11:50 PM Friday, August 12, 2011 back to top?

• Dear God. Hees.

Ok uh.. Well, these days ive been thinking about love, soulmate and destiny. hehs.

To be a good muslimah, the thought of being in a relationship means the passage towards Nikah, God and Jannah. Hehe.

Hmm well, If i like someone, or if he likes me..
I would always wonder... Can i see a future with him? A path towards marriage? Living in a house and building a family? Resolving conflicts and agreements? Haha.
Well yeah., i would envision that most of the time.

Truth is, its hard to probably find that someone currently. Maybe.
Because we're still student and have not yet started working.
I mean.. Once you start work, confirm savings is there and then a relationship and marriage is achievable right?

So probably now, I guess we/I just... observe/find someone whom we think is the right one lah?
I may be wrong though. But whatever.. Haizz.

Hey can i ask something?
What if i like him? But.. you see, both he and i sometimes do talk as in text or msn and sometimes seeing each other. And somehow i feel that the only tie or bond we have is that we're in the same madrasah.. But once we've graduated madrasah.. What will become of us?
Because we're in the same madrasah, there is always a chance that we'd be meeting/bumping with each other. But if that tie is gone..? Then... it'll probably left with communication and the meeting up approach?
And well.. You know that I see him as someone i could live with. But just that currently, things doesnt really progress. Its not that we talk everyday or what. But well... I wonder if im doing it wrongly. And there are many girls out there you know.. Girls with tudungs, and well girls with nice akhlaq out there for him, compared to err.. me..
But they say, if its meant to be then it'll be. Who knows Allah will fixed us up wth something to tie ourself with together? Hehe.

Ok well, the point is.. Im actually scared that he isnt whom i want in my life in the end.
I mean he's the one i want, but in terms of being together it seems possible yet need effort, which effort is one thing which i (havent) put in yet. Both he and me.
So we need effort? Hmm...

But oh well. Oh well.. Oh well...
Dearest Asyura sayang. Its ok aite.
I mean... Remember Allah. If he's not the one, maybe someone better will come.
Or even if there ain't no guy.. Well you still have Allah's love right? That'll be much better ok. So think positive. Yeah positive positive. -Though i need to put more love into Allah. Sorry Allah, sebab kasih Asyura terhadap Allah tidak sebanyak as your love to me probably.

Ahh.. of course i want to get married and have childrens! Hmm.. :/
Goshh ok, Insyaallah.

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Hey hey. I need to improve myself. Im not a good person.
I need to be more Ikhlas with myself. As in loving myself, and loving Allah more.

I like this website: http://pakarcinta.com/blog/artikel-cinta/
Its pretty motivational and inspiring (;

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Umm hey.. I feel empty.

Do i miss someone? blerghh..
I cant wait to drive!