2:02 PM Friday, June 5, 2009 back to top?

• Its bothering me.

-something which i cant grasp the answer to it.

Thsese days, there's the ups and downs about life. Hahs.

Things happened for the last few days/ weeks since i didnt blog. Hehs.

On Wednesday 3rd June, floorball was awesome.
Hahs! Well, i really like the feeling of scoring a ball into the goalpost.
I was aghast when i scored it, couldnt believe i did it. Hahs
You know the feeling when you scored a goal for your team-mates. Its satisfying.
Felt like i contributed to the team.
But somehow, during the friendly match i cant seem to ind myslef enjoying it. Hehs.
Oh well, sucky.

Before floorball started, met with Ofelia. Talk some stuffs.
We agreed that its fun/good when people didnt know much about each other. And when people came to know more about each other, it seems that we're all are divided into different groups of people. So it sucked. I really do agree with that. Been there, done that. =.="
Hehs.

After floorball, i thought of going swimming with my friends, but, it didnt happen cause we're supposed to wear swimsuit after 6pm. Blah blah.
Hope was kinda crush bit. But the light was still lighted remembering about the glories of today. haha :D

My parents gonna go do Umrah and fly to Arab this Saturday, tomorrow.
So a farewell to them. Hehs.
Its sucked not having a mum around. HAHAHA. :D
Pampering and Tender Loving Care! -not around :P

I got work at 5 later. Wahhh ..
I brought my uniform to school along. HAHS.
Ahh then i wanna go pray at Masjid Sultan. Hehs. I hope i do have time! HAHA
Now's already 2.18pm =.=" Lols.

I find myself keeping quiet, these days with NYP frens.
Funny...
Super-duper shit head. -.-

Maybe i know why.
Maybe because she's there, that she's making a difference with my 2 friends that that happen.
Maybe i feel as if my territory have been invaded by her.
Maybe i feel inadequate.
Maybe i feel not pretty.
Ahh... Suck.

Probably work also the same later. Quiet. -.-

I should change. I really should change.

I had a "casual" talk with Ms Allison on Tuesday, if im not wrong. She just wanna talk with me.
Then i was told to tell her some stuffs about me. And then i asked her for her opinion.
She pointed out that i wanted 'Attention'. I guess thats true!
Because, diary, i find myself lonely at times.

But no, i dont wanna be that nuisance type of attention seeker.
Just the play along, get together.
But fcuk-maybe life doesnt seem to go the way i wanted it to be.
Maybe im just too demanding.
Maybe i just want something more.
Holy crap, i told myself to think positively and to not compare.

She says, to be "Who You Are".
If so, are you telling me that im a quiet person? Well, i am quiet.. When there's no one around or deep in thoughts or maybe to those who just doesnt know me or when i really have nothing to talk about.
-i'll just laugh and smile at their conversation
Im finding in the WHO YOU ARE part.
Maybe now, the way i acted and the way i feel is just the WAY I AM.
But sometimes i wonder, Thats it? Thats me?

Then she says, to be sincere in befriending!
Cause people will know and feel that aura.
Im still trying in that part.

I forgot about the reasons why i join nursing-due to proabbly certain events which made me forgot.

Remember Asyura, the reason why you join nurisng is because you WANT to be Caring & SINCERE in your life!
Get that in your head.

Yesterday, was the trying of Nurse uniform.
My friends sort off 'abandoned'-as in not wait for me.
I was kinda sad that they didnt. But then was surprised that they waited for me outside of the tutorial room though.

Anyway, THANK GOD! Nadzeef was there.
With him around, i really didnt feel that lonely and thus i have someone to decide for me.
Haha.
Cause honestly, it was really hectic! About which size should i picked and buy -.-
The funny part was, when i bought and get out of the room, i told Nadzeef that i kinda feel that i should buy two pantsuit at which one pair of S and another pair of M.
Then nadzeef was like.."Dah lah dah lah.. dont think about it lagi....", THEN HE CUPPED MY FACE! :DDDD
Then i was like in a moment of trance! HAHAHA.
In my mind, i was like "KYAAAA~~~ Hehe, so cute! I wish......... :D" hahah.

I found out two things about ourselves.
We're really fickle-minded in choosing; eg. Shopping! HAHAHA.
Another is about FOOD! Lols :D
-some stuffs happened.

Nadzeef reminds me of Syahrin. How they're both kinda alike..
I like Nadzeef''s laugh. Haha its funny. Lols.
Hmm.... But nah.. currently if youre thinking of forming a relationship,
its a NO-NOT YET, for me. Hahs!
-there's still some stuffs i gotta settle and looked upon further inspection of any guys.
I dont want things to be the same. Hees~

I cant wait to go out with madrasah friends! :D
I miss them, lots!

OH HEYS!
At floorball, there is this guy who looks/height likt Muhd! HAHA. :D
Dia pendek sey.. Lols.
Tapikan.. CUTE! :D hahah.
He knows me-cause there was one time where i pakai tudung going out of Sports hall and our yes met and stuffs. HAHS.
;He kinda remind me of Muhammad-tapi muhd not cute uh! :P
I find myself thinking, "It'd be great if we could know much about each other".
Mwahahaha. :PP

I want to be BEAUTIFUL.

I love the sky! :D
Its never ending.
In the bus, i tend to sit near the windows, looking outside the glass pane.
Without much hesitation, i fall asleep.