10:53 PM Thursday, October 4, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Today, during Subuh(dawn)...
I felt soo disturbed. Fikiranku tidak tenteram. Emosiku tidak tentu arah. Hati berasa gelisah dan sebagainya...
I felt sad and lost. My feeling was like a turmoil.
Some things are bothering me. Hees.

Well, after sahur den i go bathe and get ready for school.
Then i went to pray Subuh.

I remembered something... Which my parents had said to me/us before.

They said, if there is anything...
anything which is bothering you or need a friend..
"Bacalah Al-Quran!".
Kerana Al-Quran adalah pengubat hati. Ia boleh mententeramkan jiwa dan hati.
Jadikanlah ia sebagai kawan. Justeru Al-Quran boleh menolong kita bila di akhirat nanti.

Alright, so after prayer.. i take my Quran and started reading it.
Out of the blue.. I broke down and I started crying.
Tears rolled down my eyes. *i SWEAR this is true!*

I guessed, part of me felt that when i read the Quran, during that time, my feelings which i kept and suppressed inside was let out.

There were a few things which kept me wondering.

I was wondering why is it when before i read the Quran i did not cry. I guess i couldnt cry. But this time around, i did.

I was wondering if it is true that the Quran make me felt that way-crying- or is it me, myself who was the one who did it. Hmm... Somehow i doubt that its me.

I felt awe to Allah at that moment. Syukur Alhamdulillah. :)

Inside of me, i felt angry and says, "Stupid Asyura. Baru sekarang engkau baca Quran! Masih dalam susah barulah baca. Bila senang tak baca ah!?"-Yea, i felt bad about not reading Quran during happy/easy time.

*The power of Al-Quran. (;

Told myself, to make it a point to baca Al-Quran from these day onwards.
Anyway, now i dah JUZ 25 or 26. Few more 'chapters' to Juz 30.
Wooohoo.. Can khatam Quran this Ramadhan. Banyak pahala akan ku dapat.
Wuahahaha :D

& i berdoa kepada Yang Maha Esa,
Berikanlah Asyura kekuatan untuk merentasi pancaroba kehidupan ini.
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By the way, yesterday had my E.Math and history paper.
Dont wanna talk about it. Especially E.Math!
I felt that i have disappointed a few people.-Mr Arul, Mr Choong and MYSELF-in E. Math. )):

I guess yesterday event make me feel what i felt today. Heehs.

Anyway, after school me and Nadiah wanted to go to to East Coast Park/Pasir Ris/Elias Park to study. Then we took the wrong bus and that wasted our time. So in the end we went to Pasir Ris Library at White Sands shopping mall. Haha.

During our journey, we talk and talk. Umm.. we talk about SYAZWIN! Yea..
Our 'quite new' friend which we met a few months ago while doing our CIP collecting donation.
Ive forgotten what day we met.. Probably it was during March/April and if im not wrong about the place.. It was near to City Hall!-near the shopping center. Yea. We only have met ONCE, yet we three click well. ((:

Unexpectedly, talking about him, we terserempak dengan Syazwin!! HAHA :D
We met him at the White Sands lift to go to level 3.

At first, me and Nadiah were talking. Then Nadiah was looking at her left side at someone. So i followed her gaze. Yupp. And i recognized someone very familiar. Syazwin!
Then i come forward to him and says Hi to him. He recognized me. :))
Wees.

I asked him why he was at there. And he said that he is going to the library to study. Hehes.
And we three went to Pasir Ris Library together. Yea.. Just like old time. Meeting unexpectedly doing the same thing and walking together to a certain place. hehe ^^.

Thinking of Syazwin and the old time we met and do, makes me feel bubbly and happy.
Haha. *happy happy*

Yea, Anyway in the library, we studies. And we talk alot too.
But mostly, it was me and Syazwin who talk alot. Haha. Nadiah.. Dia tak tau apa yang nak cakap, justeru dia hanya berdiam dan mendengar aje.. Haha.

Syazwin was impressed and awed about the subjects which we both are taking. As in taking TWO humanities subject- Core Geog. Hees.
Since i had Core Geog on 4 oct(today), i studied Geography lah.

He said if he could, he would want to take Core Geog.
For me, hearing what he says about this, makes me feel.. somehow lucky.
And that i shouldnt waste my time, effort, and grade.
Syazwin, saying with confidence about Geography, makes me wanna strive for my Geography.
Hehe.

BY THE WAY, SYAZWIN TEACH ME !!! hahaha.
I was sooo very very impressed by him. ((:
Although he did not take Core Geography-he take Geography elective- he taught me the ones that we both knew, have in common.

Yea, we talked about the subject rivers and others.
Also me and Nadiah was like, 'WHOAAA! Geography Elective, there is very little things to study unlike ours.' Haha.
Syazwin compares our sec 3 core geog book and the one he borrowed from a friend's book.
The Geog elective book was somewhat kinda same thickness like our book which it contains sec 3 to sec 5 topic. But Ours, for sec 3 book was the same thickness as them but sec 4, if you times two of our sec 3 book and total it up, it'll be really thick. Fuyyooo..
Haha.

We exchange contact number. Ohh he realised that ive changed my hp. Haha.
I felt like i know him a lot more than before.
About 5.30pm, we three went home.
A wonderful day today. ((:

Syazwin is a very nice and dynamic person. Not like some guys i have known. Haha.
His actions displays confidence and he is very sociable. Sungguh peramah dan baik orangnya.
But sometimes, he is like soo Belo. =.=" Hees.
In general, i like him! -As a friend i mean.

Im glad that we ran in to each other.-terserempak, i mean.
Because, HE MAKE MY DAY A LOT BETTER. Yupp.
I was down at first, but i wasnt in the end. And im glad we met.
Also, THANKS for teaching me. Though its little, but i did learn alot! ((;
hehe.
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Yea, Core Geography exam today was okiee. I could DO it. Wees.
Thanks to him too.
But too bad, i couldnt finish my last question, the assessment question -.-. Hah! But i have confidence!

Feeling better. ^^