge which i want to overcome.
So this means, i wanna see how far i can go thus pushing my limit. HEES ;D

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People always ask me, WHY NURSING?
URGH. Somehow it irritates me -.-
Its somehow like, they think its low -.- Hmmph.

-Though i do am grateful and appreciate those people who are open minded on me joining nursing! ;D

Like this one person i met in Masjid Sultan, last week. We were sitting side by side. So i salam dia lah. Then somehow we started our conversation, about the watch i bought! HAHA.
The word "fancy watch" was there. Lols. Oh then she's a teacher in International Australian school, if im not wrong. She asked me about myself whether working or studying. And i did told her that im taking nursing course.
I like her opinion, on how she thinks that nursing is a professional job, that its fufilling and worth it too. We talk about people mindset and stuffs. Then her experience in a mental institution. Hees. So yea.. Then suddenly, azan. So we kept quiet. We didnt say good bye as she went out early.
So anyway, it was nice to see and meet her. A stranger which i met and a conversation that we started up. It was pretty cool! ^^ hehe.

Further thinking.
I admit that ive never thought that nursing would be my number 1 choice! Honestly, its true.
Its just that, out of the blue, in the heat of the moment with my aunt persuasion, i put it as my first choice. Thinking that it was a good choice. Mind you that i did apply for teaching course-which i turned down already.

Now, after getting the result, im glad that i ended up in nursing.
Besides the good job prospect where nurse are in demand, getting a job in other country and the good salary.

Ive reflected on myself.
"I've always thought of working with people. Helping them as well as giving back to the society.
Such as counselling! A job which i think is a noble job.
But, since there was no way, counselling was in my choice.. So WHY NOT, NURSING!?
Besides this. By joining nursing its allows me to be more SINCERE! A resolution i made.
Sincere = pahala = GOD! Hees. Get it! ;D
Taking one step at a time, its ok! (:"

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My new Madrasah teachers are cool. HAHAS!
I like both my two Ustaz. I have 3 teachers-another is an Ustazah(teaching Ulum Quran).
One is teaching Fiqh, Ustaz Abu Bakar. Another is Tafsir, Ustaz Azhari.
I always thought that i know bab Fiqh Pernikahan since ive learnt it last year. But then this teacher, it feels as if a supplement to what ive studied. So its good, i learnt something new.
Tafsir, well.. The first week he teach/came.. It was kinda draggy/boring. But soon, it was really awe inspiring! Yea. He is more to psychological in his proficient. Hehe. Cool.

We had our lesson on last sunday.
I asked Ustaz Azhari about God. Since God's so Rahman, then why does he murka people?
Then he answered my reply. Well, what he said make sense. "There's a period where god gives us chances to bertaubat.... Also in the end, probably God will show mercy in the hereafter, so lets hope for it."

Oh then Aliza, my friend sitting beside me asked, a Muslim family who work hard but then have little income, compared with a non-Muslim family who probably doesnt work hard but gain much income, is unhappy about his life. So how should we convey to him on the kindness of god?

Then he replied, Surah Al-Fajar. Manusia apabila gembira suka dan berasa bahawa Tuhan adalah baik. Tetapi apabila dia berada dalam kesukaran dia berasa bahawa dia dihina oleh Tuhan. All this is about kemuliaan. Tidak semestinya kemuliaan itu adalah dalam harta benda. Manusia are the ones who stereotype kebendaan as a kemuliaan. Sebenarnya, Kemuliaan pada segi Allah adalah Keikhlasan. Keikhlasan di dalam hati kita. Yang akan di ambil kira di akhirat. Bukan sijil atau pangkat yang dilihat di dunia oleh manusia.

Hmm so Yea thats cool. I was satisfied with the answer too. Hehe Lols.

Ok! Im gonna learn surah Al-Fajr. And this other surah (yang grant wish). HAHA! :D
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Ok long post. So yeah.
Oyasumi. (:

Ps: My mum said that it was GERHANA BULAN tadi.
-im gonna take Japanese Elective in poly! Hopefully, if i dont change my mind. HAHA!