12:25 AM Friday, March 9, 2012 back to top?

• A few days ago, on a Sunday, me and my ex-masjid Kassim classmates (herani and Liyana) met up with Ustazah Salbiah.
Its been a long time since i last met her. Masyaallah, yes Uhibbuki Fillah, ya ustazah :')

So i asked her this question, on what should i do?

Ustazah, kalau... we have this 2 person.
One is someone whom youve always like, yang dimpi-impikan selalu. Someone that when you look at him and that he makes you a better person, a better muslimah (insyaallah). He is someone who we would say a good Muslim person.

But then, there's another person.
He's someone who wants to get married, who is finding for a wife right now, someone who insyaallah wants to complete half of his deen..
And well... I too, am a person who wants to get married..

So what should i do?

She replied, since both of them adalah yang terbaik, maka you solat Istikharah.
Solat for 3 days consistenly then with your wuduk pergi tidur. Then if takda 'hint', you solat lagi for 5 days consistently den see if ada hint, with wuduk while sleeping. Then if takda hint lagi, solat lagi 7 days, sleeping with wuduk to see what Allah wills for you. But if there is no hint, then you ikut kepada hati. Weighs which one is good for you(obviously dunya dan akhirat dalam pertimbangan & jannah)

:') Masyaallah. I macam terharu and sayu hati gitu.
Currently, i dalam Uzur, and i cant pray. And also, i'll be going to
Umrah on 14 March to 28 March, next week, Wednesday (:
-with parents, me and Cik Kinah, aunty.
So yess, i'll doa and solat istikharah di Mekah ye. (((:
Insyaallah, kalau yang baik, maka jadilah. Syukran ya Allah.

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Talked about these 2 guys eh, siaper dia?
Umm.. currently, the 2nd guy, today he did mentioned about kahwin..

For example, he said some stuffs, den i said "Baju yang ada sulam? Hmm.. ini nak kawin ke nak ape uh... ;) hahah"
So he replied:
Nak.kawin,ngn awak.la.
So i asked him, Really? Then i told him to solat istikharah dulu.. tanya Allah, kalau ada jawapan dtglah rumah ana.
So he said:
Betul. Tak sudi ke? Kita dah sampai jabal rahmah pun. hehe.
-Jabbal Rahmah is the place where Adam and Hawa met each other on Earth. Suhanaallah.
Awak rela ke?
Kita da vintage tau. haha

He said that.
SO i just said to istikharah and we moved to a different topic soon after that.
Well i dont know if he jokingly said that or is he for real.
But i do know that he's finding for a wife, since he onced indirectly did mentioned to me about it when we were talking (in the car).

Hmm how how how?
Both are good options.

I guess if one day i'll go with 2nd guy, its like...
Assalammualaikum.. 1st guy. Eventhough we're not together, but just to let you know Uhibbuka fillah, i do love you because of Allah. Yes i really do. :'(
Yes yes, cause ive always been telling my close frens about how im kinda cazily over him right, about his nice back and his fingers etc etc. So its like, hey, since im choosing this 2nd guy, i must abandoned that thoughts since its a nono 'right' now.
Imagine still seeing him while im with the 2nd guy (in the future if its gonna happen), i wonder what my thoughts would be when i see him? -_^

If it is true that Taqdir ku Adalah dengan 2nd guy, aku redha. (:
Yes yes.

Like what Allah tells us in the Quran: “…But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.” (2:216)

SubhanAllah.

I'll just wait and see later on, when insyaAllah i'll do my solat istikharah.
-& probably wait for a few more days for this 'Heat' to dies down and when the (our) thoughts became clear.
If its meant to be, it will be. -Ive always loves this phrase. (:

Talking about being a wife,
Well im trying to be a better person, a better muslimah. And in that case about being married, well yes i want to be a good wife to my 'future' husband. So i will try and i will accept him as he is.

And yes obviously i want a husband who will make me a better person, a better muslimah. One who will bring me to Jannah. One that we have a wonderful and lovely marriage, insyaAllah.

Wallah hu a'lam. :')

Ps: This 2nd guy, is someone new. One who've ive never mentioned before in any of my post. (:
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Just to let you know, Im joing Khat lesson. Arab calligraphy (:
I would say the words, the writings they are soo beautiful and magical. SubhanAllah.

And by the way, these two Akh - Taufiq & Fadhil, whom i love them both because of Allah (Ana uhibbuka fillah) was sitting right infront of me during the lesson. Masyaallah. Coincident much!?(: Hehehe.
-Honestly i was really excited/gugu-gaga when i found out we're 3 in the same class! hehehe!

But but! I do lower down my gaze when i met them! (: Alhamdulillah.

Goshh, just talking about these two person, somehow.. makes the 2nd guy invalid. :P
Nyeh nyeh nyeh. hehe.
But.. Yes, Qada' & Qadar Allah(:

Ya Allah, what you wills me, what you will of me which is good for me, maka ya Allah..
I want to accept it whole-heartedly. I hope my decision is right :')*cries.