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Im trying…
To be a better person. A good muslimah and a mukmin. Im also trying to be an isteri yang solehah (insyaAllah).
Im trying to be closer to Allah.. For his love, guidance and protection.

Im trying to remember Allah as frequently as possible.
Im trying to do His commendment as the best of my ability, insyaAllah.

Im trying to adapt with my life, which starts today.. With my work as a mumaridho, as well as my Khat lessons and A level Pengajian Islam.
Im trying to be a better person a good person. Im trying im trying. But sometimes my nafsu and my laziness gets to me, which makes me unable to achieve what ive always want. I’ll try ok. I’ll try ;’(.
Please make Doa’ for me.
Today, i was a little bit fearful of my new career as a mumarridho. May Allah guides me, protects me and watches me like He has always been. Amin thumma amin.

Sometimes ive always wish for someone to be there for me in times like this, now.. Someone. whom i love, someone who i can depend on and someone who would bring smile and peace to me…. Like you, my soulmate, my future husband.
But.. I know that this is wrong. Because we’re not married and i shouldnt depend on someone to lift me up.

Because.. There is Allah. Allah is there. He have always been there, waiting for me, waiting for my doas and has always watch me and giving me his blessing and guiding me.

So.. He has always been there for me.
And i know i should be asking him, depending him, loving him, serving him as i am a servant of Allah and making doa’ to him. Barakallah!