2:28 AM Tuesday, March 16, 2010 back to top?

• I like Syahadah's words, haha.

and to that person, if you manage to read this then takecare of yourself. ive always been missing you. counting down to the days. remembering the memories. trying to takecare of myself. thinking of you. thinking of your health. thinking how well you are coping. thinking of your words. thinking of the advice. you are on my mind constantly. and now, its very very hard. im aching, im hurt so deep i feel so weak i just dont want to stand anymore. ive not much motivation now. idk what else to do. i miss you so very much. i really dont know. im clueless. im lost. im weak. im almost nothing without you. all the strength i have is because i know you would be sad and disappointed in me if i fall and never want to stand. you'd be angry if i didnt want to try but you would encourage me cause you care. you still do. i guess? i miss you but we have to deal with it. im not going to give up. im doing all this cause i know you still care and you want the best for me. thankyou. and dont worry about me. i'd be alright somehow. missing you terribly.

I understand what she meant, clearly & deeply. (:


:'( You’ll be alright and I’ll be alright.

At one point in time, somehow I felt lonely and EMPTY. Missing and tripping over you.
Ive been trying to take care of myself. Thinking of all those happy memories and positive views about life.
But its hard. I keep on falling then standing up again, feeling very shagged each and everytime.
I tried to be strong in looking forward to another day and Today.

Have you ever feel like falling down or feel like wanting to faint when youre up and walking through everyday life? But, however, you told yourself to HOLD on and just start walking walking walking.

I guess I just don’t wanna break down so hard. Because I find myself wondering, will you come and save me when I fall?
There’s this saying, about a guy saying, he was there to catch the girl when she was falling down. and the girl saying, you wasn’t there when I fall. However, the guy answered that, She had already catches up the vine roots holding and not wanting to fall down deeper, thus climbing up again.

It makes me think, WHO is the guy?
& I think that the girl, she’s very independent, not wanting to fall. (:

And it will get better.

`*All the things we did & the way that we touch.