3:04 AM Monday, December 31, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Hmm... I wanna watch Fireworks!
Heees.

But its soo late in the night. -.-
Im not sure if my parents let me. Hehh.

Anyway, I wanna spent the night with you.
Haha.

Once again im not sure if he can go. Hmm...
Shall asked him then.

But but but....
Ive worked out a plan.

So since im probably gonna go study later on...
I'll probably be able to stay out late right? Haha.
Then if he can go study with me today... I shall pop out the question!
Hehehe. :D

Yup yup.
So lets see if he can accompany me.
Lols.

Im being dreamy right now. Haha.
Day-dreaming. Lols. ~.~

I wanna spent my time with you, all through the night. ((:
Ohh lets watch the fireworks together.
Ohh pretty please please please.
Let it come true.


7:51 PM Sunday, December 30, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Hmm nothing much happened today.
Had tuition today.

Well.. At least i didnt really disappoint him much more than last week, right? Hees.
Err.. I think so lah, should be.

Im still on chapter Differentiation. -.-
Ahh... Im becoming a bit bored with it already. Kind of, though.

And why we're still not moving on? Blame it on me.
Cause i couldnt do and didnt do the homeworks he gave.
Well err, the last week i actually didnt do it. While this week i did do it. Haha.
Improvement? Haha yea. (;
But i did leave some unfinished. Cause i dont know how to do it.
So on tuition time, we went through the hws. )):

Hehs. Waste time lah oi!
Blame it on me again.
Cause i always give up halfway when i couldnt get the answers right.
So had to go through it again
*sigh* ):

The weeeiiirddest part is,
When im doing my work alone, i cant seem to find the right answer.
And when he was there beside me, i found myself i could do it and that the question is soo easy
And i'll be.. Omgg. How come i dont know how to do this? Grr. Stupid!.

I told him about this. And why is it so..?
He replied, Because you dont try hard enough and that you always give up.

You see Asyura..
Your problem is.. Its your mentality/attitude.
Everytime you came across an obstacle you will, most of the time, give up!
Do you know that?
Hmm.. yea.. :/

Thinking bout that, makes me feel...
Ohh soo down and useless as well as helpless. Hmmph ):

Gahhh.. I really do need to pull my-self up together.

He says, This year.. I slack a lot. And that im not really interested in the subject.

Hmm.. I dont know..
Yupp.. I do find a difference between last year and this year performance of mine. Gahhh.
Maybe part of the reason was, i was too engrossed in that particular subject till i dont care about the others.
Another is, maybe because of I & F. As well as H?
If it is so.. OHH MY GODD... They're not the same league as me. So why? Jealous. Thats pretty stupid right? Hmmph. No im not jealous. Just feeling... Umm i dont know.
Maybe another reason is, ive lost the motivation to work hard. Probably failing in that Math EOY plays a part in it. Yes, it was shocking!
~`Need to pull myself up.
Hmm... I am confused. :/

Garrhhh. I need to buck up next year.
As promised for this new year, 2008.
I shall be a hardworking student!
Okiee?
A promise is a promise. (;

~`You messed up. And you know it. Dont pretend.

My heart feels heavy. Im not sure whyyy...

Got one part, which is todayy morning. MORNING! Around 1.30am today, Sunday.
I feel so sad.
Cause I couldnt bring myself to tell y-- the things that's saddening me.
For which one part of me will say.. Its nothing much. I'll get over it soon.
Then another part of me will contradict.. So whats the bloody use for this ?

Buhbye.


11:45 PM Friday, December 28, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Went out to meet Nadiah to do our History project. Pfft.
Supposedly we planned to do it at Bedok Library.
Then we changed plan go to Marine Parade Library since Nadiah told me Bedok is full.

We took 197 .
Since we both hadnt had lunch, we headed off to KFC near the PP.
Somehow, i feel that i wasted my money buying the food -.-
As the day before i spent my money on McD. Hehs.

Alright so finished eating, we somehow dont feel like going to MP library -.-
Asked her where we ought to go if we dont want to go library.
Then suddenly, i have an idea.
I told her, her how about going to East Coast Park?. And she agreed.
Haha.

Hmm.. We reached there, it took us a long time to decide and find a place for us to do our work.
Hees. Why?
Because i fickle-minded couldnt made up my mind to find a seat. Lols.
There are a few empty table but then i was like.. Ehh dont want lah.. Dirty lah.. Dont have nice view lah. etc etc. Nadiah pun probably bosan with me. HAHA. :D
I asked her, You angry ahhh? Dont lah.
She replied, No lah. I not angry. I happy. See.. my 4cm smile!
Mepek mepek -.-

Finally, we found a place to seat. Haha.
*wipe sweat on forehead* lols.

Started doing our work.
We got stuck on doing our second factor about Great Depression.
Cause i cant decide whether to do Great Depression or Versailles Treaty.
So after i've finally decide to do Great Depression.. I couldnt think properly. No idea lah.
Also, that Nadiah tak guna pun. Haha!
I asked her to faster gimme ideas and contribute.
And she said You think i know? I lebih teruk than you. Satu pun tak tahu sangat. Failed History summore. Hmm... -.-
Haha.

We talked, we tease and we laugh out loud. Lols.

To Nadiah i told her, Heys... I want to see the sunset la.
My back was facing the sunset as i was sitting infront of Nadiah.
Then i forgot the time so i tak dapat watch sunset.
Me: Ehh, takda sunset? -.- Dah lepas eh?
She: A'ah dah lepas. Just now i saw. I facing you of course i saw the sunset.
Then i action main-main marah her,
Me: Ohh okiee. See lah Nadiah! All your fault ah.. I didnt get to see the sunset.. -.-
Hehh hehh.

Anyway, during the time we cannot think of what to do with History, we talk and lazing around.
So i decided to draw a picture for Nadiah.
I drew a scenery facing the sea, sand and a tree beside it.
The sky was filled with stars, clouds as well as a crescent moon.
Then i drew a boy and a girl. Both of them we're hugging each other watching the scenery towards the sea.
At the girl i wrote down Nadiah.
And at the boy i wrote down Monyet.
HAHAHA. :D
Kacau-kacau NADIAH. haha.

So later on around 7pm we finished doing our history.
We walked walked around. Went to this thing which looks like a lighthouse where there are staircases so we climbed it. Later on we went to the jetty. Talk talk and then we headed off home.

Oh by the way, yesterday, i msged Nadiah about today.
I told her..
Me: Heys, tomorrow i jumpa you.. I'll be wearing my high-heel shoe. So if later i taller than you.. Sorry tau. Jangan marah. HAHA :D
She replied
She: How many cm uh? Haha.
Me: Dont know. Later tomorrow we find out okiee? We go measure how how much it is. ;)
Lols.

So yea.. I wore that high-heel shoe today.
Its been so far around 2 times i've worn it. HAHA.
I used it for SYF this year. Then keep it for a long time for which i've forgotten about it. So yesterday i thought of wearing it again since its a waste if i dont wear it. Yea..

So lesson learnt:
Do not go to the beach and walked in the sand wearing a high-heel shoe.
Cause you'll poke a hole in the sand! Haha ;D

Anyway, the bus 197 to Bedok interchange pass the the two JCs.
You know Temasek and Victoria.
Then in the bus i was thinking...
If we, Nadiah and me, were to go into one of these schools... We will be able to go to East Coast Park most of the time! Yayyy... -feeling rather happy. (:
But then a thought hit me like a bullet train-chey chey, like a bullet train sey -.- haha-
The thought was, Ehh.. Macam betul aje.. boleh masuk itu sekolah. Kena dapat points macam seseorang tu baru boleh masuk. Boleh ke kita masuk ni? Hmm...
Then another thought hit me like a gunshot -wassup with these phrases -.^ -
And it was, Ehhh.. Boleh apeer.. Its not impossible kalau kita sungguh-sungguh hendak. Pergi belajar lah! Gi belajar day in and day out. Belajar as if your life depends on it. Haha. Hmm yupp yupp. Pasti boleh.
Suddenly a thought hit me.. like smacking a tennis ball on the court- pfftt. these phrases *shakes head* lols-
It was, Ah ye... lah tu. Judging by what you've done now.. Im not so sure. Lets pray to God then. And that you'll keep your promised to Mr Arul. Which is.. TO BE A HARDWORKING STUDENT IN 2008! Hees. (;
Di dalam hatiku, ku berkata.. I must.
Hees. (:

Nites.


11:59 AM Wednesday, December 26, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Went to study at Marine Parade Library.
With Adri! (:
Wees~

Anyway, I tried doing the TYS Physic book. Hehs.
And i realised something.
I suck at Science )):
Huhu *sigh*.

I envy you la.. Hehehe :D
You're soo smart! -__-
-jangan kembang tau. Hehh.

Library closed at 9pm.

He walked with me towards bus stop.
And we talked some stuffs. Hehs.

Umm.. there was this one part where i told him about next year.
Whereby he'll probably be really busy and stuffs. And then he wont msg me as much.
Hmm.. yea.
So i was saying about that and then somehow i realised that my voice became soft. o.O
Hehs -.-

Hmm. So moral of the story is:
I dont know what will happen next year.
I guess next year, it'll be an important year for us.
You with your A level. And me with my O Level.
Umm.. Im lost for words right now. Dont know how to put it simply.
Err.. Well next year, I knowww that you're gonna be really busy.
But please, at least message me once in a while.
I dont mind even if its just a one -Good night or a I love you, dear - message.
For which the latter one is very much pleased. -.-
Yupp yupp. You hear that? HAHA. :D
----

Hmm...
Its really cute when you send me towards that bus stop. And waited with me for the bus to come. Hees.

Oh, you know after i already board up the bus and went to the top floor of the bus,
I was like... Ehh, i wanna see him summore! Aww...
So, i quickly go find a seat near the window and there i saw him near the staircase.
Thankfully, he noticed me. So i waved goodbye at him. He did the same too. HAHA. ((:
Wees~

~`I feel like melting. ((;

10:39 PM Tuesday, December 25, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Hmm... Nothing much though. haha.
Err.. I Shall post this umm questions and answer thing.
Its kinda like survey starting with letter A to Z.

Well.. What to do? Later my blog very boring. -__-
Haha. :D

****
Here goes ;;

A - About You
`I don’t really know how to describe myself. Haha. Hmm…
Im shy with new people;cant seem to meet their gaze. Haha.
I don’t wanna have negative feelings or thoughts towards people. I’ll dismiss that thought if I have though-try to. Haha.
I can’t fake a smile. Its not because I don’t want to, its just that it doesn’t seem so realistic. Lols.
I shall always cherish my loved ones.
B - Best Friends
`Nadiah. Herani. Zunairah.
And perhaps others whom I have not yet realised. Hees.
C - Craving
`Famous Amos Cookies. Fluorescence (;
D - Delusional
`Whenever I felt like running away from things or just want a happy ending, I’ll be going to fantasy. ((: Hees.
E - Exploration
`Im adventurous. Lols.
Finding Ariel-Peterpan-in friendster. Haha. Wees (:
Hmm… seeing nature, people and crossroads in another angle.
F - Favourite Band
`Peterpan ((:
G - Good Byee. Helloo.
`Good Bye to you. Good bye to everything that I knew-Michelle Branch;Goodbye To You.
You are the one the one that lies close to me. Whispers Helloo, I MISS YOU quite terribly. T.T - Hellogoodbye;Here In Your Arms.
H - Hideout
`A place where green patches grow and beautiful flowers blossom. ((:
Can i??
I - Infatuation
`Hmm… So over it. Shhhh.. :D
-lameo -.-
J - Jump
`Hehe. Yea... Jump higher! With me please?
K - Kindergarten
`Hmm... I still remember that day. I forgot how it goes, probably I was fighting with a friend-which I don’t think that its my fault.
Anyway as punishment, the teacher locked me inside the toilet! O.O -really, no kidding. And that girl, I don’t think she was punished. >:(
Well, inside the toilet there’s nothing much. Just the toilet bowl and the sink etc. ohh and its not smelly lah!
So while I was in there I went to stand up at the closed lid of the bowl. I think I was crying and shouting to get out as well as thinking of how to escape the toilet for which is by climbing over the door to get out. -_-' hahs.
Darn, I dislike my kindergarten days. Ohh wells, thankfully I graduated. And I don’t want and am not looking back to the past. Hees. Moving forward (;.
L - Longest Ride
`Can’t remember. But I like long long rides. Its fun and exciting to see the world outside the window. Hehe. (;
M – Many Wishlist
`1) To get an A for O Level Malay. Hehe. Yea, im desperate. T.T
2) For my O level to get points like Someone. :D
3) As promised will be a hardworking student for 2008. No malas malas. Haha.
4) For hubunganku dengan kawan-kawan, cousins and families to be even more closer than before.
5) Lastly, no disappointment to happen. I don’t want to disappoint anyone as well as myself. Hees. ((;
-Got many many lah.
N - Nightmare
`The last time was about being chased.
I don’t know by who though. But it was kinda scary.
And I don’t know why, but I kept on running and running in that dream/nightmare.
Ohh, i was running at this flat. And i wanted to go to Herani's house because she lives there. So that i wont be alone.
Anyway, i kept on running and searching for Herani's house still i couldnt find her house.
*Poof* But! When i wake up back to reality. I realised something.
I realised why i couldnt find Herani's house. Because inside my dream, the flat block number was 115 next to my block 116-i also dunnoe why i didnt run to my house.
While Herani's house is NOT 115. Her house is one-zero-something (i forgot).
Yea, no wonder i couldnt fine Herani. Hees.
Weird. Its funny how in dreams or nightmares we couldnt control how that dream/nightmare goes. lols.
O - On the way
`On the way down, I saw you. And you save me from myself. And I won’t forget the way you loved me. On the way down, I almost fell right through. But I, held on to you...
-Ryan Cabrera;On the way down. *thinking of someone. ((:
P - Phobias
`Being left out and all alone either when in crowds.
People impression of me;dislikeness. Etc.
Q - Favourite Quote
`Life is like a flower.
It blooms beautifully when it receives sunlight, water and fertiliser.
But it withers if it doesn’t receive these basic things. ((:
-asyura.
R - Reason To Smile
`Is a reason to live. (:
S - Song You Last Heard
`The police – Every breath you take.
I just like the chorus. Hees.
Every breath you take.
Every move you meake.
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you. (:
T - Time You Woke Up
`Around 9.30am today. Went to laut. Hehe. Was alright and quite fun. :D
And Im happy for something;persahabatanku dengan mereka. ((:
Wees.
U - Unknown Fact About Me
`Let it just be unknown. (:
V - Very nice
`Very nice weather. I shower and played in the rain today. Haha. But the rain stop a few minutes later. T.T
W - Worst Day
`Hmm.. I forgot. Or is it I don’t know or I cant decide. Haha.
I’ll always try to forget about worst stuff that happened.
Don’t wanna the memory to keep following me. Hees.
X - X-Rays You've Had
`A few times in the past years. But now, no more-I hope.
Check backbone lah. -.-'
Y - Your Shout Out
` Im being gay, how about you? :D
-Gay means happy. Happy happy person. Hahaha.
Dear, I love you. :)
Z - Zodiac Sign
`Aries.
****end.

Hees. I shall end here.
Nites. (:

9:57 PM back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Today was sooo GREATT! ((:
Wees. Yupp yupp.

Went to laut at Changi. With families and cousins.
It was really fun.

I finally see the different between hight tide and low tide! Lols.
High tide is when the water comes nearer to the shore. While low tide is when the water is away from the shore. Haha.
So far, i've never seen low tide. Hehs. Just today i did realised that.
And i cant believe the water was soo far away from the shore during low tide. -.-' Hees.
Jakon! :P

Hmm.. I go mandi laut.
Haha. It was during high tide period. And the water was jernih!
And i dont really saw much of seaweed. Hees.
Then i still mandi again when the water was going to be low tide. -.-
Then i saw lots seaweed and a few more branches than before. -.-"
Hahaha.

Hmm.... I played in the rain. HAHA.
Wait! I didnt really played, so scratch that!
I showered in the rain! :DD hahaha.
It was great. But too bad, the rain stopped a few minutes later. =.='
Aiseyy man...

Anyway, we girls, my cousins which consist of 4 of us including me ;Asyura, Intan, Fatin & Hanis.
We disuruh ambil air. So we had to take that two baldi and a bottle to isi air .
Fresh water lah takkan Salt water.

Asyura and Intan carry that medium sized baldi.
While Fatin and Hanis carry that big baldi.

So we challenged angkat baldi and siapa sampai dulu kat tempat kita orang(the hut). Haha.
Intan and Me reached first. Haha... Wees.
After reaching, we both looked behind and see those two ape dia orang tengah buat.

Dia orang dua, Fatin and Hanis... Baldi mereka jatuh abeh tumpah air lah! Haha.
Then Intan and Me laughed at them.
Lepas tu kan.. yang paling funny pula, apabila baldi mereka dah tumpah air....
Si Fatin pergi angkat baldi tu lepas tu pergi tuang the left over air kat diri sendiri! HAHAHA. :DD

Mepek mepek. =.=

We cousins, the 4 of us as well as Ikmal Adib and uncle ada buat sandcastle.
Itu dua-dua Qusyairi pun ada tolong jugak sikit. Tapi more to mengacau lah! Haha.

Tapikan... Sandcastle itu tak jadilah.
Sandcastle roboh! -.- Aisey man...

Lepas tu, kita orang tanam Intan dalam pasir. HAHAHAHAHA. :D
Abeh uncle pergi diri atas Intan nye perut yang dah cover dengan pasir tu supaya nak buat pasir tu kuat lagi.
HAHAHA.

About those two, Intan and Fatin... I dont know if they are still holding grudge against me.
Although this pertemuan nampaknya tiada begitu. Kita orang seperti dulu, berbaik-baik. Wees~ :D
-I dont want to have any ill thought and feelings about those two okiee?
Anyway, me and Adib..
Hmm, boleh dikatakan kita dah okiee okiee jugak. Hehs.
Entah kenapa kita dulu macam gitu ehk? Macam tak bermesra dan kaku dulu. Hmm...

-I hope things will continue on improving. Hehe. (;

In general, it was a great day out with my cousins.
I really had a lot of fun and laughters with them. Hees.
I love my cousins. (;

Ohh, there was Three times, i tried to kiss Kakak Yah.
But that three times i failed to kiss her as she wont let me, for which she would turn away. -.-
Anyway, on the Fourth try... I FINALLYY Kissed her! :D
Muahaha. ((;

11:59 PM Saturday, December 22, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Went to East Coast Park today with friends. Madrasah friends.
Like the outing we had last year 2006.
But this time without Adri -.-' Hehh. Kesian you cannot go. -__-' hees.
Its alright dear, dont need to say sorrie. (:
So, there was Me, Zunairah, Herani, Faisal and Rahman. The 5 of us. ((:

I wont write out in details. Just bits and pieces. Hees.

As plan we'll be meeting at Eunos Mrt. But us girls were late. -__-
Hey i was the first girl to come earlier than the other two. umm i came about 11.40am around there. Haha.
Anyway, that Faisal said something to Rahman, "Ehh, next time kalau buat janji kul 11.30 kita dua datang kul 12. 30. 30 minutes later!" haha. hmmph. :D

We walk a long way to ECP la. Haha. Tu Faisal ah lead kita orang. Pfft.
The last time i went ECP with friends was when i was sec 1. Hehs. -.-

Anyway, at the bike shop. Me and Zunairah ada kacau Herani. We suruh Herani pergi tumpang Faisal berbasikal. Haha. Yea, then Faisal was like, taknak ah aku nak sorang. -_- Pfft.
Well Herani told us that she wont be cycling. She jalan aje. Why?
She says she takda duit. Yea.. me and Zunairah understand that about her.
So Zunairah and me share duit untuk rent basikal for Herani. $2.50 each we keluarkan. Hehe. Baik hati kita orang. Wahaha :D

So, when i was cycling after a few minutes later...
Itu Faisal pergi usik me kata yang I cycle macam orang mabuk. -_-
Hahaha. Well, i was feeling malas to cycle properly.. Dah tired. So i didnt control the handle firmly. Haha. Thats why the bike go left, right, left, right. Hees.

At one point in time, we wanted to buy a drink. Cause we didnt buy any drinks at first. So on the way while we're cycling, there was this shop so we stop for a break.
It was a hot day. Once again while the rest of us excluding Herani bought our drinks, Herani didnt.
Rahman asked me why Herani tak beli air. So i told him that she takda duit. And then he asked me what drink Herani like. So i told him beli sembarang lah, maybe Ice Lemon Tea. Then i headed off outside.
So while the threes of us girls sat outside talking, Rahman came. And Rahman gave the Ice Lemon Tea bottle to Herani. Hehe. Herani tolak at first then she decide to take it. Lols. And she said thanks to him.
It was really nice of him to do that. Hees.

Continuing on our bike...
We suddenly separate into two. Cause we went into different roads. Pfft.
Rahman, Herani and me at one side.
While Faisal and Zunairah at the other side.
So we-which includes Rahman, Herani and me-stop at a place. The place is near the OBS for primary school.
For me, the place have quite a nice view. Hees. (;
I like the breakwater, the view of it and the sea as well as the sky.
But the place there was hot-not sheltered-but its alright though. Hees.
That Rahman funny. Since we're separated he go call Zunairah to ask her where she is and come back with us. Then he say Assalammualaikum... Dah puas dating?...(bla bla bla)... Eh, make sure habiskan masa bersama Faisal dulu puas-puas baru datang sini tau!-something like that. Haha.
Herani and me was laughing and laughing listening to what he says.
Went these two came back, we then took pictures of all five of us.
Haha. Tu rahman pergi ambil pictures of Fai and Zunairah together. Haha. Mepek mepek. -_-'

Itu dua-dua lelaki tak habis-habis kacau Zunairah. Haha.
I guess its fun to kacau Zunairah. Lols :D -sorry Zu.

Then cycled back. Reached to a place then we all sit at the stone table and chairs.
We talk and we laughs and we listen to songs. Hees.
Fai told us about his Bangkok holiday. Saying that the gays are better looking then the girls. And when he look at them tergugat iman Faisal! Haha.

After further more cycling we went back towards the bike shop.
Anyway, Herani was kinda being emo today. -.-' She’s like bersendirian and tak sangat join us during cycling time. Hmm..
Maybe she tengah fikirkan sesuatu. Lols. (:

Finished cycling. Then we head off to McDonald go eat.
Hmm.. I dropped my bag and all the things inside jatuh. -.-
Then got one thing drop/roll at bawah Faisalnya table-i was sitting beside him- then he wanted to take that thing for me. But then i quickly took it before him. Haha. Yea, i think i knocked him as well as myself. Lols. -.-
Dont know if he sees it. If he does, maybe he thinks im vain or whatever... Haha :D Pfftt.
After McDonald we went to Marine Parade. Where those two guys, their parents will fetch them at Marine Parade Library.

On the way there, it was raining. Haha.
So all of us walk in the rain. -.-' HAHS.
The girls walk so slow while those two guys walk infront of us so fast. We girls relax only. Haha.
Yea, so me, Zunairah and Herani talk talk on the way there.
Hehhs. Told them something.-only they know. Hees.

Anyway, I tasted the rain.
Somehow it tasted like SALT water. -.-‘
Haha. :D

After reaching MP library said good bye to Rahman.
Me and Zunairah went inside the library go toilet. While Faisal and Herani was outside the library.
Later on after we went out the toilet, we wanted to go towards those two lovebirds. (;
They were outside and sitting down together. But too bad not very close though. Hmm.. :/
Then we-Zunairah and me-buat idea untuk pergi di tempat mereka lambat-lambat. Biarkan mereka berdua-duaan. Hehe. :D –KASI memories untuk Herani, haha.
A while later we went towards Herani. Faisal went to the toilet. So we talk, talk, talk with Herani. Lols. Talk bout Faisal and why they’re not sitting close and why she and Fai quiet only, like not bermesraan. Hees. Hmm.

So later on Faisal came back. And off we all went inside library.
In there we camwhored. Haha. :D

So a few minutes later we girls gotta go. So buhbyee to Faisal.
We walk and ran in the rain. Hahas. Fun.
And we took bus 15 home.

I’ve realised and figured out some things today...

`If he comes, im not sure if he’ll be able to mix with those two well. Hehs. So sorriee, but its kinda sort of true. :/

`Herani, you should let go of him, Fai. Somehow I guess he’s treating you just as a friend. About more than that... I don’t know. Because I don’t want you to get hurt, I’d advise you not to get your hopes up on him, alright dear friend? MAYBE one day he’ll be yours. Manalah tau kalau dia adalah jodoh kamu di suatu hari. Hehe (:

`Kita tidak pernah ada permulaan dan tidak pula ada akhiran jalan cerita. Dan tidak mahu ku mengingatinya lagi kerana semuanya itu hanyalah ciptaan khayalanku tersendiri. Usai sudah semua berlalu. Biar hujan menghapuskan jejakmu. -Hees.; Peterpan-menghapus jejakmu.

The outing was great. Somehow its feels different from last year outing.
I don’t know why though. Maybe awkwardness? Or is it he didn’t come?
Anyway, yea.. Its alright. I had a great laugh today! :D

Byee byee.

11:59 PM Wednesday, December 19, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Its cute when he said that...

11:59 PM Friday, December 14, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Met Nadiah today.
We wanted to do History project at library but then we didnt bring the question paper. Haha.
How lame.

I first met Nadiah at Bedok KFC.
Wahh... Now i know how it feels like to be waiting for a person. Haha.
Felt as if time pass by sooo slow. -.-

After we eat then we went to Bedok Library. Initially wanted to go to MP library.
But then we lazy wanna go there so off we went to Bedok library lah.

Hmm...
I love this part. The part at the Wishing Ball station.
Its really funny.

So there was this ball, and then we're supposed to make a wish by writing at the ball.
So i ajak Nadiah to write a wish.

Here's what i wrote.
Asyura:
I wish to get an A for my O Level Malay. Yea.. Im desperate T.T
Haha. *Asyura's signature*.
-Well something like that.

So later on after writing my wish i wanted to know what Nadiah wrote.

Me: Ehh let me see what you wrote.
So i went to look at her ball.
And I read her wish out loud-well not that loud lah.

Here's what Nadiah wrote:
I wish to have a good day ahead.
*Nadiah's signature*.
-Yupp thats what she wrote.

When i was reading it.. I was kinda tergugap lah.
Then suddenly after reading hers, i LAUGHED! "Hahaha... Nadiah?? -.-' "
The girl infront of me also got listened and she laughed too. Lols.

So we headed up the staircase.
Nadiah told me the reason why she wrote that.
Nadiah said "I at first wrote.. I wish to... I wish to what uh? Wishes must always be something good right? So i wrote down good. Hmm.. Good what? Oh wells, good day la. Takkan good day aje? Ok add on, ahead. Now itu dah panjang sentence nye." Lols. :DD
I wish to have a good day ahead.
Hahaha. Funny lah you.

When we're out that time.
There was a few Damaian we saw. Haha.
Terserempak dengan mereka, 3 orang pula. But we didnt talk or tegur with them. Lols.
Malas malas. (;

Ohh... When i was going home.
I was lining up at the bus stop place, interchange. I was the last one.
Anyway, there was this Indian/Bangla man.
He asked me... What bus go to Ubi. So i was thinking of bus 60 and told him that. And he said 66? So i said yupp, 66. *showing that sign number 6 finger.* haha.

Hmm.. Dont know lah. Most of the time when im outside, there will be a person who will come to me and asked for directions. HAHA.
Is it just a coincident or is it just me probably looking very innocent and approachable? Hees.

That reminds me...
Last Friday-i think so-while i was sitting at the BNSS bus stop for bus 15.
Anyway, i saw Fariz! Haha yea. That guy, probably finished NCC. Lols.
We acknowledged each other by waving our hand a signed of goodbye. Haha. :D

Continuing on, I saw this old man around 45+ age. Dia sedang merenjis-renjis payung dia. It was raining lah.
I looked at him then he saw me. And he smiled at me so i smiled back at him. -.- Lols.
Anyway, Bus 15 came and i boarded the bus.
So there was this one seat which is available. So i quickly went to sit inside leaving the sit beside me empty.
Then that man who smiled at me came and sat beside me. Hehs =.=
Then in the bus, WE talked! Yupp, We talked.
He asked me some questions and i answered him back and vice-versa. He too told me stories about him. Lols. And i boleh jugak layan dia. Wahaha.
Abeh dia pun ada kata, yang dia bukan nak kacau ke apa. Dia cuma seorang peramah aje...(bla bla bla)... Awak sebagai seorang murid harus belajar. Kalau nak main itu boleh. Tapi adalah masanya untuk bermain dan berhenti serta masanya untuk bejalar...
And he also wished me.. "Saya doa-doakan awak semoga berjaya dalam matapelajaran awak serta cita-cita awak. Amin."
Hees. Dianya nama Fendi. -.-' Dia macam alim.. baik gitu tapi nama?. Hmm. Hehs.
I did told this encounter to my parents.
Then my mother nag at me and says, Haha. buat apa nak layan dia. Apa gunanye? Hmmph, dia mungkin depan baik tapi belakang.. you dont know. Sekali dia mempermainkan Asyura? Asyura ni memang! Boleh diperpedayakan! -.- Like they say Dont talk with strangers, ingat tu Asyura. Bonda cuma ingatkan Asyura aje...

Hehs. Pfft. -.-
I dont like it when she says that maybe he is a fox in disguise. What mother says is true lah.
But for me.. I dont want to think of others with a negative thought. Hehs :/
Thats just me thinking that not all people are bad person. Lols.

Byee byee.

11:59 PM Saturday, December 8, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Here's a conversation i once had with Nadiah.
Me : Ehh... Nadiah. I wanna go cut hair uh. :/
Nadiah: Go lah. Why asked me? You ah... Dah how many times and months you dah bilang me you wanna go cut hair! -.-
ME: Hahaha. Hmm.. Entah lah eh. Uhh.. many many times. (; *winks*
Lols.

In the end terjadilah kisah Asyura bertemu dengan hair shop. =.="
Haha. Mepek mepek.

Went with Kakak Yah plus Az-zahrah along too. Az-zahrah is my niece.
Went to Monsoon shop. Haha. Reminds me of Storm. -.-

Didnt wear scarf. Haha. Go cut hair, so dont need what... (;

Anyway, i wore this baju which looks somewhat like a skirt at the bottom part. The one i bought. Lols.
It looks nice. ((:

Also, my hair falls into place today-as in nicely done, i mean. Hees.
When i looked in the mirror my hair have these curly and wavy effects.
Hmm... PRETTY!
Just so you know, my hair is long and curly. (;
Wees~

-too bad, i didnt take a photo of myself. -.-
Pfft.

When i first walked in that MRT train to meet my sis, there was this guy at the door.
Anyway, i walked in and pass by him.
He noticed me and then i dont know if its me feeling rather self-conscious of myself or what...
Well.. Somehow after seeing me, his eyes was fixed on me.
Yupp. Eyes.. Fixed on me. -.-
-Dont know lah. I was feeling kinda weird though when he looked at me. =.=
HAHA :D

I guess I looked damn hot. haha. Wait... scratch that 'hot'!
Replaced with Pretty. Lols
Blueks (;

Nothing much happened.
I talked with sis as well as i went to KISS her! Hahaha :D
Lols. I love her.

Okiee then. Byee.

11:59 PM Wednesday, December 5, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Went to library today. Marine Parade library. As always. Hees.
I really love-umm maybe like?- going to MP library.
Maybe because at there, there is a lot of seats so its easy to find a place. Either that or probably because whenever i went there, there is a nostalgic feeling i felt. Haha :D

It was raining. Had to walk in the rain to reached there. Lols. Cool ~.~
Waited for Adri to come.

So in the meantime i went to checked out the Malay books section. HAHA.
GOSSSHH.. I know that O level Malay finish already, but still im searching and reading Malay books. Haha.
Well.. You see, maybe there is a chance that i'll get an A for my Malay and thus could melanjutkan HMT. Hehe.
Dengan izin Illahi, i'll make it. ((:

And then Adri came.
And we go study.
Hmm.. I did A.Math. Still on differentiation chapter. Hmm..

It was great being with Adri. ((:
Haha. Yup yupp.
I'm always feeling HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY whenever im with him.
*feeling like an ice skater doing that twirl and axle stuffs. Wees~*
Hees :D

Too bad you gotta go early. Hmmm.
Its alright though.

Somehow, the part where he gotta go early was really cute.
Lols. Yup yupp.

Hmm.. I was like Awww.. he gotta go early. Huhu T.T'
Haha. And your face was really cute! -during that goodbye.
Hehs.

Continued doing my work.
9pm library closed.
I bought and ate that Chocolate creme pie.
And then headed off home. Lols.

Somehow, i find it really amusing and quite great/fun to be walking alone by myself. Hehh.
-uhh, readers may not understand what im saying. Hahas. Nvm.

Buhbyee. (:

10:41 PM Tuesday, December 4, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Ive been thinking a lot these days...
Holy crap! I should have been studying instead of lazing around watching videos.
What the heck am i doing .. -__- grr...

I always told myself to go study. But i ended up not doing it.
Like yesterday, i told myself as well as my mum that i will go to library to study today. And i ended up not going. Haiyooo.
Computer is certainly a distraction. Pfft. :D

Okiee okiee..
There is a lot-i think so- of homework piled at my cupboard. I seriously HAVE GOT TO do it. MUST. Hmm..

I always do things in the last minute. Yupp.
Like doing homework or studying the day before the day comes. Haha.

Somehow i find myself that i could really do things at the eleventh hour-doing things in the last minute. Lols.
What i mean is.. During the eleventh hour i could really and could come out with great ideas.
I guess its because during that point in time i am forced to think harder. Since the deadline is the next day.
Hmm.. I guess so.

For which it means that: If only i could think really really really hard.. I could come out with great ideas without in the eleventh hour. Hees.
Hmm.. Should be. Yupp yupp.

I shall go library to study tomorrow. Really this time i will.
I guess its because i will actually go if i have a companion to go with. But if im alone, i will maybe or maybe not go.-most probably not-But it depends. Hahs!
-Angan-angan taik ayam,-they'll says: a Malay peribahasa (:

Anyway, i better go since i have red light to go to. So dont need to pray. Hehs. Not that i dont want to but its just that it'll be easier.
Yea... Better go.
As well as i need to study on the topic of Product-something something. (=.=")

Someone told me, he study by reading and memorising it and also by writing down notes.
Surprisingly yes he write notes.-I was kinda pretty surprise. Hehs. (;
I guess, maybe its useful-writing down notes i mean.
Yea.. Anyway, next year O Level, so gotta buck up and study. Hees.

Nites!