2:48 AM Friday, September 23, 2011 back to top?

• I think its gonna be a goodbye, to my best of guy friend, Awesome.

Maybe i know why, the reason of us drifting. Maybe its me, maybe its you. Maybe the sparks faded. Maybe it was just a temporary moment of happiness.

Another goodbye. People come people go. This is so sad ):
But i guess... What makes it so sad, was...
Letting someone whom you probably like or even love go. Cause you know that what it is right now is not yours. It wasnt yours/mine in the first place. They belong to someone else.

I guess somehow, this fading is a no surprise there.
Cause from the start, you always come and go as you please.
You come when she not there, yet youre away when she's there.
And maybe.. Our recent conversation, our lack of communication, maybe youre busy entertaining her, or perhaps im too boring for you to communicate with.
I guess i was pissed off by that, though i know i shouldnt be. Because you have every right to do what you want, because youre not mine, and i know that. Maybe one of the reason is because, i was getting bored with how things goes thats why the lack of text, maybe i wasnt being a random inspiring person these days, maybe its because i was thinking "Since youre msging and entertaining her, do whatever you want, i dont really care, i dont see the point in texting you while you already have someone to entertain you."
I sound as if of pure jealousy. Maybe, maybe not.

Truthfully, part of me will always back off, 'mengundurkan diri' when i realised that there is someone else who's seeking for you and you reciprocating her.
Perhaps it may be because im finding for someone who'll stay with me, for a very long time. I dont want someone, who'd go off as and when they like.
I want someone who will stay and be true.

Oh well oh well, i cant describe how i feel.
But even if it is so, you leavinv, well yes i will accept.
Because i already know that you are not mine. Thats why they say its called fate.
Gosh i cant believe that there is actually 2 person (or even more) falling for you at the same time. How lucky can you be!?

Hmm nonono. Even if between the 2, whereby one of them is me, i'd rather back off.. be the one who leaves.
Because.. Hmm i dont know why... But maybe its enough if there is someone who loves you. Yes.
This love i have right now, is for the one who needs my loves. ^^
Someone who would make me feel important in his life.

Yes baby.