12:52 PM Wednesday, August 8, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

It seems that it did not rain today, i mean in the morning. Thus cross country was not canceled. Looks like i didnt make it to the top ten B division. Hah! Fat hope! Gahhh.. At first, I and Rebecca running together and that we want to get in the top ten. Then then, while running with her, at first i was doing okiee and was running constantly then bit by bit i started to slow down,down down down. Hmmph. I did run with my mp3. Haha!
Ohh while i was running, i saw Mr Cho running opposite infront of me. Meaning he's running clockwise direction while i was running anticlockwise direction. Anyway, we saw each other at which at that time i was running with my mp3, then its like we saw each other like alien. Usually/everytime there's this awkwardness going on between us. He's a great teacher, funny too and i respect him alot. He's a great mind! lols.

Okiee, so i've completed running around the Bedok Reservoir.
I walk, run, jog while admiring the beauty of nature as well as feeling & taking in the nice breeze. ^^. Nice.

After we all are dismiss, me and Nadiah went to Sheng Siong to buy things and then to Long John Silver to eat. In the bus 22, we talk talk lah. Found out things about her. Like her family, peoples thoughts/views of her being emo which she is not-its just that she looks like it, and the stuffs that she cries about.
Hmm.. kinda sad lah her story.
Reach Long John Silver looks like we reach Long John silver during breakfast period. So we got toilet to pass time for another 30 minutes to 11am. Then talk talk and walk walk around Century Square.
We told each other things which we cry about.
For her she said, she's not a person who cry cry. Its just that sometimes she have small problems then it adds up to a bigger bundle and then when she cant take it, she cries lah.
And i told her about me, reasons why i cry. I cry due to, unfairness, sad things her for an example; Like my lil brother that time he kacau my niece till she cry and then i gave him warning that if he dont stop it i'll slap his face. But then he didnt heeded my warning and i slap him lah. And he retort back beating me up. So i hit him back but still i couldnt hit him back since he had defended himself well. Hence what makes me angry was that he was fighting/beating me real damn hard while i didnt beat him damn hard for which im weak in the battle. So feeling mad, unfairness and self-pity about this matter, i started to cry la.. hmmph.
Alright so after going through century square toilet we walk around and went in Aries shop. Around 11am we went to Long John Silver back. Its crowded man and long queue! O.o But service was really good. ^^.

So we ordered our food, sat down and eat. And we talk summore.
Ohh in the conversation i ask her, "What do you think about me. Tell the truth"..
And she said that im okiee lah. And i ask her about me, my bad stuffs.
She replied that i kinda like.. not discipline-i guess its due to me always coming late when meeting at a certain time. She said "Sometimes in life, eventhough you want that thing, You've just couldnt get it..". For example, that time during recess time, Hannah brought pizza. And i want the pizza and ask her. Then i ask the people and they shove shove the answer to another people. Meaning, takkan people want to say No, right? Ohh and she said that, she dont like people to ask her buy things. Like when we're going out looking at things, sometime i tell her "Eh, you buy for me lah.. this one.." Blah! For which i replied to her that i wast only main-main about it. Since she always say/annoying says "Asyura, i buy for you this one okiee.." but then she didnt buy it.-I know that she's playing/joking around, same goes for me too, which i tell her that.

Anway, while she says the bad things bout me, it just make me more sad. Serious. I think my face was like distant, small eyes, lips tight and looks like crying the type.
I admit, i was really really hit by what she said.
In my mind, the things that i do... I doesnt mean to hurt people.
Sometimes no matter what i do eventhough directly or indirectly, i ended up hurting people.
*sigh* =/

And then she asked me what i think about her. And i told her what i think lah.

So after telling we kept quiet for awhile.
I told her, "Im glad we have this talk. Thanks for telling honestly (:".
She answered, "Yea.. Me too. For me i like straight-forward people. Its not good right, like i angry at you and you angry at me and we both dont know we angry of each other. heh." I agree.

Finish eating, we went to Tampines interchange to go home. For her, she didnt take the 67 bus but she took bus number 25(i think). I ask her why. She said that she wants to talk long long bus rides. I understand what she meant. I did that sometimes. Hehh.

Till now, im still hurt by what she said. Though im glad that she tells me honestly eventhough it hurts. This is what you call a good friend (;
And i thanks God for letting me have a friend like Nadiah.
*smiles* ((:


Ohh, i got send Saiful Ariffin a long msg to him today at friendster. Haha. Super long lah. About something something.. :D

Tommorrow is National Day.
And i'll to take this opportunity to wish Singapore a..
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" ^^. ~woots.