1:54 AM Tuesday, February 10, 2009 back to top?

• I read a few of my friends(my classmates) blog.
The ones who got into JCs mostly.

It surprised me.
They admitted that they have a very strong feeling of missing secondary school life especially, 4E3. My class.
I mean like wow! The bondage, the memories overflowing its somehow bitter-sweet.

Then i thought to myself...
Somehow or rather, my "i miss you/them" is not that deep-maybe?. Hehs.
But its not that i forsake them or anything.
When i think back, those memories i had, well.. Im very grateful, pleased and thankful for it.
Especially those happy, cheerful, laughable memories. Hees. (:

So anyway, most of them wrote about moving on forward into the future.
Hahs! I guess thats life. Its a cycle-unless there's some circumstances. Hmmph.
Ahh.. Im feeling this feeling which i dont know how to describe it. Haha. Pfft.
Yea me too. I gotta move on and look forward. Hees.
I hope this resolution will last me the whole year, hopefully! Haha ;D

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Im working! At Famous Amos! Hahaha. Yea.
The salary is $4.50 per hour. Ahh.. I used to have big dreams of landing a job of $8-10 per hour job. But now, ahh nahh.. Its ok. Lols.

My parents/family (except for Kak Asiah) doesnt know that im working!
Only a few friends knows about it hehes.
Well, my mum.. Maybe she suspects me! Hahs. Considering on how i always go out and had asked her for my bank account book.

Oh! Me and my mum had this argument over my bank account book a few days back.
That day, I was pissed and was sad(there was tears too) when she didnt gave it to me. She thinks that im gonna use the bank account book to create NETs card or withdrawthe money.
OMFGG! -.-
So enough about that! The matter is settled already. Because of ahem ahem. HAHA!

Why im working?
Honestly at first, it was because of the money. Since i need to buy clothes for Poly life! HAHA.
Also because since im always lazing around at home, why not work and earned money, that is more berfaedah! So yea.
Besides this, ive always thought that im gonna plunge myself in the business stream course. But then in the end i ended up in nursing, a science stream course. So yea! By working i can gain knowledge and explore my potential in the business side too. So its killing two birds with one stone! As in nursing and business. Mwahaha.
I want to be independent. So yea thats why. Who knows what will happen, like if i need the money urgently or what lols.
I also want to prove to myself that i can achieve things. Such as juggling work, school, studies, and retaking O level. So yea!
Its a challenge which i want to overcome.
So this means, i wanna see how far i can go thus pushing my limit. HEES ;D

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People always ask me, WHY NURSING?
URGH. Somehow it irritates me -.-
Its somehow like, they think its low -.- Hmmph.

-Though i do am grateful and appreciate those people who are open minded on me joining nursing! ;D

Like this one person i met in Masjid Sultan, last week. We were sitting side by side. So i salam dia lah. Then somehow we started our conversation, about the watch i bought! HAHA.
The word "fancy watch" was there. Lols. Oh then she's a teacher in International Australian school, if im not wrong. She asked me about myself whether working or studying. And i did told her that im taking nursing course.
I like her opinion, on how she thinks that nursing is a professional job, that its fufilling and worth it too. We talk about people mindset and stuffs. Then her experience in a mental institution. Hees. So yea.. Then suddenly, azan. So we kept quiet. We didnt say good bye as she went out early.
So anyway, it was nice to see and meet her. A stranger which i met and a conversation that we started up. It was pretty cool! ^^ hehe.

Further thinking.
I admit that ive never thought that nursing would be my number 1 choice! Honestly, its true.
Its just that, out of the blue, in the heat of the moment with my aunt persuasion, i put it as my first choice. Thinking that it was a good choice. Mind you that i did apply for teaching course-which i turned down already.

Now, after getting the result, im glad that i ended up in nursing.
Besides the good job prospect where nurse are in demand, getting a job in other country and the good salary.

Ive reflected on myself.
"I've always thought of working with people. Helping them as well as giving back to the society.
Such as counselling! A job which i think is a noble job.
But, since there was no way, counselling was in my choice.. So WHY NOT, NURSING!?
Besides this. By joining nursing its allows me to be more SINCERE! A resolution i made.
Sincere = pahala = GOD! Hees. Get it! ;D
Taking one step at a time, its ok! (:"

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My new Madrasah teachers are cool. HAHAS!
I like both my two Ustaz. I have 3 teachers-another is an Ustazah(teaching Ulum Quran).
One is teaching Fiqh, Ustaz Abu Bakar. Another is Tafsir, Ustaz Azhari.
I always thought that i know bab Fiqh Pernikahan since ive learnt it last year. But then this teacher, it feels as if a supplement to what ive studied. So its good, i learnt something new.
Tafsir, well.. The first week he teach/came.. It was kinda draggy/boring. But soon, it was really awe inspiring! Yea. He is more to psychological in his proficient. Hehe. Cool.

We had our lesson on last sunday.
I asked Ustaz Azhari about God. Since God's so Rahman, then why does he murka people?
Then he answered my reply. Well, what he said make sense. "There's a period where god gives us chances to bertaubat.... Also in the end, probably God will show mercy in the hereafter, so lets hope for it."

Oh then Aliza, my friend sitting beside me asked, a Muslim family who work hard but then have little income, compared with a non-Muslim family who probably doesnt work hard but gain much income, is unhappy about his life. So how should we convey to him on the kindness of god?

Then he replied, Surah Al-Fajar. Manusia apabila gembira suka dan berasa bahawa Tuhan adalah baik. Tetapi apabila dia berada dalam kesukaran dia berasa bahawa dia dihina oleh Tuhan. All this is about kemuliaan. Tidak semestinya kemuliaan itu adalah dalam harta benda. Manusia are the ones who stereotype kebendaan as a kemuliaan. Sebenarnya, Kemuliaan pada segi Allah adalah Keikhlasan. Keikhlasan di dalam hati kita. Yang akan di ambil kira di akhirat. Bukan sijil atau pangkat yang dilihat di dunia oleh manusia.

Hmm so Yea thats cool. I was satisfied with the answer too. Hehe Lols.

Ok! Im gonna learn surah Al-Fajr. And this other surah (yang grant wish). HAHA! :D
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Ok long post. So yeah.
Oyasumi. (:

Ps: My mum said that it was GERHANA BULAN tadi.
-im gonna take Japanese Elective in poly! Hopefully, if i dont change my mind. HAHA!