11:59 PM Friday, November 30, 2007 back to top?

• Dear Diary,

Ive always wanted to have a secret place.
A place like a garden. Where there is beautiful flowers blooming like my favourite Lavender. Haha. In the night, i shall see the stars twinkling brightly in the sky.
And I shall be laying there on the ground till the sun rise the next day. Haha ;D

Hmm...
Im trying to use descriptive words but i cant seem to have any ideas. Lols.

Went to Marine Parade library today. Reached there around 3.30pm though im supposed to be there at 3pm. Haha. And Nadiah had to wait for me. Lols.
After i come and sit there as well as started doing my Maths, just a few minutes later, i wanted to go eat. Haha. Baru sekejap aje datang dah nak pergi makan. I think, tak sampai 30minutes duduk sana. -__-
Well.. I didnt eat anything before going Library.

Went to eat at Long John Silver. Among all the other fastfood like McDonald, KFC etc.. I prefer LJS. HAHA. Yupp, i like it.
I really love the Chocolate Creme Pie. Hehs.
And me and Nadiah shared our food.
-I was the one who suggested it. Cause i wanna save my duit. :P
Then we went inside PP. I bought Annisaa and Zunairah presents. Nadiah and me share duit to belanja for Zunairah's present. ((:
-Once again i was the one who suggested it. Nak save duit tu pasal. hehe. :D

Hmm... Its funny.
When im with Nadiah just now, there were a lot of stories i told her about. Like my experience at the zoo, That guy Rafi and my kindergarten days. Lols. Hehhs.
Then when i was walking and talking with Nadiah, i was wondering why didnt i tell this-about my stuffs to Ariel.
As when i talk with Nadiah, there were like a lot of stuffs i did say to her. Hmm... =/ Entah eh.

We headed back to library.
When reaching library, Nadiah didnt go in. As she had to go home.
I didnt remember what time it was already. Maybe around 6 or 5.30pm?
Haha. If its like that, meaning we spent around 1 hour outside. O_O Haha.

Anyway, i did my Maths in the library.
Stayed there until the library closed.. Till 9pm, i mean.
Hmm.. Then went home.

Psst. I wore that new clothes i bought today.
And when i look in the mirror.. Hmm.. I look good, i guess. Sshhh.

I realised that im not good with new people.

What i mean is that..
When im outside and walking pass people or people looking at me.. I find that I couldnt meet them with my eyes. Like i wont be looking at them straight towards their eyes. I would just look at their face and just brush them off by walking pass or i wont be looking at them. Hehh.
-im kinda shy with people. (;

Or is it because, when others look at me.. I will feel kinda pretty strange, kinda awkward.
When they see me like that i will be thinking.. Hey why is he/she are looking at me? What.. Is there something at me? My hair huh? My face? I look ugly? Hmm...
What i mean is that, i will be having doubts. -you may not understand this. Oh well.

Maybe im just thinking of things which isnt supposed to be there.
Who knows that person was looking at others and not me or maybe im just too prettyy to be noticed/look at. Haha jk! =_=

Ohh..
Boyfriend message me today around 3+ in the morning. Haha.
Thats really sweet of him. (: Cause he had just come back from Vietnam today..
and he message me saying that he was missing me the whole trip. Weeeee... ^^
And i love you too. Feeling rather happy. Haha.
-i was still awake during that time as i couldnt fall asleep.

I was feeling rather shaky about these thing and it always waver up and down but when i received that words, it brings me up again. Hees.
Though im still having doubts. -Go figure what im trying to say. Hahs.

Nites. (:

Sidenote: I wish we could end off our every conversation with Love you everytime without fail from now onwards. (; Hees.