11:46 PM Tuesday, September 22, 2009 back to top?

• Apa yang ku ingin adalah Ketulusan Hati.
Sesuatu yang ku masih ingin memperbaiki kan diri sendiri ini. -tanpa rasa riya'.
Insyaallah.

Today first clinical attachment. Shall not go into details though.
It was alright, more to orientation. Hands-on should be tmr.
I kept on thinking, can i really do it? What if things happen? How far is my capability and knowledge?-LEFT ME TO WONDER.
Cause im still kinda scared, doubtful & butterflies.

All i know is that, i shouldnt lose sight of my reasons as to why i join nursing!
When around Subuh time today, i remembered this sentence during the RYC:
"Hub bun Minaallah, wa Hub bun Minan-naas", Syura remember that ok!
Jalan menuju Allah, dan Jalan menuju Manusia -something like that. Hees (:

Dear God,
Im still trembling to walk this pathway. But i know that, this is one of the steps towards reaching you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. T.T *sobs.

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Tak sangka, Mak Dah, tinggal next to Temasek Junior College! I didnt realised that! hahs.
Cik Atan drives me today after sending Mak Dah to her house so thats why we pass by there.
-nenek masuk hospital today, thats why i saw my aunties and uncle.

When i pass by the TJC...
Rasa begitu nostalgik dan sayu hati merenungkan.

Remember the time, where whenever i passed by the school:
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I would always feel amaze, anxious, agony and hopeful?
Feeling that i wanna be in the same school as my boyfriend.
Oh gossh the school is so big. I wonder whats its like inside?
Will i see him today? Who knows we suddenly cross-path and meet? hehe ^^.
Urgghhh.. I looked crappy if i suddenly meet him.
Ahh... To whatever to him, i dont care.-though part of me feel attached/cared.
Alright alright fine! Once again i hope to see him again pretty please?

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Well yeah, lotsa things were in my mind.
I guess, for me the most wonderous thing was being hopeful in meeting him again. Hees! :D

Im fine. Really im fine.
Both of us knows that its pretty much time for us to move on. Yeahh..
Officially? Not yet.
-Not sure if its gonna be silent, or meet up-sending cards! hahas.

Read this:
As I weigh the meaning of those words,
One thing became very clear.
There was no hope for us.
But even if our feelings for each other were dying…
I found myself wondering, the fragment pieces of memories we created were fond and beautiful, my dear.
Thank you, even if its bitter-sweet(:

~`Seperti apa yang telah saya katakan,
Ketulusan hati. Unconditional Love and Acceptance from a person to another.