11:02 PM
Monday, July 23, 2012 back to top?
Your hand held tight
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As i held your right hand… while you were (half) asleep
I held it tight, with warmth and with love.
Thoughts of if I could be by your side, if i could accompany you, if i
could be your One, if i could be your soulmate the one youre searching
for, if i could be your beloved and as well.. Your dear wife.
I wish. I hope. I want. I need.
But there was a tinge of sadness felt.
The ‘what-if’ which is unpredictable. Un-beknown to us.
As i held your hand tight,
My heart yearns for you. My heart whispers of words of “Uhibbukka fillah” (i love you because of Allah) softly and dearly….
The thought of if we’re not meant for each other, Dear god,
Ya Allah
please protect him, guide him and watches over him. Bring him happiness
and lighten his burdens whenever its hard for him to carry.
Ya Allah, please make him to remember you, to give thanks to you and to
always worship you. Make him closer to you and you closer to him.
SubhanaAllah.
Ya Allah.. For what is to come.. Aku redha atas takdirmu.
Aku redha. Aku redha. Aku redha.
Bismillahi Tawakkaltu a’lAllahi!
Ya Allah sayangilah dia.
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Sunday 22/7/20120, at 930pm, 2nd Ramadhan, my dear Nenek Teh meninggal dunia.
Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiuun.
Today, i didt follow them to masjid and to kubor, as im having haidh. So stayed at rumah maksu and jaga rumah and jaga Encik Radi. (: Hees.
When my uncles, aunties and cousins reached maksu house... It was very aww touching (: Ukhuwwah fillah!
When nearing to buka time, as i saw Ikmal laying down on the sofa, i came to him. And somehow our hand touched. I held it tight as if caressing... :'(
As the Maghrib azan came,MasyaAllah our families are soo lovely and soo kecoh-ness.
Laughter and smiles.
Solat Maghrib and around 830+pm me and my family went home.
As Fatin, my cousin sent(drive)Wan and me and my mum and Husna..
I sent Wan towards his block lift, we hug and We kissed each other. Aww..
While walking i received a text.
21:13hrs, It read:
Thank you for holding my hand while i sleep.. Held my hand with love.. I can feel it..
;)
I replied:
Hehe. Awws...
Uhibbuka fillah! (:
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and i really meant what i said. SubhanaAllah.
Somehow, today i really feel this emotion of love for the people around me.
For this loves comes from Allah. And Alhamdulillah, for Allah letting me feel this love.
Trololololololo. If you're beautiful, then i'm gorgeous! Hi darl. (:
