9:17 PM Friday, September 21, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Sometimes i feel as if im putting a void around me.
Keeping anyone from coming close to me.
Hees. Thats how i feel.

Like im keeping my distance.
Keeping my distance from Nadiah and others.
Hmmph.
I should be very careful.. I dont wanna lose her.

I wonder why..
Maybe it is is because i dont want them to know the real me inside.
Or maybe it is because i wanna be alone an think about the situation im in. Hmm..

Diary, sometime i wonder...
If she is truly my best friend or just someone for company.
If this friendship is genuine or fake.
If she is that person whom i search for a best friend.

Diary, somehow..
I guess ive not been totally honest with myself.
And im very confuse.

What im looking for in a best friend is
a person who is really funny till my stomach hurts and when im down that person will make me laugh heartily,
a person whom i can express myself when im with that person,
a person who can instinctively knows whether im having troubles etc without me telling that person,
a person who will always be there or me as well as help me,a person whom will boost those lackness that i have in me,
a person who is fun/bubbly to be with,
a person who will always encourage me to do my best,
a person who will honestly tell me if what im doing is the wrong thing thus will advice me.
-etc etc.

Is she ? =\
Fikiranku buntu.
Entahlah eh.

Arghh...
Let it be. If she's not the one, then it'll be all right if we are to be just friend.

~`Sometime i find myself pretending.

There's this saying by Shakespeare..
Everyone is an actor and an actresses.
This world is a big stage which we act in. ((;

-Got that from Cikgu Sahriana. I have to kinda agree with her.
But still there are some people who aren't acting at all. Just naturally being themself.
I wish i could be like the 'some'. (: