Hees feeling-feeling nak tulis gitu. (;

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I wish i could do better. Maybe im not trying hard enough ):
Haizz..

I always wonder what are my strengths. Can someone tell me?

Can i ask something? If you meet a new person, obviously you would smile at the the person right? -Well that is if that person is not scary looking.
I mean.. Smiling have a great impact. Like the "Hey i'd like to get to know you non-verbal cue etc. Ok blerghh... this wasnt what i meant.. Oh wait, i just dont know how to say.

Someone said to me , "Sometimes, i dont know what your are thinking about".
I guess im that hard to understand? ):
Sad.

Actually, I was excited with driving just now.
Then feedback was given at the end, then i began to be quite emotional kinda.
Ah well... I dont know if what he said was wrong, or im in the wrong or im just dissapointed in myself which'd led me to feel sad.

Honestly saying, when people tell me something about myself, when face to face..
I just kinda.. Dont know how to react.
Usually, I'll be "Uhuh.. Yeahh.. Yea...", then sometimes my eyes would wander far off (because i kind of dont know where to place my eyes since i feel AWKWARD, or either that im THINKING).
At that point in time, i would ask myself, my mind going.. 'Really? I did that? True? Oh man.. Haizz... Shit. Ok thats sad. Thats dissapointing...'.

I dont mind people being honest, i mean its good to be honest about the feeling. Yes with me i can accept the feedback, listening.
But at the same time, i wonder.. Is that really true? Is that who i am?
Then there's the not being in the same wavelength.. Like..''I'd never meant for it to be like that, its SAD that he he thinks that way about me'. You realised i say "Sad" not "disbelief"?

Hmm I dont know lah.. Maybe i take things to the heart. Sampai hati.
I mean.. As i am, i wont condemn the person who says it lah.. Its just that, me myself whose feelings and rational thinking is messed up leaving me to wonder if all this is true and im in the wrong or 2-person being in different wavelength. Hmm dont know lah.. May be im stubborn and dont wanna admit it?

Then there's the point where, An enemy will always point out your REAL flaws.
If that is true, i guess thet 'feedback' was real isnt it? Then should i believe it? 100% or 50%?
Yeaa thats the thing.

Oh well. Darling, leaving aside all those not good stuffs, i shall focus on things to be improved oks? (:
Thank you.

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Oh tadi bila nak balik, i was still feeling sedih jugakkan.. beh suddenly walking past orang ini, si dekni approach i. Kata if i kat driving center tadi.. So yeahh i said Yes. Then he say sebab he saw me. So bla bla. Exchange number.
But really eh.. at first while he approach me, me with my ear piece i say "Yeahh.." Then continue walking.. Then i saw macam dia nak bebual lagi.. I slowed my pace and stop then dengar ape dia bebual betul2.

Its an ironic that bila i tengah sedih2 ada org datang lalu i gi layan dia. HAH!
Maybe i was glad for the interuption or distraction i guess. Oh well. -.-

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