7:09 PM Tuesday, May 19, 2009 back to top?

• Hey heys.

Breaking news...
I pretty much guess/came to a conclusion that there are 3 guys who likes me..
Hehehe.
I feel so blessed. Hehe.
Thanks for liking me!

But you know i know.. Hehehe ;D

But that one other person, i really dont know. Its hard for me to tell and decide.

Those 3, in my opinion each have its good and bad points and my fantasies liking. haha!

But honestly,
I really really really appreciate it that at least there is someone out there who likes me -Eventhough we havent yet know each other more.

***Erkk! My eyes kept twitching!!
Its obvious that someone is thinking bout me. HAHAHA.:P
Ok Asyura. Stop it lah sey... Jangan nak naik kepala.
Hoho.

But really, this feeling. I kinda like it. HAHA.

My head somehow feels like wanting to sway and let go-get what i mean.

Things with new friends and the endorphin kicking in will depends on which place and what's on my mind.
Honestly, i find myself contradicting if i still can become that bubbly cheerful girl.
I tries but somehow, sometimes, i beat myself up of my self-esteem.

I find myself that im being dependent on friends as in being socially-outgoing.
Being wanted to be grouped-in, not being a loner and for people to remember (good things) about me.
So yea.. I had enough of being an outcast or and introvert or a loner or a wanderer.
Although sometimes, being in that shoe, i'll comfort myself saying that i dont need friends, people or a shoulder to cry on. :/

I wonder if one of these 3(or 4) guys will come and listen to my woes, limitation and even my ugly sides. Will you still stay or give up? When you know who i am?
Its scary...

This the reason why i say "i like this feeling", its because, everything's anew.
Im starting anew where no one knows who i am before.

Im still waiting.
Still waiting for that someone, preferably a knight to come and save me from falling.