7:39 AM Tuesday, June 30, 2009 back to top?

• Eventhough its been a few few hours after my sleep, i still cant help thinking about her words and their thoughts.

Honestly her words really are a deep lashing.
Her tone, its as if its accusing me of being irresponsible.
Irresponsible of being last minute as well as a leader.

This is the thing that i dislikes about Evaluation or Reflection.
Sometimes it makes me feel sad and beat myself up about the things that happened and the responses.
Its makes me think and asked myself "Why didnt i think that? Why didnt i do that? Why did they.. I shouldnt have that done. I should have did that..". All these WHYs and SHOULDs!

So here's what they asked me.

Tmr have lab practice?
Because in the email says clinical practice must go.

Then here's what the lab pract teacher told me last week

Tell the class dont come to school next week. Practice & learn NGT feeding through CBT...

Note: never mention about lab.

Maybe its my fault too for not telling them what the Lab teacher have said.
But for the first line, I thought everyone knew about not coming back to school!
The second line was the one which i excluded in not telling them.

But in my own view.. I thought that Clinical practice is not Equal to Lab practice!
And that i thought they think and knew that one whole week of school means no lesson including lab.
I guess they were confused with the "clinical practice" email exception must go.
-For which, i thought that this was supposed to be meant for Students undergoing Attachment to hospitals.

Talking about lab. When they asked me at 11.05+pm last night then i thought about lab!
Ive never even thought about lab until they asked me.

Ahh suck.
This post is as if its pointing at me for the conflict.

The way she said, as if accusingly, makes me fired-up thats why i wrote to her in BOLD.
Then she said, dont need to get mad (due to bold letters).
Furthermore, she adds on that im always last minute in telling people.
Oh hello!... I just knew about this ok!.
Well.. Sorryyyy for the last minute.
-after thinking back through, well, my fault was writing in Caps letter to her. I guess i shouldnt have done that. HAHS! I was quite pissed off that time ok.

Yesterday im like.. So huru-hara.
Why are they asking me this questions?
Isnt it obvious, there's no school? The lab pract teacher also didnt say anything about lab practice session this week.
Oh wait! I should get confirmation.. If i just say anyhow no lab, sekali ada.. Rabak! Kena punch dari mereka.
Then i called and msged Ms Tong-lab teacher. But she didnt answer/reply -makes me feel so paisey!
Later on i called Ms Allison. Thank god she was there to clear the doubts! Thank you.

It was so aggravating lah!
I dont like her tone of words-Baru je nak buat baik kepada dia and make a new impression on her.
Then i also thought about the rest impressions.
Im like.. 'Helloo! Im not god. As if i know everything! Suddenly you come barging in and asked me questions. And then you expect a reply fast. Ive got to liaise ok! It takes time.'
Memang betul sungguh ganchiong.

Matter ni macam lame ah.
But still, i kept thinking. -.-
Hmm..
I rant at Haziq yesterday in msn.
Haziq kata: Stress ke pe?
HAHS! BAKA!-.-"

Its all about Effective Communication! Basket-ball betul! *yeahh
& a score for Syura!* Pfft.