12:59 AM Wednesday, August 24, 2011 back to top?

• & wad am i supposed to say? :'(

So i was talking to a friend

I told him, that he is strong and brave about life & death.

So he replied, "Nah not strong but thank u for that. hmm, u rasa syg i?"

Me: Of course i sayang you! I meant I sayang you because of Allah, you noe. Hees.

He: I tak faham apa maksud u. I meant as in syg i like how u syg a bf...

Me: Ahh something like that i guess?

He: U guess? U ni, u love me syura? Yes or no coz i do, i love u

My heart froze and somehow ache for a moment. Because i dont know what to reply, or how i really feel, about the word I Love You.

It amazes me that someone, whom weve been talking through msn, chat and sometimes phone calls yet who we only have met once... Would say that he loves me?
Maybe through our conversation he fall in love with me. Yet what about me? Have i?

So i replied him, "I sayang.. tapi kalau cinta, itu... I tak tau. I've never know or tak pandai nak mentafsirkannya. Faham? sorry."

My reply was.. I guess kinda vague right? :(
But really, it kills me to tell him how i feel about him.

Honestly, when he told me that he's at hospital, because of Asthma attack, i was very concern for him.
My mind out of nowhere wonder, if i could be with him, i would hold his hand tight and kissed him (on his cheeks). Yet i know i cant do that. Not now.

They say, marry someone because of his agama. Am i being selfish in wanting more? Yet i know, if there is ikhlas and the if its meant to be, then i wont hesitated to fall. Insyaallah.

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I asked Sky Sage,

Hai orang awesome(: Bgaimana kita cinta seseorang kerana Allah? Is it like a normal kind of love or like bf/gf kinda love?

Its mor than that wahai orang gorgeous

Entahh.. tak faham.

Its a feeling that i cnt describe.

Afwan.

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