8:45 PM Tuesday, April 19, 2011 back to top?

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The heart. Its complicated :(

True enough. You want to move on, but something keeps pulling you back.
Even though you tried to, You dont have the courage to move on.

Hahaha okiees, its complicated. But its sad ;'(

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Well, Z-carebear wasnt what i hoped or expected of him, in the end.
Its so so sad. Without knowing, silently, we said our goodbye.
And it seems that he have moved on and going to another target already.
I feel so cheated. Yet i cant blame him or myself even.

Because from the start i knew, Once fallen, Ive already fall.
So whats the point about regretting? Because they say, in the first place, you wanted it(him).

I dont regret. Just sad, and i guess a lil bit heart-broken. But its ok, im ok.
I guess its for the better (:

I had a lovable and sweet memories of him, being with him.
Hmm.. Our quirky weird first meeting, those presents especially the Cute Carebear you gave me, late night phonecalls, datings & movies, waiting & walking towards the train right after work together, the kisses you gave me whenever we parted. To me, you are very sweet.

Ohh especially that one time, when you were sick, but i told you to meet me after work.
& sweety you did come, eventhough the rainy day and you taking a cab to MSQ just to see me. We talked, walked, and the usual parting kiss you gave me. The parting was adorably cute! Cause.. I was like.. I dont wanna go.. and i was like.. "Taknak taknak... :( alaaa.." Then he laughed seeing me and bend down to kiss my right cheek. Afterward i began quieting down, since obviously i was happy and he was being adorable right?. Haha.

Hmm.. And another is how your hand felt while touching mine. Where our fingers would intertwined between the gaps of the finger. Hehehe. I dont know... I like the feeling of holding hands. Infatuation (or is that called fetish) haha. :P Hmm.. maybe its because of the warmth. The feeling of nice-ness you get when your lover holds you. Hees.

Hmm.. Its ok. What i did, i did it sincerely, i didnt ask for anything-Thats what i told myself. (:

When he loose me, he lost a wonderful and beautiful girl. Darling.
About me getting a someone, it may not be now. Maybe sooner or later that very one will come.. Thats what i told myself too. So yeahh.

I guess im moving on.
Well i should. Although sometimes fragments of memories keeps reflecting back, but its ok. I know.

"Move this hand, we’re strangers now

Don’t worry about me and go away
I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand

I’ll meet someone so much better
I’ll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight"

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