12:05 AM
Sunday, July 27, 2008 back to top?
123th post, i need a nice story to fill me up.
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Dear Diary,
I need a nice story to fill me up. Hehhs.Dont know why....But probably, im flying into fantasy.Im floating and my feet isnt touching the ground.And it feel as if i need something to bind me so as to hold me down.Wanna try, but failed.Wanna land down, but part of me do not want to.------
I'll tell you how's my day/life is right now.
Well... the first thing i look forward when i come to school is, straight-away after assembly i will walk quickly to class towards my table. And then put my head on the table.I'll be thinking, when is this day gonna end, im feeling tired sometimes~ But at the same time, when thinking about the day that is gonna end, i feel kinda not up to it or not ready for another tomorrow/day to come.In school, i feel like i wanna go somewhere. And once ive stepped out of school, i dont even know where to go or what to do. Whenever the thought of going home, sometimes i dont feel like going home.Cause by going home, i'll start again with my compulsive addiction-the computer; manga/anime.And the naggings and the feeling of guilty.So when i dont go home, i go to library, to study-but this happens when i feel like it.And when i walk home, i take my time walking. Taking the long route and enjoying the scenery.Ive been thinking a lot about a stuff.My thoughts are:
Where was the once me who said she wanted to work really hard this year during the first day of the year? Where is she...*And in the presence, that girl isnt here.------
I am not what i used to be.Im escaping from reality.
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
