2:30 AM Wednesday, August 17, 2011 back to top?

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I kept on thinking... Have i fallen in love?
-Maybe... not. Not yet. I guess?
Is there anyone on my mind as i think of whom?
- Well yes, there is. But im not sure. My heart havent come to a conclusion of who he is. Or if he's there or not...

Ive been reading stuffs about love, wanita, and marriage these days. Haha.
I wanna get married! To the right one, to the destined one, to the one who would lead me and be my strength in this journey. Journey towards life and to God. Insyaallah to Jannah.

Im scared, you know...
Of probably... falling, once again :/

Im indecisive, yet i know if its meant to be i will accept it gladly. Hees.

Hmm well, I want to love Allah.
I want to love someone because of Allah. Yet i always wonder how?
Am i doing it right? Is my niat alright?

I always berdoa, For me to bcome a better person. Hati baik, akhlaq yang mulia. Ikhlas hati dan jauh dari riya'.
Being a good person, so that Allah can love me, and because of his love, he'll shower me with benefits right? Haha.
Is my niat alright? Is that ikhlas?. Maybe the benefit thing is err..

But well, to me.. The first step, is To be a better person.
Thus loving Allah whole-heartedly.
Yet am i doing it right?
Its known that if you love someone, you would do things out of the world just to give that lil or much happines and love towards him.
Hence to love Allah, we have to do what Allah wants, order us to do.
Sadly, i realised that i dont put much more effort in things to strive. For example, being consistent in Solat. Achieving ketaqwaan. :'(
Im sorry, Ya Allah.

I want to fall in love with you.
Yet i dont have enough courage unlike SALMAN Al Farisi's love towards you.
Forgive me. But i want to try. Guide me, Protect me, and Show me towards the right path. Insyallah. Amin, ya rabbal a'lamin.