6:18 PM Wednesday, February 18, 2009 back to top?

• Sham's blog is really cool!
Haha. I mean in writing. Its like soo.. thoughtful and full of his thoughts.
Its interesting.

Obviously, he's once my online msn friend.
We kinda lose contact in msn. Cause i guess he changed his email address-maybe.
Later on i found him on friendster and add him as a friend. But still we didnt exchange comment. hehs.
Then in his profile he put up his blog link. So yea.. i came to visit.

So let me see...
That makes me his secret 'admirer' reader? HAHA! :D

Ah heys, his blog song is nice-right now. Ah its acoustic, good for playing guitar. Cool cool. I would want to know what song it is. Hahs.
Of course i wont tell him that there is a secret reader reading his post! -.- And.. Im lazy to research on the song too. lols!

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Its so frustrating yet hopeful when you come and go without any reason or timing.
Its just so weird. At one time youre there and another time youre not. You appear and disappear as and when you like.
You leave me confuse.
When you leave, i find my self telling me to move on. Whereas when you appear i find my self head over heels in love with you?
Yet those feelings still lingers. That 'i dont like you', 'i like you', 'i love you', 'im confuse' and 'im hopeful' feelings. -.-
Probably i know the reason why. Its just that i dont wanna admit it.
Let's pretend that i dont know the answer yet. (:

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Sometimes, even though i tries to recover.. It wavers.
It hurts once again. And i find myself wondering why it happened.
Could it be what he said was true? But he was the one who attack it first and says about all those of god is on his side. Blah blah blah.. - i shall not say more.
Maybe partly, it was my fault during the written exam. Honestly, it was shocking to see the result too.
And what the hell is him wanting to be release from his responsibility as a *a*. Shut it!
If you say that, thats even more worse. Dontcha think so. Youre given a responsibility, by god, so deal with it. Dont contemplate.

You say, find other pare**s. IF ONLY, THATS POSSIBLE! Shit head.
We comes from both sperms and eggs. Because of you TWO, here we are.
*This is what you call biological.
On the other hand if adopted is a different thing, so yea.

To tell the truth,
I AM VERY GRATEFUL for what he's done.
Such as the electricity, money, water & food and a home as shelter.

I dont like it, when you spurts all those mean things when it isnt the real truth. You and your views. How about other people's views? Ever thought of that?
Each people views and opinions are different from one another. They differs.
That one sided narrow thinking is bull, man.

Ahh, i wonder if this is teen angst. Hmmph.
I hope, i wont post this saddening post again. (:

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I borrowed a book, on 'Thoughts'.
Its pretty cool. Such as Auras and Psychic. Hees.
Very insightful.

Till here.