•Eventhough its been a few few hours after my sleep, i still cant help thinking about her words and their thoughts.
Honestly her words really are a deep lashing. Her tone, its as if its accusing me of being irresponsible. Irresponsible of being last minute as well as a leader.
This is the thing that i dislikes about Evaluation or Reflection. Sometimes it makes me feel sad and beat myself up about the things that happened and the responses. Its makes me think and asked myself "Why didnt i think that? Why didnt i do that? Why did they.. I shouldnt have that done. I should have did that..". All these WHYs and SHOULDs!
So here's what they asked me.
Tmr have lab practice? Because in the email says clinical practice must go.
Then here's what the lab pract teacher told me last week
Tell the class dont come to school next week. Practice & learn NGT feeding through CBT...
Note: never mention about lab.
Maybe its my fault too for not telling them what the Lab teacher have said. But for the first line, I thought everyone knew about not coming back to school! The second line was the one which i excluded in not telling them.
But in my own view.. I thought that Clinical practice is not Equal to Lab practice! And that i thought they think and knew that one whole week of school means no lesson including lab. I guess they were confused with the "clinical practice" email exception must go. -For which, i thought that this was supposed to be meant for Students undergoing Attachment to hospitals.
Talking about lab. When they asked me at 11.05+pm last night then i thought about lab! Ive never even thought about lab until they asked me.
Ahh suck. This post is as if its pointing at me for the conflict.
The way she said, as if accusingly, makes me fired-up thats why i wrote to her in BOLD. Then she said, dont need to get mad (due to bold letters). Furthermore, she adds on that im always last minute in telling people. Oh hello!... I just knew about this ok!. Well.. Sorryyyy for the last minute. -after thinking back through, well, my fault was writing in Caps letter to her. I guess i shouldnt have done that. HAHS! I was quite pissed off that time ok.
Yesterday im like.. So huru-hara. Why are they asking me this questions? Isnt it obvious, there's no school? The lab pract teacher also didnt say anything about lab practice session this week. Oh wait! I should get confirmation..If i just say anyhow no lab, sekali ada.. Rabak! Kena punch dari mereka. Then i called and msged Ms Tong-lab teacher. But she didnt answer/reply -makes me feel so paisey! Later on i called Ms Allison. Thank god she was there to clear the doubts! Thank you.
It was so aggravating lah! I dont like her tone of words-Baru je nak buat baik kepada dia and make a new impression on her. Then i also thought about the rest impressions. Im like.. 'Helloo! Im not god. As if i know everything! Suddenly you come barging in and asked me questions. And then you expect a reply fast. Ive got to liaise ok! It takes time.' Memang betul sungguh ganchiong.
Matter ni macam lame ah. But still, i kept thinking. -.- Hmm.. I rant at Haziq yesterday in msn. Haziq kata: Stress ke pe? HAHS! BAKA!-.-"
Its all about Effective Communication! Basket-ball betul! *yeahh & a score for Syura!* Pfft.
So far for my Critical Thinking essay, out of 1000 words, ive written 60! I'll let you see what i wrote! So lame -.-"
Honestly, I have heard a few people lamenting that the study of Critical Thinking is rather irrelevant and redundant. They say that it is easy to understand Critical Thinking: “Just use your brain, think and obviously solve the problem”. Of course that is the basic principle of component or knowledge in this whole Critical Thinking process. Hence, define Critical Thinking!
Baik ke pe, Asyura! -.-Zzz
OH MY GODD. Ive found 2 new Manga sites! Sweet!~
Sheesh.. Ive been mangaing eversince a few days ago. Hehs.
I always tell God, that im sorry for what ive done. But still i did it again. Its like when you dont have it.. You really want it badly. But when you've already have it.. When the pleasure comes.. Later on it faded. Then you'll think what have you done.. In actuality, it's nothing really. Its just that youre caught in the moment of enjoying it, the pleasure furthermore going with the flow. So you stop. Still, when the mood or pleasure comes later you'll do it all over again.
Heh heh.
Madrasah yesterday, It was nice to see my classmates back. HAHS. My class was divided into 3. Nasib Annisaa is the same class with me! hehehe :DD -now there're guys in my class. hahahah. :P Oh! My teachers.. 2 ustaz and 1 ustazah.
Annisaa says the 1st period ustaz is cute! HAHAHA. Hmm.. oklah...-.-" I think he picked on me sey.. Pfft.
"Oh heys! Annisaa.. Kerana Ustaz first period kita orang cute.. Lets put it as our very own motivation to come to madrasah early and NOT be late ok! hahahah. Basket! -.-" LOLOLOLOL."
Oh, while on the way home, near the traffic. I saw this NYP floorball guy. No wonder he's quite familiar. Hahs! Pretty amusing. So then, i told Annisaa to look at that way, to him... Then he dah cross the road.. Then i tarik Annisaa untuk cross juga. Then she was like terpinga-pinga kenapa. My other friends, Nurul Asyurah and Maisarah was also like..Why is she(me) walking that way... Then i told them to come along! haha.. Oh then still on the road... I kept pointing my index finger at him suruh Annisaa tengok that's the guy i was talking about. HAHAHA.
•Went out with class outing to Sentosa today. My first time going with friends and boarding a train. But my second time went to sentosa. Haha First time was really young, with my cousins and families although we didnt swim cause we didnt bring swimsuits! hehs.
Outing was alright. There were bondings too. Thats good.
-hmm, i kinda lazy to write it long. Hehs. I'll wrote things which have a significant on me then.
It feels as if me and Kulshan are getting closer. -without having Syahidah and Wardah around. Cause i always wonder if there were friction between us. Thus making impressions is crucial.. Eversince the leader thing issue. -Same goes with that other someone. Hehs. Hmm well, im just wondering how much i meant to her. Hehs-some stuffs.
Oh hmm.. Wei Na msg me early morning saying she cant go cause she dont know where and how since there were no one to accompany her. Thanks god i liaise with Kulshan for them to meet and go together hehe. So anyway, thank you Wei Na for coming! Especially me.. Since i know that its just only you a china foreign students and that you dont mingle/talk with the rest much. But i really like her "Ok! See you!"-nice attitute/personality. What surprised me also is that she even brings food and drinks for us. Very thoughtful of her hehe.
Even though my cliques-Wardah and Syahidah as well as Thiru werent around.. It was alll right. To me what matter most is that as long as we had fun and that at least there were some bondings there, going on its good enough! Hees.
Only a handful came: Me, Kulshan, Weina, Haymar, Olivia, Peixin, Rachel, Peiting, & Kai Xin. Lucas came around 3+pm but he didnt swim like us. Hahs. Just tanning and helping take photos.. hees.
Oh something which troubles me was during the Truth or Dare. It makes me uncomfortable. I got a Truth. Then Kulshan thought of a question to ask me and they agreed. Which is, "Asyura do you have a boyfriend?". Then she said to the 7 ppl-exclude Wei Na she isnt swimming-, about she'll vouch for them if Asyura lies since she knows the truth. So of course, i had no other choice. So I said it was true. Then they asked what's his name and whats his age and where he is now.. They were actually surprised when i said its been 3 years we've been together. HEHE ;D So yea.
Well, the thing i dont like is that.. I want this whole boyfriend thing to lay-low, i dont want others to know. Things are very tense or maybe less-tense or should i say maybe unpredictable between us. Hehs. So its really heard to say right now. I really dont know whats the outcome.
Kulshan already knows lah about me having bf! Its just that she dont know the circumstances we're(or in fact i am?) facing. Eventhough what Kulshan did may be unconsciously(or maybe purposely) but still i felt the sting. Hmm. Oh there is also a possibility of the bf thing leaks out to those two. Mampus gue kalau dia org tau. Hehh -.-
Oh i also kena buat Dare. My Dare was to kiss someone (my friends). So i decided to kiss Olivia! Haha. Mungkin untuk spite dia dan juga untuk memperbaiki relationship kami.-Ingin mendirikan image yang baru, katakan. HEHE. :P -But really my intention was so that she could let down her so called 'bad/wrong' impression of me. Hees. -due to things which happened. Hehs. You tau.. I got read her blog once, then it made me quite depressed so yea.. After a few posts i stop reading her blog! That the reason for the whole 'who-i-am really-are conflict' thing about myself. Hehs. And the whole depressing issues i had. Hehs. Ohh i so dont wanna talk about this. Only Nadiah knows about this whole thing hehs =.= Menjadi kawan yanga baru!(:
Forget about this. Eventhough i didnt have my LUGE ride! Still how i wish i could. But ok lah... At least bonding dengan kawan-kawan is more precious! ;D Ohh.. My skin look a bit dark now -.-" There goes my white fair skin! hahaha :P Must wear lots of Whitening Lotion!! *blueks.
•OH MY GOSHHH! This video is soooo sweeeeeeet! Kyaaaa!~~~ Hehe.
If only you notice.
Haha. I really like the way the song video is portrayed. It was an unrequited love at first. Chances missed. But she still kept on waiting and hoping. The guy started noticing her. Lastly, "I LOVE YOU" written on a paper showed to the guy. Coincidentally, the guy too had written an "I LOVE YOU" note to her too.
Its really nice and sweet. I would fall head over heels over love if i were her. HOHO ;DDD
The guy is cutee eh?? Mwahahahha :D
Oh! I love her curls. Ok.. I wanna her fringe curl!
~`Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
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Ive just received my O Level school posting for English. Thereby, my venue will be at St Anthony Canossian Secondary School!
Wahhhh! T.T I really dont know where is it lahh.. And im scared to venture out to a place im not familiar with :(
Oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh! 27 August English O Level ORAL 26 October English O Level WRITTEN !
Im scared. It feels as if my stomach's churning. Gagagaga. I need to step up. Need to read English book!
Haiz.. Calm down Asyura. Relax ok?
Im thinking... I SHOULD at least get a B for English O Level now. A B3, i hope! Or above! hehe. I really should. Cause its my second chance now.
Expectation, awareness and determination need to start now. I mean it.
------ Mum and Dad coming home tmr night at 11pm. I gotta fold my own clothes. Kemas rumah. I got Floorball training tmr at 1-4pm. I got madrasah & work on this sunday at 9.30-1pm and 4-11pm respectively. Also I got work on 22-23 June (Mon-Tue) from 11-4pm. As well as 25 June (Thur) from 4-11pm.
Gotta plan with committee on Sentosa outing for 26 June. I gotta do my ICA 2 for Critical Thinking reflection essay with reference by 29 June (The day which school starts). ------
Goshhh! Reading books. Oh man! Reminds me of BAHASA MELAYU LANJUTAN! Haha :DD I used to go to to Bedok and Marine Parade Library just to borrow MALAY books! HAHAHA. Buku-buku tentang cinta eh? Hahs! Sweet. (:
Sometimes the thought of venturing out is scary. Especially when you're all alone in an unfamiliar place. Oh dear, i wished i got Bedok North Sec :( Unlike Herani she got Damai Sec sey!.. T.T
Hmm. Saya sudah dapat O Level Entry proof. Reminds me of the time where i used to make a big deal on O Levels huh? As well as late night studying in Changi Airport, Mcdonald at T3. Lols.
October 22 2008 : The day before Core Geog O Level...
T3 Mcdonald table, studying Geog.. :P
T3 toilet going home -.- Great! Muka very innocent lah ey?! hahaha :D
In the train, wished that time would last forever. Because i still want to stay with you.
Dear love, I kept wondering if we'll be able to get a chance together. We'll jump up high and laughs out loud, if we could.
This is the only picture i have with me in my handphone(which turn out good. HAHA!). The rest is with Zunairah. -I'll update more on the details soon. (i hope!) Hees. :D
ASYURA & FAISAL
ASYURA & RAHMAN ! (:
~`I still feel and smells your scent. Dear love, its intoxicating me. Love.
•You noticed me, in the middle of the crowd. You looked at me through the eyes, and you knew something wasnt right.
Im glad that someone noticed me! He noticed me. Im thankful.
But somehow.. Im sad.
Probably the mask have worn down and its tearing down. Now sincerity comes in! Its now,"Be Who You Are!" Well, obviously, Ms Allison said was right! I dont know when this facade or whatever it is if im trying to masked myself have slightly fall.
I dont know, i dont know. But the reason is why? Why is it falling down? Why is that what he is saying is different from those who really knows me well like Herani? Is it because he's just new in knowing the real self of me, instead of Herani having knowledge and expertise in knowing the real me? Who is it?
I want to say both are true. There are flaws in me! )):
BAM says: btw.. i realised.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: yea BAM says: ur so quiet nowadaes.. how come? ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hmmm.. i also dont know eh. hehs you watching meee ehkk.. haha BAM says: hah tu lah! dulu kalo u tak jual mahal wid me! konferm ngah rocking the world! haha nolah.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hahaha BAM says: i dun actually watch u.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: :D BAM says: but can see from ur eyes im gd at tat i guess.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: awwwwwwwww BAM says: haha after all.. i date too many ppl & im able to relate to ppl easily im exposed to all this mah.. dunno ler.. maybe im wrong.. but from ur eyes.. u appear to be lonely n lost like dunno wad to do kinda ting ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: (((: BAM says: maybe im wrong haha ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hmmm.. nahh youre actually kinda right. hahs. you noticed! lols BAM says: hah reali uh? okie haha.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hahah a'ah . but tak tauu ah kalau lost itu. haha lols BAM says: haha nvm.. part of growing up ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hahs yea.. i thought so. hmm. i'll make a come back soon! then later we can go rocking yeah!! hahahha rock the world.. BAM says: hah ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: weee witt BAM says: we shall see u noe.. u cant sae tings like u'll make a come back soon n all tat.. coz rite.. from my observation.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hmm? BAM says: ur not those kecoh2 type.. so it will be weird to see u rocking n all tat BAM said: u noe.. like forcing some1 to listen to metal songs when he/she loves instrumental slow song ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hmm hmm yeah. i noee im not the really kecoh2 type.. hahs -like kulshan and stuffs. hahs! lols BAM says: yea.. the reason i like u was bcoz i tink ur those innocent2, swit2, quiet type.. but somehow.. hah i kinda lost interest after seeing u trying to be some1 whom ur not ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: err.. reallly.. i seriously dont understand wad youmean by that hahs BAM says: okie.. nvm.. forget tat hah ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hees hmm you really think so about that eh? -.^ BAM says: ya.. seeing u now n seeing u back than.. dunno how to sae hah tats y.. few weeks ago.. i wanted to take pics wid u badly.. but tat dae.. eventhough i want to.. i just dun feel like it.. remember the 1 we took kat mrt ya.. heh my ite lecturers once say this to me.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: ahuh BAM says: "sometimes, in search fer wealth n gold, u missed out on a rare gem" ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hahs.ok. BAM says: treasure wad u have.. be who u are hehe ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: thats a nice proverb lols hmm. i dont know ahh ismail. but its really different i mean those who realy really knows me well, can say that ah. i mean.. come on, it just starting.. its not like we know much about the person.. i mean like.. if you noe more .. than yeahh ahh can judge. hahs.. seems so complicated. BAM says: well.. sori if i misjudge u.. but im just giving u my opinion.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hahs nahh its ok. BAM says: heh.. u can either take it wid an open heart.. ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: yeahh suree.. i will BAM says: or take it as a criticism haha.. after all.. i do observe n yea.. be at the receiving end of all ur "cold" treatment ~`*asyura. \o/wees says: hahs nahh.. im not mad at you. about wad you observed about me. anyway, well yeah . thanks for opinion. hehs hees~ BAM says: hah
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Be SINCERE. Be Sincere in God and People, Asyura.
"I Love You, ASYURA," says the real Asyura.
Side note: He compared with Herani.. HERANI is the only person who really does know me inside and out! Sorry its NOT you! Hehs -.-" Herani have known me ever since primary school till now. It have been 7 years of friendship we've been going through. What makes you, who've just a few weeks? =.="
But i guess, thats people. We straight away judge people, without knowing the real self. Hehs. Ok. I wont be offended though (:
• Mum and Dad went to do their Umrah, Saudi Arabia today. Bye Mum and Dad.
Honestly, today i work from 1-4pm. Then i go pray at masjid Sultan pray, baca Quran then tukar baju plus makeup. Hees :D Then kul at 6pm gitu... Baru Asyura keluar masjid -.-" Hahs. Tak lambat? MEMANG LAMBAT!. Haha.
Mum says, they gonna go off at 6.30pm. So after keluar masjid, terus cari and kejar taxi! Nasib flag taxi, dah ada. MWAHAHA :D Oh then i told taxi to make it fast, but then he said cannot lah then he kinda said some stuffs which makes me sad.. He was kinda a bit tick-off or so. And then i kept quiet cause i kinda merajuk and frustrated-and in my mind i was like.. "Bacen betul orang ni... Mak bapak aku fly off, aku nangis.. kau nye pasal lah sia..." But still, i kept on hoping. Hees. Thank god, the taxi driver made it in time, eventhough there were a moment of near missed-accident and taxi driver cursing and swearing -.-But still its ok. Thank you Mr Taxi driver. HAHAS :D Beh reached Airport around 6.25pm gitu.Tapi LUCKY ah.. they still havent board. In the end they board around 7.30-7.45 gitu. Hehe. Took pictures.I was really into taking pictures.Cause who knows whats gonna happen to them overseas. You may never know that its the last day for me to see them or whatsoever. Oh heys, i bought mum and dad this 'farewell cookie gift box(contain cookie!)' hahs. -Who knows ah, if they hungry or need to use the box.
Hmm...Well, about feeling sad. Of course i feel sad.But this is actually not the first time they go Arab. Dah banyak kali... So yea..Dah kinda lazim gitu ah tentang kepergian mereka. Hees. (:But still, ALL THE BEST, TAKE CARE & HAVE FUN in ARAB! Mum & Dad!-confrim punyer mereka tak ingat Singapore & FAMILY mereka. Heh heh :P
Oh! Mum, Dad and my 2 aunties-Mamaenab(my father's side) & Maksu(My mum's side) juga pergi menunaikan Umrah bersama-sama. HEHE. Pretty cool, yea. Hees(:
Pictures pictures pictures! :D
There goes cleaning the house, making bed, wash clothes and sidai baju for us =.="Oh wells. 2 weeeks je!
6 June TO 20 June - Selamat pergi dan Selamat Pulang! ((:
The Whole Family. Rahman, Asyura, Umairah, Norma Zakaria, Mohd Yusoff, Asiah, Hakim & Az-Zahrah(Niece) :DD
Bonda & Ayahanda :D
Ayahanda & Asyura.
Bonda & Asyura.
My Aunty, Mamaenab -My father's sister. She's going too. Hees. I dun have picture of Aunt Maksu though.
Az-Zahrah! Dia nakal tauu.. kerana Auntie Syura nak amek picture dia tengah handcuff dengan rubber band, SEKALI! Dia pun nak Auntie Syura amek picture dia handcuff kat belakang jugak! hahah :DD Naughty naughty Woitss.. Beh these days, she kept kacau/calling ME with the name.. ASUUWAAA! -.-"
Helloo Kak Mai! :D She boring and tired abeh.. Asyura sengaje amek picture muka of she and me. Hehe. Kak Yah & Me.
The Sisters aites! ;D ABANG! ABANG! -I pretty loves the 3rd picture. HAHA. Muka errkk, eh brother! -.^" hehehe.
I love this picture. This somehow potrays picture lost and hmm whatever you think! Especially the gravel path! Pretty cool! HEHE. Obviously, i make this picture bigger because i look Pretty Nice in here! Mwahahahah :DDDD
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
I loves the rain, seeing the raindrops from my window.
Staring up at the big blue sky, laying down.
7:39 AM
Tuesday, June 30, 2009 back to top?
ASYURA & FAISAL
ASYURA & RAHMAN ! (:
Bonda & Asyura.
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
