9:50 PM Wednesday, October 17, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Umm.. Had gotten back most of my End of Year exam paper.
Except for Social Studies.

Combined Science, i got about 60-68% Somewhere around there.
Hmm... okiee la. I guess.

In total of all the subjects, i failed Three.
Failed E. Math for EOY paper. But overall plus mid year and all i got 66%. Which to me was a waste! As atcually i could have gotten A2. But due to my EOY exam results, it pulled me down. Haizz..
Failed Core Geography for EOY paper. Studied but in the end i failed. I was confident that i could pass my Geog but in the end see lah the result!
And sadly,
Failed my English for EOY paper. Wait! If im not wrong i think i got for Eng paper 1 i got 31/60. Which is just borderline pass. o_o But then paper 2 i got 15/50. Terukkk!

Now im scared. Scared for my English. What if, i couldnt make it? Aww nooo.. *sobs*
Please please please.. Let me overall PASS my ENGLISH! Oh God.

Anyway, today returned Malay paper.
I got back my Malay paper and my PRELIM PAPER .

For Malay paper, Cikgu Nor tak mark karangan. Cause I take HMT so scheme untuk mark karangan lain daripada yang tak ambil HMT.
Anyway, paper 2 i got 40/70. Haizz.. Shit. That is like 57% a C5. Pfft.
Paper 3, listening comprehension got 90%. Woots.
Still to me, paper 2 is the most important thing i must score! *sigh*.

Then Malay Prelim paper which i got back after school.
Umm...
Paper 1, i got 40/70.
Paper 2, i got 51.5/90
Total in 1oo%, I got 57% a C5. Arghhhh.

I didnt even get a B. God damn it. Sedih la..)):

When walking home, i was feeling kinda scared.
My mind was thinking about MALAY MALAY MALAY! Yup yup.
I was thinking, how how how? These two Malay paper are supposed to be as a gage for me. Whether i can do it or not. To achieve and A for O level.
But look! Still i got a C. Oh my God!

I DON'T WANT to DROP HMT!
Aww.. I dont want all my efforts gone to waste.

Was wondering, why my Malay Drop.
Why is it so. Is it my bahasa?? I guess it is.
My penguasaan dalam Bahasa Melayu is weak.
Aww...

Haizz..

Aku cemburu dengan seseorang itu.
Cemburu. Iri hati. Tidak puas hati.
Maafkan aku.
-kerana seseorang ini dapat markah yang tinggi dari aku.
Iya. Memang bodoh untuk berasa cemburu. Tetapi... Diary tahukan perwatakanku?
Dalam hatiku berkata, Cisshh bedebah.. Dia dapat tinggi dari aku ah. Apa sey. Macam tak percaya aku apabila dia dapat markah macam gitu. Bacenn arh! Aku sepatutnya dapat, bukan dia!!. Urgghh aku kalah dengan dia ni. *roll eyes*
Walaupun hatiku geram terhadap dirinya, namun aku berfikiran rasional.
Aku tahu bahawa aku tidak patut berfikiran dan mungkin... merendahkannya begitu.
Memang nasib dialah, jangan dipersalahkannya. Relakannya sahaja. Juga, kalau aku berasa cemburu terhadapnya.. Dia juga pernah berasa cemburu terhadapku. Jadi apa dayanya?
Aku akur bahawa perasaanku ini berasa sangatlah sedih dan hampa. Tapi apa boleh buat?
Aku hanya dapat bertumpang gembira terhadapnya. Aku pasrah kepada Illahi.. Katakan Kawankan?. Hees.

Semoga aku dapat A1, ya.

By the way, at my E. Math paper 1..
There was a writing from My E.Math teacher.
Very nice of him.
Thank you so much. :)

"Please do not let this setback get to you. You are a hardworking student with great potential. I am sure that you will do well at the end! All the best for next year!"
-Mr Choong, E. Math teacher.

Hees. Thanks for the encouragement. :))
I love the part "You are a hardworking student with great potential." HAHAHA.
Gossshh.. *blush*.

Yea.. I'll try to be positive. Cheer up
I Must not give up. I can achieve it, if i put all my hardwork and effort in the things which i want. :) -err. this sounds so cliche. -.-
Yup yup.

I shall try and do well for my Malay O Level.
*encouraging smile*

-do you think during my O Level, keazamanku untuk mendapat 'A' akan tetap membara?
Hmm.. I hope so. :)

~`Shine your light through