9:48 PM Wednesday, September 26, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Well.. I had my period today. And it was really painful. Had stomach cramp. Gahhh!
Haha.
At the same time.. Yaayy.. dont need to puasa and sembahyang. Can go out without thinking of praying. Haha. Thats the thing about periods which i like.

When having periods, i feel like im so carefree..
As in i can go home very late like maybe can go to library to study and stay there until the library close. Because, usually i will always think of praying and it will obstruct my work. Lols. Get what i mean? Hehh.
-Though im NOT complaining that Sembahyang is a chore!
Nak ke taknak still kena buat. Ia adalah wajib dan tanggungjawab sebagai seorang Islam.

Anyway, today buka puasa-though i tak puasa-My family and cousins from my mother side of family came to buka here.
Because of tomorrow my parents will be going to Saudi Arabia untuk mengerjakan ibadah Umrah. Hees.
It been 3 consecutive years counting this year-i think- that my parents gone to Saudia Arabia.
Hehh..

Alright anyway.. My other side of my family came to buka puasa at my house.
I didnt talk much with my cousins. By the way Hanis didnt come.
Well.. I feel really awkward with them.

Cause im not sociable with them/people-unless they're really really close to me or im comfortable with him/her- unlike my older sis Kak Mai. *Sigh*
Also because of the past which have ruined my relationship with them.
DAMN IT! Arghhhh...

If i could turn back time, i wont say those things. I doesnt mean to criticise them. I just say it like its a fact. Argghhh.. And they thought wrong. Grr...
And also, if only.. I had not say it to someone.. To Hanis.
Im sure things would not get messy.

Cause she, Hanis, blabbered it to them.
And then.. Me and my cousins except for Hanis wasnt talking anymore.
Though Hanis somehow i find her fake.

To add on, the awkward moments or can i say the 'silence' between me and Adib(cousin).
We're both are like quiet around each other. Well i dont know what to talk about with him. Usually he was the one who was making jokes and i just laugh. Stupid thing-likeness i mean. Hehh.

Haizz.. :(

Anyway.. Now we're kinda okiee okiee- i mean with my cousins.
Though there are scars left. Sad.

~`And.. It looks like everything wasnt the same as it was before.

My parents will be going to Arab tomorrow.
I wont be seeing them off. As they berangkat in the morning about 10.30 leaving the house.
Which i got school in the morning.
So yea.. Farewell. (:

Hmm..
About 2 weeks they're going. I think its 15 days if im not wrong.
Haiyaa.. STILL can survive without parents.
Haha.

Though probably the house will be quite messy, i guess.
Due to past years scenario. Hehh.

Ohh and i still remember..
Last time when they're gone to Arab..
I got slapped by elder sis. I think it was because of me being rude or something.
Well.. During that period, I HATE EVERYTHING!
I hate elder sis too and everyone around.
Well im not really sure of what happened.. Ive forgotten bits and pieces of it. Hees.

The house was really in a mess that time. And i guess circumstances of the surrounding makes me feel angry and unfairness towards the things around me.
Hmmph. Thats what i could remember.

I guess i have some issues of myself. Hehh.
Social interaction with others. And finding the real me.
Hehh =.=

Exam this Friday.
English paper 1 and Malay paper 1. (:
Better buck-up!

Nites.