2:32 AM Tuesday, July 14, 2015 back to top?

• I still have the ringing sound of the ustaz of masjid sultan reciting the Quran in the Solat (terawih). SubhanaAllah.

27 ramadhan tonight (14july 2015 1.32AM) now.

I cried during terawih when the imam recited the Quran.  He cried, so i cried too.
I dont know why i cried. Its been so long since ive last cried this bad.
Its beautiful, my heart said. As if heart-wrenchingly grabbing my heart. Although i do not know the meaning of those words recited.

It felt like tonight was my last terawih. Last day of listening to the imam recites the Quran with his beautiful voice. Last day of seeing my friends.  Last day of going to this masjid during Ramadhan.
Kerana Ramadhan akan berakhir berlalu meninggalkan aku.

During the prayers, my stomach was painful, felt as if its that time of month; Red Light. A.ka.a uzur.

Its like i knew but i dont want to know the truth.
Because ya Allah, let it wait until i finish my prayer, this terawih, this witir, this khatamal Quran, this jemaah.. I wished.

It felt good. A good night.
Barikillah humma lana fi syahri Ramadhan. Berkatilah Ya Allah Bagi Kami Pada Bulan Ramadhan.

I felt calm and emotional during the prayers.
I like how my tears when the way ustaz recites the Quran filled with his ever beautiful voice and emotional feelings(his voice/sadness/tears)... My tears just kept flowing... It flowed down.. Just like that ..

Its raining right now, 215am. SubhanaAllah.

Asyhadu Allaa ilaaha illallaah, astaghfirullaah, as-alukal jannata wa a’udzu bika minann naar
Allahumma innaka `Afuwwun TuHibbul `Afwa Fa`fu `Annii.

‘Saya bersaksi bahwa tiada tuhan melainkan Allah, saya memohon ampunan kepada Allah, saya memohon kepadaMu surga dan berlindung kepadaMu dari neraka’
 'O Allah, you are the Forgiver, You love to forgive, so forgive me.'

Will continue blogging soon.  InsyaAllah.  (;